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Kiome-Yasha: "I'm sorry for the late update everyone; school started so I'm trying to adjust my schedule since I'm also working again at my job. Love the song New Resolution from Azure Ray, it helped me a lot to convey Namine and Roxas's emotions in this chapter :)."

Chapter 28 Disappeared

The beams from the sun's rays broke through the damp windows inside the room, crafting a surreal image of gold upon the sleeping lovers. Roxas felt the seducing warmth of dawn, causing him to stir a bit as he slowly began to regain consciousness. He didn't open his eyes right away though, taking close attention at the extra breathing beside him. He felt her presence, hoping partially that she wouldn't vanish and prove to be a dream. The young Hikari heard her whimper inside her sleep, curling her fingers loosely beside her face.

He reluctantly took a peek at her, the crust around his eyes breaking, 'So, last night really did happen...' He confirmed with a sense of enlightenment and regret.

Roxas turned his head away, not bothering to look at her any longer, as it will only cause a hindrance to his heart that was slowly breaking. He tried to compress the sob that wanted to escape from his chest, letting out a short cough instead.

He slowly began to pound his forehead with his fist, feeling irresponsible and stupid.

'What the fuck am I going to do now?'

He almost expected an answer from the female beside him, but she was left aloof as she continued to slumber peacefully. A part of him wanted to wake her up; shouting in the top of his longs of how much he cherished, adored, and loved her, and how he would continue to do so until his dying breath. Though the logic side of him told him to run, run as fast as he could before one of them ended up with a broken heart.

He gradually lifted his body up from the humid covers, 'I need a shower.' He suddenly decided with impulse, not wanting to purify the smell of her fragrance; but needing to in order to wash away his guilt.

Roxas carefully got up from his bed, grabbing an extra sheet from the floor as he wrapped it around his waist. He looked back in order to check on the artist, discovering she was still asleep. He sighed with remorse, spotting the red stain between the cushions; again, he couldn't help but to punch his forehead with frustration.

He quickly made his way over to the door, hoping she wouldn't notice his departure. He entered the cool hallway, making a beeline towards the bathroom. The musician entered inside, closing and locking the door behind him. He eased his back against the door, dropping the covers onto the tiled floor as he sighed with grief. He closed his eyes momentarily, wondering if he should just go back into bed; but knowing who was there, made him rush into the shower instead. He slid the glass open, turning the valve on the right to a certain degree of temperature. He then flicked the switch at the center to shower mode, calling forth sprinkles of water to burst through from the hose above.

The young Hikari allowed the sound of the current to take him away, drifting forward as he began to contemplate what he was doing. He started to reminiscence the feel of Namine's skin, the touch of her hands, the scent to her hair, the life inside her eyes; everything that made her whole and real as he always imagined it to be.

He dove inside the shower in order to wash away the rising tension between his legs, yearning to forget.

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Sora felt someone shaking his shoulder lightly, startling him from his sleep as his body slipped a bit to the side. He rapidly shook his head in order to gain back his senses, rubbing the sleep from his eyes, as he felt weary from the restless night.

He looked up, becoming a bit puzzled, "Aqua?"

She answered with a pleasant tone, "Maybe you should go home, Sora. Terra and I could take care of things here."

He was so exhausted after another interrogation with Vanitas; he didn't know where the time had gone.

He lifted himself up from his seat, "Maybe...I just didn't think he would be that difficult to cooperate."

"Well..." Aqua tried to reason, though she was a bit tentative as she spoke, "Not to seem like I'm on the enemy's side, but...it seems like he's gone through a lot of things as well from his past."

Sora had the urge to scoff, but his warm heart seemed to understand what she was saying.

"It's probably why he's so..." She tried to find the right term to explain, "Dysfunctional."

"Yeah..." He actually agreed with her without becoming upset; but considering the emotional trauma he had to deal with lately, it was hard to express what he was actually feeling inside.

