AN: I know that I have not been updating and I really apologize. The reason why is a very stupid one but it has affected me very badly. Argh! I just found out that my boyfriend has lied to me again and I can't take it anymore!
I really need to let this out because this is the only outlet I have. So I am sorry if you all have to listen to this teenager talk about her sad life…. Sigh…
Anyway, we met at my very first job at Carl's Jr when I was sixteen. He was 23 at the time. Yes, 7 years older. I was the youngest at my workplace; the others were mainly 18 years old so I was the baby of the whole place. The two of us liked each other but we never got together until the end of last year when I was the time we met, he keeps on going on and on about how childish I am behaving regardless of what I do or say.
I mean, Hello! What's my age! I'm 17 I am allowed to be childish at times! But no! I have to act all mature so that you can be happy and will stop nagging. We never talk we argue because he does not agree with me ever! He keeps saying that he is the correct one because he is the older one!
Anyway, when we get our off days, he always says that he is at one place when he is actually not and is elsewhere. How do I know? Cause he stupidly goes hangs out with our other colleagues! Not only that, he is very possessive! I am close to another colleague of ours that is 22 at that time, we always have lunch break together because our schedule are about the same. To me, this colleague was nothing but an elder brother but to the possessive idiot it was not that way to him!
'Elder brother' and I are always to fix the ice box that leaks like fuck and because the box opening is so small the two of us are always almost face to face and that possessive idiot would come out of the kitchen and stare so hard at us that it is unbearable. Then after work, he would confront me and lecture me about always being so close to the 'elder brother'.
I was brought up to treat birthdays as any other normal days but well I only apply that to my own birthdays. So whenever my friends' had a birthday, I would make sure to get them a present at least. So for his birthday, I wished him happy birthday, bought him dinner and a present from my allowance. That was for two birthdays! What did he do for mine? Nothing! Nothing at all! Not even a call or sms or what so ever. For my 17th birthday, I slept over in my secondary school with a couple of friends to celebrate my birthday and had to haul a whole load of presents to work the next day. He asked me what was with all the presents and I told him it was my birthday. The stupid idiot did not even wish me at that point!
He treats my other female colleagues differently from me. He is very patient with them when he teaches them and all but is very short tempered with me. He also remembers when their birthdays are and wishes them. There was never a time that we went out that we did not argue.
You must me wondering why this stupid girl did not just break up with him. I guess I never did, as it was the one source where I had attention. At that time, my parents were continuously arguing everyday and my real elder brother was hardly at home.
We continued to be together even though I resigned to go back to school for my veterinary course and that was when things got worse. He always called to complain that I was not spending time with him when I am already drowning in school work and have barely enough breathing space. He will also sms me to ask where I am and when I tell him that I am school he does not believe me and demands to know if I am lying to him and hanging outside with my guy friends from secondary school (AN: I am close to guy friends from secondary school than the girls) Thank God he does not know how to get to my school! He also does not like to hear my troubles and just says that I am being childish whenever I do talk about such things. Argh!
Anyway, earlier this year, I met him for dinner and he told me that he was going to leave in May to go home to his home country, of course I was upset. So a few weeks later, I smsed him to ask him when was his flight but the idiot never answered. I was very angry and upset, I cried a lot but at the same time I was very relieved that he was leaving. I was also very lost and was anti-social in school. Home was really all I had left even though no one there knew what was going on. The people that knew where only my friends from secondary school and they told me to forget him and move on.
It was easier said than done, I cried more than I had cried in my life but I did managed too. However, it was all in vain, as I just recently found out that the jerk had not left at all! He is still in the country! His number was still the same! I don't know how to express my feelings when I found out…
I'm still sorting my feelings out and well, I am really lost… luckily I do not work there anymore. My new colleagues are much better and I really do enjoy my time there.
