Complete 180

Naruto and its characters do not belong to me.

So since I've lost my violin (R.I.P Cindy… I'll miss you…) I've turned over to listening to music when I'm writing and am stuck on what to put into the chapters. It doesn't work quite as well but it'll have to do until I purchase meself another violin.

It's also a big distraction though… Like earlier today I was listening to Lullaby by The Spill Canvas (Most amazing song in my opinion). Anyway I started singing along and kept replaying it over and over again. I stopped writing for a whole 15 minutes. Then Jet Lag by Simple Plan came on and I started doing a little dance while I sat on my bed typing and kept making mistakes (which is bad considering I was editing…) cause I was moving so much. Then Wish You Were Here by Avril Lavigne came on and I started crying. . (Yes my taste in music is beyond diverse. I literally listen to everything.)

Speaking of music! Me and 3 of my girlfriends were at the mall today doing Christmas shopping. Super Bass by Nicki Minaj came on and you know the dance move the dancers do in the video when they hold their arms up on either side of their chests and move their arms back and forth? Well me and my friends started doing that. Then this OLD security guard walks up to us and says, "Excuse me ladies, but if you don't desist that vulgar behavior I'm going to ask you to vacate the premises." I was like are you fucking kidding me?

Whoa… paragraphs… not something you usually see from me…

Anyways, SasuNaru time~~

"Iruka, you're the one that told them Sasuke could stay over. And didn't he stay over a lot before he went to New York? What's so different now?"

I was sprawled across Kakshi's chest. Once again I had voice my concerns about Sasuke staying over.

"I know but that was before I knew that Sasuke had feelings for Naruto. It's like I'm encouraging them and it's weird. I have no qualms with Sasuke but the

"Iruka, you're the one that told them Sasuke could stay over. And didn't he stay over a lot before he went to New York? What's so different now?"

I was sprawled across Kakshi's chest. Once again I had voice my concerns about Sasuke staying over.

"I know but that was before I knew that Sasuke had feelings for Naruto. It's like I'm encouraging them and it's weird. I have no qualms with Sasuke but they are in the next room… Am I freaking out over nothing?"

Kakashi chuckled and started playing with my hair.

"Yes. Very much so. You aren't making much sense either, but it's to be expected. You are his guardian after all."

I knew he was right but I also knew Naruto hated it when I was so protective.

"Maybe I should just tell Naruto Sasuke has feelings for him…"

Kakashi stopped his ministrations and looked down at me.

"If you do that they'll for get together and you'll just worry more. Besides, I told you it's best to let them work it out themselves. If someone pushes them together it won't mean as much. And even though you'll be telling him something he wants to hear he'll get mad at you for keeping it from him and for butting in."

I knew that he was right about that too but I just felt so guilty for keeping it from Naruto.

All his sadness could be tracked back to me…

I'll give them a little more time. If nothing's happened by then I'll tell Naruto…


"…What time is it…"

We had woken up hours ago but Sasuke had never shown any desire of leaving or getting out of bed. I was perfectly fine with that. I was perfectly content with lying here next to Sasuke forever.

"Noon… Do you have to leave? Or can you stay?"

It was probably really stupid to ask that. After all, if he did have to leave it would be my fault for reminding him.

And what if he could stay but didn't want to? I'd never know of course but still. It was something to worry about.

He shrugged and smiled over at me.

"I should probably call Itachi cause if I don't he'll call me in a frenzy. I'm pretty sure he's at work though… and he doesn't get a break till 3."

I just stared at him blankly and he laughed.

"I can stay till 2:30."

That made me happy and sad at the same time.

Sure I'd won another 2 and a half hours with Sasuke but eventually he would have to leave.

"Are you doing anything today?"

Sasuke rolled onto his side to face me and I struggled to stay focused.

Sasuke's eyes were dark as night. I used to be afraid of the night and the dark but I loved Sasuke's eyes.

So much so that I constantly found myself lost in them.