"Terra called Hayner to come over, hoping he could help." Aqua confided softly with confidence, "I'm sure with him being a lawyer, we can receive some evidence to confirm that Xehanort is guilty."

Sora gained hope from her words, "Hmm...maybe..." He wasn't sure, but he could only assume it would work.

The brunette took out his cellphone, watching the side bar blink as it indicated it was low on batteries.

He tucked it away again inside his pocket, "It's still pretty early, you sure it's okay for me to go home?"

Aqua nodded as she answered, "Yes, get some rest."

"But what about you and Terra? You guys should go back home to Sol."

She waved her hand to the side, "I'll go back home once Hayner arrives. You though, should get back to Namine..." She thought about what to say, "You've been muttering her name out in your sleep, you know."

Sora couldn't help but to blush, turning his head away to the side, "Really...?"

She sympathized with him as she nodded, "Yes..." She gazed at the wounded boy in front of her, "Sora, do you still love her?"

He answered without faltering his voice, "To be honest...more than anything, but..."

"But...?" She seemed confused.

"I just can't..." He stated clearly, "I just...can't..."

She could hear the sob in his voice, becoming solemn over what it could mean, 'I'm sure it's something Namine is meant to find out.' She confirmed softly with reassurance.

"Well, even so...you should go to her." She insisted firmly, touching his shoulder in order to encourage him.

"Yeah..." He replied with a weak voice, doing his best to smile.

He gave her a quick hug before heading off towards the exit, sending out a silent goodbye. It was at this moment that Terra appeared, sluggish and peeved as he made it over to his wife. She was able to beam at him though, causing him to smile in return.

"Judging from your expression, I say the talk with Vanitas didn't turn out well." She stated with slight amusement.

"You could say that." He wrapped his arms around her slim waist, amazed over how fast she lost weight from Sol's birth. He looked around the empty area, becoming concern, "Where's Sora?"

"I sent him home." She answered gently, "I figured he needed it."

He nodded with approval, "I guess there's nothing left for us to do, but to wait for Hayner to arrive." He immediately became quizzical, "Though it's strange..."

Aqua perked her head to the side, becoming curious, "What is?"

"When I told Vanitas how we were going to get our lawyer involved, he just smiled and said how the answers were connected to Mr. Hikari's will."

"Their father?"

"Yeah..." Terra went into deep thought, "Somehow...I feel like he's telling the truth."

Aqua was left astonished by his assumption, but didn't get the chance to ask as Hayner's voice ringed out.

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"Namine...how could you?" Sora's distraught face was evident, as he asked weakly with distress.

The blonde artist stepped back, feeling guilty and ashamed, "I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." She repeated as her voice cracked, "I didn't mean for my feelings to go this far!"

He shook his head with disproval, "I...I loved you..." He confessed suddenly with pain, causing her heart to stop as he stated heatedly but lowly, "I should have known...you're just like Kairi..."

Namine jerked in her sleep as her eyes flipped open instantly from Sora's words. She had sweat over her forehead as she gently shifted her body around the bed. Somehow, she was pleased to find the other Hikari brother gone, giving her a moment to reflect what just happened between them last night. She shuddered as she could remember the feel of his length inside her, vibrating her insides to awaken with pleasure from the memory. She then recalled the unfaithfulness of their act, becoming horrified of how quickly they had lost control. True, she was perplexed that after sleeping with him, she didn't receive any nightmares of Vanitas; but it didn't mean that the one she just had was any better. She gazed out at the taunting window, watching as the soft remains of dews drip carelessly down the glass. The flustered artist quickly tried to cover her naked body, wrapping the quilt around her chest in order to conceal her bosoms. She noticed the red stain on the bed, deciding to ignore it for now, as her main focus was to escape the traitorous room.

She ungracefully tripped over the bed, avoiding the floor as she stumbled forward towards the door. She gripped the sheet close to her, keeping her body concealed as her inner thighs ached. She hissed from the throb between her legs, clenching her hands tightly as she tried to repress the sore.

