Part Twenty Eight.
"While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die." ~Leonardo Da Vinci
"Miss, miss." A man said as he shook Addison.
Slowly her eyes opened and she looked up at the sky as the sun was starting to set.
"Everything is okay… we're going to get you out of here." The man said as he motioned for his team to join him.
Addison's light green eyes couldn't seem to focus and she tried to sit up.
"Try not to move, I don't know how badly you're hurt." He man said.
She blinked rapidly trying to bring everything around her into focus.
She felt pressure on her upper arm as someone slid a blood pressure cuff on her.
Just as her eyes had started to focus there was a tiny blinding light, as the man shined a little flashlight into her eyes.
Pinning them shut she took a deep breath and opened them.
She looked at his blue uniform and then to his blue hat that had large yellow lettering spelling, E.M.T.
"How many fingers am I holding up?" He asked.
She gasped as she looked back up to the sky, there was an array of bold colors as the sun was setting; she had seen plenty of sunsets before, but every color was richer than she had ever seen before.
The world looked the same, only as if it were in hi-definition; everything was heightened.
She looked down at her lap as a few tears fell from her eyes.
"This isn't hell." She breathed out; looking at the man still knelt in front of her.
"What?" He asked confused.
"I did it… I made it into heaven." She said, managing a small smile.
"Even though… I never pictured it would look like this, or that I'd have E.M.T's in my heaven." She admitted shaking her head.
Before her face scrunched up as she asked, "Why do I have E.M.T's in my heaven?"
"Heaven?" The man questioned.
"Yes, this is heaven isn't it…? I've been to hell and this isn't hell." She informed him.
"I believe you hit your head, there's some blood on your face… can you tell me your name?" He asked.
"Why does it matter?" She asked him confused.
"We're going to get you to the hospital." He said.
"Hospital? Why are there hospitals in heaven?" She questioned.
"Miss, you are not in heaven." He said, worried she might have really hit her head hard.
"Then where are we?" She asked.
"Indiana." The man answered.
Addison's eyes widened, "What? You mean… I'm not dead?"
"No." He told her.
"I have to go." She said standing up.
"Whoa… take it easy." He said, grabbing on her arms to make sure she didn't fall over.
Now that she was standing, she surveyed the land around her.
"Oh my god… what the hell happened?" She gasped, as she saw all the trees laid over on their sides, everything had been flattened.
"Everything within a 2 mile radius was completely leveled." He explained.
"Why?" She asked.
"Let's get you to the ambulance so I can check you over." He said, as he started to lead her to where several ambulances and police cars were parked, sirens off but lights flashing.
He started to look her over and she asked, "Why does it look like a bomb went off or something?"
The EMT looked at her, "We're not sure what caused the blast."
"Blast?" She asked.
"I don't want to alarm you." He admitted.
"Please, tell me…" She pleaded.
He sighed, "It was about 10:20 this morning, a blinding orange-red light shot down from the sky to the exact spot where we found you. Before 10:30 hit everything within 2 miles all around us was leveled.
"What time is now?" she asked.
"Going on 6pm." He told her.
"So I've been lying out there since this morning?" She asked.
"Unfortunately yes, emergency response teams were ordered to wait until the bomb squad inspected and secured the area. With a 2 mile radius… it was a very long process." He informed her.
She nodded swallowing hard.
"I don't know what happened out there… but I'd say it's a miracle you're alive." He said.
"You're telling me." She said.
"I have to go." She told him.
"Go where? We need to get you to the hospital." He said.
"Okay." She said as she nodded.
He told her he was going to talk to one of the officers and he'd be right back.
Once he was gone and she looked around making sure no one was watching, she ported herself to Bobby's house.
She arrived in his kitchen and watched as he opened the refrigerator and took a beer out.
"What happened?" She asked.
Turning around his eyes widened and he dropped the glass bottle to the floor, it shattered on impact.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." She apologized.
