Chapter 28
Hogwarts
September
Severus and James arrived to breakfast early since James wanted to make sure Severus got to his first class safely without Mulciber causing problems. Severus didn't think he needed to be up this early and was annoyed, but cheered up when he noticed there was a cup of coffee at the Gryffindor table.
"The elves know you well," joked James as Severus grumpily drank his coffee and took out the journal he used to talk with Lucius. He wasn't sure if Lucius would respond this early, but he had been surprised before, and Lucius had said he got up early for the quiet.
Did you tell her?
I was going to I swear.
Severus rolled his eyes and shook his head. James wrapped an arm around Severus's waist so he could lean in and read what he was writing.
What stopped you? I thought you had a dinner date.
It got canceled.
Why?
Her dad asked me to help with one of the horses.
And?
It kicked me in the face and I had to go to the emergency room.
James had to stifle his laugher as Severus poked him before turning back to the journal.
Are you okay?
Five stitches later and I was fine. I took a head injury potion when they weren't looking. The muggle doctors were shocked I didn't have a concussion.
What kind of life are you living over there to just have that potion on hand? Those are hard to make!
… Do you have any idea how many things have tried to kick me here?
Is it really that bad?
The horses here are out for blood I swear. So are the chickens, and the sheep. Literally, everything but the dog wants me dead. Her parents thought I was useless until sales day. I am awesome at selling stuff.
What they hell did a chicken do to you?
Chickens are evil.
You're so dramatic.
Yes I am.
Just tell her already. The longer you wait the worse it will get.
… Her parents are leaving on vacation in a few days. I'll tell her once we are alone, okay.
Just make sure you tell her. You're making me worried. You might just be delaying something that doesn't matter, if she really cares about you, she shouldn't care.
I know…
Severus waited to see if he said anything else, but when nothing showed up, he closed the journal. "How many times has he been kicked in the head by that horse?" pondered James.
"Probably more than he is letting on," sighed Severus as he finished his coffee and breakfast. "What an idiot."
"He has to learn this on his own sadly," noted James. "I know that is mean but he is clearly determined to do this his own misguided way." Severus just nodded and leaned into James as he finished breakfast. He wanted to make sure he got a proper snuggle in before he had to be in a classroom with Mulciber.
James led Severus to his first class, gave him a quick kiss and left. Severus wished they could just lounge around like they had during the summer, but he knew that wasn't likely to ever happen again. Stupid responsibilities, Severus internally grumbled as he took a seat in the empty classroom.
He had planned on reading, but to his annoyance, Mulciber came into the room right after him. "Hey Sevvy. How's it going?" asked Mulciber as he put his hand on the back of his chair and leaned over him.
"Go away," said Severus as he turned away so that his back was to the larger boy.
Mulciber's hand went from the chair to Severus's back. Severus repressed a shiver of fear as Mulciber started firmly kneading his shoulder before his hands slipped down to Severus's waist. "Don't be like that, Sev. I know he isn't fucking you right. You need it harder than he could ever give you." For added emphasis, Mulciber's grip tightened on Severus's hips.
The larger Slytherin smiled as he heard an uncomfortable whine coming from his target. He was expecting Severus to give in to him like usual. What he wasn't expecting was Severus pulling away, and turning around to point his wand at Mulciber. "Do not touch me," growled Severus. "Back up, now."
Mulciber took a slow step back. Severus kept his wand pointed at Mulciber until other students started filing in. A large group of Hufflpuffs came into the room and two of the girls went straight over to Severus. "Hey we have some questions about the dance thing you and Lily are doing. Could you sit with us?"
Severus gave Mulciber one last glare before turning to smile at the girls. "No problem. What did you want to know?"
"Well first, when is the sign up?
"And is it just belly dance or is there other stuff too?"
"Sign up is next Monday, and we might add a bit f yoga into the beginning of each meet up just to get everyone warmed up," explained Severus as he went to sit on the Hufflepuff side of the room.
"Oh I can't wait," squealed the first girl excitedly.
"I don't know I feel like I am too fat to do belly dance."
"No you're not," said Severus confidently.
The two girls blushed and giggled as one of the boys leaned in. "Maybe I'll join, seems like you ladies could use someone to help you out."