'This is my fault...last night, it shouldn't have happened, but I...' She gasped as she heard someone in the kitchen.

Namine opened the door and proceeded into the hallway. Her feet gently padding against the floor as the drape around her body dragged. She tilted her head forward as she neared the living room and kitchen area, becoming slightly abashed as she saw Roxas picking up the forgotten shards of tomato sauce on the floor. She weakly made her way over to him, not wanting to get too close. She didn't know how to feel or how to act in his presence, deciding to stay mute as he steadily cleaned up the mess.

It wasn't long though until he spoke with an expressed sigh, "We forgot to clean this up. Could you get me the trashcan so I can dispose the glass?"

She was stunned by his brash request, becoming offended by his attitude. He was ignoring their dilemma completely, finding the floor to be more important than the fact that they had sex last night.

She did what he asked though, heading over to the plastic bin before pushing it roughly towards his direction. It caught him off guard, causing him to jump back from her aggression.

He grimaced at her with confusion, "What was that for?"

She didn't answer him right away, tossing a rag from the counter onto the floor, "You need that too, right?" She asked coldly.

Roxas examined her, sensing the anger inside her voice.

He sighed with frustration, taking the cloth she threw at him as he began to wipe the floor. If it was possible, he wanted to avoid the subject of last night, knowing it would only lead to more complications.

The idea was clearly not mutual to Namine, "Are you really not going to say anything?"

He decided to act ignorant, "What are you talking about? I'm talking now, aren't I?"

The artist's heart slowly began to break, trying her best to sound reasonable, "Look...I know you probably want to forget about what happened between us last night...but you shouldn't ignore it!" Her voice rasped lightly with irritation, "I understand...considering your relationship with Xion."

Roxas knew he had to stop her from talking, "It's not about her!"

"Then what is IT?" She shouted almost hysterically, "Roxas...I'm confused!" She shook her head slowly as tears began to form in her eyes, "I don't know what to do."

"And you think I do?" He retorted angrily, "I'm just as lost as you are, Namine!" He mentally scolded himself, 'Shut up, you idiot! You're acting like a jerk!'

The petite islander shrunk back from his outburst, sniffing softly as tears began to fall from her eyes. Roxas literally wanted to smack himself, finding everything to be more chaotic. He really didn't want to think about this, not after everything they had gone through.

He tried to explain some sort of logic towards the situation, wiping the floor even harder, "Look, we both went through some...traumatic experiences. Last night was nothing more than stress that needed to be release."

He finally managed to clean the mess that was left abandoned from yesterday, but that didn't stop the storm he was in. Roxas's mind was frantic, remaining still as Namine spoke her own feelings out.

The flaxen-haired girl was left speechless, forgetting all about the event from last night as she began to recall another night, "Then what about New Years?"

Roxas froze with shock, appalled over how fierce and steady her question was.

"What about it?" He asked roughly.

Namine bit her bottom lip with anticipation, "Don't try to hide it, Roxas. You...you almost kissed me that night." He didn't speak up, so she continued, "If you had kissed me that night, what would it have meant to you?" She heaved desperately for an answer, "What do I mean to you?"

It was at that sudden moment when Roxas had enough, "Why are you asking me all these questions? Don't you love Sora? Didn't you always wanted him to say I love you to you? Jesus Christ, Namine!I LOVE YOU!" His felt his chest concave as he choked anxiously, "Is that what you WANTED me to say? I love you!"

He glared at her, waiting for a response; and he got one.

Namine stared at him with shock, her lips trembling with grief as she tried to process his words, 'He...he...loves me? No...that's not possible!'

She was losing control of her breathing, blinking rapidly as she tried to make sense on what he just said. This was too much; she wasn't expecting an answer like that. She couldn't think, dashing out of the kitchen as she ran towards her room. Roxas could hear the door slam as shallow echoes of her whimpers began to resonate through the walls. The musician immediately smacked his hands into his face, reflecting on what he just said as he wished to take it back.

