A/N: First: This chapter is kinda weird.
Second: FVGBN'LME9Ö-4235NTEOKEFMS0DKS0MFG!"#$%&/() OH MY FUCKING SIRIUS-ORION-BLACK-a.k.a-THE-HOTTEST-PERSON-THAT-HAS-WALKED-THE-EARTH-INSIDE-MY-VERY-MIND-FUCKED-HEAD I HAVE FREAKING TWO HUNDRED REVIEWS? *dies*
Third: Good to have that out of my system
Fourth: FGAHWJPEMIGRA FUCKING OMG! This is so not out of my system
Fifth: I wrote a Lily/James story called Fighting Fate, read it or die! :D
Sixth: Here would be a special shout out to my amazing beta GinnyWeasley77, but she was MIA and I really wanted to get this out this fast, so I had no beta, you must excuse that! She is still amazing though!
Seventh: Read before I explode all over the screen!
Chapter 28
Marlene McKinnon
I have no idea why I let Mary talk me into this. It's probably just because after everything that happened I'm freaking sentimental, we're all… healing each other, hugging random people and like talking to Emmeline who by the way saved a random person! Or well maybe not random - Blaire Vandever, Remmie's girl friend.
Blaire is still unconscious though, and well I guess James, Remus and I also saved a bunch of random persons too, not a bunch and only just one random really; Sirius and Ariadne.
Okay, so I'm rambling in my head, and that's something really out of character for me. Really. I do tell myself that I'm stupid every now and then but I never ramble like this.
Okay so a part of the reason why I agreed on doing this is probably it's easier to avoid Sirius this way. But still, this is a load of crap.
"Mare, this is a load of crap."
Mary rolls her eyes beside me. "No Lene, this is being nice."
"Nice?" I wrinkle up my nose "I swear, this attack on Hogsmeade has you too sentimental, few weeks ago you were all screw the war and live the life you've got and now you are all the war is strong, love each other, talk to people you've never talk to before." I roll my eyes at her. "I mean I know Virgin Mary was some saint, but puh-please, you cannot be any Virgin Mary, and really I don't want you to be a saint, but seriously if you need to be a saint-"
"Lene, Shut-it!" Mary shouts out laughing. "Look, I just wanted to go with Emmmeline to see if Blaire is okay, and I dragged you with cus you practically begged me to do something with you cus you're avoiding Sirius, I'm not turning into a saint, it's just .. I guess I am realizing I am in danger, we're all in danger."
I roll my eyes again but nod. "Where is Emmeline anyway?"
"Meeting us there," Mary shrugs.
"Great. Mary, is she our friend again? Cus you don't seem ready to decide if we like her or not, blankly I don't really care… Oh but yeah I do, I don't like her at all. I mean she went all bitch on our ass and just stopped hanging and now suddenly this year she's all Miss Nice that never meant to hurt us."
Mary sends me a look that implies nothing else than she thinks I'm gone crazy.
"Lene, I think you may have hit your head, not even you talk this much."
I give her a frustrated sigh.
"Look, I don't know if we're friends, she just did a really nice thing by saving Blaire, like you saved Ariadne, and now we're going to go see them too and talk to them-"
"They are probably still unconscious! No one talks to an unconscious person, they can't hear."
Mary rolls her eyes again. "Seriously, Madame Pomfrey might want to take another look at your brain, you seemed to have lost it Lenie dear."
"Don't call me Lenie,"
"You're here!" Emmeline interrupts mine and Mary's bickering as she waves us from her stand next to the hospital wing's door.
I don't wave back, I don't like that girl.
"So, should we go in?" Mary asks and grabs the door knob.
Madame Pomfrey lets us in when we tell her we're here to see Ariadne and Blaire, I mean the whole school has their twisted ideas of what happened, but no one knows exactly the truth so the Hospital Wing gets really crowded now of days, so Madame Pomfrey has been trying to not let so many people in, but knowing we were actually a part of the people that saved them, we get special treatment. Yay for us.
The stories that the students in the school make up are actually rather funny, just so not close to the truth. One I hear said that Sirius crucio-ed Bella Bitch right back and now she's lying half dead in a hospital. Believe us we wish that had happened.
Inside of the room, it's not hard to spot Ariadne and Blaire, their beds are crowded with their friends, I faintly recognize some of them.
"So, what do we do now?" I ask Mary, "-Just walk at their friends and say 'excuse me we want to talk to your unconscious friends?'"
"Pretty much," Mary laughs out and walks towards the girls,
Emmeline and I stay put behind her.
She pokes a blonde haired girl that if my mind serves me right has the name Elettika Snow and is in Slytherin, I guess the Gryffindors can be friends with Slythmonsters. No, that's just arsehole talk; this girl must be some really extra nice Slythmonster.
"Yes?" the girl sneers out.
Or not, she seems like a real evil Slyhtmonster, what do the two Gryffs see in that monster?
"My name is Mary Macdonald, and my friends and I-" Mary points at me and Emmeline "Were wondering if we might have a minute or two with Ariadne and Blaire, Em over there is the one that found Blaire and Marlene helped with the saving of Ariadne," Mary forced up a smile. It was weird seeing Mary this polite, it really made me want to kick her.
