Title: To Be Loved 27/?

Author: Christen (purplehayschotmail.com) but if you want a response back from during the week email me at (cha005latech.edu) 

Disclaimer: these characters belong to One Tree Hill except for Margaret or any other characters you don't recognize.

Distribution: Take it, but let me know. If you have any of my other fics, go ahead.

Comments:  This is my first One Tree Hill Fic but email me if have any comments please email them to me. Ok someone was a little confused and they couldn't understand how Lucas could have kids but still be in high school. Ok when Lucas, Nathan, Haley etc are in high school in the past and when they have kids that's in the future. Remember how Dan has a date of death that's not current? That's evidence that at the time that was the future. Any other questions just email me. Ok since we now know Jake's daughter's name is Jenny, I'm changing Grace's name to Jenny. Hey I'm looking for a beta reader? Anyone want to help?

(To Be Loved by Curtis Stigers)

"But you deserve to be loved
You deserve something real
Time to heal
Time to feel"

"How exactly did you get stuck watching me?" Peyton asked Nathan.

Nathan looked up from his magazine. "Brooke and Tim both have to fly off for business. Haley feels that you'd kill her if she stayed here. Margaret's calling Arizona so Lucas and Jake are with the kids waiting for her."

"So basically Haley's scared of me, Brooke and Tim are too busy and Jake and Lucas have become babysitters."

"You got it. So how are you doing?"

Peyton gave him a look. "You aren't planning on us talking this whole time are you?"

"Why is that such a strange idea?"

"We aren't really friends."

"But you are my sister-in-law."

"Only by half. Plus considering what my husband and your wife did behind our backs, I really can't see why you'd want to talk to me."

"Is that why Haley's scared of you?"

"I assume."

"Come on Peyton it happened and yes I'm furious but being mad at them does more bad for us then good."

"This coming from the guy who hated Lucas for most of his life."

"Past tense. Peyton I saw how Lucas almost lost it when he thought he lost you and to me that means more than any mistake that he made. Doesn't it to you?"

"Yes. Look it just helps for me to put my mind on something other than them why I'm here. Ok?"

"I understand that but choose something else to think about."

"Fine, give me something to think about."

"You've got to be kidding me."

"No, I don't really have much of a sense of humor right now."

"Ok, ok I've got something funny for you to think about."

"Oh this I got see."

"Remember what happened the night before Margaret and Lucas's wedding?"

"What made you think of that?"

Nathan turned his magazine towards her.

When she read the title "Are you locked out of your car? Need help? Call pop-a-lock", Peyton started laughing.

"Keith?" Lucas asked as he came outside where Keith was drinking a beer.

"It's about time." Keith said getting up. "Take a walk with me."

"I'm not so sure of that. How do I know you won't try to kill me?"

"Because I'm too tired to kill you. Now come on."

Lucas walked over to him. "Fine but if you kill me please try to make it as painless as possible."

"I'll try."

"Ok so how do we start this conversation?"

"I figured either you'd come to your senses and drop this whole idea of marriage or I'd have to have a talk about marriage with you."

"Well I'm not dropping the idea of marriage, Keith. And what talk are you talking about?"

"The kind of talk that fathers give to their sons when they get engaged and I'm the closest thing you've got to a father, right?"

"Right. Wait is this going to be a good conversation because if not then I may say no you're wrong."

Keith laughed. It'll be a good one I hope at least it is anyway.  My father never gave this talk to me. Heck I don't think he expects he ever will have to. You know your mother was hoping I could talk you out of it."

"And do you think you can?"

"I think I don't want to."

"Why? I thought you'd didn't approve."

"I didn't approve of the way we all find out or the fact that you didn't even talk to me or your mother about it first."

"I figured you'd both try to talk me out it."

"I would have at least of been able to prepare your mother and Deb for this. Or even I would of prevented myself from the shock."

"Was it that bad?"

"Was it that bad?" Keith repeated shocked. "Of course it was! When my parents come into town it's already a bad thing and we're already all uptight but then to announce that while they were there?"

"That wasn't my idea. I didn't know she'd do that then. Heck I thought she had turned me down."

Keith laughed. "I believe you. You know if she can confuse you this much now then you're marriage will be interesting to say the least."