"Addison?" He asked, taking a step back.
"What?" She asked.
"Are you okay?" He asked her.
"I think so… I just woke up a few minutes ago." She informed him.
"Did someone beat the hell out of you or something?" Bobby asked.
"I don't think so, I actually feel pretty good. Why?" She asked, confused.
"Your face is covered in dried blood." He informed her.
Walking into the bathroom she gasped as she looked into the mirror. Sure enough, her entire face was stained and covered in dried blood. She didn't even recognize herself.
"Oh my god…" She breathed out.
"Uh-huh." Bobby said with a nod.
"Now I see why I scared you." She said as she took the washrag from him, and turned the hot water on.
"So tell me what happened… with Sam and everyone." She said as she leaned over the sink and started to wash her face off.
Bobby explained that Sam had managed to take control back from Lucifer and that Castiel had been brought back to life, and healed Dean and then brought Bobby back to life.
"So Cas is okay?" She questioned.
He nodded as he handed her a towel and she dried the water off of her face.
"Thank you." She said as she laid the towel down on the sink and looked at herself in the mirror smiling when all the blood was gone.
"I have to ask… how are you alive." He asked.
"I have no idea." She admitted as she followed him into the study.
"What do you remember?" Bobby asked her as he leaned up against his desk.
"Well, I remember saying bye to you and Dean yesterday. Then spending the night with Cas…" Her voice trailed off as she felt her cheeks redden.
Avoiding his eyes she went on, "Then telling Cas bye this-morning and leaving him at about 10:14am. I went to a woods in my home state of Indiana, rested against a tree and waited for death, hoping it would be quick and painless."
"There was a wooded area completely leveled in Indiana earlier today." He informed her.
"Yeah, I woke up smack-dab in the middle of it. The EMT told me a bright red-orange light dropped from the sky to where I was. But I don't remember it." She admitted.
"I'll be damned." Bobby remarked shaking his head.
"I'm going to find Cas." She informed him, as she said goodbye.
Walking out of his house onto the salvage yard she closed her eyes and thought about Castiel.
Opening her eyes she looked around stunned, she wasn't sure how she knew… but she could feel where he was.
Porting to him, she watched as he sat on a dark purple couch with his back to where she had appeared.
Opening her mouth she was getting ready to say something but she looked around.
She had no idea where they were but the place was beautiful, it looked like paradise to her.
The walls of the room were a slate gray color, and some of the walls were exposed red brick.
Large canvas paintings and aged black and white photos decorated the small but inviting space.
Her eyes went to a small fire place where a fire burned brightly, filling the air with the intoxicating scent of burning wood; closing her eyes she took in a deep breath savoring the scent as it tickled her senses.
Turning around she saw a small open kitchen behind her, she smiled at how the appliances looked like they were from a different time but in mint condition.
Spinning in place again she saw a large flat screen T.V. on a stylish stand with lots of movies lining the surrounding shelves.
She wasn't sure how, but she hadn't even realized there was music playing.
Her mouth curved up into a small smile as she heard one of her favorite songs, 'Have You Ever Seen the Rain' by Creedence Clearwater Revival.
"Yesterday and days before, sun is cold and rain is hard. I know, been that way for all my time. Till forever on it goes through the circle fast and slow. I know it can't stop, I wonder. I want to know… have you ever seen the rain?"
Her favorite lyrics played from a record on an old record player situated in the corner of the living room, the familiar beat of the music crackling as the record spun under the needle.
Addison had always preferred the way songs sounded when played from a vinyl record. Her eyes widening as she looked to the wall beside the record player; floor to ceiling shelves were filled with hundreds of records.
Taking another deep breath of the wood fire, she finally stopped her gaze on the large crystal clear floor to ceiling windows against the far wall.
Her breath caught in her throat, it was the perfect view of the New York City skyline at night, just like she had seen so many times in movies.
