Soooooooooo, I know I've been AWOL for the last two weeks and for that I apologise, theres no real reason to be honest I've just been lazy and let myself keep pushing it back so for that I apologise…I am in the process of writing the next chapter so that should be up in a week perhaps a little sooner if I can finish it quicker than planned So I'll do the normal and say, Firstly, I'd like to say Thank You to: benstinev, SHIPS OF ALL Briester2 & mjfeehily-gayle for Following and/or Favouriting this story and/or myself as a Writer/Author/Fanficer (That didn't sound dirty in my head lol). I appreciate you all taking the time to hit that button it means a lot to me Secondly, Thank you to all of the following people for the review they left on the last chapter, I appreciate you all taking the time to write a review it means a lot to me: the true killjoy, DarkBlueMint – (I'm sorry that this chapter gave you a attack and I have placed a warning in this and the previous chapter. I sincerely apologise I never intend to cause anyone any discomfort in any form. I did post this straight after writing and got so lost in getting it done I forgot about the warning. So again, I apologise), IronicSteel, tcatch20 & Cheekymadom. And Thirdly, this chapter is about 10,700+ words long, so a little longer than normal, so I HOPE this makes up for the wait lol…anyway I hope you all enjoy it…

WARNING: PLEASE BE ADVISED THAT THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS HIGH VIOLENCE AND GRAPHIC DECRIPTIONS THAT SOME MAY FIND DISTRESSING SO PLEASE READ ON WITH EXTREME CAUTION. IF THIS DOES TRIGGER OR BEGIN TO TRIGGER SOMEONE THEN PELASE STOP READING AND MESSAGE ME PERSONALLY AND I WILL GIVE YOU THE CLIFF NOTES FOR THE CHAPTER. SO AGAIN POTENTIAL TRIGGERS AHEAD….


Chapter 28-Something's Wrong

Flashback-Eight and a Half Years Ago

Clarke was walking through the hallway of Arkadia High School her mind completely on her phone. She's just finished her art class and along with a mass of other pupils she was heading to lunch, she was running slightly late and decided to text Octavia to let her know she was on her way to met her Raven and the others. She smiled as Octavia messaged her back saying she's met her there as she was still waiting for Raven to finish her physics class. She loved how wiped her friend was with Raven, after seeing Octavia pine for the brunette for over a year it was nice to see them together and to see her best friend so happy especially after her break up with Lincoln. She was just about to place the phone back in her pocket when it vibrated, looking at the phone she saw a message from Roan cancelling their study session due to him having family issue to deal with, if she was honest she was relieved she liked the boy as a friend but she could tell that he wanted something more from her and he was so far from her type she found it amusing but still was polite to him because over the last few years he'd actually been a good friend to her, whenever someone would hassle her and was rude to her he's always stand up for her even if he got detention because of this. And on a whole, he was a decent person, a little weird and mildly twisted at times but that was what people had told her, she'd never seen it first hand herself. As she continued to walk and look at her phone she was brought out of her thoughts about what she could do with her afternoon when something slammed into her legs forcing her to stop and control her body so she didn't her phone falling from her hands and sliding across the floor as a result. As she looked down at what she could have bumped into she was surprised to see a slightly scared looking little brunette girl standing in front of her no more than 7 year olds slightly shocked she looked up seeing a older brunette coming towards them and before she could apologise to the little girl the older brunette spoke:

"Costia, come here" Lexa firmly said, instantly Costia turned around running to her sister relief rushing through her face. As Costia reached her Lexa knelt down, once she was close enough Costia wrapped her arms around her sister, pulling Costia back she looked seriously into her little sisters eyes "You can't run off like that Cos, you could've got lost" Still see a little upset in her sisters face Lexa decided not to tell her off too much "I know your excited but you have to stay with me, ok?" Costia nodded her head "Good girl" Placing a kiss on her sisters forehead she hugged her again, her eyes looked straight ahead catching a young blue eyed blonde watching her actions as numerous teenagers walked around her and Costia. Giving Costia a minute she smiled at the blonde before pulling her sister back and softly asking her "Did you bump into that lady?" When Costia nodded her head she added "Okay, you know what you have to do right?" Costia nodded her head releasing her hold on her sister she held onto Lexa's hand forcing her sister to walk with her. Once she was as close enough she looked up at the Blonde and softly said:

"I'm sorry I bumped into you lady"

Clarke looked at the little girl listening to her words she could have swore her heart melting slightly at the guilty but sweet apology, smiling down at the little girl she softly accepted the apology "It's okay, It happens….how about you grabbed my phone for me and we call it even" She smiled pointing to her phone on the floor to her right near a locker of the now clearing hallway.

Costia looked around seeing where Clarke was pointing before looking up at her big sister her eyes asking for permission to retrieve the phone. Lexa nodded her head softly. Seeing the nod Costia smiled brightly turning and running quickly over to the phone carefully leaning down and picking up the phone, before turning around and running back to her big sister and the blonde lady, holding the phone up to Clarke she smiled "Here you go lady…Sorry"

Taking the phone Clarke smiled at the little girl "Thank you…and my name is Clarke"

The little girl looked up at her sister nervously, stepping back so she was closer to her big sister's legs. Placing her hands on Costia's shoulders as her little sister's back hit Lexa's upper thigh. Looking down at Costia and smiling she looked up at the blonde, who she had to admit was really beautiful and not in a made up princess doll kind of way she was beautiful in more of a natural beauty kind of way, ignoring her inner thoughts Lexa forced herself to speak "Sorry she gets a little shy introducing herself to people…. I'm Lexa…and this…." She paused looking down at Costia and squeezing her shoulders as her little sister looked up at her "This is Costia…"

"Hi" The little girl softly waved at Clarke making her smile softly, before her attention turned back to her sister "Can we go find her now Lexi?"

"Don't be rude Cos, we introduced ourselves so now we have to let the lady introduce herself as well, if we don't then we're being rude and we not meant to be rude, are we?" Costia shook her head at her big sister's question "Good girl…" Lexa looked back to the blonde really wanting to know her name "So like we said, I'm Lexa and this is Costia….and you are?"

