28 - Confessions

"I feel fine," Meredith whined as Derek did her exam three days after she woke up.

"You're not fine, you can barely move from the broken ribs, and your shoulder is still swollen, so do not tell me your fine," Derek said closing her chart.

"Ok, my head feels fine, is that better?" she said with an exasperated sigh.

"No dizziness, fuzziness, nausea?" he asked.

"No dizziness, and all fuzziness is gone, and well I'm still nauseous, but that may have something to do with being 6 weeks pregnant."

"You interns make the worse patient, but at least you're not trying to do rounds in your housecoat," Derek said with a small grin.

"Ha, ha I put my dignity before my career, plus no one needs to see me in my penguin housecoat, only George and Izzie get the pleasure," Derek looked over at her, "Well I guess you too, but then again I think Callie has seen me in it, and maybe Alex, but not for the same reasons you use to see me in it, and I'm babbling."

"Your babbling," he agreed.

"Izzie says my next ultrasound is tomorrow at 10, can you make it?"

"Ten, I will do my best." he turned his back to the counter to make notes on her chart.

"You know I can do this alone, I don't need you for this baby," she said in a low whisper, Derek turned and looked at her.

"What?"

"Well we really haven't talked about it yet, and I would understand if you wanted to walk away, I, and I mean me Izzie and George have talked about the possibility."

"You want to raise this baby alone, with Izzie and O'Malley?"

"No, I don't want to, but I could is all I'm saying."

He stood eye to eye with her, his hands on either side of her thighs, "Meredith the only reason I am not talking about it is the fact that we do not know anything yet, I am worried about you, getting attached and then finding out things went wrong."

"I'm already attached Derek, I was attached the moment the stick turned blue at the trailer."

"The trailer, you did the test in my trailer?" he pulled away.

"Yes, sorry forgot to mention that," she said with a small guilty look, "I just didn't know where to go to do it, and Mark suggested his hotel, but I had the key and well, now you know."

"Mark was there, in my trailer, you did the test at my trailer with Mark there?"

"Ya I did, he kept going on and on about how small it was, does he always get on a point like that, because it's annoying, like when I puked on his shoe, I never heard the end of it until he bought new shoes."

"You puked on his shoes too? You Mark have history now."

"Derek, please you were away, and we just started hanging out."

"Was he there when you and my ex-wife did Tequila shots?" Derek asked, not looking amused.

"You heard about that did you, I found my panties! Your wife had them."

"Ok, anything else happen I should know about?"

"Ummm, well..." she hesitated.

"What?" Derek asked.

"The reason I puked on Marks shoe, was he kissed me."

"What!"

"He was doing some kind of test, to see if I was really in love with you."

"He kissed you, that bastard, I knew I couldn't trust him."

Meredith reached out for his arm. "Derek relaxed, did you hear me it was a test, and I puked on him."

"You puked on him," Derek started to laugh, "That's funny, I got to admit you've never puked on me."

"See no more secrets," she said with a smile.

"You father was he the other day, I should have told you sooner."

"My father, like in Thatcher Grey."

"Do you have another father?" he asked.

"No just him, what did he want?"

"To see if your okay, I guess he read an article in the paper about it."

"Oh, so what did you tell him?" she asked looking down at the floor.

"That the surgery went well, and that I love you."

She looked up at Derek, "Oh...ummm you know the night that I...well that me and George, well that night I had gone and seen my dad for the first time ever, I hadn't seen him since I was 4."

"It's okay Mer, you don't need to explain things to me anymore."

"I just don't want something stupid hanging between us."

"Mer I am in this for the long haul, do you get that I love you?"

"Maybe I'm waiting for something bad to happen like it always does."

Derek leaned over and kissed her lips. "What ever happens we will get through it. Well I should get you back to your room, I was going to run to the trailer, did you want me to bring you anything?"

"A Cheeseburger, like something bad, like Jack-in-the-Box."

"Cheeseburger?"

"Cheeseburger."

"Your wish is my command." He said as he offered his hand to help her down from the exam table.


"What was that the other day in Grey's room?" Alex asked Izzie at her locker.

"What was what?" she asked innocently as she turned around to look at him, her usual brown eyes had a cold edge to them.

"You know, the attitude," he cocked his head to the side, and gave her a hard look.

"My attitude hasn't changed one bit," she said as she grabbed her stethoscope, "but maybe if you were around you would have noticed that."

"Your mad because I'm not around?" he asked, in bewilderment.

"No."

"Hey, you're the one that told me you never wanted to see me again. So what I'm suppose to do the opposite of everything you say."

Izzie shut her locker door. "Well usually when someone tells you they love you," she said with a tight grin, "they just don't abandon you right afterwards." She hissed loudly and walked away.

"I was doing what you told me to do!" he yelled after her.

Alex was still shaking his head when he joined Mark on the Plastics floor. "Where's my coffee Karev?" Mark asked when Alex joined him empty handed.

"Dude, sorry, I'll be right back, my head was else where." Alex stormed off, he hated to admit that he liked working with the Gyno-Beast more then with her boy-toy, at least he never had to fetch her coffee.

"Double Capacino, bone dry," Alex ordered at the coffee cart.

"I see you are putting your surgical skills to use, fetching Dr. Sloan coffee." Addison said from the other side of the cart.

"I'm getting good at it," Alex said with a fake smile. The attendent passed Alex the drink. He walked over to where Addison stood, stirring her tea.

"Dr. Sloan doesn't deal well with people, well he does as long as it's an attractive female. Do you miss working with me yet?"

"No," Alex lied. He had learned a hell of a lot from her, but he was not about to admit it.

"You know you still have a few months before you have to pick your specialty, it doesn't have to be plastics Alex. Dr. Shepherd was undeceive right down to the last second, he was considering Cardiotharsic."

"Neo Natal over plastics, come on." Alex said.

"Dr. Karev you bring a fresh approach to the field, there are not a lot of men in it, you showed so much promise when that baby came in from the Highschool, you took over so naturally." She placed the lid on her tea.

"Thanks, but I can't, plus working with Izzie," he looked at Addison, "You're a chick."

"Yes I'm a chick," she said confused.

"Ok so your a womanly woman, why do you say things and expect the exact opposite?" Alex asked.

"Problems with Stephens?"

"I do a dumb ass thing and tell her that I love her just after Denny died, and she tells me to stay away from her and that she never wants to see me again, and now shes mad at me because I've stayed away, that's messed right."

"Well I don't think you need me to tell you how stupid it was to tell her your feelings at that point, but she was obviously very emotional at the time, and for some unexplained reason when we're emotional we say things that we don't mean, I don't know why, we just do."

"That didn't help."

"Sorry, but all I can say is if you truly love her, give her sometime, but don't isolate yourself from her either, do what you did before, hang out with the other interns, go to Joes with them, whatever, be there all you have to do is be there."

"For what it's worth you know that you are to good for both of them." Alex said.

"I don't think that's appropriate Karev, but thank you."

Alex nodded and walked away with Marks Cappuccino in hand.