A/N: K, so it is long and does have Edward's POV
And maybe someone else's POV ;D
Chapter 27
EPOV [[Starting from Spring Break]]
I was going to miss Bella very much. I hated to be apart from her, now for a week. I wasn't sure how I was going to make it. Even more knowing she was going to be with Jacob. I knew he liked her, since middle school too. It's just her that doesn't notice.
The first day I went to go work with Carlisle, it was hard to listen to the things he was saying. I wasn't going to do actual work, just watching how he does it and he'll explain how it all works. But only listening was hard, my mind kept going to Jacob and wondering what she was doing. What Jacob was probably trying to do too.
"Okay so Edward, first when I come to work I …" I had to concentrate real hard to understand what he was saying. That first day was awfully hard. Listening is difficult when you can't really concentrate when your mind was focusing on your girlfriend and knowing without a doubt she was with a guy that liked her.
When Carlisle sent me out of the room because he was doing surgery or something, I would text Bella. I wanted to see her so badly.
I came home and there was Tanya, leaning against a wall. I cringed, hoping she wouldn't try to do anything to me.
"So…" She said.
"Um…hi…" I responded back.
"So…you came back home with your dad?"
"Er, yes." What did she want.
She nodded "Aren't you going to hang out with Bella during our Spring Break?"
I shook my had sadly, "No, I can't. I'm going to work with Carlisle and she's going to be at Jacob's."
"Jacob's?" She questioned too innocently.
"Yes…"
"Oh, oh okay. Good night." She walked off humming happily. Well, that was werid. Next thing I heard was her closing he door. As I got up the stairs tiredly, I heard her talking to someone on the phone. Who would she call at one in the morning? Girls.
~*~
The next day I got home from work, which was early, Carlisle didn't have much to do today, Tanya was walking to the kitchen and when she saw me in there she beamed.
"Edward!" She said happily.
"Hey Tanya." I replied, taking a bite from an apple.
"How was work today?"
"It was alright. How bout yours?"
She nodded . "It was alright too." She grabbed a pear and started to chew.
We were just sitting there, at least she was, I was leaning against the counter.
"Edward, shouldn't you worry about Bella?" I froze, I turned to look at her but couldn't see her expression since she was sitting on a chair with her back faced to me.
"…No. I could always trust her."
"Well, Jacob likes her and all…he can try to make a move on her while he was a chance…" I thought this to myself but hearing someone else say it made it worse. She kept saying things that made me more uneasy about Bella being with Jacob. When I had enough I left.
Tanya made me worry about Bella more. I texted Bella frequently saying, What are you doing? What's Jacob doing? Are you and Jacob alone? and, What are you guys doin? Questions like that.
Tanya saw how uneasy I was in the living room, I guess it was obvious that I couldn't concentrate.
"Why don't you just drop by and see Bella? You'd feel better and wouldn't have to worry as much." She said. Ha, why didn't I think of this.
I instantly became happy ."Thanks Tanya, you're a great friend." I walked fast out the door. Through the refection of the glass door, I think I saw her glare. At what? I wouldn't know. And I don't really care.
I visited her, and there would be tension between Jacob and I. When she wasn't looking, him and I would have a stare down at each other. I would have put up my fist and threaten him but that would be going to far. Stupid fucker with my girlfriend. But then she's best friend with that fuck so I had to be nice. To make her happy, I care about her. He may like her, but I love her. Since middle school, maybe before that but I realized I did during that time, and I'm sure I can never stop loving her.
Each day after work, Tanya would tell me more stuff to bother me. I knew I had to stop it from getting to me, but it's hard. Everything she says is so true . It makes it harder and harder everyday to focus on what Carlisle explains to me what he does and the mini things he tells me to do. I hate that I'm getting unfaithful. I sometimes think Bella isn't bothered by it but then she asks about Tanya too. She asks if Tanya bothers me when I come home late. I lie to her saying no because I don't want her to worry. I want her to enjoy her Spring Break. I knew I should have told Carlisle no and hang out with Bella, but I wanted to experience this so I could get over with it in college and see if I do want this as my job. I could do it during any other weekend but Carlisle hardly works or doesn't work at all during that time. The during summer vacation, I wanted to focus my full time on Bella only since we had to go to college after that. Who know if we went to separate colleges.