"Nice to meet you both…I'm Clarke"

"Nice to meet you too Clarke…right Cos" Costia smiled brightly nodding her head as she looked at the blonde they now knew as Clarke "I couldn't help but hear your looking for someone, can I help you find them?"

"YES…" Costia shouted making Clarke giggle softly, she watched as Costia moved forward quickly looking up at her. "Do you know where my sister is?"

"I might, what's your sister's name?"

"Ummm" Costia turned around looking at her big sister who gave her an encouraging nod, letting her know she could remember the name on her own, looking back to Clarke she said her sisters name "Raven…Reyes-Woods…" Costia hesitated for a second before looking back to her big sister seeing her nod, a smile spreading across her face.

"Rae? Your Rae's little sister?"

"YEAH….She's by big sister…but Lexi is my biggest sister" Costia sweetly responded, making Clarke smiled and giggle again. "Do you know where Rae Rae is?"

"I think so yes…let me double check ok?" Costia nodded her head, excitedly turning and running to Lexa and beginning to talk to her, Clarke smiled as she took in the sweet sight, as she did she had to admit that the older brunette was almost flawless, she looked like she was athletic and did a lot of sports and she had the perfect facial features, her eyes made her whole face complete like they completed the image of a goddess. Shaking her head forcing the thoughts out she remembered whose sister she was ogling and she knew Raven was protective from the way Raven spoke about Lexa. Looking down at her phone she pulled up her texts messaging Octavia asking her if Raven was out of physics yet, within a few seconds Octavia had responded with a NO, making the blonde giggle softly before she responded telling O not to move and that she was coming to them. Looking back to the two brunettes in front of her she softly spoke "I know where Rae is, I can take you there if you like?"

"Um, that'd be great thank you Clarke"

"No problem" Clarke smiled at the way the brunette said her name, for some reason it sounded different, the same yet so different at the same time, so much so it made her smile even more. She pointed behind the two brunettes softly saying, "The Physics lab is this way…" She walked towards them, seeing Costia reach up and take Lexa's hand before they began following her. Ignoring the urge inside her to look back at the older brunette she walked the short distance to the Physics lab, round to the right walking a few steps before leading the two down a set of stairs, pointing as they turned left, they walked about twenty more feet before Clarke noticed Octavia standing outside the Physics lab. As her best friend saw her she smiled at her before her eyes caught the image of the two brunettes behind her.

Octavia studied the two brunettes behind Clarke, she scanned them over thinking about how she knew them both after a second or two it hit her and she let out a gasp, her hand shooting to cover her mouth so she didn't scream or make any loud noises that would give away the surprise. Moving forward quickly she walked until she was in front of Lexa excitedly saying "Lexa…. oh my god…I can't believe it…. does Raven know you're coming? Of course, she doesn't she'd be super excited and not spending way too much time sucking up to the teacher…. anyway, what are you doing here? And Costia oh my god you're so big in person….and I'm talking way too much without introducing myself properly…. I'm O…."

"Octavia…. I know exactly who you are" Lexa smiled cutting Octavia off mainly through fear the woman would run out of oxygen and pass out. Stepping forward she pulled the girl gently into a hug for a second before releasing it and stepping back smiling brightly at Octavia "So to answer your twelve questions, No Raven has no idea I'm here or that Costia is here…Which you guessed because she would have been very excited…We're here with our Mom and Stepdad Titus, plus our little brother but I can't say why until I see Rae…And Yes Costia is a lot bigger in person" Lexa finished a smile still on her face as she laughed softly at Octavia's slightly embarrassed expression. She watched as Octavia's face filled with relief and her expression and her body language relaxed as she let out a sigh. "How long is she gonna be in there?"

"I have no idea, she does this all the time….she tries to get me in there as well but I can't deal with all the science"

Lexa laughed softly at the comment "I know what you mean, nobody knows where she gets the love of science and blowing things up from" Lexa watched as Octavia laughed softly at her comment before visibly thinking and then speaking;

"Do you want me to try and get her out here?"

"Sure you can try"

"Great" Octavia smiled back before turning to the door stepping closer she peaked her head around the corner seeing her girlfriend standing at one of the counters in the science lab a vile of blue liquid in her right hand as her left hand moved along a lab book as she carefully read it, closely as she copied whatever was written in the book. Leaning half her chest against the frame of the door looking at her girlfriend before she let out a sigh and moan as she spoke "Baaaaaaaaaaabe…when are you gonna be done? …..I'm starving…"

The comment got Raven's attention as she looked up from the book nearly dropping the vile she had in her right hand, removing her left hand she leant against it on the counter looking over at her girlfriend with a smile. "Hey…I'm sorry this is taking so long, but I cant get these two liquids to react and…." Raven instantly stopped herself laughing before smiling at Octavia and continuing "I'll be done in twenty the most I promise, you go meet Clarke and the others I'll catch up with you"

"But I wanna spend sometime with you….pretty please…"

"We spend loads of time together babe…I really need to do this"

"You always say that, you've always got some project, you know when I fell for you I didn't know you were a pyromaniac"

"I'm not I just like things to work…..I promise I'll make it upto you later…"

"Fine…" Octavia let out smirking at her girlfriend before turning making sure her ass was pushed out a little more than normal, looking back over her shoulder she noticed Raven shaking her head forcing herself to look back at the book. "Ok….you making me call in the big guns….I'm gonna call Lexa and tell her your not looking after yourself…"

"What now hang on babe…"

"Nope too late….I'm calling her now…" Octavia pulled out her phone smirking at her girldfried one last time as she saw her placing down all her items carefully. Stepping out of the room she heard Raven's voice calling out behind her

"Come on babe, that's way too drastic…"

"Too late…" Octavia smirked softly at Lexa before giving it a second and speaking a little louder than normal so Raven could hear her "Yeah, I'm sorry to bother you Lexa she just won't listen to me….Uh huh I'll put you on speaker now"

Lexa laughed softly playing along with Octavia keeping her voice as low as she could so she didn't give away her being there in person "Raven…"

"Oh that is so uncoo….." Raven started as she came out of the door stopping in her tracks as she instantly noticed her sister standing in front of her, she wasn't sure what was going on or if this was even real, but she knew Lexa was standing in front of her. "Lexa?..." She asked, blinking her eyes a couple of times before she looked at Octavia seeing the massive smile on her girlfriend's face followed by a simple nod "You're here?"