"If you are there, then I am going to make you dance," smiled Severus. "We don't allow bystanders."
The boy shrunk back at this a the girls laughed and started teasing him about dancing. As they did this the tallest of the Hufflepuff boys tapped Severus on the shoulder and whispered. "Hey is it true Sirius Black is leaning towards guys this year?"
Severus paused, something suddenly felt off. Normally, if a cute boy had asked this he would of readily said yes, but there was something off about the way the other 7th year was behaving.
Eventually, Severus just shrugged, "No idea really. I mean we are talking about Sirius after all. Can anyone really tell where his interests lie?"
The Hufflepuff nodded seeming to accept the answer. "Yeah I guess that is true, but hey, if you find out and he is, tell him to hit me up sometime. Names Keaton Smith since I know you don't remember."
"We've gone to school together for nearly seven years," snorted Severus trying to cover up the fact that he didn't know any of the Hufflepuffs names. The looks they gave him clearly showed that they knew what he was doing. "Okay fine I am bad with names okay. It's not like everyone knows my name.
"They do now," said one of the girls.
"Hard not to know the name of the biggest piece of news this year," laughed the second girl.
Severus seemed a little uncomfortable by this as the first girl spoke again. "Not everyday that the little quiet nerd gets with Mr. Popular quidditch star."
"And not just get with, but bond with. You two even got your own rooms right?" asked one of the boys in the group.
Severus nodded, "Well yeah. We are being treated as married adults."
"So jealous!" groaned one of the girls.
"You don't even have a boyfriend."
"Yeah but still! I mean your own private room with your…" Severus stopped listening at this point as the girls started going on and on about how much they wished they had gotten bonded over the summer.
As the Professor came in and the class began, Severus glanced at Keaton again and noticed the boy was looking off across the room in a daze. He wasn't sure why he was getting such an odd vibe from the other teen, but Severus didn't like it. I'll just keep an eye on him.
"You're a lot better at this than I am," grumbled Lily as they went through their hip shimmies.
"Yours looks better though," sighed Severus. "You have hips. I do not."
"You totally do," laughed Lily before she groaned and stopped the routine. "I can't do that for so long!" Lily stretched her arms above her head as she walked over to her water.
"I do not have hips," argued Severus as he stopped as well. Lily gave him a bored look and he was quick to add, "Not like a girl anyway."
Lily rolled her eyes before setting her water down and walked over. She rested her hands over Severus shoulders before turning him so he was looking into one of the mirrors they had set up. "Your hips and chest used to be a straight line, but your hips have become a little wider. Not a lot, you'd only notice if you were looking."
Severus looked at his body as if seeing it for the first time. He hadn't noticed the change, but he did remember feeling pain around his hips and abdomen. At the time, Severus had just figured it was from dancing so much. Now he was worried it was something else.
"You should go to Pomfrey," continued Lily when she noticed the shocked look. "There is a potion for speeding up the process, just get it over and done with."
"Why would I do that?" asked Severus out of habit.
Lily snorted. "Look me in the eye and tell me you don't want this to happen. I've been reading up on this bonding thing. Classes and being separated from James is driving you crazy."
Severus sighed and went to his own water. "I just thought… maybe if I got pregnant then it would be easier to focus."
Lily looked at him sympathetically before letting out a sigh. "Look, have you and James talked about this? I mean a baby is kind of a big thing. It's not something that is just going to go away, and I know your brain is screaming for one, but are you really ready for one?"
"Lily, I'm a seventeen year old who within three months got bonded to my one time mortal enemy, lost my old family, got a new family, got a new set of friends, and now every third thought I have is about drooly shit machines." Severus sat on the floor as he nervously ran his fingers through his hair.
"I'm so confused, and so happy, and that confuses me. Part of me wants my old brain back, but then I don't because I was miserable, but then I think about how our brains will go back and what if once I am back to normal James will come to his senses and not want me anymore and then I'll be even worse off and—."
"Stop!" said Lily suddenly as she sat down and took Severus's hands so he wouldn't pull his own hair out. "James isn't going to leave you. The bond just enhances the feelings that are already there, okay."