"Hey! You do know that. It could be good."

"Yeah right. Keep dreaming. By the way how did you girlfriend take the news?"

"I'm going to talk to her after this. I hope she's not too mad."

"Not too mad? Luke you do realize once you're married, it will only be you, Margaret and the baby. There will be no girlfriends or really much of anything."

"You make it sound horrible."

"I'm trying to make it sound real. You're going to have a newborn and a new wife and you're got to finish high school. What did you think this will all be easy?"

"You know I don't care. It'll all be worth it if this kid is saved even a second of the a pain I've had to go through."

"You know your mother always worried you wouldn't grow up ok. You know if she'd raised you right. I guess she did."

"Well she didn't do it by herself, Uncle Keith."

"So how are things going there?" Margaret asked Jake.

"Crazy, beyond crazy really. You know I never realized how much I needed you in my life till now."

"Well I'm grateful for that, I guess. What exactly happened to make you think that any way?"

"Oh I think the kids should tell you that."

"Which ones?"

"We've got a line here: Chad, Jenny, Kendall then Carrie."

"Ok am I going to get to talk to you again tonight?"

"Probably not. I need to deal with Jenny. How about you call tomorrow and we'll talk?"

"Sure. I love you, Jake."

"I love you too. Here's Chad." Jake said handing the phone to Chad.

"Hey mom. How are you doing?"

"Good. I'm with my father and brother right now. How about you?"

"Well I think I've kept out of trouble and I've been taking care of Sam for Dad and Kendall's been watching us."

"Well that's good to hear. How's your dad?"

"He's holding up so far. I think Sam and I are helping."

"That makes me really proud to hear, you know."

"I was hoping you'd say that. Look Jenny's been dying to talk to you and I've got to go stop Sam before he does some serious damage."

"Ok I love you, Chad."

"I love you too, Mom. Here's Jenny." He said handing the phone to her.

"Hey Margaret."

"Hey mind telling me what's going on with you and your dad?"

"Well Kendall is going to tell you that but let's just say I kind of skipped school doing lunch today to help her and I think he found out."

"It must have been really important for you to risk your father finding out."

"See that's why I need you here. My dad would not see it that way."

Margaret laughed. "That's because he's a guy."

"Hey!" Andy and Andrew said.

"Who was that?" Jenny asked.

"My brother and father."

"Ok look I know you need to be there for them but can you at least promise me you'll be here when Bryan comes here? Because I can't get through that without you."

"When is he coming?"

"Don't tell me you forgot." Jenny said panicked.

"I'm joking Jenny calm down. My plane will land early Saturday morning which should get me home before Bryan gets there."

"I knew you wouldn't abandon me."

"I'm glad to know you realize that."

"Well that's all I need to say. Kendall is the one that really needs to talk to you so I'm going to go."

"Jenny just remember that your dad is trying and try to give him a break just for me."

"Yeah sure. I mean without you he's really not functioning."

"I bet."

"Well here's Kendall bye."

"Bye Jenny I love you."

"I love you too." She said as she handed the phone to Kendall.

"Aunt Margaret?"

"Kendall? I hope you are planning on telling me what's going on over there."

Kendall went into the bathroom and tuned on the water facet and then started crying.

"Kendall what's wrong? You're starting to scare me."

"I think I'm pregnant."

"Oh God Kendall. I wish I was there for you to help you go though this. I know all to well what you must be feeling."

"I thought you would."

"Have you taken a test to find out yet?"

"The first one was destroyed and the second one turned purple."

"Not blue or pink?"

"No purple."

Margaret sighed. "Then you need to see a doctor."

"But that means I would have to tell Luke."

"Not really. Look if I give you the number of the clinic I went to when I was pregnant the first time will go?"

"How can I get there?"

"I know this seems impossible but I think you need to ask Haley to take you."

"I kind stole her car to get the fist test..."

"It doesn't matter. I'll call her and tell her to take you but to not really ask any questions. It's either that or you ask Lucas. You're choice."

"Do you think she'll do it?"

"Yes I think she will but I can't promise you she wouldn't lose it for you taking her car. I would if I was in her place. Are you going to ask her?"

"Yeah."

"Good. Now the second you know if you're pregnant or not I want you to call me and we'll decide where to go from there."