"Yeah I'm here….and I'm real, your not hallucinating"

"Lex…" Raven let out with a massive smile before she took off lunging forward wrapping her arms around her twin sister. Hugging her as tight as she could, trying to ensure that this wasn't a dream or a hallucination by any means. "You're really here" She whispered into her twin's ear unable to hold back a small rush of tears running down her cheeks, as it hit her just how much she'd missed her sisters and brother, and it was a lot more than she realised something she didn't think was possible. Still holding onto Lexa as tight as she possibly could. "I've missed you so much" Minutes passed by before Lexa forced a small amount of space between them smiling at her twin reaching up and wiping away the tears quickly;

"You ok?"

"Umm…" Raven sniffed back a few times before removed her arms from their place still around her sister. Taking a step wiping her face again she smiled back at her sister. Realising Clarke and Octavia were still watching them. "Yeah I'm good….so what are you doing here?"

Before Lexa could speak Costia stepped in-between her sisters her back to Lexa as she looked up at the big sister she hadn't seen in months, softly smiling she spoke "We came to see you Rae Rae"

Raven's face lit up even more as she leant forward slightly lifting her little sister off the floor and into her arms, hugging her tightly for a minute or two before pulling back and looking at her little sister. Taking in how much she'd grown since she saw her months ago "You've gotten so big Costia…."

"I know, I'm 6 now Rae Rae"

"I know you are, I'm really sorry I missed your birthday"

"It's okay Rae, Lexi said that you had to go to school….so did I….Mommy and Daddy wouldn't let me stay home….and then they didn't let me call you Rae Rae, I really wanted to but they said No…"

"It's okay Cos…Lexi told me how much you wanted to talk to me…she even told me that you hit your Daddy because you were upset"

"I did….But Lexi made me say sorry and I did because I'm not meant to hit people"

"No, your not…."

"I missed you loads and loads Rae" Costia sweetly said keeping her arms firmly wrapped around her sister's neck, she leant forward kissing Raven on the cheek, before resting her forehead on her sister's chin.

"I missed you loads and loads as well Cos" Raven smiled at the action kissing Costia on the forehead softly before moving her sister so her head was on her shoulder. Looking at her sister then back at Clarke and Octavia she looked back to Lexa softly saying "Should we get some food, because I'm really hungry and I wanna hear all about why your hear"

"Sounds perfect…. Lead the way" Lexa responded letting Raven walk in front of her as she was the one that knew where they were going. As they took a few steps forward Lexa looked back noticing that Octavia and Clarke hadn't moved from their spots. "Come on then ladies…. No arguments, I wanna get to know you both" She smiled her eyes meeting for a second with the cute blonde with blue eyes, the same blonde she felt pulled to, she had no idea why but she was sure that soon enough she'd find out why. She watched as the blonde smiled back at her before moving forward falling into a conversation with her best friend as they walked to the cafeteria.


Heda Studios

16:00-Thursday 30th March 2017

Lexa was sat in her spot now regretting the decision to make sure Maya got out of the studio, she knew it was her best bet as the police being informed of Roan's actions, but she also knew it was a massive risk considering how crazed Roan was acting right now. But now it was too late, she went with her instincts and now she had no choice but to try and keep Roan occupied and calm until the police could get to the studio. She watched as he paced backwards and forwards, after he'd let Maya out of the studio she chose not to answer the comment he'd directed at her. She was surprised when he didn't fly into a rage but instead began laughing like he'd been told the greatest joke in the world. After his laughing faded his face became very serious and very angry instantly as he looked at her waiting for her to answer, when she again didn't he began tapping the blade of the knife on the side of his neck, he did that numerous times before he began pacing. It'd been over ten minutes since he'd started his pacing and the constant pacing was getting faster and faster. She continued to watch him trying to judge, what he was doing and what his next action would be ignoring the pain that was stabbing at her right shoulder from the open wound. As she was about to speak he walked over to her kneeling down, pointing the knife at her as his face contorted slightly before he looked at her a smirk filling his face as he spoke;

"I'm only going to ask you one more time….and then I'm going open that wound on your shoulder even more" She could see that whatever calm was inside of Roan, whatever calm made him agree to let Maya go, was no longer there all she could see was anger and rage "You mentioned my sister…..now tell me before I make you tell me"

"Nia has been lying to you"

"And what exactly has she been lying about Lexa?"

"You said I fucked her….that's a lie"

"So what she fucked you MASSIVE difference"

"No….nothing happened between me and Nia…..NOTHING….I would never in a million years cheat on Clarke, I saw enough of my fathers messes to see what that does to a person….and besides that, I haven't wanted anyone but Clarke since the moment we got together…hell probably even before that…."

"And why exactly should I believe you huh? You could be making this up"

"She told you every single detail, right?"

"Yes, everything down to the scar on your hip"

"Exactly…. she's wrong, I don't have a scar on my hip…. not anymore"

"What do you mean not anymore?"

"I had a scar, and it's still technically there…but I've had it covered….it has the date me and Clarke got married covering it, I got it done on our honeymoon…"

"So, what she got a small detail incorrect doesn't mean she's lying"

"No it doesn't but she couldn't have seen me naked….I couldn't have fucked her without her seeing that tattoo and I know how evil and vindictive she can be, she wouldn't hesitate to rub that in and tell everyone that I had a tattoo of the date me and Clarke got married on me and that she kissed all over that tattoo…..think about it Roan you know your sister and you know I'm right…"

"Maybe your right about that but that doesn't mean she lied…"

"Why cant you just see it? Your sister lied to you to convince you to go after Clarke, I know your innocent in all of this…..you have to listen to reason here Roan"

"Why?"

"Because of Clarke"

"This is all about Clarke….I just want her to be happy…"

"Then think this through…..really think this through, would Clarke forgive me if I really cheated on her? Would she hug me and kiss me and tell me how much she loves me if I cheated on her….especially with your sister…. you say you know her"

"You could have convinced her to forgive you"

"You really think I could convince Clarke of anything….she knew about that tattoo I had and the only reason she forgave me was because she knew I didn't have a scar anymore….She knows I didn't cheat on her, she knows me better than most people….and she knows I didn't cheat, so if she could believe me why can't you, do you really think Clarke would risk the twin's growing up with me knowing I was a cheat"

"No she wouldn't…..but you could have…."