Why are people acting so strange?
When all I want is just for things to go back to normal everybody else seems to want everything to get twisted into difficultness.
The Slytherin bitch turned to her friends and then sighed. "Why? They can't even talk back,"
"We just want to… have a moment, we'll not be long," Emmeline spoke up next to me. "It would mean a lot."
There is a sigh until one of the other girls – Aurelie Bones I think – nods her head and pulls the Slytherin bitch and the other girls towards the doors. "We'll be waiting outside, don't be long."
Mary tells them thanks but I don't bother, those people annoy me already.
"Uhm, who wants to talk to them first?" Emmeline asks and Mary and I shrug, with a sigh she walks over to the chair that's in the middle of the floor between the two beds where Blaire and Ariadne lay in. She sits on the chair and then grasps for Blaire's hand.
Mary and I stand awkwardly in the background and watch her.
"Hey Blaire, it's me, Emmeline… you know the one that found you that day? It's been few days, two actually and you're still unconscious and that's really hard on all your friends and on Remus. Remus is really sad, so it would mean a lot to everyone – me included – if you would wake up soon, okay? Because you can be fine, Madame Pomfrey just says your head got a little jacked up, but you should be fine, so you really should wake up so that can be true and you and Remus can go back to your snogging and stuff." she laughed. "Yeah, this is a bit awkward; I mean can you hear me? Guess not.. I hope so though.. anyways, it was nice seeing you." Emmeline turns to us with a frown as she stands up "I had no idea what to say."
Mary shrugs. "My turn!" she exclaims and bounces towards the bed – Mary never bounces so she is incredibly out of character. It sickens me.
Instead of sitting down on the chair she sits down on Blaire's bed, making herself rather comfortable. "Hello Blaire dear, well this is Mary Macdonald, I have no idea if we have ever talked, probably not so uhm… nice to meet you! But I'm Rem's friend and he's worried about you so I want you to get better so he can relax and stop snapping at us and throwing books, it's really annoying. Like honestly." She pats Blaire on the head and then stands up from her bed and walks over to Ariadne. "Yo Ellingham, we here have no idea if you can hear us but we like to talk so we just talk. I'm Mary, the one that asked you all those questions about Blaire because I was afraid she was gonna backstab Remus, It's nice to talk to you, get better." Ariadne also got a pat on the head and then Mary walked over to us whispering to herself.
"Awkward!"
She then turned to me and nudged me. "Your turn Lene!"
I scowl. This is something I really don't want to do, I hate being awkward.
I slowly walk towards Blaire and stand next to her bed.
"Uhm, hi Blaire, this is Marlene obviously. I'm a dear friend of Remmie and really don't like to see him hurt and I'm sorry that you are hurt so yeah.. you should really get better so everything can get normal… and yeah.. this is awkward.. you can't hear me can you? You can't even answer and I'm asking you so yeah this is awkward." I say and play with my hair, with a sigh I decide that I've talk to Blaire enough and turn to Ariadne. "Hey Ariadne, this is Marlene obviously. Uhm, it wasn't really me that saved you, it was James, you should thank him and get better, bye!"
I hastily walk towards Mary "This was so stupid! Why did we do this again? We just wasted many minutes talking to almost corpses that can't hear us! I don't like you." and then stalk towards the door with a giggling Mary and Emmeline behind me.
"Done?" Slytherin Bitch asks as soon as we open the door.
"Oh yeah, it was really nice," Mary says with an awkward smile.
"Not awkward at all." Emmeline nods.
"So sweet and we are really thankful and we'll let you know if we want to do it again," Mary forces out a smile.
"We won't" I mutter under my breath and break through the mob of the young friends of the two Gryffindors, jabbing my elbow into Queen Slytherin Bitch's shoulder on my way, which felt really good.
Probably the first thing since the big Hogsmeade fiasco that has felt good.
- Hunting For Happiness -
So ever since Dumbledore brought Sirius, Remus and me back to the school after he apparated with James and Ariadne, life had been... well more complicated.
I have almost not even seen Sirius since the attack, he had to stay at the hospital wing for a whole day, but then he was able to go, but Ariadne was kept sleeping because Bella bitch's curse hit her some really bad way said McGongall.
Anyways, we had all been allowed to go back to our dormitories and school would be off for a whole week, which is just luxury, except none of us did actually enjoy it.
Not at all.
I sigh as the memories come back to my mind from the night Sirius got out of his hospital bed and was allowed back on his feet yesterday.
I really hate fighting with people and I haven't talked to Sirius since the "hallway incident" like we call it. I have no idea what I could possibly say to him if we do talk, everything I could've thought about saying was said when that happened yesterday and I honestly can't think of anything more to say. I'm not even sure if he will call me his girlfriend anymore.
- Hunting For Happiness -
FLASHBACK
"Sirius said Madame Pomfrey was going to let him out tonight," James says and throws himself on a couch in the almost empty common room.
