Dark stained souls

RusAme slave AU

Warnings: implied rape, pedophilia, abuse, slavery, sex, violence, fighting... includes descriptive sex and abuse

*I do not own hetalia or his characters*


Ivan was not amused, Arthur called him in the middle of a talk with his sisters for nothing. In result he received a punch, only because he wants to enjoy his time with them. When he got back they were staring at him and Alfred was rubbing circles on Katyusha's back. Wait…what's Alfred doing there? Ivan barely breathed, what had he done?

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Everything was silent, a few sobs from his biggest sister and Alfred almost hiding on her.

''What's happening her?" Ivan said with a sweet cold voice. Wasn't enough that Alfred hated him and was disgusted? That he ruined the little piece of mind he had? Did he have to meet his sisters? He just met them, right?

''Brother, is it true?'' Katyusha spoke, trying to stop a sob from falling from her mouth.

''Chto?'' Ivan asked, truly confused. He glared at Alfred, who walked to him.

''I told them everything…''

''You what?'' Ivan glare died and his eyes opened in surprise before turning into a murderous glare.

''Everything, Ivan.. I told them….''

''How could you hide this from us, big brother? I knew you were hiding something," Natalia yelled, ''but why?''

''Oh brother.. what have you done to yourself….'' Katyusha started crying again.

''What have you done Alfred?'' Ivan stared at Alfred levelled cold ice voice, a glare so murderous that even Alfred flinched.

''I had to… you can't stay here''

Ivan grabbed Alfred's neck with both hands, anger flaring in deep purple orbs. Alfred thrashed and his sisters screamed with him but he couldn't stop. He started crying and yelling, ''WHY DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS TO ME? WHAT DO YOU WANT? WHY DO YOU CARE? WHY? GO AWAY, GO AWAY!''

He dropped Alfred on the ground and placed his hands on his face hiding the tears that couldn't stop falling.

''I care because… I… can't leave you here… I…'' Alfred rubbed his neck. Why does he care? Why should he care? The bastard doesn't want help…but he needs it, oh he needs it, and he's so sweet…he can be…he can be so…wonderful deep down. The beautiful bits of dreams he has, with warmth, sunflowers and stars, the few moments where they would touch and stay, only feeling each other, the way he still fights, he still fights, damn it, he can go away…he needs to go away…

''Alfred…why?…. You should have left…why are you here destroying everything I have left?'' he sobbed into his hands. Katyusha hugged him and smoothed his hair.

''Vanya, we care, we love you, why did you do this for us? You should never…oh God, Vanya… ''

He kept silently crying, why did Alfred have to come and disturb the little peace he had, why?

''Ivan I'm sorry but…'' Ivan punched him in the chest, his sister walking back a few steps.

''But what? What do you want more?''

''There are people who care… I care… '' he said, holding his chest, knowing Ivan could punch much harder, strangely he felt a bit of comfort in that fact.

''Why do you care? Why should you care?''

''I like you…I want to see you happy… '' Alfred said quietly. He truly cares, Ivan may not care but he does… he can see he is so much more…

''You've seen enough… couldn't you just leave me alone?'' Ivan spat, letting the hands fall from his face to make Alfred see the tears still falling.

''Vanya, he did well, we are leaving and you will come with us."

''No, Winter will kill you and catch me to see you die!''

''He has a plan,'' Katyusha said, cleaning Ivan's face.

''He always has a plan…the idiot will kill us all."

''Ivan….'' Alfred felt hurt with those words and Ivan felt guilty but didn't remove the words. ''I only want to help."

''Why?''

''I said I care, okay? I don't know why I care for a snow bastard like you but I do and I want to take you from here," Alfred yelled. Ivan walked to him and grabbed his arm, his voice becoming levelled again.

''You are not lying yes? You still care…even after…'' Ivan said.

''Yeah… of course… I though you would hate me… you didn't even let me help you after… I just.. I didn't knew what to say or do… and you looked so miserable…and I was so angered… '' he trailed off, gazing at the ground.

Ivan hummed and placed his forehead on the other's shoulder. ''I was ashamed; I thought you would find me disgusting and would leave me… I didn't want to see that look in your eyes… or Winter to hurt you…''

''I don't pity you Ivan, you are too strong for that,'' Alfred chuckled and placed on hand on his face. ''I could never feel disgusted…you are still you…strong, smug, a beautiful snow bastard…"

''Beautiful idiot, always hurting me… always making me lose my temper,'' Ivan smirked and Alfred pressed his lips up, closing his eyes. Ivan complied and kissed back, relishing the warm and soft feeling that crawled into his chest.

A scream erupted through the room.

''NOOOOOOO big brother, you should marry me! Not kiss this pig!''

''N-Natalia drop the k-knife.'' Ivan eyed a knife in her hand.

''No. You will come with us and leave this kid here."

"Natalia, stop, can't you see this man is going to save brother and us?'' Katyusha spoke, taking the knife from her hand.

''But… but… he's using brother…you heard what they do to him."

''He never used me, Natalia… he is the only one who never used me…'' Ivan said softly, looking at the ground. He couldn't deny the warmth and light Alfred brought to his life. He couldn't deny the feeling that American leaves in his chest… he's not sure what is but it must be good…if only it didn't hurt so much…

''I did use you. If I didn't, we wouldn't be in this situation..'' Alfred muttered guilt on his face, he truly used him.. some part of him denies it deeply but he feels too guilty for everything that happened to Ivan…

''Nyet…you made me feel again…you never used me. It was me who used you to feel good… I am very sorry Alfred…I never meant to bring us this…I knew better."

''Shit, Ivan, stop…can't you see how sweet you are? You don't deserve this…. Come, the plan will work, please…''

''You can take them, but I won't go."

''Why?''

''He would go after me…I've tried that. I don't want them to be hurt because of me."

''I will kill him!''

''And spend your life running from him? Afraid that he will come at night and hurt you and kill everyone you love!'' Ivan yelled.

''It's that what you fear?''

''I fear nothing, you are too naïve to understand that he will never leave you alone!''

''He will be dead…''

''They will catch you for killing him. You won't leave this place alive if you do that. dammit Alfred, I don't even know if you will be able to leave this place alone!''

''Ivan, trust me… just this once…''

''I can't…''

''For us, brother'' Katyusha spoke softly. ''If you can't do it for you, do it for us, we can't bear to know what he does to you…'' Natalia nodded, clinging onto his arm and he closed his eyes sighing softly… Alfred will be his death…

The rest of the visit consisted in Alfred explaining 'his' awesome plan and Ivan silently staring at him in disbelief; his sisters simply took annotations and followed their part promising Ivan to be safe. Alfred left and they confronted Ivan who denied most of the things that they already knew to be true, in the end he couldn't do much more than bend his head in shame.


Next: Will Ivan be mad? ; Alfred will find a problem on the plan.

Notes:-

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