Quinn's Confession
"Rachel, what's going on?" Hiram asked as they entered the kitchen.
"Wait, what am I missing?" Leroy piped in.
"Ok. Let me fill you both in. That was Quinn Fabray."
"Quinn Fabray, as in the girl that you asked to have stay while we were gone?" Leroy butted in again.
"Yes. Listen, while she was staying here, Quinn and I realized that we had feelings for each other. Quinn is now my girlfriend."
"So you've decided on your sexuality now?"
"Kind of, I think. I know I like Quinn, but I'm not sure if I strictly like girls, I believe that I am still bi, as I told you before. Anyway, long story short, Quinn's dad cheated on her mom and she kicked him out last year. Now, he is back in the house and Quinn told her parents about us and he slapped her, twice, and kicked her out. Would it be ok if she stays with us? I don't think she has anywhere else to go. Please."
The men shared a look that Rachel couldn't read.
Leroy turned to Rachel, "Ok Rachel. But we will need to all have a discussion about this before we go any farther. Go calm Quinn down, then bring her down so that we can meet her properly."
Rachel squealed "Thank you dad! Thank you daddy! This means so much to me. I'll go get Quinn and we'll be down in a few." Rachel bolted up the stairs.
She entered her bedroom, expecting to see Quinn in the bathroom, but instead she found her sitting on the floor against the foot of the bed. She made her way to Quinn, who didn't look away from the place on the wall she was staring at, and sat down next to her. She gently placed her arm around Quinn's shoulders and gently pulled her into herself. Quinn's face immediately went into Rachel's neck where she let out a few deep breaths.
"I understand if your dads don't want me here. I can find somewhere else to go."
"Stop Quinn. They said that it's ok for you to live here, but they do want to talk to us at some point today."
"Oh, ok. But if they do change their minds-"
"Quinn, I said stop. They won't change their minds. It'll work out." She felt Quinn nod against her and she continued
"I want to apologize to you, Quinn. I'm sorry I've been pulling away from you and not really speaking either. It's just, after the thing with Karofsky on Monday, I've just been a little jumpy when it comes to being touched. My heart starts to speed up and I get short of breath. It feels like I'm going to have a panic attack."
"It's ok Rach, I understand. But since you're sitting here with you arm around me, and you initiated the hug downstairs, it seems like you're getting comfortable around me again."
"I was never really uncomfortable around you. I know that you would never do something like that to me. I'm just not used to being touched unless it's being shoved around, so this is still kind of new to me is all. I have to ask, why did you tell your parents about us? I didn't expect you to and I wouldn't have minded if you waited. I told my dads about us just now so that they knew. Well, just that you're my girlfriend now."
Quinn took a deep breath and pulled her head up, but stayed leaning on Rachel. "I figured that I may as well just get it out. I was planning on telling my mom anyway, but since he was there and talking about Beth and forgiveness, I just couldn't stop myself from saying it. I was so angry at him for what he said about Beth and at my mom for taking him back in. After the secrets and lies last year, I didn't want my life to be back to that. I don't want to lie or keep secrets or hide myself anymore. It's not who I am and I'm tired of acting that way. I figured that if they didn't accept me for it, then it wasn't worth it. I know they are my parents and everything, but I don't want to live where I'm not accepted. All my life I was taught that I had to always have this perfect image and uphold the Fabray name, but I can't do it anymore. It's all too much for me. I hate who I've become. I hate who they've turned me into. I want to change, Rachel. Please, help me." Quinn broke down into tears at this point, and Rachel pulled her closer into her body and gently rocked the two of them.
"I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of this Quinn. It's not fair to you to have to deal with all of this, especially alone. I will help you. I promise I will be here for you. We can be there for each other."
Quinn nodded again and barely was able to whisper "Thank you, Rachel. Thank you so much. Sing to me?"
"Of course Quinn." Rachel placed a kiss to the top of Quinn's head and her voice started to softly fill the room.
Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down
It can break your heart
Life ain't always beautiful
You think, you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road
At the end of the day
But the struggles make you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has its own way
Of takin' its sweet time
No, life ain't always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
Life ain't always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin'
All these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess, I can dream
But life don't work that way
But the struggles make me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has its own way
Of takin' its sweet time
No, life ain't always beautiful
But I know, I'll be fine
Hey, life ain't always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
When Rachel finished, Quinn had quieted down and was taking slow, deep breaths.
"Listen Quinn, why don't you go take a bath, then we can go downstairs and talk with my dads. It'll give you a little bit of time to relax first."
"Ok."
Rachel stood and gently pulled a still slightly stoic Quinn up after her and led her to the bathroom. She turned on the water and added a little bit of lavender into the warm swirling water. Quinn was standing behind her with her head hanging down and shoulders limp.
"I'm going to help you, ok Quinn?"
Even though she got no response, she began to gently help the blonde out of her clothes, tossing them into the laundry hamper in the process. When Quinn was fully undressed, Rachel helped her into the now filled bathtub.
Quinn immediately felt her body begin to relax as the warm water engulfed her body. The smell of lavender only helped to further relax her.
"I'll be back to check on you in a little bit sweetheart." Rachel leaned over the tub and placed a kiss to Quinn's forehead before shutting the door slightly and making her way back downstairs.
Song is Life Ain't Always Beautiful by Gary Allan
