Hello! So, I'm going to get straight to it. Sorry again if the smut was terrible.. It wont happen often so, yeah.. And if you liked it, I know. Because some people out there are sick perverts who like that kind of stuff c; And the stuff that happens in this chapter had to happen, for future chapters.
LOL, Well, enjoy this chapter, if you can..
The next day I felt like I was on top of the world. I lost my virginity, sort of, and I was in love. Nothing could spoil my mood, or so I thought. When I got to my locker, Marissa was there again, upset. "Hey Marissa." I said, hoping she wasn't too sad. "So, did it happen last night?" "Yeah.. It happened." "And?" "I don't know... Something about it, wasn't what I expected. It felt, un natural." She said, crossing her arms. I unlocked my locker, and put all my stuff in it. "Of course it felt weird You had something, enter your body.." I said, awkwardly. "So, it wasn't weird for you?" She asked. "Well, that's different... We didn't exactly do that.." I said. "Oh... Blake, can we talk somewhere more private?" She asked. I nodded, and before going in, I checked to see if it was empty. Nope.
I saw Nellie and Cameron in there, making out. I quickly left the room, and shut the door. "Well, cant go in there." I said, walking down the hall. "How about the cafeteria?" She asked. I nodded, and we got in there. She sat me down, and started talking with me. "So, whats wrong?" I asked, confused. "When me and Bryce did it... I'm not too sure we were protected." She admitted, quietly. "He didn't wear a condom?" I asked. She shook her head, and started crying. "I'm scared Blake.." She said, through her tears. "It'll be okay..." I took her hand, and rubbed it.
That day in Glee club, we were all practicing our numbers. Me and Michael were in the glee club alone, working on our song. Right now, we were working on our dancing. "So, do these moves." I said, laughing. I was shirtless, and he was wearing a tank top. He was all sweaty, because apparently the moves were too hard for him. I was shirtless because, I dance better when shirtless, even though I knew I had to wear a shirt during the song..
"Break time..." Michael said, out of breath. "Fine..." I laughed, grabbing a water bottle. I took a sip on it, and handed it to Michael. He took a long gulp of water, then set it back on a table. "So..." He said, laughing. "What?" "You know..." He took my hand, and started swaying it. "How about we have some more fun tonight? If you get what I'm saying.." He said, laughing. "Michael.." I said, hitting him softly. "Alright, how about a quickie right now." He said. "Michael, no!" I laughed. "Whats wrong with you today?" I asked.
"I just want you so bad.." He said, making kissing noises. I laughed, and kissed his lips. "There, happy?" I said, smiling. He nodded, and took my hand. "Okay, we need to practice some more, or else Mr Theo will hate us." I said, letting his hand go. He pouted a bit, but did end up practicing again. I clicked the music to start, and we and him started to sing and dance.
We found love in a hopeless place... I sang, finishing up the song. "So, how about at the end of the song we do this big spin okay?" He said, starting to pitch ideas. He spun around, but didn't realize his shoes were un done. He tripped on it, and fell to the ground. "Good job.." I said, laughing. "Can you just help me?" He asked, holding a hand up. I nodded, and grabbed his hand. But he tricked me.. He pulled my hand and I fell on the ground beside him. "Oh you suck..." I said, laughing. "Blake?" He asked, turning his body towards me. "Yeah?" "We need to talk.." He said, starting to sit up.
"Am I in trouble?" I asked, smiling. He shook his head. "This really sucks to say.. Me and you, we aren't going to last.." He said, looking to the ground. "Huh?" "You're graduating at the end of the year.. I'm not." He said. "Well, we cant keep a long distance relationship?" I asked. He shook his head again. "So, what? Are me and you breaking up?" "No... I'm just saying that we, we need to make our year together, amazing." He said, looking over at me. I stood up, and helped Michael up. We both sat on a chair, and he took my hand.
"I think we can manage to do that." I said, looking into his eyes. "You're so perfect, its going to be so sad leaving you.." I said, upset. "Don't think of it like that.." He took my hand, but I rejected it. "Michael, what are we even doing?" I asked. He just looked at me like I was crazy. "At the beginning of the school year, I was in love with Nellie. I thought we'd never end, and then you came into my life. You changed everything.. I was living in my own home, I was popular, my parents loved me.." I started. "So, what? I ruined your life?" "Michael, if anything, you made my life better... But, now that you said what you did, about us having to end, I'm thinking, why put each other through that heartache? If we stay together we'll have more memories, and we'll be that much happier, it'll be harder to be apart."
"So, what are you saying?" He asked, starting to tear up. "Michael, you know what i'm saying." "No Blake, I actually don't What I'm hearing is that we cant be happy if Mr Blake isn't happy, we both have to be miserable. What i'm hearing is that we have to be apart for us to be happy even though we love each other!" He shouted, standing up. "Michael, I want us to work, I really do. But we cant!" "Well fine then! Maybe we should just break up right now!" He yelled. That took me back a little bit. I just looked at him, with tears forming. "Fine, maybe we should then!" "Great!" He yelled. He sat down beside me again, and just looked at me.
We sat down at our chairs for what felt like hours, but in reality was probably about 15 minutes. "So, were really doing this?" I asked, looking at him. "I think so.." He said, calmly. I nodded, and started to sob. "Goodbye Michael.." I said. "Bye Blake.." I reached over, and hugged him. He sobbed a bit into my shoulder. "I guess that's that then." I said, letting him go. I stood up, and headed for the door. "You know, I never intended for us to end." I said. "Me neither. I came here today, wanting us to be closer.." He said, standing too. "One last kiss?" I asked. He nodded, and pulled me in for a kiss. It wasn't anything too big, just a nice, little kiss, but it made me want to fall apart. I opened the door, and waved to him. He waved back, and that's when I left.
That's when I found Marissa in the hall at her locker. I looked at her, tears streaming down my face. She looked back, and immediately noticed. "I heard everything. Come here hon." She said, as I ran over to her. She wrapped her arms around me, and gave me a huge hug. "It will be okay." She said, trying to comfort me. I cried into her shoulder, and hugged her tightly. I never knew I could hurt so much, then how I hurt right at that moment.
Marissa let me go, and started to walk off. "You can stay with me Blake." She said, as she left. "Thank you so much." I said, running back over to her. This time when I hugged her, some of the stress got taken off my shoulders. So what does this mean? Were my parents right? Was I actually, not gay at all?
I looked over and saw Shanna at the doors, looking concerned. Heh, she actually looked really good that day. I walked over to her, and she gave me a hug. When we parted, I did something. Something I was going to regret later. I cupped her face into my hands, leaned over, and planted a kiss right on her ruby red lips.