"Listen to everything your saying…. could have…..I couldn't have done anything, she blocked me out for a year, she kicked me out completely and didn't talk to me for almost as long….do you think me telling her something so small would have worked on her? Because we both know that Clarke is stubborn and nobody can tell her what to do…."

"I don't get it…." Roan stood up his hand shooting to his forehead as he again began pacing backwards and forwards before he stopped slapping his own head a few times before he looked back to Lexa "I DON'T GET IT…. WHY…. WHY WOULD NIA LIE?"

"Because she knew that no matter what, no matter how much you loved Clarke, you couldn't take me away from her…no matter how much you hated me for mistreating Nia or for whatever you hate me for, you couldn't take something she loved so much from her, because you know it'd break her…."

There was a moment of silence between them both, a moment when Lexa watched on as Roan's face softened and his body relaxed slightly. She didn't dare to speak in case whatever she said angered him and ruined the obvious signs of him calming down. The silence was broken when Roan's phone began to vibrate the sound of his ringtone filling the room, pulling his phone out of his pocket answering the call quickly;

"Nia, what is it?...No I haven't stabbed her yet….yes I know what I said, maybe just maybe I'm gonna do this whatever fucking way I like Nia….I'm sick and tired of you treating me like a lap dog, like I'm some puppy that you can trick and make do whatever in the hell you want me to do….No Nia I'm done….why…..WHY…BECAUSE YOU LIED TO ME…" Lexa watched as Roan didn't speak for a moment or two obviously letting his sister dig herself into a bigger whole "LEXA TOLD ME EVERYTHING….." Roan let out a small laugh as his eyes filled with venom and anger, something that Lexa knew wasn't a good sign "You and her never slept together…she never cheated on Clarke…you lied to me….….I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ANYONE ELSE NIA…Your my SISTER, your not meant to lie to me, you think I would have turned my back on you…..look at everything I've done for you…I tried to get Clarke's kids taken away from her….because I wanted to give you what you wanted….Lexa…..What exactly was me stabbing her meant to do Nia….because all I can see is me in a prison cell….you lied….you lied….so much, so many lies I can't think straight….this is all your fault…..NO I don't want to hear anymore, you lied about sleeping with Lexa, you lied about the cameras here….I bet you lied about Clarke saying she liked me as well…." When there was no response on the other end Roan knew he was right "This is all your fault Nia….BE A MAN?...Your right Nia I need to be a man and I will be because now you're going to pay….You love Lexa like I love Clarke….and now you're going to lose her just like I've lost any chance with Clarke…you gonna lose Lexa…you won't have a choice because she'll be dead…." Without another word to his sister he ended the call throwing his phone with force at the wall, it instantly smashed apart sending a cracking sound through the room. Lexa knew he'd thrown the phone but right now her eyes were glued on Roan, she'd heard every word he'd said and she knew he meant every single word he's spoken to his sister and that wasn't a really bad sign for her.

She continued to watch him hoping that he would calm down and that his words had been for show, she watched as his face and body language changed again, this time he seemed calm, almost like he was at peace with whatever he was about to do. Before she had a chance to say a word to him, Roan lunged towards her grabbing her, lifting her onto her feet and throwing her onto the couch before stalking over to her placing his knife between his jeans waistband and the belt he was wearing, the two materials pressing together and holding the knife in place as he began to rain down punch after punch on her. Lexa couldn't think about anything but protecting herself, as the pain built with every punch she tried her best to protect herself from each punch as it came, hoping that Roan would tire and come to his senses soon.


Raven and Octavia's House

In the Kitchen- 15:30

Octavia walked back over to the table where Raven was sat with Zachary on her lap, they'd just finished their coffees and Zachary had just finished his warm milk, so Octavia had placed all the cups in the sink and was now heading over to sit opposite her wife and son. As she sat down she smiled at her wife, she couldn't help but think about how nice this was, how normal it was, and she knew it was all her fault but she'd lied so much and hid those lies for so long now that she wasn't sure what she was meant to do or say, or how she was going to fix the heartbreak she'd caused Raven. In the small time they'd been apart she'd experienced a sadness she wasn't even aware was possible to feel, and she wanted that sadness to disappear. Not just for her, but for Zachary, having to explain to him everything he woke up that Mama wasn't home had become the worse part of her day. Taking a small breath in, she decided she was going to tell Raven what she'd be thinking about telling her since it happened two days ago.

"I need to tell you something"

Raven looked up from playing and talking to her son, looking at her wife and softly and calmly asking "Does he need to leave the room?"

"No, it's nothing explicit and hopefully you wont be angry at me"

"I'll try not to get angry"

"Thank you"

"So what is it?"

"Umm…two days ago I got a phone call….from Monroe…" Octavia noticed Raven instantly tense up and quickly spoke "I didn't call her I swear and it's not what you think…" Raven untensed a little before nodding at Octavia to continue "She called me, she told me that she and everyone else had heard you moved out, she asked me if now I was ready to go out with her….she asked me if wanted to meet up with her and go on a date…I said NO…Straight away, as soon as the words left her mouth, I said no…I wouldn't and don't ever want to go on a date with her…"

"Ok, so why are you telling me?"

"Because you asked me to be honest with you, and to tell you when things happen…you told me not to contact her either and I promised I wouldn't, so I just wanted to tell you before you heard and it got completely twisted and you thought I wanted her to call…..because I didn't…the call only lasted about a minute I can prove it…I can show you my p…"

"Octavia…it's okay, I believe you….You don't need to show me your phone"

"But I don't mind, I know you want me to earn you trust back and I'm okay with that"

"Knowing you'd let me is enough for me okay?"

"Are you sure?"

"I'm one hundred percent sure, the most important thing is that you told me….that's all I want, I don't want you to cut yourself off from me, I just want you to talk to me and tell me how your feeling…if things happen like that then I wanna know, just because you lied to me for so long doesn't mean that I'm going to keep judging you or accusing you….you have to trust me to hear it and I have to trust you to tell me what I need to hear….fair enough?"