He began to chant, grunting by each syllable, "Idiot...Idiot...Idiot!" He just brought more confusion towards the situation.

He needed to leave; he had to get out of this apartment. There was no chance of him staying now. He lifted himself off the floor, adjusting the kitchen right away before taking off towards his own room. He instantly ripped the sheets off from his bed, rushing out of the room as he headed for the laundry area. He opened the lid to the washer as he dipped the blankets inside. He slipped in some detergent, shutting the top as he switched the knobs to the machine on. Once Roxas knew everything was cleared, he hurried back inside his room.

He took off his bathrobe, grabbing a duffle bag from nearby. He rummaged through his closet, selecting any pair of clothes to wear. He started adding more clothes inside his bag after he got dressed. He didn't care to fold them neatly inside, grabbing whatever he needed.

Once he was done, he headed out the door. He walked down the hall, but stopped as he stood in front of Namine's door. He could still hear her breathing inside, sniffing softly with each gasping breath. He dropped the bag to the floor, pressing his hand over the white surface of her door. The young Hikari leaned his head forward, his fingernails grasping the wood with desire to see her.

He voice was raspy as he whispered her name, "Namine..."

Namine's sobs halted, clasping a hand over her mouth in order to stop her breathing from being heard. She didn't know what to say, so she chose not to say anything at all. She couldn't bear to see him without wanting to kiss him; knowing it was wrong to do so with her feelings for Sora involved.

'This is all a big mistake...' She concluded earnestly, closing her eyes tightly, 'I can't think!'

Roxas sighed heavily against the door, perking the blonde's interest on what he was doing as she heard him move away. She listened closely to his footsteps, wondering where he could be going. She got her answer though as she heard the door to the apartment open and then close. Namine sat still where she was, determined to stay motionless for the time being.

After a few minutes, she couldn't help but to ask, "Roxas...?" She became concern when she didn't receive a reply, "Ro...xas?"

He didn't answer her.

The artist jumped up from the floor, opening the door abruptly as she looked around, "Roxas?"

She rushed towards the kitchen, heading over to the door as she knocked it open. She entered the large hallway, shifting her eyes everywhere in order to find the blond twin. He was nowhere in sight, taking off before she could even have time to chase after him.

Namine took a few steps forward before collapsing onto the ground.

She pressed her hands onto her lap, letting her tears run freely down her face, "Roxas..."

Her shoulders began to tremble, bending over in agony as teardrops began to fall over on the carpet beneath her. She secretly pleaded for him to come back, wishing she could take back her words in asking him how he felt about her. The nightmare of Sora even finding out caused her to fall deeper into turmoil.

She had no one to catch her, weeping soundlessly to herself inside the empty hall as it reflected the vacant spot inside her heart.

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Roxas took his helmet out from its compartment, gazing down at his reflection. He scowled at his face, staring at it with disgust before slipping the hood over his head. He sat down over on the leather seat, gearing the handles to his bike as he brought the engine to life. He safely strapped his duffle bag around his body, making sure it wouldn't fall off.

He reversed his bike backwards from the parking space, 'There's no sense in staying. It's better if I leave.'

Convinced that he was doing the right thing, Roxas drove off with no further thoughts.

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Sora drove inside the underground parking lot, noticing the empty spot where Roxas's motorcycle used to be. He turned his vehicle inside the free parking space, wondering where his brother's bike was when he was suppose to stay at the apartment. He quickly shut the engine off to his car, stepping out as he pressed the alarm to secure the doors. He inspected the area in the meantime, searching for any signs that may explain why the two-wheeled vehicle was gone. When he couldn't find any explanation, he quickly made his way over to the elevator.

As he entered inside the lift, he couldn't help but to fear for the worse, 'Dammit Roxas, please tell me you didn't do anything stupid.'

