So I couldn't help myself and I wrote another chapter. Trust me when I say that Bryce and Molly will make an appearance soon but quite yet. This may seem like a short pointless chapter but it's not. It's probably my favorite one that I've written so far! Please give me your honest feedback by reviewing! A super special thank you again to Lenika08-I love your reviews,they make me smile and make me want to write more! So please keep it up cause I appreciate it:) This is definitely the last chapter I will be posting today! I may not be able to update till Monday but I will try to shoot for tomorrow..Enjoy!

Parker woke up to the storm still going on. This was unusual for this area but she didn't care. It fit her mood perfectly. She felt awful. She hardly slept last night and knew she had woken Reid and Morgan up. She knew they would tell the others and the thought made her angry.

Reid knocked on her door before entering, "Ready to head back to girls place?"

Parker didn't say anything just grabbed her stuff and shoved it into her bag. She followed Reid downstairs and waited for Morgan to finish getting ready. They were meeting to talk about Bryce and Molly. Morgan came up behind Parker and rubbed her head,messing up her hair which just added to her annoyance.


When they got back to girls's house everyone was already there having breakfast. JJ pulled out a chair for Parker and had her sit down. In front of her sat an apple and some juice. Parker looked at it but didn't take a bite. She instead drank the juice.

Everyone was chattering about the storm but Parker never said a word. She felt her emotions tumbling around inside of her and knew she needed to clear out before she said something stupid.

Emily watched Parker drink her juice and keep her eyes down,something was up with her, "Hey Parker,game of cards later?"

"Sure. JJ,may I leave the table please?"

JJ looked up and saw how tired Parker looked, "Yeah,you going to go get some more sleep?"

"Yeah."

"Alright,sleep well. If you aren't awake for lunch we will wake you."

Parker got out of her chair and went down to her room. She knew it would take maybe fifteen minutes before Morgan or Reid said anything and she was bound to be ready.


The team moved to the living room to talk about Bryce and Molly. They still weren't going back to work because of maintenance and the storm had roads closed all over the city.

They were trying to figure out where they could be when a huge crack of thunder shook the house. JJ laughed at Emily who jumped. They shifted their attention from Bryce and Molly to the storm outside. It was then that Morgan decided to bring up what had happened last night.


Parker took another drink of the vodka,feeling it burn as it ran down her throat. She was so sick of them always trying to treat her like a baby,she wasn't a baby. She was 17 years old and perfectly capable of handling this on her own. She gathered up her journals that she had been keeping and piled them by her door. Once that was done she took another big drink feeling the alcohol seep into her system. Feeling satisfied,she grabbed her journals and moved out into the hallway towards the living room.


"That poor girl,she must have been terrified," Garcia said as she covered her mouth.

"Terrified doesn't even begin to cover it,she was past that. She was petrified,"Morgan said, "She wouldn't even let Reid touch her."

"She's only 16 years old and look how much she has been through," JJ said,failing to notice Parker standing in the shadows.


Parker had had enough. She was so tired and sick of them. She stepped out into the room before speaking, "Seventeen."

Everyone turned,surprised to see her.

"Seventeen,not sixteen."

Hotch noticed it first,her eyes were red and she swayed slightly but not because she was ready to pass out but he was pretty sure she was drunk.

JJ spoke up, "Seventeen?"

"You said 'she's sixteen' I'm not. I'm seventeen,"Parker's voice was too controlled for the group of profiler's liking.

"But...when?" JJ asked looking at her team hoping she was the only one who had forgotten.

"Yesterday. And FYI 'she' is right here. 'She' has always been here and 'she' has a name and it is Parker. Not 'her' not 'she' it's Parker."

Emily took over for JJ, "Parker we're so sorry. You never said anything,why didn't you say something?"

"Why would I? You don't care,none of you care about me. I mean sure you 'care' but you care about me as a case. Not a person. Not as your cousin or your friends cousin but as a case."

Hotch stood up, "Parker you can't believe that."

"Can't believe it? How can I not? If you cared about me as me you would ask ME questions and talk to me. You wouldn't talk about me to each other. You say you're worried yet none of you ask me why I won't eat or drink. You ask each other because you're 'family,' Parker's voice went up an octave and she dropped her journals down in front of her.

"Why don't you eat Parker?What is it about water that makes you sick?Why are you doing this to yourself?" Reid asked as he moved slowly towards her.