Alice sits in an armchair reading and Lily is trying to use her crutches to pull another book closer towards her. None of us bother helping her, truthfully we're all tired after what happened the day before yesterday, we all slept yesterday off and today is our first day doing something… so of course we chose to do nothing.
"Really?" Mary asks and looks up at James.
"Yeah, I really want to find him, punch him and then hug him. He's never before got me this scared."
"Same here," all the others agree and Remus closes his book.
"I'm going for a walk," I sigh out, my head is too filled with thoughts right now and honestly I haven't been feeling like myself since all of this and it scares me a little bit.
"Alright, want to go alone?" Lily asks with a rather worried look on her face.
We're all trying to hang together as a group to - like McGongall called it – cope together and help each other through this trauma.
"I'll be fine on my own, I won't be long," I say with a fake smile and a wave and then push the fat lady portrait and clime out.
It's good to walk alone, to have some room to just think for myself. This is really what I needed.
There is an awkward cough behind me and I turn around, and there he is.
His hair is shaggy and black as normal, and his gray eyes make me want to jump on him and hug him, kiss his fainted red lips and just hold on forever.
But hell, Marlene McKinnon is not going to do that for Sirius fucking Black at the moment, no because Marlene McKinnon wants to beat Sirius fucking Black's ass back to stone-age at the moment.
"Hey," his hand ruffles through his hair as he talks, "She finally let me out."
"I see that," I reply coldly, my eyes narrowing.
His eyebrows rise. "I thought you'd be happy that I'm okay and all," he gives away a laugh.
"Oh, so you want that now? And you actually care what I think?" the words come springing from my mouth without a possibility for me to stop them and frankly I don't want to.
"What's that supposed to mean?" his eyes are narrowing now and the grey color darkening.
"You know exactly what I mean Sirius," I say, my hands finding their places on my hips where they always set when I'm angry.
"No, I don't Marlene." he says almost spitting my name out which only makes me angrier.
"You went after Bellatrix didn't you! I know that you are selfish Sirius, but seriously even you can't be that selfish and-"
"And what?"
"- Daft!"
"Daft? How the fuck am I being selfish or daft if I want to stop some Death Eaters –"
"Because you know they'll hurt you and you are just a freaking student! Okay! You are NOT an adult, you are NOT an Auror! And you only did this because you have a personal history with one of them! But you can't do it okay! You are not allowed to! You were put into safety and you left that place and you left me, alone unconscious on the floor and when I woke up all I wanted was to find you because I fucking care about you but you don't give a shit about anyone else but yourself and getting revenge on your cousin-" my hand flies in the air to point at him but he grabs it and forces me to stop talking.
"You can't tell me how the fuck I work McKinnon-"
"OH! So I'm MCKINNON now? Who am I? We're fighting and I'm not your girlfriend anymore? Nice." I yank my hand back but he doesn't let go. "You left me Sirius, in the middle of a fight!"
"I had to!"
"You didn't have to! You weren't even supposed to!"
"You left you know, too! To find death eaters –"
"YES! BUT NOT TO FIGHT MY COUSIN OR ANY DEATH EATERS! BUT TO FREAKING SAVE YOU!"
"I made the right decision."
I stop in my steps and lower my hand that he still has a good grip around.
"What?"
"I don't regret it."
"Sirius you must be crazy! Nothing about that decision was RIGHT. You were almost killed and so was another girl. It's not right."
Sirius shrugs "I needed to find Bella, to make sure that it was her-"
"It's always about this freaking cousin! Who cares Sirius, she's a death eater, that doesn't make it right for you to throw your life on the street as a truck passes by!"
He says nothing just looks away and let's go of my hand,
There is a silence and he moves lightly so his face isn't looking at mine and his body isn't turned at me completely.
"Are you even sorry?" I manage up, my voice breaking a bit with each word.
"Sorry?" he turns again and looks at me. "For what?"
I can't stop myself for feeling shocked. "For what? Well… For leaving me? For putting yourself in danger? For scaring us shitless? For making us have to come after you? For so many things Sirius-"
"No. I'm not. I did what was right."
His voice cuts through my like knives.
"…You aren't sorry," I shake my head and look down. "Then I can't forgive you."
I look up at him with tears and my eyes, and then I make a run for it and run as far away from him as I can.
A/N: I'm still so happy with all the reviews, siriusly guys you rock!
So this chapter is seven whole pages, it was rather strange and you may notice that Marlene's character and her thoughts are strange in this chapter, that's cus she's going through some serious trauma from the Hogsmeade thing and now also because of the last scene (or the 'Hallways incident) anyways, what do you guys think? And what's next for the lovely fighting couple? Makeup… or breakup?
Oh, that reminds me! Did you all see the Pottermore site announcement thingie? I of course was wishing for a new book, but well I didn't really expect her to write a new book, but Pottermore sounds so exciting! But it just wont let me submit my email :( But I'm hearing that's a global issue … must keep trying!
One more thing I wrote a Lily/James story, like I said up there, but anyways you should really read it :D Its called Fighting Fate and can be found on my profile!
