Chap. 27 Breaking down
I can't believe I wrote so many chapters….
I don't own CM.
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They fell asleep on the couch while watching a movie.
Soon, Derek was woken up by Penelope moves and screams.
"Pen, baby, it's a nightmare wake up."
"I'm sorry sweetness."
"What was it about?"
She sighed and sat up.
"John…"
"I'm so sorry baby girl. I wish you didn't have to go through all this."
"Everything happens for a reason."
"Maybe but…"
"Please Derek I don't want to talk about it." She said rather dryly while getting up.
When she saw his hurt she leaned down and kissed him.
"I'm sorry, it's just that I can't talk about it right now…"
"I understand but the sooner it comes out, the sooner you'll feel better."
"Maybe maybe… Let's go upstairs, I'll show you your bedroom."
Sensing that she didn't want to speak about her feeling now, he let the subject and followed her upstairs.
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In the morning, he found her feeding Margaret in the kitchen. The breakfast was already done.
"Good morning to my two princesses" he said kissing them both.
"Good morning… you can go do your run…."
"Sure?"
"Yes, the breakfast will wait for you. Margaret can eat all this alone." She said smiling.
"You're a joke baby."
After a quick shower, he went down to eat with Penelope.
"So how much time are you staying here?"
"Well Hotch gave me the week, but if there's a case…"
"You'll have to go back."
"Yes but for now, enjoy this time together."
"You're expecting me to come back in Virginia right?"
"Y…Yes of course. Why?"
"Because I 'm not ready yet. I need to run some errands before…
"I'll help you and maybe by the end of the week you could…"
"Derek where I 'm supposed to live there…"
"You can live at mine… just as friends of course." He added when he saw her frown.
"And I've kept all your stuff from your life there."
"Don't rush me into something I don't…"
"Something you don't really want. That's it?"
"No but I feel like I've no control on my life… you have to understand that…"
She was on the verge of tears.
She got up and run upstairs.
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Derek let her a few minutes; he found her sobbing hard in her bed. He sat next to her and stroke her cheek.
"Baby girl I'm sorry. I just don't want to lose you."
"You won't lose me… I just need time. I'm feeling so hurt for what happened to me, to all of us because I can't take care of myself…"
"Wait Pen, this is not your fault. Caldwell was obsessed by you, he stalked you here and in Paris… he made all that was possible to have you."
"And he won. He had le, he married me.0…."
"No he didn't win. If he had, he would still be here by your side…."
"Maggie… I didn't offer her a good beginning in life…"
"You fought for her Pen, you fought to keep her alive and she fought for you too. She can't have a better mum. And in some times if you want to, I'll be a part of her, of your future.
Then they hear a little cry from the baby's room.
Pen chuckled.
"Maggie agreed she said "AMEN""
Derek smiled and lied beside her.
He took her in his arms while she cried her heart out.
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Later while she was asleep, he took care of Margaret and phoned Hotch.
"How is she?"
"She broke down earlier, she had kept so many things in her heart."
"Good…. How are thing going?"
"We're talking about it… but it's positive."
"Good. The team and I will call you later to speak with her.
"Thanks Hotch."
"Go Morgan, your little princess is waiting for you." Hotch said as he heard Margaret's cries.
"Yeah uncle Aaron." Derek said smiling before hanging up.
A/N: sorry it was a little boring.