"Ok, thank you."

"No thank you needed. I just need you to promise me that if you're not pregnant that there will never be a need for us to have this conversation again. Can you do that?"

"What if I can't?"

"Then I will tell Lucas the first chance I get to make sure to lock you up in your room and never let you out."

"You know I think you mean that."

"I do."

"Ok then yes I promise. Now how about I get Carrie for you?"

"That sounds like a plan. Kendall, just remember that if you are pregnant that isn't the end of the world."

"Karen can we talk?" Margaret asked coming into the living room.

"Sure." Karen said.

Margaret sat down on the couch next to her. "What are you looking at?"

"Lucas's baby pictures. It's amazing how quick they grow up."

"I guess I'll learn that one the hard way."

"Yeah you will then maybe you'll understand why this whole marriage idea upsets me so much."

"I guess I will. You know Karen I am really sorry."

"No you're not. You and your son are getting what you wanted and my son is going to lose his future for it."

"He'll still have a future."

"No he'll have a wife and a son and college that will be impossible. There will be no money or time which means that he'll end up getting a low paying job and having to give up on his dreams..."

"In other words he'll turn into you?"

"You know I used to be scared he would but then I realized it never would happen but then you came into our lives. Why did you have to come into our lives?" Karen asked mad.

"I don't know. You know even if I hadn't Lucas still would of chosen his life. Because just like you he has a right to choose his own life."

"But why? Doesn't he see all the problem I have?"

"Yeah that's probably why he choose it. He knew if it wasn't for him your life would be so different. So when he saw me about to go through it again he saw a way to prevent it like he wish he could of done with you."

"But he doesn't deserve to have to go through this again."

"Karen have you ever thought maybe he wants to? Maybe his dreams are to be like you and Keith? To raise a child as well as you've done. Maybe he thought if he did that you'd be proud of him. Like he is of you."

"You know maybe you are the perfect person for him."

"What?" Margaret asked confused.

"Any women who's wise enough to know that is the women I want to marry my son."

"So who told you?" Jenny asked Jake as they sat down on her bed.

"Mr. Owens congratulated me on being a grandfather."

"Carrie's pregnant?"

"Jennifer..."

"Ok you don't have to call me Jennifer. I'll tell you. I brought a pregnancy test."

Jake sighed. "I thought you said you weren't pregnant?"

"I'm not believe me!"

"Then why buy the test?"

"Cause Kendall needed it and she was too scared to be seen buying it."

"That's why you said Margaret and I would understand right?"

"Exactly. Are you going to tell Lucas?"

"I figured Margaret told her what she needs to do and if she thinks she needs to tell Lucas then she she'll tell Lucas but I wouldn't no."

"Good thank you."

"Wait not so fast. You still skipped school today."

"I was hoping you'd forgotten that part."

"No such luck, sorry. Look I'm glad that Kendall has you to her help but I don't like the fact that you are breaking school rules to help her."

"I figured you wouldn't."

"Look I want you to help but under no circumstance are you to break any rules is that understood?"

"Yes sir."

"Good and since you left school today once Bryan leaves you will start being grounded."

"For how long?"

"A week."

"A week?"

"Want it to be longer? Because normally if you had broken a school rule you would be. Remember the house rule?"

"It's been a long time since been in the house."

"Well keep breaking the rules and you'll learn them quickly." Jake said smiling

"Are you telling me to break the rules?"

"No way. I don't think I could take that."

"How exactly are you doing?" Haley asked Nathan on the phone.

Nathan sighed. "My half-sister just announced she's engaged to my half-brother so I don't really know how I feel."

"I wish I could of stayed to make sure you were ok."

"So do I but my mother was pretty upset so it was probably a good idea that you left."

"Well I'm still worried about you."

"I'm worried about me too truthfully. You know what I wish?"

"What?"

"That I could turn back the clock to right before my sister got back and keep her from my dad."

"This would of still happened eventually you know?"

"I know it just nice to dream."

"Have you ever dreamed of the future or just revisiting the past?"

"What future? I don't think I could of predicted it now to save my life."

"Well how about you let me give it a try?"

"Why not? Go ahead."

"Ok well I see you and your smiling."

"Why's that?"