"Yeah…." There was a moment of silence before Octavia continued "Lonely"

"Lonely?"

"You said I have to tell you how I feel….and recently I feel lonely…I'm not saying it to make you feel guilty I just want you to know that's how I've been feeling…"

"It's okay….I've been feeling lonely as well…" Raven smiled at Octavia before looking down at their son resting his head against her shoulder peacefully "I'm so used to coming home to you and Zachary, and all the noise that comes with him, that sometimes I have to have TV on just so there's some background noise to take away silence in the apartment… I get it O, we've been together for so long, and lived together for more than half our relationship, it's bound to make us both feel lonely when we're not together…and I know I've not really been talking to you much and I'm sorry about that…."

"You don't need to apologise Rae"

"I do…because I promised that I'd work on things with you, and I've just buried my head in the sand and put everything into work, just to stop myself from accepting my side of things….I should have been talking to you when I pick Zachary up but I have to leave quick because if I don't then I'm afraid I wont make it past the porch…but when we spoke on the phone the other night, it felt so good to just talk to you, to hear you talk about your day and the things Zachary got up to, like how he ran around our bedroom naked after his bath or how he makes funny noises to make you laugh….I miss hearing about all of that"

"I miss talking to you too"

"So maybe we can work something out…."

"Like what?"

"How about we talk every two nights on the phone, and if that works then maybe we can facetime for a bit…then we can work on the face to face stuff, like family days out and date nights…one step at time but I'm ready to completely try fixing this if you are…"

"I am" Octavia responded, she was just about holding back her tears of joy as she looked at Raven a massive smile covering her face, she really wanted to kiss her wife but this wasn't the time to be pushing Raven and she knew it.

"Good then that's settled, we can start tonight…is that okay with you?" Octavia just about managed to nod in response before Raven felt a sharp stabbing on her right shoulder like something sharp was being dragged over her skin "Arghhh" She let out making Zachary move on her lap, looking down at her son she softly said, "I'm sorry baby boy…." Seeing the look of concern on Octavia's face she stood up carefully handing their son to her wife before turning her attention to her shoulder, pulling the material away from her skin she found nothing, no mark, no bruising, no disturbance to the skin what so ever. Looking to Octavia she softly explained "I don't know what happened, I felt this sharpness going down my shoulder…but there's nothing there"

"What could it have been?"

"I don't kno…." Raven stopped herself in her tracks looking around for her phone, remembering it was in the living room she rushed into the room, seeing her phone on the couch she ran to it picking it up she noticed a missed call from Maya and one from Monty. Instantly a panic filled inside her, there were very rare occasions she'd feel pain and not have an injury, it didn't happen very often but when she and Lexa were kids it happened all the time, whenever Lexa would fall over she'd feel the pain herself, she'd always thought it was something simple that could explain her feeling her sisters pain and Lexa feeling her pain but she never knew what that simple thing was.

"Raven, what is going on?" Octavia asked gaining Raven's attention as she entered the living room carrying Zachary in her arms.

"I think something's wrong with Lexa"

"What makes you think that?"

"I don't know O, I can't explain it…it's a feeling inside, I just I….I need to call Maya, I think something might have happened, it could be something simple…just give me a second" She said before pressing Maya's name on her phone, she waited patiently not getting and answer the worry inside her rose even more. "Damn it" She let out pulling the phone from her hear, looking at the screen she noticed a new voicemail message, pressing on it she followed the instructions pressing the buttons she needed before listening to the message, instantly recognising Maya's voice, as the girl softly and lowly spoke;

"Hey Raven it's Maya…I need you to get to studio as soon as you can…Roan is here and he's holding Lexa inside your studio…he's um….He's got a knife Raven and I'm not sure what he plans on doing….he told me not to call the police…he had me but Lexa convinced him to go…then he said no police but I know she needs help just….I'm gonna call them now so please hurry up because I think they'll need you here…and so will Lexa….I'm gonna call Clarke as well…can you call me when you can please…bye"

Raven replayed the message one more time making sure that she wasn't imagining what she'd heard. When she heard Maya's words for a second time she froze on the spot, she didn't know what to do, how could this be real, how could any of this actually be happening. And then she remember the pain she'd felt on her right shoulder, was that a sign was the something Roan had done to Lexa. Standing on the spot her phone dropped to her side and she stared at staircase the only thing in front of her. Tears began to fall from her eyes, and the next thing she knew Octavia was calling her name out asking her what was wrong. Then she felt Octavia's hands on her shoulders and saw her wife was no longer holding their son, she could see the worry in Octavia's eyes as she looked into her own. She blinked a few times before she plainly said "Roan's holding Lexa at knife point"

"What?" Octavia asked confused she was hoping this was one of Ravens really unfunny jokes. "Your kidding right?"

"I wish….Listen" Raven lifted the phone in between them pressing the replay button again she handed the phone to Octavia. Watching as her wife listened to the call hearing every word she'd just heard. "See….not a joke" Tears rushed down her cheeks even more as she looked at Octavia hoping she'd know what to do now.

"Rae you have to go there….don't put yourself in danger but Lexa's gonna need you when she gets out of there"

"But…"

"Don't worry about anything else, I'll call Bellamy…he's on duty and he can attend the call and he can drive past Clarke's to make sure she's okay…I'll call her as well and take the twins for the afternoon so she can be there with Lexa as well…"

"No…Bellamy shouldn't pick her up, it's on my way to the studio. I'll call her and pick her up…"

"Okay, I'll follow in my car"

"Right…lets go"

Raven didn't say another word, she watched as Octavia simply nodded and walked over to Zachary lifting him off the couch where she must have placed him. She walked straight to the door opening it and walking to her car, as she was jumping in the drivers seat Octavia came out of their front door her shoes on one hand and her keys in the other. Octavia nodded in her direction letting her know it was ok for her to go straight away. Turning on the engine she reversed the car driving towards Clarke pulling up the blondes number on her phone she pressed call waiting for an answer, within a second Clarke answered the call;

"Raven….please tell me Maya's voicemail was a joke…"

"She didn't speak to you directly"

"No I was playing with Olivia and I missed the call….well is it true?"

