Bella POV

Alice isn't acting herself today and I don't like it. She's too calm and quiet. I don't like it and I'm sure Edward doesn't like it, either. She looks hurt or upset and every few minutes I would see Jasper look at her like he was just waiting on her to do something that was going to hurt her or something. So when we get back to the house I ask Alice if she'll come upstairs with me to help me with something.

As we go upstairs I hear the back door open and close, telling me that the boys went outside. I lead Alice to the small family room and sit on a couch. She sits next to me and brings her knees to her chest, wrapping her arms around her knees. Neither of us say anything for a few minutes. She hardly looks at me and when she does, she looks back down quickly. "Alice, what's going on? Why are you so quiet tonight?" I ask.

She finally looks up with glassy eyes and she just bursts out in tears. I don't know what to do at her sudden outburst except to wrap my arms around her in a hug. She gets tears and probably some snot all over my shirt, but I just don't care. She is obviously hurting and I want to help her. After a few minutes she pulls away and sits back. "I'm not pregnant." she says quietly.

I don't understand her at first. Yes, she is pregnant. She told us all at Christmas when she gave Jasper the socks. It hits me then that she means she isn't pregnant anymore. "What happened?"

"Jasper took me to the ER the other night because I had stomach pains and I was bleeding. The doctors don't know exactly what happened. They think that one of us might have fertility problems and that's why it took us so long to get pregnant and then this happens. They asked if we wanted to get testing done. Jasper hasn't said anything about it, so I'm not sure that he wants to. We've hardly even talked to each other since."

"You need to talk to him about this. Both of you need to discuss what is going on."

"He tries to talk to me, but I don't want to hear it. I know that he just wants to help, but he doesn't understand. I lost a part of me. That baby was supposed to stay in me for nine months and grow into a healthy human being that we were going to love and give everything that we have for it."

"Alice, I'm sure that Jasper understands. He's probably hurting, too. That baby was as much his as it was yours. We wanted that baby, too, just as much as you did. Have you talked to him at all?" I feel the pressure in my eyes and a few tears fall. Damn pregnancy hormones.

"I was trying to get my mind off of things by working on some stuff at home yesterday. Jasper came in and tried to talk to me, but I just cussed him out and went into what would be the baby's room and cried for the rest of the day. I locked myself in, but he kept banging on the door saying that he wanted to talk about it. I told him to go away and that I didn't want to hear it. I felt like a total bitch after, but I just didn't want to hear his bullshit. All he was going to do was tell me that everything is going to be ok and that we can try for another one."

"How do you know that, Alice? You didn't even let him talk to you. You have to give him a chance to say something instead of just shutting him out like this. It isn't going to help anything. I'm always here to talk. I'm sure that Edward would be the better one to talk to though, just because he deals with this kind of stuff. But really you need to talk to Jasper first. He's your husband and the one that you should be going to when things like this happen. I think that he is really concerned about you."

"I know I should. But I just don't know if I can face him without absolutely breaking down. This isn't like when grandpa died in college. He wasn't a physical part of me. He wasn't dependent on me for everything. And he was sick and old. It was expected. But I thought I was doing everything right for this baby. I took the vitamins. I only drink decaff. I gave more work to my assistant so that I'm not so stressed. I thought I was doing everything right."

"Alice," I put a hand on her shoulder. "You didn't do anything wrong. Nothing is your fault. Whatever happened, it's not your fault and it's not Jasper's, either. There is nothing either of you could've done to stop it. Get the tests done. If you really want a baby, find out what's wrong and go from there. You'll have a baby. I know you will."

"I hope so." She says. I think I might see a slight outline of a smile on her face. "I want a little girl to spoil and dress-up. I guess I can just spoil your little girl for now."

"I wouldn't expect anything less of you."

We walk downstairs and see Jasper and Edward are just coming back into the house. They leave shortly after and I really hope that Alice gives Jasper the chance to talk to her. I hate seeing them like this and if she doesn't let him say anything, it's not going to end well for them.

Edward pops a movie in and we settle on the couch. Neither of us really watch the movie because we're talking. He tells me that he and Jasper talked about the miscarriage and what Alice has been going through. "How did your talk with her go?" he asks me.

"I told her that she needs to stop shutting Jasper out and talk to him. He's upset about it just as much as she is. She doesn't think that he understands what she is going through, but that baby was just as much his as it was her's. I think he should have a pretty good idea of how she's feeling. I just don't want them to fall apart because of this."

"None of us want to see that happen. I'm sure that they'll work it out. I'll see if maybe she'll talk to me. Her and Jasper both, maybe."

"I think that would be good."