~*~
On the last Sunday of work, thankfully it was torturous without being with Bella, Carlisle was talking to me but I wasn't paying attention. I was does off thinking about Bella, the looks that are supposed to scare me from Jacob, and what Tanya says. I thought about the good times Bella and I had, on how we held each other at night, excited that I was going to do it again this night. I was just nodding to what Carlisle said, having no idea what he was saying. He could be talking French to me right now and I wouldn't notice.
"Thanks. Go fetch it for me." I nodded again, walking away then stopped. Fetch what? I heard him chuckle. "You so out of it Edward. What's on your mind?" He asked. I lightly blushed.
"Bella." I answered softly.
He gave a light laugh again, very softly he said, "Love." and rolled his eyes. But I'm not totally sure.
I didn't really focus on it when he started to say something else. "I'll give you a ride to her, she can give you a ride back since today is the last day of your time off of school." I became from being down to happy.
"Sure, dad. If you don't mind."
"No problem son. Just let me change real quick." He went to get out of his doctor clothes and put on his normal clothes while I waited buy the car.
He drove me to La Push but didn't know where he lives.
"Where do I leave you?"
"At the end of that street is fine." I had a feeling to surprise Bella. I was going to walk down the street so she couldn't hear my car coming.
I jumped out of the car. "Thanks Carlisle!" I yelled and fast walked to Jacob's, with a big huge smile on my face. At the same time I was kinda angry because of Jacob, but fuck that fucker. I had the weirdest feeling as I got closer. I grew more and more uncomfortable. I knocked at the house and Billy answered. "Hey Edward. Looking for Bella?" He asked. I nodded. The huge smile I had had vanished as the feeling was hard to ignore. It was a negativity that wiped my happiness.
"She's in the garage with Jacob."
"Thanks."
I closed the door for him, to be nice since he is on a wheelchair. I headed for the garage with my hand in my pockets . I immediately stopped when I saw Jacob and Bella kissing on the top of Jacob's mustang. My heart broke, and my breathing went away for a little bit. I caught up with what was happening and left angrily, running as far as I fucking can from the house. What the hell was with what I just saw? Everything I thought wouldn't happen just did. Some of the things Tanya had said was proved right.
'She can start to like him'
'What if they're kissing? You never know.'
'Bella could have liked him. She can start to again.'
I wanted to cry and shout.
'You know you can call me for anything, that's why we're friends ' I grabbed out my phone and called her. I couldn't walk all the way to Forks. It wasn't that close.
"Hello?" She breathed, I can hear a happy tone in it. The total opposite of what I was feeling.
"Do you mind picking me up? I'm in La Push."
"Sure, I'll be there." She sang. I hung up. I was still frozen with what happened. I was in the street, looking blankly at nothing. I was seeing nothing. Ten minutes later, I heard and engine approach.
"Hop on in, Edward." She smiled at me and unlocked her door. I opened it and went inside.
She tried talking to me but the image of Jacob and Bella kissing was still clearly in my head like I was still watching them.
"Edward, I don't think you're listening. Are you alright?"
I nodded numbly.
"Yes or no…clear answer…"
"No." But my voice cracked. A tear feel out and I wiped it away angrily. 'Dude only girls cry.'
I recalled Emmett saying.
"Edward…" She said sadly.
I stayed quiet.
"What's wrong?" Tears were threatening to go out.
"I'll tell you when we get home."
We got to the house and Carlisle was there.
"Hey Edward." He looked confused when he saw Tanya. "Where's Bella?"