"I think so Clarke"

"What the hell do you mean you think so Raven? Your meant to be there with her aren't you"

"I was but she told me she could handle it on her own, she wanted me to spend time with Octavia and Zachary"

"So what the hell is going on then? Is she safe? Is Roan actually holding her at knife point?"

"I think he is, I cant explain it I just know"

"Oh my god….so what….Umm ah what do we do?" Clarke's asked her voice shaking slightly as she thought about all the things Roan could be inflicting on Lexa at this moment in time.

"Clarke it's okay just stay as calm as possible…" Raven soothed hearing the upset in her sister in laws voice as she tried to concentrate on her voice, glancing into her rear-view mirror seeing Octavia's car following her. "I'm driving to pick you up now…. Octavia is following me in her car with Zachary she's gonna take the twins until we can get to Lexa and work out what's going on….just hang in there for ten minutes Clarke, I'll be there soon, just stay as calm as you can for the twins…"

"Okay…I'll get Olivia ready Oscar is at Nursery until 4pm today then he needs to be picked up from adventure club…"

"Ok, get Olivia dressed and pack a bag for them both for the night just in case…just tell Olivia Zachary missed her and Oscar or something like that…I know it's hard but try not to let her see your worried or upset…"

"I'll try my best Rae…. see you soon…..and thanks"

"Don't mention it….and your welcome Clarke, see you soon"

Raven disconnected the call turning her attention back to the road completely trying her best not to think about her sister and the trouble she could be in. She was thankful that so far, she hadn't felt another burst of plate in anyway on any part of her body. As hard as she tried to block out the thoughts she couldn't stop her mind from wondering how this would end and even more why this was happening, why was Roan doing all of this to Lexa and Clarke, this couldn't be about him loving Clarke this was way too extreme for it to be about his unrequited and unreturned love. The more she thought about it the less sense it made to her.


Heda Twin Records Studio 16:17

Lexa was still laying on the couch where Roan and left her after what felt like hours of punching her continuously, with every punch he threw his anger lessened slightly until he'd stopped and walked away sitting on a chair across the room from her. As she laid there she tried to work out how she was going to convince Roan that he didn't have to kill her. She was trying her hardest to think of something but all she could think of was the twins and Clarke, of Raven and Costia and TJ, and how her being killed would affect them. She'd never once hated loving them all so much until now, because now that love was making it impossible to think about anything but them. She was trying her hardest not to let her tears spill from her eyes no matter what he did to her she didn't want to cry, mainly through fear it would anger him even more. As she looked up at the ceiling memories of her and Raven decorating this room flashed in her mind, she remembered how it was the last time they'd been allowed to have TJ and Costia for a week, the last time she could remember seeing her little brother and sister in person, it'd been so long and so many things had gotten in the way of her and Raven seeing TJ and Costia, mainly their mother she'd always been difficult but they'd never thought that because they couldn't forgive her, she'd keep Costia and Tristan away from them. It was only know that she wondered what her younger siblings thought of her and Raven, did they know they both tried their hardest and that it's their mother stopping them seeing them both, she hoped they knew, that they both knew how much her and Raven loved them.

Those thoughts lead her to the twins and with every breath she took she hoped that they both knew how much they meant to her, that they were her world and the greatest thing she'd ever done with her life. No matter how much her and Clarke had been through having the twins was the single greatest decision they'd made. She knew that from the moment she held them both in her arms, seeing the faces looking up at her, so innocent and pure, she knew how much they needed her, she remembered Clarke being asleep recovering from giving birth as she looked down at both the twins and promised them that she'd always be there for them making sure they were happy and loved and that no matter what they needed or wanted she'd make sure they had it. That day had to be the happiest day of her life, the day her and Clarke's family had finally been completed. And now here she was thinking about the happiest day of her life on what would probably be the worst of her life. The thought of the twins thinking she'd abandoned them, the thought of Clarke crying her eyes out over her dead body almost broke her, but she knew she couldn't start crying not now because she needed to keep herself together, if she was crying her eyes out she couldn't be able to talk to Roan and talk some sense into him. As she thought about her last conversation with her wife hearing the sound of Clarke's voice, she thought about every emotion the beautiful blonde had ever made her feel, from anger to rage to love to happiness she didn't even know she could feel, she was pulled out of her thoughts when Roan's voice filled the room, taking as a deep a breath as she could manage she pushed herself up the best she could with her tied hands, looking at him her vision slightly blurry;

"I want you to know I'm sorry…. for all of this, that you have be a sacrifice all to make a point to my sister…." As she looked at Roan knife still in his waistband between his belt and jeans material, she waited until he decided to speak again not sure what he was talking about. No matter what he was talking about, she could sense the change in his demeanour again. "I think it's only right that you know the truth before I do what I have to….this whole thing has been her, well from Octavia overhearing her talking onwards anyway…see she told me that you slept with her, and that's when the madness began, she used me told me that I had to do what was best for Clarke….see she always knew that I was in love with Clarke….but I swear to you, I didn't have a say in any of this, she lied to me you see….she knew I wanted nothing more than to be with Clarke and she used that, I didn't see what she was doing, I didn't think that she'd ever do that to me, no matter what happened it was always me and her against the world…..or so I thought…" Lexa flinched slightly when Roan's demeanour again changed "She convinced me that Clarke liked me back, that if I was there for her I'd earn her love, that in time she'd want me the way I wanted her, and no matter how much I tried it didn't work, but Nia kept telling me it was for the best…that you were no good for her because you cheated…" Everything inside Lexa wanted to shout out at him, but she couldn't she physically wasn't able to speak at this moment in time. "And now I know that was all a lie…she lied to me, when I told her that I didn't want to ruin your family, she told me you and her had sex, that's the only reason that I started seeing Clarke more and more, I let her push me and mould me into what she wanted, and when I told her you and Clarke were having problems with communicating….well she told me that I had to find a way for Clarke to find out that couldn't lead back to her…..and low and behold I saw Monroe and Octavia together see I knew that Raven didn't like them being together so I had a talk with Monroe, and it was sooooooo easy to convince her to help us make sure Octavia heard what Nia said…." He looked at Lexa suddenly he moved himself forward "I bet your wondering why Monroe was so easy to convince….well little secret, she hates your sister with a passion like she wants her dead, not because she wants Octavia but because she can't have Octavia….apparently Octavia shut her down pretty harshly and Raven told her a few things that she didn't like the sound of…ANYWAY….Monroe agreed to get Octavia to Nia's…actually our parents restaurant…but like I was saying, Monroe got Octavia there and the rest…well the rest you know…except the part where I stalked you and called CPS on you…."

