We boarded the train two days earlier than planned. Yesterday had been nerve-wracking. My parents hadn't talked to me it all. I didn't know if that was a good sign. Most of the time they'd lecture me right after something happened, but after the visit they had been silent, not saying anything. I didn't even know what was worse: your parents screaming at you or completely ignoring you. On top of that Lucio had been asking about us, while I was confused as ever.

The thing that bothered me was Tizen. He had been an ass when we kissed, but something about him attracted me to him. I wondered if it was the fact that he was nothing like Lucio. While Lucio was the sweet kind of boy, who comforted you when needed, Tizen was a more outgoing and out spoken person. And I wondered if the thing between Lucio and me was a mistake, maybe we were better of as friends. All in all, everything just confused me.

"I am going for a stroll. I feel like my legs are sleeping," Lucio announced as he stood up, leaving me and my parents alone.

I sat in front of them, unable to meet their eyes.

"Erica, we're very disappointed," Father began. "You know there's a reason why we don't tell you certain parts of the rebellion. As much as we want to tell you everything that has happened, you have to be patient."

I nodded and replied: "I know. I was just so desperate to hear about it. It was a mistake, honestly. I don't know why I left. I know I shouldn't have left, but all these stories about Gale. I was curious, I never wanted to disrespect your orders, but it seemed like everyone was hiding Gale's existence from me, even if he wasn't important in my life."

"Erica, we were going to tell you about him. You need to know that we didn't blame your mother's little sister's death on him. He made a mistake, but he never had an idea of what was going to happen with the bombs. I know you were curious; you always were. We felt like you weren't ready to hear about that part of the rebellion," father replied.

I rubbed my eyes and nodded. "I know and I am sorry. I just think I had the right to know about it."

"You have, Erica," Mother replied. "But you're still very young. The rebellion isn't something light you can talk about. As parents we have the right to decide when we tell you."

"But it's unfair! I know nothing about the rebellion! I am old enough, everyone in my class always knows so much more about it! I'm fourteen- almost fifteen! Stop acting as if I'm Pax's age!"

"We as parents know better than anyone when you're ready or not! Erica, we didn't explain you for a reason. The rebellion was dark; people didn't survive! I didn't want to tell you because it's something cruel!"

"Don't you think I know? Because I do, okay? I know how bad the rebellion was. Every night I awake from you screaming, Mother! Your screams make our whole house vibrate! So I know how cruel it is, how it changed you and everyone! But I want to understand more about it! How is that even bad? I know I shouldn't have lied to you, but this was important to me," I replied close to tears.

Father sighed before he wrapped me in his arms. "You've always been curious, Erica. We love that about you, but you should know what your limit is."

I pushed my father away and stood up. "Stop. I am nearly fifteen. I get it, okay!" And with that I turned my heel and left the compartment.

Sighing, I walked down the train. It went 300 miles per hour and I honestly couldn't feel a thing. It was silent; no noisy Capitol citizens, just a comfortable silence. I wondered where Lucio was. Things had been weird between us. I couldn't really comprehend what I felt for him, but then again, I was only fourteen. He was my best friend and I knew I was attracted to him, but the whole happening with Tizen, I was confused. Not that I liked Tizen, he frankly was an ass. But he had kissed me, Tizen and I kissed and it was something that just kept replaying in my mind. How our lips locked and I felt my heart leaping.

I stared out of the window, the trees going by so quickly I could barely see it. I sighed, softly running my fingers through my hair. This week had been very tiring and it wasn't even over yet. How I wished at that moment that I wasn't in the train, but recklessly running around in the woods that were going by.

And where was Lucio? My mind was running. I sighed and checked my watch. We were going to be home in five hours. I'd have to listen to my parents rants again and explain to Ophelia what happened.

A voice interrupted my train of thoughts suddenly.

"How was the kiss you shared with him?"

I turned around and met Lucio's eyes. His eyed were looking straight in my soul, it seemed. I swallowed the lump in my throat and nervously bit my lip. How had he known? He had been away during the time I spend under the tree with Tizen. And I didn't like the kiss anyway. I didn't even like Tizen!

"I'm sorry?" I crooked, unable to look at him again.

"Oh you know, that kiss you shared with that son of a bitch?" he spat. His hands were balled up in fists and he looked mad.

"I-I have no idea what you're on about," I stammered.

"Please, Erica. Do you think I'm that gullible? Now answer me!"

"I didn't mean for it to happen! He kissed me," I replied in defense.

"You sure seemed to enjoy it!" He spat. "Running your fingers in his hair, I don't even know what!"

"What do you want from me? Ever since we've kissed that night you've been ignoring me! Being cold with me!"

"Don't blame this on me!" he spat.

I rubbed my eyes violently and looked him straight in the eyes, my gaze holding his. "I do not like him. He kissed me. I was caught up in the moment. And then we had a fight!"

"Oh, what a perfect couple the two of you are!" he said with so much venom in his eyes, it made me cringe.

"Why are you this mad? We don't even have something! I am allowed to kiss anyone I want. You don't have to right to claim me! I am not you property!" I hissed.

"You kissed me!"

"Yes and what did you do after that, Lucio? You ran away! And then after I thought everything would change, you practically ignored me. What did you want me to do? Run after you like some ninny?"

"So instead of asking me you decided to kiss that guy?"

"How was I going to ask you what was wrong if you were running away from me?"

"I didn't kiss him! He pulled me in a kiss, okay?"

"You kissed him back!"

"I was overwhelmed! I hadn't expected him to kiss me. You know damn that I don't kiss first the best guy that comes knocking in my doorstep!"

"You should've pushed him off of you!"

"I am terribly sorry for kissing him okay, but I can't go back in time or take that kiss back. It was a mistake, I get it!"

"I don't want your apology! What you did was wrong!"

"You're so infuriating! I didn't plan on kissing him, okay?"

I groaned, gripping my head. How could he be so daft? I liked him! I liked Lucio. He had shown zero interest in me after the kiss. And now he was screaming at me for kissing Tizen while I didn't want anything to do with him. So I did something I never thought I'd do.

I grabbed his face and pulled him in for a kiss.


A/N: All the chapters of these fic have been beta'd, so in several days this fic will be finished. The fic is drawing to an end and I hope you loved the journey as much as I did. I want to thank my amazing beta and all you readers. Review and I think I might post another chapter by tomorrow morning. xoxo

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