"Oh, um, she wasn't there so I asked Tanya for a ride. "
"Son, you should of asked me."
"Didn't want to be a bother." I shrugged. He shook his head at me.
"Let's go." I lead Tanya to the backyard and we sat on the porch.
"So…"
Looking away from her eyes I said, "I went to see Bella but I saw her kissing with Black."
"Jacob?"
"Yeah."
"Start from the beginning." Well, Alice wasn't here for me to tell her. How I miss her.
So, I told her everything.
Tanya's POV
It was a miracle when Edward called me. Then it was absolutely unbelievable when he told me that Jacob and Bella kissing. I was exactly what I needed. Then he went to me for help. I was so happy and singing in my head. It was hard for me to keep a sad face for Edward as he told me. Everything I said was to put him down but I didn't think it will actually happen.
Sigh. He and I must be meant to be! This is my chance to be with him and I wasn't going to blow it.
When he was done telling his story, I comforted him some more. I told him everything to do. He wanted to call Bella but I said no that she would deny it. I told him to ignore her. I was surprised when he didn't refuse at all. Soon, he said he was going to go sleep. I went to my room too, trying not to jump or skip in my success.
I quickly grabbed my phone and texted Lauren.
*Flashback*
Hey. I sent.
Who's this? She sent back.
Tanya. Hey do you know Jacob?
Yes, itz that tell dude rite…y?
Call me right now I have something to tell u
End**
That day I told her I was planning to get Edward to me. I went to her house and everything to see how we would make Edward mine. I was hopeless on how to do this, I was thinking to get Jacob to do something to Bella for me or something and somehow make Edward show up but obviously there was no need to. I was sacred to tell Edward everything, afraid he might shout at me as I started to place a seed of doubt in his head. Though, It fell into pieces it self.
Lauren, we no longer need a plan
Y not?
I'll tell you tomorrow
K, tell me all the details. i can't wait for 2morrow!
Me too!
The way she texts annoys me but whatever, she's a good gossiper.
I went to sleep, finally content with myself. Edward was going to be mine
Thank you Jacob!
EPOV
Tanya was right. If Bella was cheating on me, she would have denied it if I told her. She gave so many reasons for me to ignore her. She texted me and I wanted to answer and hear what she wanted to say but Tanya told me not to.
I didn't pick up Bella that Monday, like I always would. I went to school with Tanya instead, I had decided I would hang out with her and her group now. I felt bad for ignoring her, but Tanya said I shouldn't, that Bella wasthe one who should. She was right. Something told me she wasn't but I ignored it.
"Edw-" I heard Bella. But I didn't turn around, as much as I really wanted to. Tanya grabbed my arm tighter and whispered in my ear, "Just act like you don't hear her and ignore her."
"Edward!" She called again. Don't look Edward. Don't look.
The bell rang. I glanced at her through the corner of my eye, looked at her, making sure my eyes didn't linger, and nodded, then walked away with Tanya. I wanted to go back and hug her and ask her why but I refrained myself.
Bella called me, texted me all she can. I almost answered once but Tanya grabbed my phone and turned it off. I was going to protest but then I reminded myself, she kissed Jacob.
When she wasn't looking though, I turned it on. There was a voice mail. I was too tempted to ignore it.
I pressed the number to her it, cutting off the annoying computer lady's voice," Hi Edward, it's Bella… Um, call me soon. I really needto talk to you."
That's it? It does sound like she cares. I was going to call her back but Tanya say me.
"Who are you calling?" I pressed the end button to immediately end the call. It didn't even ring yet so that was good. Bella wouldn't have seen a missed call from me.
When Alice came, it was harder to resist. I said hi to her and all when she came and hugged her. But that was it. I knew that Bella would tell her stuff so I went with Tanya to Lauren's house each day to avoid her. Avoiding Alice and Bella was very hard. I felt miserable thinking of Bella. Tanya would see my expression and try to cheer my up. Try. I forced my self to be happy and listen when she was with her group.