The tall skyscrapers with offices and apartments lit up on all different floors, the sky had some dark clouds and the moon was half shrouded in their shadows but it was breathtaking, she even had a perfect view of the Brooklyn Bridge and the city lights reflecting on the East River.
"Are we in New York? This place is… perfect." She breathed out, her light green eyes wide as she continued to take in her surroundings.
She watched as Castiel stood and turned around as he looked at her shocked.
"Addison…" His voice trailed off.
"Look at you… back to full strength." She said smiling widely at him.
"Stronger than before." He admitted.
Taking a few steps closer his blue eyes searched her face as he said, "I searched for you... earth…heaven and hell. I couldn't find you."
"I never died… I woke up in the same woods I went to do die in." She admitted.
"Now I understand." He said, nodding.
"I'm glad you do… because I still don't." She told him.
"I don't understand all of it, but I couldn't find you on earth because you've got the Enochian carved into your ribs. You're still hidden from angels." He said.
She nodded, her eyes locking with his as she wondered if things would change between them now that he was full angel again.
"I'm still not sure how you're alive." He told her.
"Neither am I, but I feel better than before." She admitted.
After staring at each other for a few more minutes he walked closer and wrapped his arms around her, he had thought he'd lost her forever.
She sighed in contentment and held onto him tightly so thankful to be back with him, and to be alive.
He reached a hand out to hold onto the side of her face; as his skin touched hers it sent a wave of feelings through them both, almost like a shock but not painful.
She gasped as he looked at her.
"What happened?" She asked him as he pulled his hand away from her face but kept it out in front of him.
"I don't know." He admitted, looking at his hand.
Slowly she raised her hand and brought it to his placing her hand against his the feeling was back, sudden and intense it left them both breathless.
"That's new." She said, smiling as she reached up and trailed her finger tips lightly down the side of his face.
His eyes widened as the feelings and sensations only intensified.
Holding her other hand up he looked at it before pressing his palm to hers, the same as their other hands that were still connected.
Her light green eyes met his blue eyes and in an instant they were completely absorbed in each other; a stronger and more intense connection than ever before, even stronger than when he was human.
It felt like every single fiber of them merged and entangled with each other, as if they were entirely connected; it was the most pure and beautiful experience they had ever had.
She swallowed hard and broke their eye contact as her eyes searched his face in bewilderment at what was happening.
"I still love you." She told him, her voice just a whisper as the strong waves were still flowing through her entire body.
It took him a moment to catch his breath, before he locked eyes with her again.
"I love you." He told her.
"I was worried you wouldn't…" She admitted, looking to their hands still touching, fingers to fingers and palms against palms.
"Why did you think I'd stop?" He questioned, his blue eyes staring at her intently.
"I was a little afraid that you only loved me because you were almost entirely human… when Bobby told me you got your powers back. I was so happy for you, but I was scared to find you. I thought maybe being a full angel again you wouldn't feel the same…" She explained her reasoning and fears, her voice growing a little hoarse as she remembered the fear she had felt.
Looking at both sets of their hands still touching and still keeping the sensation of their every cell merging with each other's, he slightly tilted his hands sideways letting his fingers fall in-between hers.
With their fingers laced together and the feeling stronger than ever he looked in her eyes again, "I will always love you." He assured her, his voice strong and sure as he spoke.
She nodded and smiled as she slowly pulled her hands away from his. The waves of sensations running through them slowed until they finally stopped.
"I have never felt anything like this in my entire existence." He informed her.
"You're not the only one…" She said her voice still soft.
Leaning forward he gently grabbed onto the sides of her face and claimed her mouth with his own.
Again, as their lips and tongues slowly moved together both of them slipped into the foreign euphoric feeling they had experienced when their hands were touching.
It took every bit of strength she had to pull back and separate her mouth from his.
Closing her eyes she took a few deep breaths, still feeling the after effects of the intense waves that had shot through her when they were touching.
When she opened her light green eyes she looked over the small apartment again, wondering where they were.
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