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Namine didn't know when she returned inside the apartment, but she felt content sitting on the couch. She had put on some clothes not too long ago, not wanting to seem suspicious when Sora came home. Her tears had dried off a long time ago, causing her to feel drowsy. She yearned for the idea of sleep, but her heart wouldn't allow it. She shifted her weight on the couch, edging her back against the cushions. She placed her arm over her eyes, listening to the clock inside the kitchen tick. Her lips began to quiver, but she sucked in a heave of air from preventing a sob to escape. She gasped though when she heard the door to the apartment open, part of her mind hoping it was Roxas.

She was left disappointed when she saw the familiar brunette at the door, her heart already beginning to crumble from the sight of him.

"Sora..." She whimpered weakly, doing her best to get up from her seat.

The older Hikari asked meekly with dread, "Namine, where's Roxas?"

She broke down into tears immediately, startling the male in front of her as he quickly sprinted to her side. He wrapped his arms around her slender waist, bringing her closer to him. He gave her permission to nuzzle her face into his chest, using his shirt as a tissue.

"Namine...what happened?" He asked unsurely, brushing his hand through her blonde mane.

"Please...just...hold me?" She felt ashamed of her request, considering she didn't deserve it.

In the end though, Sora remained oblivious, forgetting all about his brother as he agreed.

"Okay."

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Xion paused on the page she was reading from her book when she heard someone knocking on her door. She didn't expect any guests today, so she was a bit curious on whom it could be. She got up from her chair though, heading over to the door as she looked through the peephole. She was shocked to see Roxas on the other side, his expression dead of any emotion. He was waiting outside in the hallway, hoping she would open the door and let him in. Of course, in the end, she complied, unlocking the door as she pushed it ajar.

She stared at him with bewilderment, "Roxas...?"

He embraced her tightly when she appeared, keeping her close in order not to collapse from exhaustion.

He whispered hotly inside her ear, almost pleading, "Can I stay here for awhile?"

She assumed something horrible had happened, bringing her arms up in order to carry him inside her apartment. She noticed the moisture in his eyes, deciding not to worry about it as he probably had his reasons for coming unannounced.

Xion presented her home to him as if it was his own, "Of course."

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Kiome-Yasha: "Yeah, Namine and Roxas didn't last long, but it doesn't mean their feelings for each other is over! There's still some more plot to come, along with more love triangle mayhem between the two siblings and artist. I had fun writing this chapter, but I also had mixed feelings towards it as well; hopefully you guys enjoyed reading it. By the way everyone, thank you so much for reading this far and reviewing! I know I say that all the time, but I really do appreciate it. I also thank those who had added The Diary of Namine to their favorites and alerts. I know I might be slow in updating this fic for a while, but it helps to know you guys are still willing to stick around :). Here's Namine for thanks! :D"

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Kiome-Yasha: "There are a few of you reviewers though that I haven't been able to reply to. So I'll do them over each chapter from now on, for those I can't reach in thanking."

Hearts in the Twilight: I always get reviews from you, but never get to reply to them, I won't make mistakes like that now. Thank you for always reading and reviewing. Glad I was able to bring a grin to your face.

BookwormGirl: Thank you for reading and reviewing my fic. I'm glad you enjoyed the last chapter. Hopefully Sora could put a stop to Xehanort, but I do have plans in bringing that old man down.

Ramen Princess21: Haha, glad you continued reading my story, I guess you were anticipating for a long time of some Roxas/Namine love action? Glad I was able to deliver, even though it took awhile. Thank you for reading and reviewing!

SasoriRinku: Haha, I'm amazed you were able to catch up on this story in a matter of two days, considering I read like a snail and it probably would have taken me forever XD. I'm glad to hear you're a big fan towards the Roxas/Namine pairing. I'm sure Namine will make up her mind on who to be with by the end of this fic; though I won't say if it's Roxas or not, because it could be Sora as well. Who knows? ;P. I'm usually afraid to write AU fics, but I always do try to cooperate everything from the game when I do one. Because I usually like to see elements from the game to be shown in an AU fic, it brings more creativity I think :). Thank you for reading and reviewing! I hope you'll continue reading."