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Renesmee POV
When I woke up, I was in my room in the cottage and the memory of what happened was really blurry but bit by bit everything came together and I remembered everything.
"Daddy!" I shouted and quickly sat up and I felt all the blood rush down my body and the dizziness took over and I fell back into bed.
"It's okay darling, I'm here," my dad was standing by the window in my room and he walked toward the other side of my bed and slid under and the blanket and pulled me into his arms, "and I am soo sorry. Will you ever forgive me?"
I cuddled into his arms and breathed in his scent and that completely cleared the dizziness, "Of course daddy I forgive you! I could never not forgive you," I looked up at him, "but how's Jacob?"
My dad sighed, "He's okay, and he's resting in your room in the big house. I feel soo ashamed for what I did. I can't believe I did that to Jacob. After everything we've been through together and everything I know about him. He said he forgave me but I don't think I can ever forgive myself."
I kissed him on both cheeks, "Relax dad."
"So much like your mother," he looked at me and smiled, "I don't know what got over me. It's just that you and your mother are my life. And I just couldn't handle the ideas going through Jacob's head and well……"
"Dad, I'm not a child and yes I was thinking the same thing Jacob was thinking."
"Well not exactly," he looked up at the ceiling.
"Whatever, my thoughts and his were all long the same lines," I looked at my father and placed my hand on his face and turned his face so that he would be facing me, "daddy, I love him, he loves me. We are meant to be together and we have always been made for each other. You've been trying to avoid this conversation ever since I found out about Jacob imprinting on me and the feelings I have for him. Well I think now is as good as any time to have the conversation we're going to have to have."
"It's just hard for me to see you with him and in love and so deep into it when you're so young and I still see you as my little girl that I never thought I would have to let you go before you turn 30 or something. I always thought you'd love Jacob later in your life. I guess I was being selfish, wanting to keep you young for me and your mother."
"Dad you're not being selfish, you're just being a dad. But daddy just because I love Jacob 13 years before the time you thought I would doesn't mean I am not your little girl, I will always be Nessie, always and I don't think anything in this world can ever change the fact that I am Renesmee Carlie Cullen."
My dad looked down at me and kissed me on both my cheeks and my forehead, "you know, I think you have your mother's power of comforting me. I love my two women."
I lay in my father's arms for half an hour before I realized that I wanted to go to school, "Oh man, I have to go to school," I was about to get up but my father tightened his arms.
"I already called the school and told them that you weren't going to school today and besides there's only a couple of hours left of school and most importantly, I want my life to be home with me today."
And exactly on queue my mother walked into my room and stood by my door and looked at my father and me in his arms and smiled, "I'm looking at the two pieces of my heart together," and I knew that if it were possible a tear of happiness and complete content would be running down her face.
My dad stretched out one of his arm toward my mother, "Come love," and my mother walked toward my bed and walked to my side of the bed.
"Scoot over honey," and she got into the bed, under the covers and wrapped her arms around me and my dad wrapped his arms around both me and my mother.
I was literally wrapped with love, and I felt so safe and loved and protected.
"I have my arms wrapped around my life and my purpose of existing," my father said and kissed both me and my mother.
We were wrapped in each others arms for about an hour when my mother started to get out of bed, "Hey, where are you going?" I asked, feeling the empty space my mother was a second ago.
She smiled at me, "If I heard correctly, before I came into the room, you and your father were about to have a conversation that has been delayed long enough," she smiled at my father, "and hear her out Edward."
"Of course," My father sat up and so did I.
My mom left my room and closed the door behind her. "Okay dad, this is how it is going to work. I am going to tell you everything and don't interrupt me, when I'm done you can ask as many questions as you'd like to but just listen to me first. Agreed?"
"Yes, agreed," my father smiled, "shoot."
"Okay, now you know the intensity of an imprint. You know everything about imprinting that the Pack knows about. Well I love Jacob beyond the whole imprinting thing, I loved him before I knew about him loving me and about imprinting but the love I felt towards him I kept dismissing it as the love a sister would have for her brother, I kept trying to ignore the feelings I knew I truly felt towards him because I felt like Jacob can only be my best friend and that the feelings I had towards him were wrong and that I should try to forget them and just be his friend. But when I found out about imprinting that was just the excuse for me to stop down playing my feeling for Jacob, imprinting made what I felt for him right instead of wrong and that just made me love him more.