I told Tanya I wanted to talk to them but she told me a lot of stuff that made me angry. I heard the rumors, but I paid little attention to them. The group agreed that I shouldn't be with Bella. I didn't care if Tanya grabbed me, nothing mattered to me anymore. Soon, after hearing so much, I started to not care at all about what Bella says or does. I wouldn't care if she got hurt. But I felt a pang when I thought of it, a pang I ignored. I ditched fifth period all the time to avoid Bella more. But I knew I couldn't skip class all the time. I need to lessons and a certain grade for me to graduate.
I was sitting at my desk, wanting to run out of class and punch a wall, but then I wanted to stay too. My heart sang thinking Bella would come. I ignored it again.
When she came in I did my best to look away. The beauty of her….
Edward, snap out of it, she cheated on you. I told myself.
"Hey." She said weakly. I was going to reply put that image came again so I glared at the desk, not bothering to reply.
Later on during some video we were watching that period, I heard Bella rip out a piece of paper and write fiercely on it. Then, she passed it to me.
What the hell Edward? It said. That's what I say.
What? I write back like I didn't know what she was referring to.
You seriously don't know?
Nah I lied.
Your being an ass. Why have you been ignoring me? Not even talking to me either. Because I saw you kiss Jacob. Who knows if you guys did more. I wrote back, getting angry. An ass she says?
You should know She should.
Its why I'm asking you smartfuck! Okay, now that pissed me off. I didn't know why it did but it did. She's trying to act innocent and everything.
"Class is almost over. Pack up your things." Mr. Banner said. Thank you! I told myself. I put my stuff away and crumbled my piece of paper, throwing it across the room. I knew it got Bella mad, I meant it to be. I rushed out of the class once the bell rang.
When school was finally over, I went to go look for Tanya since I always give her a ride back home, obviously. But for some reason she stayed and talked. I somehow ended against the lockers. I saw her text someone and I thought it was enough. Why did I care about her nails and what color she could paint them? Or what purse she should buy? Sheesh I'm not a girl.
"Come on enough talk, we should go home." I said.
"No, no."
"Wh-" She kissed me. I was shocked and didn't do anything. I could hardly think but I went back to the present when I heard a voice I knew very well.
"You fucking asshole!" The beautiful voice said fiercely. I looked into those chocolate brown eyes of my love, that looked like they wanted to cry of sadness and madness. I got saddened at this too but then angry. She had done the same thing!
"What the hell?!" I yelled.
"Same fucking question I ask myself!" She responded. I grew angrier.
"This should be nothing to you! Now you know how I feel!"
"Nothing to me? Nothing? I just saw my boyfriend kiss another girl and you call it nothing? Know how you feel? Do you feel my pain or what?" Yes, I did . I still do.
"I'm sure you feel the same way I did when I saw you kissed Jacob!" I spat back
"Did that mean you-." I didn't let her finish.
"Don't even say anything Bella! It's over! I'm done with you!" I shouted at her out of anger. Then I regretted them when I saw her face. It broke my heart.
All the sudden the buzzing of whispers grew. Oh no, I just broke up with her in front of the whole school. I completely forget they were there. Tanya was there too. I looked at her and she was smiling. When I looked back Bella had already started running out of the school. I felt so bad, guilt and all. I hated myself, I embarrassed her and humiliated her with everyone there.
"Remember, Jacobbb." Tanya said. My heart was pounding, I didn't know what to do. I stood there and Tanya tried to force me back, but I pushed her.
"Bella!" I yelled. Like she would hear me. I ran out, and her car was already going away. I felt like the biggest ass in the world.
"Edward, you dumbass I hate you!" Alice yelled. Oh shit I didn't see her. She came up to me and I expected what she was going to do. She slapped me as hard as Bella. My cheek was going to stay red. I just stayed there, my head low. She ran off going to her car. I hated that my sister was mad at me. Bella probably hated me too. I hated everything I did.