The venom instantly rose inside Lexa and she leant forward ready to headbutt Roan, before she pulled back she stopped herself leaning back again. Forcing herself not to do anything that could make Roan kill her instantly, she was still holding out hope that Maya had called the police and that they were on their way to help her. She watched as he laughed and smirked before continuing;

"See I've been following you since that night you pushed me and threatened me and told me never to touch your wife again…as soon as that happened I called my sister, see I couldn't understand why Clarke would take you back after you cheated so I called Nia, I asked her what to do because she always knew what I had to do….she always knew how to fix the situation no matter what it was….she told me that I had to hang back and let Clarke realise that she'd made a mistake…she convinced me to hang back…..BUT she told me to watch you, to see how you and Clarke were together so I did…not when you were in the house I couldn't get close enough without someone seeing me…BUT I watched you I the garden, until Olivia saw me and I had to stop that, then it was just you whenever you'd go out by yourself or with the twins…I wanted to know what you were planning…and then I saw you at the movies with Clarke, all happy and loved up like nothing had happened and I watched as you and her kissed and hugged taking pictures with each other like there wasn't anything in the world worrying you both….and then I knew that she'd forgiven you, that no matter how much I'd try and sabotage you, she just kept on trusting you no matter what…I couldn't push too much because I didn't want to hurt her but I made sure that there were loads of reminders of Nia all around, but Clarke didn't see it…she just trusted you blindly…and seeing you both at the movies was the last straw…after I told Nia of course…she went crazy, I've not seen her that angry in a long time and then boom it hit me, I'd been thinking about CPS for a long time I mean I knew you and your idiot twin sister had history with them so I decided that was one of the last things I could do. And when Nia got that upset at me I decided it was time to finally go with my CPS idea…so I made the phone call anonymously, you've gotta tell me how you managed to convince that woman the case was false…because I'll tell ya…" Roan paused for a second leaning back and laughing loudly as he finished "I was pretty damn convincing, I mean I laid it on thick Lexa….made out you don't care for them properly…I guess you're just more convincing in person…but anyways, when Nia heard that your children weren't being taken WOOOOOOOO she went CRA…..ZZZZZZYYYYYY…So I told her that whatever she wanted I'd make it happen….now granted she didn't know what I planned not until minutes ago…"

Roan was about to continue when a vibrating sound filled room, he looked at Lexa raising his eyebrows knowing that sound wasn't coming from his phone. Leaning a little closer to her, he smirked before reaching his hand forward and removing the phone from her pocket. The same phone she'd tried to reach numerous times unsuccessfully. She wriggled and tried her best to stop him grabbing the phone again to no success, her actions only making the mad man smirk even more. As he held the phone in his hand he let out a loud 'tut' as he noticed the name 'My One' on the screen, the smirk falling from his face as he looked at the name and the picture that accompanied the contact, knowing it was Clarke calling the phone. "Maybe she thinks she can save you….see no doubt that idiot Mia, Mona,…Maya or whatever the hell her name is has called your sister and most likely the police as well…but believe me I've been studying this place and no matter how much the camera's see me…" Roan moved closer to Lexa so close she could tell what he'd had for lunch. Her eyes closed and she stopped herself breathing in the smell of his rotten breath as he continued speaking "I've been pretty much stalking you for the last two months, and not just when your at Clarke's house or your apartment but here as well….and I know every single way possible to get out of this place…see that was the plan, it didn't matter that I got caught on camera it mattered that Nia lied…and really this is lose, lose for you because no matter what way this went whether you'd have mentioned Nia or not…I was going to kill you….it was because of Clarke but now it's because of Nia, so I can hurt her just like she did me…she shouldn't have lied…..I wonder…" He contemplated removing the knife from its place on his waist and tapping it on Lexa's open shoulder wound "I wonder if that will bring Clarke some comfort….and your children…. especially lovely little Olivia…she's such a little Mama's girl always whining and moaning for her Mama, giving me grief and speaking rudely like the little cunt she is…." Roan was stopped from speaking when Lexa's head flew forward connecting with his with a hard thud, sending him flying backwards slightly, his nose beginning to gush blood. Lexa didn't care what he was going to do to her anymore, she knew he was planning on killing her and she'd given up hope of the police coming, even if they were coming there was no way she was going to let this mad man talk about her children like that. "You going to regret that" He coldly responded his free hand reaching forward and grabbing hold of Lexa's chin lifting her until she was sitting up completely her feet landing on the ground.

"Fuck you"

"I'm sorry…. what was that?"

"I said Fuck you…" Lexa responded swallowing as much saliva as she could, making it a little easier for her to speak after the beating she'd taken. "I'm not scared of you…I'm not scared of dying, because I know Raven will be there for them….as much as I don't want to leave them, you're a psychopath…your gonna kill me and then you'll be gone forever, your sister will be free to love whoever she wants….and Clarke….no matter how long it takes her she'll move on, she'll love again….but no matter what she will NEVER LOVE YOU…no matter how hard you try you'll never be me…"

"Be you…. why would I want to be you…pretty soon you'll be dead"

