Chapter Twenty- Eight: Belief

"Will you marry me?"

She stared at him like a complete idiot. Her mouth open, eyes wide, she felt utterly speechless. It was impossible for her to form a word.

"Meredith"

"…I umm I, are you sure?"

"I am sure"

"This isn't too fast?"

"It isn't too fast"

"Are you pregnant?"

"Meredith, you are so cute when you ramble, but Meredith you are the love of my life."

"Oh god here it comes"

"I don't want to spend another day without you, and I know this is complicated but in my heart I know that this baby is mine. The minute you told me you were pregnant I knew it was mine. I like to see us sleeping together at the prom as fate letting us know we were meant to be together. So please make me the happiest man alive and marry me"

Meredith had tears streaming down her face.

"Derek"

"Come on Meredith use your words and give me an answer"

"I can't"

It hit him like a big yellow school bus.

"You can't?"

"I am so sorry Derek. I am not ready for all this, please try and understand"

He stood up

"No I get it"

"Derek please"

"I am going home"

"You are home Derek, you said home is wherever I am"

"No I am going to my trailer I need to think"

"Derek no please don't leave"

"I am not leaving you, I just need some space"

"Derek, please try and understand I truly not even ready to be a mom, but to have to be a wife too. Derek I need to take baby steps and these are both huge steps that I can't take at the same time"

"Forget I even asked Meredith, I will call in the morning"

He walked out the door and shut it behind himself leaving Meredith crying in bed.

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4 HOURS LATER

Meredith heard her front door open and she had this hope that it just may be Derek, but she heard Izzie's voice scream out to her

"Mer are you home?"

"Sniff Yeah Izzie sniff I am in my room"

"Meredith are you crying?"

Izzie's footsteps came closer and closer and she opened the door to find Meredith lying in bed crying. She sat down beside Meredith and held her so she could cry on her shoulder.

"Where is Derek?"

"He left"

"Why Meredith?"

"He asked me to marry him"

"Oh Meredith that is…. you said no didn't you"

"I am not ready for this Izzie!"

Her cries were harder and louder. Izzie just rubbed her back and let Meredith let it all out. After about 20 minutes Meredith let out a sigh and lifted her head.

"What if he is really leaving me?"

"Meredith he loves you so much, he would never do that"

"But what if he does?"

"Meredith, Derek is not the kind of person to abandon the mother of his child"

"You know!"

"Cristina and I do yes"

"Who told you?"

"Sloan"

"Oh"

"Meredith everything is going to be okay"

"You can't say that, you don't know that it's true"

"I know its true Meredith"

"But Izzie I am all alone, how do I raise a child alone?"

Izzie grabbed hold of Meredith's hand and wiped the tears from her eyes with her other hand.

"You are not alone Meredith Grey"

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A few weeks time passed and Meredith is so frustrated being at home in bed. She is confused, and worried, and she hasn't heard from Derek. Izzie, Cristina, George, and Alex are taking shifts taking care of her. Her due date was August 10th but she woke up the morning of July 20th and she knew something wasn't right. She kept having these sharp pains, about 20 minutes apart. She at first thought they could be contractions but she though there was no way she could be having contractions so soon. George brought up her breakfast and while she was eating he could tell something was off.

"Meredith are you feeling okay this morning?"

"Yeah just feeling a little sick, I think I ate too much last night"

"Okay"

"Look I am not too hungry, I am going to take a shower maybe that will make me feel better"

"Alright"

While she was in the shower the pains started getting closer together and much worse. She then knew instantly she was in labor so she quickly got out of the shower and dried off. She threw on some clothes and started walking down the stairs but, she slipped and fell. George heard the noise and came running.

"MEREDITH! What part of bed rest don't you understand"

"The part where I am in labor George"

His eyes grew wide. He ran over to her and carried her off to the car. While they were driving she called Addison.

"Dr. Montgomery?"

"Yes"

"It's Meredith"

"Is everything okay?"

"I think I am in labor"

"Meredith, you would know if you were in labor"

"Okay fine I am in labor George is driving me to the hospital"

"How far apart are your contractions?"

"Um… I think 8 minutes now"

"Now? How long were you in pain before you said anything?"

"A few hours but Addison there is more"

"What is it?"

"I tripped walking down the stairs; you don't think that could hurt my baby do you?"

"Get here as fast as you can; I will have Izzie Stevens waiting in the parking lot with a wheelchair for you"

Meredith was so scared by the tone in Addison's voice

"Okay thank you"

"Just get here fast Meredith"

Meredith hung up her phone and started to cry. George saw how scared she was and sped up driving as quickly and carefully as possible. He wanted what was best for Meredith and the baby.

Belief

Makes things real

Makes things feel

Feel alright

Belief

Makes things true

Things like you

You and I

Tonight you will rest in my mind

When you came to my defense

With a knife in the shape of your mind

In the form of your body

With the wrath of a god

Oh you stood by me

Belief