"Edward! You aren't supposed to chase her! It's exactly what she wants!" Tanya yelled to me.
"Yeah, yeah. Let's go home." I mumbled. I went in the car and rove home. I ignored Tanya the way there and she stayed quiet.
"I'm sorry about your loss Edward. But she did cheat on you." She told me.
"Just shut up already!" I snapped at her and ran inside the house to my room. I cried it all out. I didn't care if I was a guy at the moment. I lost Bella, I ended it with her myself. I didn't even tell her I loved her.
"I love you, Bella. I love you." I whispered to no one, just me. I went to sleep with guilt at what I did.
~*~
The next few days, I didn't see Bella. At lunch I would look at her table to see if she was there but she wasn't. She didn't show up for fifth period either. And it hurt knowing to was my fault. It hurt seeing Alice heartbroken because Bella ignored her too. She only showed up for few classes, I heard. Each time Alice would she me I can see how mad she was. She didn't even talk to me anymore. I fucked up. I fucked up real bad.
But Tanya said that Alice goes to Jacob's to look for Bella. It was true, I think, I would see Alice go out. Tanya said that probably Bella went to go hook up with Jacob now that we have broken up. It could be true, Jacob was always there to comfort her. She was her best guy friend. Shit, I'm so stupid to have let her go.
On Wednesday, Alice had, had enough and she exploded at me in the hallway.
"Edward you jerk! Don't you realized what you're doing?!"
"Yes." I replied quietly.
"Really? I think you don't even have feelings anymore!" I let her yell at me all she wanted.
"You made me lose my best friend! And I bet you don't even give a shit!" That was enough.
"I do Alice! Trust me I do. I fucked up. I love her but what the hell am I going to do to get her back!"
"Nothing because she will ignore you just as she does to me! To everyone!" She started to cry and I hugged her. She didn't push me away like I though she would. I cried with her.
"I'm so sorry Alice." I felt pathetic.
"You should!" She sobbed harder.
"You don't love her. If you loved her you wouldn't do this to her!" Her voice shook.
" I do love her Alice! Stop saying that! She cheated on me but I still feel like an ass." More tears fell out.
"You didn't bother to listen to her story." She was starting to clam down.
"Tell me the story."
"Not here, let's go to your room." She told me everything, how Jacob kissed Bella after he confessed he liked her. Bella didn't kiss him back. I explained what I saw.
"Ohh, no wonder she didn't hear you approaching." She said.
"Yeah."
"Well, it's getting late, I'm going to me room." She left and I went inside my bed, letting some tears still fall out.
~*~
The next morning I felt like something wasn't right. I took Tanya to school still, but she stayed quiet. It was really uncomfortable in the car, I quickly got out and went for Alice.
"Oh, what a surprise. Not going to let Tanya by your arm?" She asked.
"No."
"Any signs of Bella?"
"No. She's not gonna magically appear to me. She might not ever talk to me again." She said sadly.
"I'm sorry." I whispered sincerely.
"Go look for her or something."
I nodded. I looked all around for Bella. No sign of her. At lunch, I went to sit with Alice.
"Hey Edward." Angela and Ben said awkwardly.
"Hey." I smiled at them. Alice was smiling back at me.
"I have a question…" She told me while we were eating.
"Yes?"
"Why haven't you asked Bella her story?"
"I was going to….but Tanya said not to. That she would deny it. Plus, Bella would go to Jacob's house after I broke up with her. Shit, I don't know."
"What the hell? You would rather listen to Tanya then to your own girlfriend."
That's true, I still denied it though. I shrugged.
"Bet you were Tanya's bitch for a while."
"I was not her bitch, I'm a guy."
"You listened to her Edward. You let her go around you, hang out with you, even for her to grab your arm. It made Bella feel real bad and sad. My feelings tell me something about her…"
"What?"
"I don't know."