Lots of people had told me how cool/pretty my eyes were but I didn't see what the big deal was. Lots of people had blue eyes like mine. How many people had eyes as dark and beautiful as the night?

I only knew one and I was so mesmerized by his eyes that I had to mentally shake myself before I could speak coherently.

"Nope. Why?"

He looked thoughtful.

"You wanna come over? We could rent some movies to watch and you've yet to stay over at my place."

Ireally wanted to tell him yes but I couldn't.

"I can come watch movies but Iruka doesn't like me to stay over at people's house. If I went into a rage and someone got hurt…"

I cringed at the thought of hurting Sasuke. I wouldn't risk it. No matter how much I wanted to stay over.

Sasuke looked a little miffed at first but the has expression softened and he reached over to tousle me hair.

"I wouldn't let that happen Naruto…"

I thought he would drop it as a lost cause so I was surprised when he said that.

I was still unsure though and he continued to try to persuade me.

"I'm sure we could get Iruka to understand. The hard part will be convincing Itachi…"

I started to think it might actually happen but I didn't want to get my hopes.

"Fine, but don't be surprise when Iruka says no."

Sasuke grinned in a cocky way and I couldn't help but to grin back.

Iruka had said yes. Enthusiastically.

When we had asked him hope seemed to glisten in his eyes and he practically pushed me out the door behind him.

I felt shunned and Sasuke laughed at my mood the whole way to his house.

"Cheer up Naruto. He said yes."

Sasuke's mood was infectious, but it quickly died when we got to his house.

Itachi adamantly refused to let me stay the night at first. He kept looking between me and Sasuke with this puzzled expression.

Eventually Sasuke dug out his wallet and took out a 50 dollar bill.

Itachi stared at Sasuke blankly.

"Why do you have that kind of money? Are you working?"

Sasuke rolled his eyes and then he looked a little sad.

"When I was younger I thought Dad was rich and I wanted to be just like him so I started putting away any money I came across. After I got older it was already a habit so I have loads saved up. Take it and shut up. He's staying."

Itachi stared after us as we made our way upstairs with a conflicted expression.

"Your brother knows I'm gay doesn't he?"

Sasuke faltered as he opened his bedroom door.

"I don't know. Why?"

I shrugged and sat on his bed.

"He's always giving me these accusing looks and glares."

Sasuke sat down next to me and sighed.

"Don't let it get to you okay? It's nothing personal. He's just not used to me having people over."


I wasn't sure why I hadn't told Naruto I was gay as well. I just didn't feel like I could without admitting to my feelings.

Just thinking about how I felt about him made me want to tell him so I tried to come up with a completely different topic of conversation. Naruto beat me to it.

"Say Sasuke? Do you have anyone you like?"

Is question took me completely off guard. Why had he asked that?

Is there any point in lying?

Yes and you know it… so just tell part of the truth…

"Yea. Yea I do. I like them a lot. A lot more than I should."

Naruto smiled at me but for some reason it seemed forced.

"That's nice. Who is it?"

I hesitated before answering. I didn't know what to say. A fake girls name or say I'd rather not say?

Naruto seemed to understand my reluctance.

"It's okay. You don't have to tell me. I was just curious."

I breathed a sigh of relief.

"I think you should tell them how you feel though. Keeping your feelings a secret isn't good for your health…"

He seemed to understand the feeling but I didn't push him on it.

"I can't… I know for a fact they don't feel the same way so it's useless. It'll just complicate things."

This topic of conversation was really dangerous but I liked talking about it at the same time.

There was some sort of conflict going on behind Naruto's eyes that I didn't understand.

"Why don't you try practicing with me?"


IDIOT! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING? THIS IS A VERY BAD IDEA!

I knew that it was stupid but it slipped out.

Something had shifted inside me when Sasuke told me he liked someone.

I was sad and hurt but I was also happy for him if that was even possible.

I couldn't believe I was encouraging him but I was.