"And for revenge on your sister…you have no idea how entertaining it is to know that everything you did was for nothing, that your sister used you like the bitch you are…You can take me away from the world but it won't change your life or make it any better than the pathetic mess it is…nor will it won't change the fact that you're a psychopath…" Lexa knew she'd regret her words as soon as Roan let out a single laugh, she watched in almost slow motion as his fist pulled back and flew through the air until it connected with her chin sending her flying forward onto the floor, her face crashed against the hard surface of the floor, sending her teeth firmly into her cheek, she instantly felt her jaw shake and her teeth tear into the skin on the inside of her cheeks. She took in a sharp breath as her mouth filled with what she knew was blood, at the same time she felt Roan grab her legs and roughly throw them onto the floor. Rolling onto her back she leant to her right slightly spitting out the blood that had pooled in her mouth, once she'd finished she leant her head against the floor closing her eyes. She was almost ready to accept her fate when she heard a voice, she was sure she was hearing things until she heard it again, it was someone telling people to move away and then to get back, that was when it hit her where she knew that voice from….it was Bellamy. Silently she thanked Maya knowing that no doubt that Bellamy meant the police which meant Maya had gone against what Roan had told her, no matter how scared the girl had been she'd done the right thing for Lexa. Opening her eyes, she looked up seeing Roan standing over her, instantly remembering and regretting her provoking words at him "WAIT…I'm sorry…"

"Oh now you're sorry huh…. now you're sorry….NOW…." Roan loudly let out grabbing Lexa by the shirt and lifting her off the ground and forcibly onto her feet, as soon as her feet hit the ground she stumbled, she knew if Roan's hands weren't holding her up she'd have been on the floor again instantly. But his hands were there, and they were pushing her backwards until she hit the wall next to the door hard. Her head hit the wall with a thud that was worse than when she headbutted Roan moments before. She knew all she had to do was hold out for a little longer and Bellamy would get her out of here, but now her head was spinning slightly her brain trying to un-ramble itself as Roan continued speaking "YOUR SORRY NOW YOUR GONNA DIE…..you think I don't know you can hear the police…I know they're out there, I know they're coming for me but guess what…" Roan asked almost whispering now "Their gonna be too late to save you, or stop me….because it's time Lexa…all those words, that head-butt all your failed attempts to stop me…what? …" He let out a sadistic laugh as he looked deep into her eyes "You thought I didn't see what you were doing…. trying to trick me….tut tut tut Lexa….I'm sorry but there's no going back…there never was…" Roan was stopped in his tracks when he heard Clarke's voice calling out Lexa's name. Letting her go he watched as she turned slightly trying to look through the window, a tiny piece of her hoping Roan had seen sense and was about to let her go. That tiny piece was quickly shattered into a million pieces as she felt a sharp pain in her right hip, as something cold sliced through her electing a gasp of pure pain to fall from her lips. As she felt the cold sensation disappear she looked down at her top seeing the thing she'd been fearing for that last hour, her blood seeping through her top and turning it red.


Outside Head Twin Records' Studio-16:48

Clarke and Raven had jumped out of Raven's Rover minutes ago, when they'd arrived they saw Bellamy standing with about twenty police officers around him all listening as he told them what to do. As they walked forward the officers spread out around the parking lot, half of them went to various points around the parking lot whilst the others stayed close to the entrance of the Studio, some of the taking cover behind the bonnets of their cars whilst four of them stood in sight of the entrance their guns pulled and aimed at the door awaiting anyone who may potentially exit through the doors. As they reached him, Bellamy hugged them both telling them he was going to get Lexa out of there. When he told them that they had to wait for Roan to contact them Raven began to lose her temper, telling him this wasn't about money or anything else but Revenge of some sort. He didn't believe her, not until she pulled out her phone showing him the footage she had downloaded and telling him about the phone call, all this information completely new to Clarke. Raven told Clarke that she knew she wanted to know about everything but now wasn't the right moment, Clarke agreed and they proceeded to ask Bellamy what the new plan was, to their surprise he told them that they would still have to wait, that storming into the studio was only going to risk Lexa's life even more after, according to everything that Maya had told him when he spoke to her upon his arrival at the studio. The more he spoke the angrier Clarke got, she began shouting out for Lexa telling them to do their jobs before it was too late, it got so bad that Raven had to pull Clarke back to her car in hopes of calming the blonde, when Clarke remained agitated Raven placed her hands on Clarke's shoulders looking her in the eyes;

"Clarke, you need to calm down and stop shouting"

"How the hell can I do that Rae…. this is all because of me…she could be dead by now…"

"Hey, she isn't dead….and none of this is your fault"

"How do you know?"

"Because this is about Roan and Nia's obsession, this is about them not being able to move on…"

"That' not what I meant Raven…. How do you know she isn't dead?"

"Because I'd know okay…. like I know when she'd hurt or upset"

"You don't always know Raven…." Clarke dejectedly said her eyes conveying all the upset she was feeling as she looked at her sister in law

"She's not stupid Clarke, she won't aggravate him, she'll keep him calm until help gets there…. she knows Maya wouldn't just go home and not call someone especially the police…. she'll be trying to talk him down and keep him calm…. just have faith in her Clarke….okay?" Clarke weakly nodded her head at Raven as the brunette pulled her into a hug wrapping her arms around her and gently hugging her. Raven didn't mention the stabbing pain she was now feeling in her right side, she didn't mention it because she knew mentioning it would only make it real, and she was hoping with everything inside her that it wasn't.

They were pulled out of their moment when they heard a police officer radio go off 'Suspect exiting through the rear, officers currently in pursuit assistance requested' as they both heard the call their heads turned in the direction of the voice. As their heads turned they noticed numerous officers looking around before a few jumped in their cars and headed in the direction of both exits. Looking at the entrance they exchanged a look nodding their heads once before without a word they took off running to the entrance, Bellamy managed to grab hold of Raven stopping her from running into the building. Clarke however kept on running through the reception area and to Raven and Lexa's personal recording studio, as she reached the door she noticed it was wide open a small beeping sound coming from the panel near the door. Moving forward more she peaked into the room, her whole world came crashing down as her eyes landed on the image of her wife, laying on the floor her top and part of her trouser covered in blood, blood that was pooling around Lexa's torso underneath her, her body seemingly lifeless…..


So, Is Lexa dead? Will she die? Well we will have to wait and see but all I will say is Lexa is a SURVIVOR lol….but that doesn't mean she is out of the woods (Minor Pun intended)….Anyway, what did you all think about this chapter…it wasn't exactly what I wanted but I enjoyed writing it….As always please feel free to leave a review, all are appreciated all I ask is you please be respectful of the fact I'm a human being with feelings as well But alas I am rambling, so I will say, until next peeps and peepettes Stay Safe and Keep Fanficing….