"Be right back." Alice said. I saw her go to Tanya's table and start talking to her. Soon, she started to yell and Tanya looked scared. Soon, she started to yell at Lauren too. I quickly went to stop anything so Alice wouldn't get in trouble.
"Now that he's here, tell him."
"E-Edward. I made you believe a lot of stuff…" She told me how everything she said was a lie. That she just said that so that Bella would stay away from me and she could have me to herself. I'm such a fucking dumbass, I fell for all her bullshit.
She started to cry. Everyone in the cafeteria was watching. "I've been having guilt for doing all this, I've seen how you act and your expressions. I knew trying to make you mine is something stupid and it'll never happen. But I couldn't help to try." She cried some more.
I started to yell at her, saying what kind of friend she was. I don't even know why she was ever my friend anyway. Bella was always uncomfortable around her and I ignored it. I think back to every she said, and what Tanya told me and tell myself how the hell did I believe all that shit.
Alice then slapped her and Lauren. I shoved my arm against Tanya as I left.
"Alice, I'm so fucking stupid."
"You are, but something's more important."
"What?"
"Bella's going to do something but I don't know what. It's bad though."
"Is she going to commit suicide?" I asked.
"Maybe, I don't know." I panicked.
"Where is she?"
"See if she'll be in fifth period."
I went to fifth period, waiting for Bella. During the middle of class, I saw her go on. Oh yes!
But then she gave some kind paper for Mr. Banner to sign. I listen intently to hear what they would say."You're leaving?" He asked. Say what? My heart beat quick.
"Yes." She nodded.
"Where to?" I couldn't hear to what she said. She left soon after a few words. I wanted to run after her but I knew I couldn't. I did all I could to stay in my desk, and once the bell rang I ran out as fast as I could and went to my car. I had to go to her house just in case.
Crap, Charlie was there. But Bella's car wasn't. I knocked.
"Cullen. Shouldn't you be in school?" He asked with an eyebrow raised.
"Er, um…."
"You haven't been here in a while. I've noticed Bella isn't as normal anymore. Don't tell me you broke her heart." He said, his arms crossing now and a glare on is face. Shit.
"Er, umm…Where is she? I just need to see her." I said desperately. He wouldn't answer, just kept glaring at me.
"Is it true she's leaving?"
"Yes." Come on Charlie, I need more information that that.
"Is she here?"
"Would that matter?"
"Just tell me where she is or where she's going! Please!"
"She's at the airport, she's going back to Florida to live with her mom. It was sudden and I do believe it was your fault. She wouldn't just leave you and Alice again." He pointed a finger at me. I swallowed hard. She's going to Florida? That's worse then going to Phoenix. Florida's the other side of the fuckin country!
"Thank you Charlie!" I just left. I couldn't fight with him right now. And I was scared to…heh.
I drove, passing the speed limit as I went. My heart pounding loud in my ears. Seattle was pretty far, I had to go quick before she left
She's going to leave again without saying bye. But this time she wasn't forced, she wanted to. The worst thing is, she's leaving because of me. I'm probably the stupidest ass in the world. I jumped out of my car and went inside the airport. I looked everywhere for her and saw her sitting at a couch, with a suitcase. Her head down and looking sad. I did that. My heat broke but I didn't let that stop me.
"Bella!" I yelled. She looked up, a blank expression on her face.
I didn't know what I was going to say to her. I've been stupid and an ass too. Maybe she won't come back to me, but I knew I had to stop her from leaving.
A/N: …It would have been longer I added more details about what they said but I seriously didn't know what to put xP
I'll try to make the next chapter long and make sure it has more details :]
Update soon? Maybe. Think positive, think positive :D
Hope your Easter was awesome. I had a small earthquake during mine and there was an other small one earlier this morning, for people that live in southern California did you guys feel it?
Annd enjoy your Spring Break. Hopefully nothing bad would happen like with Edward and Bella ,aha.
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