I loved Sasuke and I wanted him to be happy. If this girl made him happy then it was okay, right?

I'd still be his friend. We'd still hang out like this.

I still loved Sasuke and a part of me always would but maybe it was best to let him go…


THAT'S INSANE! I'D ACTUALLY BE CONFESSING TO YOU IDIOT!

"Umm… I don't think that's such a good idea Naruto…"

Naruto shook his head and turned to face me.

"Just act like you're talking to her, okay? I'll hear you out."

Naruto seemed set on doing this so I turned to face him as well.

I took a few deep breaths and Naruto nodded at me encouragingly.

"Well… you see… I've always… No that's not right… You're really… That's not it either."

Naruto clapped me on the shoulder and grinned.

"Relax. It's just practice. It doesn't have to be perfect."

It does though… You'll never know this is real…

I stayed silent for a few moments before looking into Naruto's eyes.

"Just tell me how you feel Sasuke…"

Him pleading with me broke through the fear inside of me.

Naruto will understand… We'll always be friends…

"I'm in love with you. I just realized it recently but I may have felt this way since the first day I met you. Being away from you kills me inside. I even had a nightmare about losing you. My life hasn't felt this right in a long time and it's all because of you. I know you don't feel the same way but I just thought I should let you know."

Naruto was shocked into silence by my words.

Now he knows…

Then he started to… chuckle nervously?

"Man! If I didn't know better I'd of have thought you were confessing to me. That was really convincing Sasuke. Tell that to the girl you like and she'll be sure to fall head over heels for you. I almost did."

He's laughing… He just brushed it off like it was nothing…

I hung my head and let my hair fall forward so it could hide my face.

"…g… ut…"

His laughter stopped. He must've noticed my tone.

"Sasuke? What'd you say?"

I turned my back on him.

"I said to get out!"

He gasped and I forced myself not to turn to face him. I could easily picture the wounded expression he would be wearing. If I saw that I would comfort him and tell him everything's okay. But everything wasn't okay.

"Sasuke? What's wrong?"

His voice was enough to make me want to cave in.

"Get out! Leave me alone!"

I rounded on him because I wanted to see him feel the pain I was feeling.

"I don't want you here anymore Naruto! Go home!"

He was trembling and looked so tiny and vulnerable. I beat down the protectiveness I felt for him.

"Don't do this Sasuke… I don't know what I did but I'm sorry…"

"Just go! Please! I can't stand to look at you right now…"

It was as if I had reached out and slapped him when I said that.

If he cried I would've given in but he just numbly nodded and left my room in a daze.

I didn't realize it until I crumpled onto the floor that I was the one crying.


Emotional ending, yea? I had to put on some really sad music to get the right tone while editing it.

I couldn't get myself into the right mindset without the sad music cause I'm just so happy right now.

Let's see. Here are some of the songs I listened to: I Can't Decide by There For Tomorrow, Why by Secondhand Serenade, Stormy by Hedley, and Impossible by Shontelle are just a few.

Reviews please. :O)

Funny story 3! (Ignore if you wish)

Sitting in the living room watching TV and my boyfriend come down the hallway.

"What are you doing?"

"Whatching Winnie the Pooh and Christmas too while eating popcorn, cookie dough, and candy canes."

"What? Are you 6?"

"Nope. 5, I turn 6 in May."

"You realize that would make me a pedophile right?"

"Yepp. I plan on callin the cops tomorrow."

"I'm not even gonna comment on that… I'm going to bed."

He bends down to kiss me and I start throwing popcorn at him.

"Eww! Get away from me old man! Mommy! This old man's trying to touch me! Help!"

He grabs my hands and kisses me and I pout.

"Good night babe."

"Good night Mr. Pedophile!"

A commercial comes on and I get excited.

"Ooh babe!"

"What?"

"Can we go see the new Alvin and the Chipmunks Christmas night?"

"…Yepp definitely 5…"

"Yepp. Definitely a pedophile."

Lmao the things we talk about I swear!