"Okay, so that was all about the beginning. Now here is when I tell you nothing that has been going on is Jacob's fault. He didn't tell me about imprinting – although he thought he did – because Claire was the person who first told me about imprinting when I went down to La Push and asked her to tell me about it, so it's not her fault either. And the way Jacob and I have been acting – I know you hate it – it's just a normal piece of any relationship. Dad, being physical with someone you love isn't wrong and it's not like Jacob and I are crossing the line or anything, we were only kissing. Now I know that you were angry, not only from what happened in the kitchen today – actually, I guess the kitchen thing happened yesterday – you were angry from the day before when Jacob stayed over the night. But nothing happened, we were only kissing.
"So all I'm saying is, me kissing Jacob or Jacob kissing me is not an excuse for you to try to kill him or even hurt him, because dad when you hurt him, you're also hurting me."
When I finished talking, both my father and I just sat there looking at each other and I was the first to break the silence, "Okay, now you can ask me questions."
He smiled, "you sound so much like your mother," he stood up and walked to my window and looked out, "did Jacob tell you that he wanted to……well, did he say something about wanting to do something more than kiss?"
I smiled because my father has finally asked the question that I know has been eating him inside, "No he didn't. We talked about what we expected from each other when I first found out about imprinting and he said that we didn't have to do anything that I wasn't ready for and that he would never pressure me into doing anything I didn't want to, and dad he hasn't, he never said that he wanted more or anything like that, he said that he's happy with what ever I am happy with. And I'm not ready to have sex but it's not that I don't want him to touch me or kiss me. Dad I know you know exactly how I feel because you went through this whole thing with mom when she was human. I love him, dad."
My father turned around and looked at my face, trying to find one thing that would show that what I was saying is not true and when he didn't find anything he smiled and walked to me and hugged me, "I know I'm being hard on both you and Jacob, but he tried to take away my life once by taking away your mother, this just feels kind of like a déjà vu."
"Dad, there's a big difference. And it's that I love him, Jacob told me about him and mom and I know that it might have looked like he loved her, but he didn't. He loved the part of her that was going to be me."
My father looked down at me and for a second he looked confused, so I thought of the conversation Jacob and I had in the kitchen and everything he said, the whole story, knowing that my dad would be able to see for himself, "You see, he never really was in love with mom, he loved her, of course he did and he still does but he was in love with something that was of her flesh and blood. It sounds kind of weird, but anything can happen in a place where vampires, shape shifter – of all kinds – and half breeds exist."
He smiled and kissed my forehead, "I understand, and I am soo sorry," he hugged me and I hugged back.
"It's okay daddy. I will always love you."
"Love you too darling."
After that conversation was over everything just seemed to be a little bit easier. Jacob was allowed to touch me and kiss me – more like peck me – on the cheek or lips, but at that point anything would be an improvement. But I could still see my father stiffen whenever Jacob and I forget ourselves and get a little cared away, and I know that me being in love with Jacob must be really hard on my father because of everything that had happened between Jake and my mother but in the past week my father seems to be getting more and more comfortable with the idea of Jacob and his 'little girl'.
It's been a week and a half since I last went to school and I had been getting frantic emails and voicemail messages from Schuyler, Tony and Johnny and so I decided to go to school and reassure them that everything is just fine.
Jacob – like always – decided to drop me to school and when we got there he walked to my side of the car and opened the door for me.
"Oh, thank you," I smiled, "you're being such a gentlemen."
"Well I'm sorry to burst that bubble," he laughed, "it's not that I don't want to be a gentlemen or anything but there's something else I wanted to do," he grinned and I knew he had something 'off bounds' on his mind, "it's just that," he moved closer to me and blocked my way out of the car, "well, if you haven't noticed," he leaned in and kissed my neck and whispered into my ear, "Edward isn't here," and he leaned even closer and pushed me back into the car and he came in too.
He pulled me on his lap and closed the door. He had his hand on either said of my thighs and his hands kept running up and down my sides and his lips didn't leave my skin.
"Oh God Jacob," I was fighting the urge to stay in the car, "Jacob stop."
"That didn't sound convincing," he chucked in between his kisses and I didn't even convince myself that I wanted him to stop, but I knew that we should and that it was wrong to be kissing in public because that was one of my fathers rules that until now, we managed to keep.
"Jake, people can see," and I felt like the car was starting to get really hot, I felt like my whole body was on fire and I couldn't help but notice that the car windows started to get a little fogged up because of our – mainly my – heavy breathing, "Jake, we shouldn't be doing this."
