A few hours after I returned from slaying a demon who might of had a family. I just wanted to crawl into a hole and not come out. I had my eyes downcast as I walked back into Emily's house. I passed them without even looking. I knew I had blood still on my claws, I needed a shower and to be alone.

My ears twitched as I found out that I wasn't wearing my headband. I didn't want to think about that. I just walked into Emily's bathroom and turned on the water for a shower.

I let the tears I held for so long after the massacre, because it was a massacre pure and simple. I didn't want to kill him. But the first rule of the claiming a territory was kill or be killed. But it doesn't mean I have to like it.

I leaned my head against the wall of the shower, and tried to pull myself back together. Which didn't work, I was so guilty of committing a murder. I didn't know how to cope with knowing what I had done.

I needed so talk to someone other then the wolves. They wouldn't know how I was feeling. They were killing vampires who drank human blood.

The hot water was turning cold by the time I had enough. My head swimming with thoughts and questions.

I forgot I didn't bring any clothes with me into the bathroom. Wrapping a towel around myself, I walked out of the bathroom and into a small guest room, that I normally would stay in. going to the closet, I pulled out a pair of sweat pants and a flannel shirt. I just slip them on.

"Elena?" asked a voice that sounded concerned. I didn't pay attention, I just stared at my clawed hands knowing the dangerous weapons I had. I've killed a living creature. My stomach heaved at the thought. Was I a monster or was my demon blood finally coming to the surface.

I jumped when a hand touched my shoulder, it was warm. Human. Turning my head I saw Charlie standing there with a worried expression. My mind reeled, "Get away from me," I had to protect my full fledged human uncle. Until I knew I could control this monster inside me.

I walked out of the room, out of Emily's house and ran.

I ran far away from La Push, I didn't stop running until I collapsed on the Cullens' lawn.