"Patience will you?"

"Ok, ok. Go ahead."

"Thank you. Now you are smiling because you are watching your sister and Lucas play with their little boy and because you know you want that and will get that soon."

"I will?"

"Yes you will. You squeeze the hand of you wife who smiles at you and says she can't wait for your child to be born."

"And who's my wife?"

"Who do you want it to be?"

"Oh that's not fair. You brought this up."

Haley laughed. "Well it's me and we decided to go inside because it's getting cold outside and we just want to be alone and happy together. Now how does that sound?"

"Perfect." Nathan said smiling.

"Where exactly are we going?" Kendall asked confused as Lucas drove them somewhere's.

"To a doctor's office."

"Why are you sick?"

"Not but apparently you are so I figured if you got a complete check up from our family doctor then you'll know if you're sick or not."

"Who told you?"

"That doesn't matter. What matters is that you didn't tell me. And why is that?" Lucas asked as he pulled into the parking lot and turned off the car.

"You were busy and..."

"It doesn't matter or at least it shouldn't. Look you're my little sister, like a daughter to me and if I can't trust you to tell me when something's wrong with you then that scares me. Don't you see that?" Lucas asked.

Kendall looked in his eyes and could see the disappointment. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean for this to became such a big deal."

"Your health is always a big deal. Look I've lost too many people already to think I couldn't prevent and I feel guilty about that. But if I was too lose you to something that I could of prevented then I'd feel a lot worse."

"I don't think it's anything that serious."

"But you really don't know. You are only 13 you don't really know that much about medicine anyway. What if you injured something that was serious just because you thought you knew better? How would you feel then?"

"I... that wouldn't happen."

"Truthfully Kendall you have no way of knowing that. You know if this is the way you act with your health then I'm going to have to drag you to the doctor's office every time you sneeze. Do you really want me to have to start doing that?"

"No."

"Then you are going to have to start telling me every time you're sick. Is that clear?"
"Yes and Luke I didn't mean to disappointment or scare you."

Lucas opened the door and got out. "Yeah well it's a little too late for that. Now come on. I got a doctor to do me a favor and check you out tonight. And believe me fixing his car is a hell of a favor." Lucas said as him and Kendall walked in.

Kendall went with the doctor and Lucas waited in the waiting room.

"You know Lucas doctor's offices aren't that bad." Keith said to a young Lucas as they waited for doctor.

"If that's true Uncle Keith then why do you look like you're about to throw up?"

"You know when your mother asked me to take you to the doctor's office she never said how hard it was going to be."

Lucas laughed at the memory. He looked at the ceiling. "You know I now see why you two left me in charge of her. You two wanted me to see what I putted you though. You are probably laughing up there."

The doctor came back in with Kendall a few minutes later. "Mr. Scott?" He asked.

Lucas got up. "Is everything all right?"

"Well it seems your sister here has a stomach virus. I recommend a lot of bed rest, fluids and take the medicine I prescribed. It's actually a miracle she's been able to go this long with out plain exhausting herself. As for the reason she thought she was sick, I think she needs to tell you about that. I also gave her some birth control pills, which should fix more than one problem of hers. I've already explained this all to her though."

"Well thank you doctor."

"No problem and good luck Mr. Scott. I've got teenage daughters at home so I feel for you." The doctor said as he headed out of the office.

"Well I guess you will be staying at home for a long time in bed. Now are you going to explain about the birth control pills?"

"Brooke don't hang on me again please. I really need to talk to you." Lucas begged.

Brooke had hung up on him ten times already.

"Why? You can't talk to your fiancée?"

"I want to talk to you. I need to explain."

"Explain what? Why you proposed to another women? Why you didn't tell me? Why you are claiming to be the father of her child? Because I'd like to hear this one." She said sarcastically.

"First I didn't know she had accepted my proposal."

"Why did you propose to her to begin with? I'm the one you're dating remember?"

"I remember. I just I did if for the kid, ok? I couldn't let him go through what I went though."

"But he's not your child."

"No he's my brother."

Brooke sighed. "So is Nathan. Do you want to marry Deb too?"

Luke laughed. "She's a little too old for my taste."

"Well at least you have an age limit."