Severus sniffed and nodded, he wasn't sure when he had started crying. Lily leaned forward and hugged him. "You are scared and rightfully so. Your body is also changing and making you hormonal. You need to breathe. Everything will be okay. It doesn't matter if you have a baby now, or later, James will not leave you."
Severus knew she was right and nodded. He knew it would be fine, but for some reason he just couldn't keep his thinking straight. "Do you want some chocolate?" asked Lily suddenly as she reached for her bag and took out a couple bars. "Remus gave them to me yesterday."
He accepted the bar from Lily and started eating it slowly. "How are you two doing by the way?" asked Severus trying to get the conversation away from him.
Lily made an uncommitted shrug and ate her own chocolate. "Not going well?" tried Severus when she didn't respond in her typical happy bubbly manner.
Again, she shrugged, but this time she added a sigh. "It's just… I don't know. I really like him, and he claims to like me, but…"
"But?"
"He won't touch me!" snapped Lily finally. "I understand that he isn't comfortable with showing a lot of affection when people are around, but even when we are alone. Not even when we are kissing."
Severus just blinked a few times. "How does he not touch you when you're kissing? That seems kind of difficult."
Lily let out a humorless laugh before explaining. "Remember when we used to make out. What were your hands doing?"
"Usually in your hair, or going up your skirt, or your blouse. It just depended how into it we were getting," noted Severus.
"Exactly! Now imagine you and James are making out, but he keeps his hands in his lap, and never touches you," explained Lily getting more worked up as she explained it.
"That's weird," frowned Severus. "I can't even imagine in honestly. I mean even the first kiss we had James touched me. He never doesn't have his arms around me when we are alone."
Lily just sighed sadly. "That's how most couples are, but Remus just won't. I have to initiate everything, and even then, he isn't keen on touch. I get he wants to wait to have sex, but just a little bit of affection to show he cares would be nice."
Severus nodded and gave Lily an awkward side hug. "Sounds like he is afraid to me. You do know about his… illness right?"
Lily nodded, "Yes he told me about his monthly affliction last spring, and I told him I was okay with it. He isn't… contagious unless it is the full moon."
"He might not believe you," noted Severus. "It is kind of serious, and it's consumed most of his life. Sounds like you two just need to talk about it. Remind him you're okay with it, and that you are feeling neglected with him being so distant."
Lily nodded and hugged Severus back. "I know." Glancing at the time she let out one final sigh and stood up. "We kind of messed up the last thirty minutes of dance. We should probably head to dinner."
"As I just want sugar," grumbled Severus as he stood up.
"Don't worry once you get something more filling in front of you, you'll eat. You always do," laughed Lily as they gathered up their things and headed out.
"Are you calling me fat?" smiled Severus.
Lily playfully nudged him, "I don't want to hear it from you. You're one of the thinnest people I know, and you eat twice as much as everyone else."
"Fast metabolism for the win!"
"I hope pregnancy punches your metabolism in the face."
"So mean," joked Severus.
They needled each other back and forth all the way to dinner, but when they arrived Severus was quick to see that James wasn't present. "It is probably quidditch practice going over," reassured Lily when she saw Severus glancing around. "None of the other Gryffindor players are here either."
Severus nodded as he looked over at the Slytherin table and frowned. Avery was trying to subtle wave him to come to the table, but Mulciber was right next to him. He made eye contact with Mulciber before quickly breaking it. Severus repressed a shudder as he turned to look back at Lily. "Can I sit at your table? He's looking at me again, and James isn't here so…"
Lily took Severus by the arm and led him over to the Gryffindor table. He got a few glances, but most of the Gryffindors had come to realize Severus wasn't just a one time fling for James, and that they needed to get used to seeing him around. Most hadn't been thrilled, but when the word about Mulciber went around they were able to direct their animosity towards someone else.
Severus and Peter chatted about cake ideas while Lily and Remus discussed their charms homework. They had gotten halfway trough dinner before the Gryffindor quidditch team made their boisterous appearance.
They had been talking loudly amongst themselves, but the second James saw Severus he bee-lined towards him. The rest of the team groaned behind him, but didn't stop him as he slid up next to his boyfriend and kissed him.
It was supposed to be a quick greeting kiss, but Severus's arms automatically wrapped around James's neck. Severus could feel himself trembling as James firmly held him. Why does he smell so good? Severus made a little whine as his clothes were stifling and all he wanted was to get them off.
