Bella POV
I swallowed and shook my head as the rest of the family remained frozen.
"I can't deal with this." I breathed and grabbed a glass from the glass cabinet, storming into the kitchen and filling the glass up with water.
I heard someone enter behind me but I ignored them, my mind whirring over the possibility of who was stood in the front room.
"Mum she can't be..." Ant said.
I swallowed, letting the glass over flow, for I couldn't find it in me to move.
"She is Ant, and she needs to leave." I said and spun, making to return to the lounge to kick her out when he caught my arm.
"Mum she might be able to help us, she could stop the Volturi." He started but I cut him off.
"I can't deal with this Anthony; I can't have her here doing... this..." I raved and trailed off, tears in my eyes.
"What do you mean this?" He demanded.
"Your father almost died tonight!" I screamed and he froze, looking at me like I'd just announced something of a bombshell.
I almost laughed at myself, poor naive little Bella, that's exactly what I had done.
Edward needed me now, and I couldn't waste it on some random slut in the living room.
"I almost lost him." I added more quietly.
"I don't want her anywhere near our family Anthony." I said and he nodded, letting me go back into the lounge.
I look Zara over and she swallowed, nodding her head before leaving. All I knew was that even if I had no idea who she was, or what she was capable of.
But I knew I didn't care.
The rest of the family watched me as I walked upstairs and entered mine and Edwards room. I heard Carlisle follow me and pick up his doctors bag from where it had been beside his bed.
I sat facing Edward, running my hand down his cheek, astonished to find that it was warm, burning. He also had a thin sheen of sweat over his entire face, and he seemed to be fighting to keep his breathing steady.
I hushed him and kissed his temple.
"Sleep Edward." I whispered.
Carlisle touched my shoulder, although my eyes looked no where other than on Edward.
"His fever should break in a few hours; I'll be in my study if you need me." He told me gently.
I nodded, "He's not going to get any better."
It was a statement, not a question. Edward seemed to have got worse if anything, he looked so fragile. His eyes were closed and he had dark rings under them, not in the way that I was used to.
Instead of bruises they were like bags, dark and deep with tired.
I stroked his forehead and Carlisle swallowed.
"I don't know Bella, I wish I did. But at the moment, it seemed like he is well on the path to transforming back into a human."
"But he only has one lung; he won't be able to function as a human." I started, looking at my father in law for the first time since we had both entered the room.
Carlisle swallowed and shook his head, "All we can do is pray for a miracle."
I shook my head, looking down at my hands where they were holding ne of Edward tightly.
"I don't believe in miracles." I mumbled.
Carlisle touched my shoulder again, "In light of what happened down stairs, I think we all need to broaden our minds, don't you."
He left the question hinging in the hair and I couldn't find it anywhere in me to answer.
"Shout if you need me." He said and left.
I swallowed and looked down at Edward, watching as his serene face, although marred with pain, remained totally still. I found myself subconsciously praying for him to get better, but I stopped that immediately.
What I had said to Carlisle had been the truth, and the last time I had been to church... it hadn't ended very well.
That though put a lump in my throat, but not because the priest had been killed by me, it was because I was so frightened, frightened that if I ever did slip up again, Edward wouldn't be there to make it all better again.
"You know I've been thinking." I whispered eyes down on his face, tears in them.
"Maybe when your better, I and you should go away for a while; I mean I know with Aro intent on being a father all of a sudden it might not be appropriate, but I know that we deserve it." I breathed and swallowed.
"Please get better Edward; I need you to show me with to do, how to be a good parent, all of those things. And how to turn the computer on." I laughed tearily at the end and sniffed.
"Edward I need you, so please, please just get better." I whispered.
There was a muffled groan from under me and my eyes snapped open to see Edward back arching and his brows furrowing, as though he was in some deep inner pain. And his face looked as though he was on fire.
"Carlisle!" I screamed and stood up, holding Edwards hand tight in mine as he continued to cry out and groan, body shaking as though and earthquake was wracking round the house. Carlisle ran into the room then and I looked at him pleadingly, before back at Edward.
"Hold on Edward, hold on." I sobbed just as a blood curdling scream left my husband lungs.