"Nessie, I haven't touched you like this for almost 2 weeks. I've been dying, only being able to watch you from a distance and only being able to peck you every now and then," he stopped kissing me and was stroking my hair and my face, "I have really missed tasting you," he smiled.
I looked at his face and I could see that he was being truthful and that even though my father has finally excepted Jacob an I to a certain extent, that it must have been really hard for Jacob to hold back after our couple intense kissing to just holding my hand and just kissing my cheeks.
I leaned in and kissed his waiting lips and tried to absorb as much of that kiss that would last for the rest of the day and the only thing that gave me the strength to stop was the reason I even decided to come to school.
"Jake, we should stop," I closed my eyes and he didn't stop kissing my lips, my cheeks, my jaw and my eyelids, anywhere he could reach.
"Yeah, it would be wise if we stopped," he chuckled but kept burning my face with soft, warm kisses, "but the thing is," he kissed my lips, "I've never been that wise."
I smiled and kissed him one last time and moved my face away from him, "Come on Jake, focus, we have to stop and I have to go to school before someone sees us."
"Sure, Sure," he sighed, "but just so you know, this is torture for me."
I placed a kiss on his forehead before I opened the car door and got out and Jacob followed.
"Um, Nessie," he smiled and pulled me close to him; "I kinda got carried away and unbuttoned your shirt. He smirked down at me and helped me button up my shirt.
"You're unbelievable," I smiled, but at the same time I felt kind of worried that someone might have seen us and gossip here is like the black plague, it travels at the speed of light.
While I was buttoning up the last couple of buttons, Jacob pulled my school bag out from the back seat of the car and slung it over his shoulder.
"So, your plan for today is to calm down your Scooby Gang and then go on with your life," he smiled at me and leaned against his car.
"First of all, we're not a gang. They're my friends and I really do like them, so stop making fun," I looked up at him and he gave me my bag, "and yeah, I'm just going to tell them that everything is okay, well, unless you'd prefer Tony to come over to my house and hang out there, in my room, alone, while a explained everything to him," I teased him and I could see his expression changing from amused to resenting Tony and I laughed.
"Yeah, you should go to school and talk to them here, somewhere public," he was frowning and looking around the parking lot. Then I saw his frown deepen, "speak of the devil," he sighed, "why is he always following you, does he have a tracker on you or something," I turned around and followed his stare and I spotted Tony talking to Johnny half way down the parking lot.
"You know what I would love to do right this minute?" Jacob look down at me but he still looked a bit tense, "I would love you kiss you so hard right in front of him, so he'd now that you're mine."
"Jake," I looked at him and smiled, he looked soo adorable when he's jealous, "Jake, listen to me and listen good because I am going to tell you something that I will never ever even think of telling Tony," Jacob looked into my eyes and smiled.
"Come on, say it then," even though he was smiling and trying to act all cool and okay with the fact that I am going to leave him and spend my day with Tony but I could still see it in his eyes that no matter how much he didn't want it to hurt, but it did hurt him that I had to leave him.
"Jake, I love you," and I saw his eyes soften and relax.
"I love you too," he balled his hands into fists, "this is soo hard, can I at least hug you or something."
"Of course Jake," I laughed and practically jumped into his arms, "I'm yours."
"That's good to hear," he laughed and kissed the top of my head, "Okay you might as well go," he let me go, "and leave the old man behind," he smiled.
"Jacob, my dad is like a hundred years old," I laughed, "age means nothing to me. And besides, I love grown men, they're much sexier then scrawny, teenage boys," I brushed my hand down his chest and across his muscular abdomen and rest my hand on the buckle of his belt, I could see the desire on his eyes and I knew that his desire was reflected in my eyes too, "grown men know what there body is capable of," I whispered and walked away, "Don't forget to pick me up Jake!" I shouted behind me and waved.
And it took a couple of seconds for Jacob to recover and answer back, "Never Ness, and we'll talk some more when I pick you up." I couldn't help but laugh at Jacob's comment.
When I got close enough to Johnny and Tony, they both walked towards me with huge smiles on their faces.
okay, so if you guys are disappointed by this chapter i would just like to defend this chapter. The whole talk with Edward had to happen sooner or later and i just thought that it would be better to get it over with so that everything will just move on. As for the fact that Jacob didn't get seriously injured when Edward attacked him, i decided to to not really harm Jacob because when Edward heard Nessie he realized he was doing something wrong and he suddenly realized that he was harming a friend. so he stopped, put yourself in Edward shoes, everyone knows that Edward is too much of a gentlemen to do anything bad (that's what we all love about him!!)
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