Suddenly, James was pulled back and a hand gripping his own robe kept Severus from following. "Okay you two that's enough," sighed Remus as he hung on to the back of Severus.
"Eat your dinner then go fuck like bunnies," agreed Sirius as he placed himself between James and Severus.
"But I'm done," whined Severus and this seemed to perk James's interest. Obviously, he was willing to miss dinner.
"Nope," said Sirius as he pushed his friend back into his seat before glancing at Remus and Lily. "Hey you want to take Severus to their room? I'll let James go once you get back."
Lily and Remus nodded as they got up and led Severus out. "Why can't I just sit with him," grumbled Severus.
"Because you were about to do something obscene in the in front of the whole school," sighed Remus as he glanced at Severus but then paused. "Wow your pupils are completely blown."
"He smelled good," whimpered Severus as he shook his head a little.
"He smelled like a sweaty boy that just got done playing quidditch," muttered Lily.
"It's a… a pheromone thing," explained Remus awkwardly. "They're mates, so usually when one of them is sweaty something else is going on and the other reacts to it."
Lily just nodded and they finally reached their destination. "Okay, Sev just wait for James inside. He'll probably sprint here once we get back so, don't worry you won't wait long." explained Lily cheerfully.
Severus nodded before going into his room to wait for James. He knew Lily and Remus needed to talk and would probably take the longest way back that they could. "I should dress up," muttered Severus. "I haven't done it since we were here."
Digging through his clothes, Severus found the clothes they had bought at the adult store. Deciding on black and green as his theme, Severus changed into a pair of striped thigh high socks, black skirt, green and black underwear and a black tank top.
The tank top didn't match as well since it hadn't been bought with the rest of the clothes, but it had felt odd wearing nothing on his chest while his lower half was over dressed.
"Hurry up," whined Severus as he flopped down on the bed and wiggled so he was laying in the middle. Letting out a soft whine Severus ran his hands down his chest before resting at the hem of his skirt.
Bending his knees and letting his legs fall open, Severus reached down and gently ran his fingers over the bulge in his panties. The sensation of the silk moving made him gasp. Allowing a little more pressure, Severus let out a moan, "James, I need you."
"You seem to be doing fine without me." Severus's eyes snapped open as he sat up to see James standing at the entrance to the room. Without another word, James stripped down and grabbed the lube and riding crop from the dresser drawer.
"James?" asked Severus nervously when he saw the crop. He didn't want to admit it, but he was excited to see it. They hadn't used it since James bought it, and he was beginning to wonder why his boyfriend had even bought it if they were never going to use it.
James placed the end of the crop under Severus's chin and lifted his head up. "You should get on your hands and knees." Severus was quick to obey, but still felt a snap across his ass. "That's for not waiting for me," whispered James as he pressed on Severus shoulders so his chest was flat on the bed.
"Couldn't wait for—," Severus excuse was cut short with another snap of the crop.
"No whining," chuckled James as he ran the crop between Severus's cheeks. Severus let out a gasping whine at the sensation. "You're such a slut," smiled James as he slowly pulled the crop back and gently tapped his boyfriend's thighs with it.
With his free hand, James roughly groped Severus and kneaded his ass. "These will have to come off since they don't have a hole in them."
"Then take them off," taunted Severus as he wiggled. Another strike halted his wiggling as he failed at repressing a shudder.
"Not until you make a mess of them," growled James as his hand slipped between his lover's legs and started roughly working him up. Severus moaned as he spread his legs more and rocked against James's hand.
"Come on, baby." growled James as he leaned down and bit Severus's hip. Severus's breathing became erratic before finally catching in his throat. "That's it," praised James as he pulled the front of Severus's panties down enough to run his fingers through his boyfriend's cum.
Letting out a needy moan of his own, James bit down on the hem of the panties and started pulling them down. Severus weakly lifted his knees and helped James remove the garment. "Someone was pent up," joked James as he tossed the panties and crop next to Severus's head.
"I'm pent up?" sighed Severus as he glanced over his shoulder and looked at the hard on James was sporting.