"Look Brooke this thing with Margaret has nothing to do with loving her. You get that right?"

"No I don't. Look I'm not of those "Happily Ever After" people ok? I don't believe people get married because they love each other but I also don't believe you should marry Margaret just for her kid."

"But I have to Brooke and if you don't understand then... You really don't understand me."

"That's not true..."

"Yeah it is. Look I'm going to go and I'm sorry if I hurt you." Lucas said as he hung up the phone.

Peyton got out of bed. Nathan was sound asleep and she was sick of just sitting in bed. She started walking down the hall. It was pretty much quiet. She figured everyone was asleep. She did hear two babies crying though. She followed the sound to the nursery where two babies seems to by crying out but no one was listening. Her heart almost broke for the babies.

One of the nurses came by.

"What's wrong with those babies?" Peyton asked.

"The poor little ones. Their another one of the abandoned drug babies.  The poor things have no one anymore and seems to be addicted to a lot of drugs." The nurse said sadly.

"Will they be ok?"

"We can wean them off the drugs but it's going to be hard to find people who want two twins like them. No one seems to want drug babies. It's sad."

"Should someone try to hold them? You know to see if it stops them from crying?"

"I've tired it but it didn't work. And I have errands to run so I can't hold them all the time. I just wish the volunteers would stay all night."

"What volunteers?"

"The group of women must elderly who help us with the babies usually three times a week. They usually help the abandoned ones mostly. Just holding them some times is a big help. Some times I think people forget that simply to hold a baby does so much."

"Well could I hold them?"

"Umm I don't know. I mean I don't know anything about you."

"Please look I'm a patient here. Peyton Scott. I'm here because I just miscarried my own daughter. I think holding them would be best therapy for all three of us."

"I guess it's ok. Just I'm going to stay in here with you for a little while until I know you're all ok."

"Thank you." Peyton said heading into the nursery. "I have a son so I still remember how to hold a baby. What's their names?" Peyton asked sitting down in the rock chair.

"Well we call them Baby Jane and John Doe." The nurse said gabbing Jane and John with their blankets and bringing them over to Peyton. She gently placed Jane in Peyton's arms. And then John. "Support their heads." The nurse said.

"Hey Jane. Hey John. You are both so adorable. I think those lungs or yours are so tired. How about you two rest them for minute?" Peyton said talking to Jane and John as she started to rock them. They both looked up at her and started to coo.

"You've got a miracle touch I see Mrs. Scott. You are the only person to be able to get either one of them quiet."

"Well I think they trust me."

"Well what ever the reason is I'm grateful."

"So am I." Peyton said smiling at the twins in her arms.

Jake went to his window and opened it. "What are you doing?" Jake asked Margaret shocked.

"I had to talk to you and I didn't want to do it over the phone."

"Ever heard of a door?"

"Yeah I hear it's the newest invention. Look I just didn't want to deal with your parents ok? Now will you let me in?" Margaret begged.

"Fine let me help you." Jake said helped her though the window and into his bedroom.

"Thanks."

"Look I'm not even sure I should of let you in. I'm not very happy with you."

"And you shouldn't be."

"Well at least we agree on something."

"I never meant to hurt you, Jake. Believe that please."

"You thought getting engaged to another guy wouldn't hurt me?"

"No, I wasn't really thinking about anything other then my son."

"I understand that ok? But did you have to announce it at dinner?"

"I didn't mean to say it then. It's just Royal wouldn't let up and I couldn't let him know that I was carrying his grandson. I didn't want him having any part in my son's life."

"Well now he thinks you are carrying his great grandson."

"From Lucas's side of the family though and he wants nothing to do with Lucas or anything about him."

"Well then I guess you choose the right guy."

"The right guy? What other guy proposed to me?"

"What about me?"

"You don't want to marry me."

"How do you know that?"

"Because you deserve a future not tied down and so does Jenny. You know that."

Jake sighed. "And you don't?"

"No but my son does. And I can sacrifice that for him. I have to."

"Isn't there another way?"

"No, I wish there was."

"Me too."

"So do you understand?"

"Yeah."

"Do you forgive me?"

"Yes of course."

"Good because I may be marrying Lucas but that doesn't mean I don't still need my friends. And you are one of the friends at the top of my list."