A/N: I'm a Literati sucker, what I can say? Hehe. I hope you like this story. It's completely different from the other one. It's a little more drama and it's a little more complicated than the others. The characters are little more dramatic and not easy to write, but I loved them in this way. I put something very personal in this story. What Jess is going to live here, it was a state close to me before. The territory I'm about to enter hits close to home for me. But I think you're gonna like it despite the drama. I hope for your support as always and please review if you like what you read. That keeps my muse alive!

P.S. English is not my first language, but I'm really trying here. So, if you think that it's hard for you to read - just don't read it! The reason I'm in this alone it's because I have updates every day. I love my readers and I want to pleased them in that way.

Rating: T (maybe M for some chapters, but we'll see);

Story:

Rory comes back to Stars Hollow to try and pick up the pieces of her ruined life. But she is not the only one who want to do that. Jess is there too, but he is not the same.


Chapter 28 My favorite place

Luke watched his nephew carefully. Jess had changed. He was not all smiley all of a sudden, but there was something changed in him. Jess was sitting on his bed and reading some book. Luke was cleaning the table and just then, his look fell on the nightstand. Jess' pills were there. He just had to reach his hand and he could take the phial.

"I don't think about them anymore." Jess' voice surprised him and Luke looked at his nephew. "I know what you're thinking." Jess smiled sadly. "But you don't have to worry about."

"Since when?" Luke frowned.

"Since… last night." Jess shrugged and went to his uncle.

"Wow! That's a change." Luke looked at him with surprise. "I was looking at you the past few days and I thought you were sad about something. Now this?"

"I was… thinking about something." Jess murmured.

"About what?"

"Rory." Jess shrugged. "I thought that she deserves something better than me."

"But now you have other opinion?" Luke tilted his head.

"She convinced me otherwise." Jess released his half smile.

"So you two are back together?" Luke smiled.

"I guess we are." Jess sighed. "It's sp confusing." He frowned. "Only a month ago I thought that everything is over."

"Remind me to say thanks to Rory, okay?" Luke patted Jess' shoulder. "Come on! I need your help now!"

"You want me to help you?" Jess looked at his uncle with surprise.

"You still know how to make coffee right?" Luke smiled at him.

"I think I know." Jess shrugged and followed his uncle out of the room.

"Good." Luke nodded. "Then you can help me and you can stay away from the pills."

"I think you meant the second option more, but okay." Jess crooked his face.

It was the first day of the New Year, so they did not have much work. Jess felt good and Luke could see that. He knew that Rory was the reason for him to stay alive now. He did not know what had happened the last night, but it had changed Jess for good. Luke could see the smile on Jess' face now and that was something he had forgotten.

"Okay." Luke sighed after the last customer. "I'm going to load the truck and I'm good to go."

"You still want to go fishing?" Jess looked at his uncle with surprise. "Are you out of your mind?"

"Lorelai decided to come with me." Luke shrugged.

"Aha." Jess nodded.

"What was that?" Luke frowned, but he could not ask more. The front door opened and they saw Rory and Lorelai walked in the diner. "You are early." Luke looked at them.

"I know, but Rory couldn't wait." Lorelai smirked and Rory blushed.

"I'm actually coming to pick you, Jess." Rory looked at him. "You have to come with me."

"I have to come… where?" Jess frowned.

"At home." Rory answered seriously. "Luke is going to lock up the diner and we don't have to be here."

"But…" Jess looked at her with confusion.

"I'll be right back." Rory ran upstairs.

"Are you sure this is a good idea?" Jess looked at his uncle. "What if something goes wrong?"

"Nothing could go wrong Jess." Luke smiled and patted Jess' shoulder. "You'll be fine."

"Yeah. I bet he will." Lorelai murmured.

"I'm here!" Rory showed up again with a bag in her hand. "I put you some clothes and your pills as well. Let's go!" She took Jess' hand and shoved his coat in his other hand. "We have to go! Bye mom, Luke!" Rory nodded at them.

"Bye Rory!" Luke smiled.

"Be clever!" Lorelai screamed after her, but Rory and Jess were already outside.

"What was all about?" Jess still looked confused. "I thought…"

Her kiss interrupted him and almost took his breath away. Jess sighed when she pulled back. Her eyes glowed and he felt his heart pounded in his chest. Jess licked his lips and looked at her eyes. His fingers touched her face in slow caress.

"So you like it?" Rory blinked at him.

"You do know that we're gonna be the subject number one tomorrow?" Jess tilted his head.

"Um…" Rory pretended that she thought about it, but then a wide smile appeared on her face. "Nope!" She bit her lower lip with a smile. "Let them talk! I don't care!"

"I can't believe you are real." Jess released his crooked smile.

"I am." Rory tilted her head and her curls fell on her shoulder. "And you just smiled!"

"You think?" Jess just buried his hands in her hair and could not stop smiling.

"Yup." Rory laughed. "And I'm gonna make you smile again!" He was so sure that he shook his head in disbelief, but he did not refuse it.

Jess just looked at her and his eyes could not stop the thought what miracle was she in his life. Later, when they were lying in her bed, Jess could not fall asleep. His thoughts were a mess. Not that painful mess they were before. Now he could feel the first signs of his new life. He could feel the first signs of the happiness he should not have to feel. But he wanted it. He wanted it so badly and he wanted Rory. He wanted her as the air he breathed. She had seen him in the whole he was. She had seen how pitiful his life was and how close he was to the point to give up from everything. And… she had stayed. She fought for him. She wanted to make him smile and she finally did. But she had done something else as well. Rory had made him love her even more than he ever did.

That scared him. He felt completely helpless again and that was something he knew well. He knew what meant to love somebody. He knew what it was to love Rory. He could not just love her. He had to become better person for her and he was not sure if he could make it. His life was a giant mess right now. He just learned how to live again. Maybe he had to make her to forget about him. Maybe he had to stop all this. But when he felt her breath on his neck and her hand slid on his chest, Jess understood that he could not do it. He was not strong enough to do that. He wanted her. He wanted to love her and he desperately needed her love. It was love; Rory was willing to give it to him. She already did.

"I swear I'll try, Rory." Jess kissed her temple. "I swear I'll try to change for you."

He did not wake up and just smiled in her dream as if she had heard his words. Maybe she was. Jess smiled as well and closed his eyes. He finally fell asleep and he was where he wanted to be. There were no nightmares now. Only the pleasure to lie to the person he… loved more than anything in his life. Rory.


A/N: And to all of my readers: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!