Chapter 28

Brandon rested his head back against the cold wall wishing the numbness would just go away. It was nearly 3 am in the morning, they've spent the last 18 hours in hospital. Everything that happened after Kelly's ultrasound still felt surreal. No heartbeat, he hated those words. Their baby died, late miscarriage. They had so many questions, but no answers.

Kelly broke down the moment they found out, loosing second baby in three months had been too much especially now when they thought the worst was over. He had to keep it together for both of them and for Thea. He called his mom and she came and took their baby girl. Cindy would have stayed with them, but they wanted to be alone.

After going through the options with Andrea they decided to induce the labor, he liked that term better than miscarriage. It was their baby after all.

He knew Kelly would have preferred to wait and let it come naturally but with her diagnoses and already in second trimester Andrea advised them to go for an induction in hospital. They trusted her. Kelly's water broke six hours later and she gave birth close to the midnight. It was a boy, Felix, he was perfect. Through all the sadness, he was glad they got to see him, hold him and were able to get at least some closure.

Two hours later Kelly was wheeled into the surgery as she was still bleeding heavily, they had to do a d&c. He was now waiting for them to finish.

Minutes later he heard steps, opening his eyes he saw Andrea walking towards him. He saw the gloomy look in her eyes. As a doctor and friend she's been with them every step on their way. "How did it go?" Brandon asked as soon as she sat down next to him.

"Good, the bleeding is back to normal. Kelly is in recovery and will return to her room once she fully wakes up from the anesthesia, shouldn't take too long." Andrea replied.

"Thanks, Andrea!" Brandon replied.

"Have you eaten anything?" Andrea asked the concern visible on her face.

"No, I'm not hungry." Brandon said resting his head back.

"You two are so much alike. It's almost scary." Andrea commented.

"Do you think, she...we would be able to have another one?" Brandon asked, he knew he shouldn't but he had been thinking about it for some time.

"It's too early, Brandon." Andrea said quietly.

"I know, it's just...I can't stop wondering." Brandon admitted.

"Which one do you want to hear now, the doctor or your friend?" Andrea asked.

"Both." Brandon looked at her intently.

"Alright." She said slowly considering her words. "By the right of things, she shouldn't even be able to get pregnant on her own. Nevertheless she managed to do so twice. Give her...both of you some time Brandon. Losing a baby at this stage is almost as a long way as getting one, you'll mark the milestones, notice ton of other babies the same age and wonder about the one you never got to see growing up." Andrea told him averting her eyes.

"When?" Brandon asked.

"Two and half years after Hannah, I was nearly half way through. We never told anyone here." Andrea admitted.

"Was it the reason why you and Jesse..." He couldn't finish the sentence, it almost felt inadequate.

"No, it was not the reason why we grew apart and got divorced, but it certainly didn't help things." Andrea replied.

"I'm sorry, Andrea." Brandon said giving her a hug.

"You and Kelly are stronger, your relationship is way stronger than my and Jesse's ever was." Andrea assured him.

"Maybe, but it's not going to make things any easier." Brandon replied.


It was almost an hour later when Brandon pushed the door of Kelly's room opened. She looked so small in the hospital bed, the IV drip still in, probably administering some pain killers, her face was pale and he could see the remains of tears on her cheeks. Coming closer to her he kissed the top of her head, she opened her eyes at his touch.

"How do you feel?" Brandon asked taking her hand into his.

"Empty." Kelly whispered as new tears spilled down her cheeks, the sadness engulfing them both again.