James just smiled down at him as he lubed himself up slowly. "You need to be prepped, Love?" Severus shook his head and tilted his hips up towards James. "Good because I don't know if I could wait that long," whispered James as he pulled Severus's cheeks apart and thrust in.
Severus's head snapped up as he let out a loud pleasured cry. Knowing the sound well, James didn't stop until he was flush against his boyfriend. "I got you, Love," grunted James as he massaged Severus's hips before gripping them tightly and pulled him against him as he started thrusting.
"Fucking hell, James," moaned Severus as he lifted himself up to grip the headboard so he wasn't pulled across the bed.
"You love it," panted James as he started biting the back of Severus's shoulder and neck now that they were in biting range.
"Fucking animal," gasped Severus as James started pushing him against the headboard.
Suddenly, James pulled out and left Severus in a state of confusion before he felt himself pulled away from the headboard and flipped onto his back. "As if you're any better," chuckled James as he firmly griped Severus's thighs and spread them before roughly thrusting back.
Severus let out a loud pleasured scream as the rough entry hit his prostate. James covered up his boyfriend's cries with a dominating kiss as he reached between them and started stroking Severus. The kiss did little to cover up Severus's screaming as he was over stimulated.
Feeling himself drawing closer, James sped up suddenly forcing Severus to become silent as he hit his prostate with each thrust. James could feel Severus tighten making James pause as he came.
Severus let out a long satisfied moan as he felt James filling him. Moaning softly, Severus pushed back against James determined to keep his lover inside of him. "Do you need it again, Love?" asked James as he leaned forward and kissed a few of the bite marks he had left.
"No," sighed Severus. "Just don't pull out yet."
James nodded as he gently pressed in harder as he leaned forward and kissed Severus lazily. Severus let out a pleased hum as he tightened around James while they kissed. "You trying to get me up again?" smiled James as he nipped at Severus's nose.
"Maybe," teased Severus.
"I think we should get those clothes off of you then," whispered James as he leaned back so he could pull the tank top off his lover. "I need to pull out, Love," whispered James as he pulled Severus's socks off.
Severus let out a sad little whimper but nodded. James did his best to pull out slowly, but Severus still shuddered at the sudden empty feeling. James watched his cum flow out of his boyfriend's hole for a few seconds before reaching for his wand to clean them up.
"Wait," mumbled Severus weakly. James paused and gave his lover a confused look. Severus blushed and looked away, "I want a baby. I can't keep denying it. I want you to get me pregnant."
"You want me to leave my cum inside you?" teased James as he pulled Severus's skirt off.
"You're not mad?" asked Severus cautiously. "About me trying to get pregnant?"
James laid down on top of Severus and kissed him sweetly before kissing his way down his neck and chest before finally resting on his stomach. "I want kids Severus, and the imagine of you carrying them is arousing. I can't wait."
Severus blushed and looked away, "You pervert."
James just smiled before leaning back up to kiss Severus again. "Will you be taking the potion?"
Severus shook his head, "No, then the Professors will know it wasn't an accident. Let's just try naturally right now, and if it happens on 'accident' then it happens."
"Accidentally on purpose," laughed James as he started kissing all over Severus's face.
Severus laughed, but the kisses slowly became more forceful and he felt James growing hard again. Smiling, Severus wrapped his legs around James's waist and helped guide him back inside. James let out a low growl as he stated to gently roll his hips. I might have created a monster, Severus mentally sighed as he relaxed and prepared himself for a long night.
AN/
I Lied! Regulus in next chapter. I was going to have him in this one but this felt like a good place to stop.
Weird random fact. Doing a physical activity with your partner, (like yoga or running) can make sex better. This is also, why I don't shower at the gym… gross.
So, I technically got this out on time, BUT it should have been sooner. I would have gotten it out on Sunday, but my boss decided I don't need time off and I am going on day 10 without a day off and without my days off I can't really write -_-.
The reason for working so much is that my coworker (who wasn't sick) called in sick and then bragged he didn't have to work for nearly a week. So please send bad juju thoughts at him, because he is an asshole.
I also haven't been able to run and I am sad. We have an air problem because of the fires. Pretty much my whole state is one fire. I should be able to run again by Wednesday (that is when the air should at least be non-hazardous).
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