"You don't get it. I had to be perfect or she would beat me. If I weighed an ounce over 100 pounds she took away food for a couple days. I had to absolutely perfect because anything less than that was a reason for her to make me her punching bag," Parker kicked one journal towards Garcia, "Go ahead and read it,knock yourself out. In there you will find every loving story about her and her alcoholic binges which ended with me getting the shit knocked out of me,"Parker took a deep breath before continuing, "Tell me,do you know what happened when those cameras were off? No, you don't but I do. I had to feel the blade cutting into my skin,feel the rope tighten around my first. You didn't have tha-that bastard on top of you and inside of you all over a glass of water. You didn't have to lay there helpless while he did whatever all because you wanted to survive. You didn't feel him breathing on you when you closed your eyes to block it out or wake up with him next to you touching you. You don't know because you were safe in your headquarters while I played their little slut."

No one dared to say a word as Parker stopped speaking while she tried to control her tears. She kicked another journal,this one towards Morgan, "That gives you the before. Or at least, the time before they took me and after my mom died. That's everything. The entire story from meeting Graham to meeting you guys. You asked why I'm doing this to myself and I'll tell you why, because I'm tired. I'm so tired of this. I'm tired of walking,talking,breathing. I can't even look at myself without being disgusted by what I see and you know why?Because of what he said. He said if I wasn't so pretty he would be able to resist me. They say those with natural beauty are lucky,they can have anything they want. I never believed I was beautiful. Maybe pretty maybe cute but not beautiful. To the bastard that said natural beauties are lucky I say that he is wrong. That it is a cure. That if you are considered to be even cute you sure as hell better do anything possible to be un-cute because if you don't the world fucks you."

Reid froze and didn't dare move as Parker started shaking. No one moved a muscle. This was what they had been waiting for but they didn't expect it to be quite like this.

"No one asked me if this was what I wanted. They assumed that it was what I needed but it wasn't. I didn't want this and I didn't need this. I came here because I had to not because I wanted to. I left behind my friends and my life to come here and look where we are at. You can't even look me in the eye," Parker said as she looked at every single one of them who was looking down or at each other but not at her, "You didn't want me here,you felt like you had to take me. So I'm sorry, I'm sorry that I put you out. I'm sorry your life is a mess because of me but know that if I had my way I never would have come," Parker kicked the last journal towards Hotch, "That's for you. That's everything," and with that Parker turned and moved quickly towards her room.

The team sat in silence except for Garcia's quiet sniffling. They couldn't believe what she had just said but even worse,that a lot of it was true.


Parker was so angry that she started tearing apart her room. She ripped her bedspread off the bed and kicked it. She tore her books off the shelves and threw them over her room. If it wasn't heavy or attached to something it was torn down and thrown around. Parker turned and slammed into desk and caused something to fall,she looked down and saw her reflection and that was her breaking point.


"Just wait,"Hotch ordered Reid who was moving towards Parker's room, "Give her time to calm down and get it out of her system."

Reid didn't move. Emily moved over to Garcia,wrapping her arms around her as Morgan flipped through the journal that Parker had kicked at him. They all looked up though when the sound of shattering glass came from the hallway.


Parker heard Morgan hollering for her to open the door but she ignored him. Instead she sobbed as she tried to cut her hair evenly while cowering in the corner of her bathroom. She didn't want to be her anymore.


"PARKER,OPEN THE DOOR NOW,"Morgan hollered.

He started pounding on the door while JJ and Emily looked around Parker's room. It was the first time that they had been in there in awhile and both were shocked at what they saw. Where glass had once been,black paint now covered the surface. The pictures that had once been so organized now lay cracked on the floor. The girls both turned as Morgan raised up his foot and kicked in the door.


Reid rushed to a shaking,sobbing Parker and wrestled the scissors out of her hand. Once he got them from her he wrapped his arms around her and wouldn't let her go as she sat there slamming her fists into his chest, "Let me have them,I want it gone. Please just let me have them," she sobbed harder hitting Reid as hard as she could.

Reid never let her go,he wasn't going to let her slip away from him. Hotch grabbed the scissors out of Parker's reach and sat on the edge of the tub. He looked at Reid who was looking directly at him and nodded his head,telling Reid that he was doing good and to just keep holding her. Morgan moved in next and sat next to Hotch. Parker needed to realize that they were going to be here for her no matter what. Garcia filed in behind Morgan and sat next to him and held his hand. Emily and JJ moved in and picked up the shattered pieces from the mirror that Parker had shattered when she had thrown her straightener at it. Once the pieces were picked up they both sat on the seat just waiting until Parker was ready and they could help her pick up the pieces of her life.