Chapter 28: Find a way to make this right
He had told me to let her. That she needed her space, and I did but why? Why did I want to go after her? To tell her to stay. I wasn't supposed to feel this way... not for her; not for anyone. I went to my chair sinking down into it. Loosening my tie, I exhaled deeply pinching the bridge of my nose. Watching her leave I had to restrain myself from breaking something. As I sat there, I wondered where she was. What she was doing? If she was okay. I had only ever worried about one human in my life. Now, there was another. I wanted to go get her and bring her back, but she was angry with me and I didn't want that. Nor did I like it. When had I started to care for her this way? When had things become so complicated?
"You need to stop this. You're pushing her too far. There is only so much I can do when you make a mess of things. You need to find her and apologize. Grovel if that is what it takes. However, this needs to be the last time you will have to apologize."
"I do not know how to fix this," I whispered harshly.
"That would imply that you want to fix this. Have you finally accepted the truth?"
I said nothing. Unsure of what I should have said.
"Do not shy away from this. Pushing her away will only hurt you both."
"I do not know how to do this. I do not know how to give her what she wants. I haven't for the last 500 years."
"That is because you have never tried."
"I have done nothing but push her away. It is obvious that it will happen. It is a cycle."
"You will not know until you try. All cycles can be broken."
"What is the point!? Why even try!? The Miko would be better off without me"
"You love her. That is the point."
Again, I said nothing.
"Do you remember that day we had decided she was ours? She was unlike any other human, we had ever seen. So beautiful and carefree; kind.
None matched her bravery. She never hesitated to tell us off when our paths crossed with the half breed. She had the most intoxicating scent, even today it stills riles us. She does things to us. Things that no other woman demoness or human. Can you recall a time when you've ever felt these emotions? Jealousy, content, need. One look from, a simple smile. That's all it takes for you to break inside. We would give her the world if she asked for it. I will say this again. She is all we want, all that we have ever wanted. We won't ever truly be happy until she is ours completely."
For the third time, he had rendered me speechless.
"Find a way to make this right."
