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Chapter 28

"Harry, Harry, POTTER…"

"Why isnt he waking up, what is going on."

"I hope we got to him in time."

"Everyone back up, let me do my work"


"Stay here Harry, you hear all those voices out there, their mad in here your safe."

"But what is here, where am I, all I can see is darkness, but…" Harry said as he looked around, but only seeing black.

"You mean you don't know where you are Harry, it's your home, and it's the place you belong."

"What do you mean, I have no idea where I am or who you are, what is going on here."

"This place your own creation Harry, although you haven't needed me in a long time, I was always here, I never left you, never turned my back on you, I only needed to wait until you needed me again, and now I am going to protect you, keep you till you find what you are looking for."

"But I am not looking for anything," Harry shouted into the darkness, "I need to get out, I have responsibilities I need you to let me go."

"Here's the kicker Harry, I'm not holding you here, you are holding yourself just you used to, think Harry, think back, than you will understand where you are."

Harry closed his eyes, nothing, than tried rubbing them, nothing happened again, "Fine I will do what you want, I will think."

Harry saw memories fly by as he though about his friends, about the danger that he had gotten them into time and time again, about the group they had formed, about the nights that he didn't sleep because he was terrified of how many lives were going to be lost because of him. Than he though back to past years, back to when it was just the trio, just Ron and Hermione helping him solve problems.

"Nothing," Harry said into the darkness.

"You need to think back farther," the voice said.

Harry closed his eyes again, his life before Hogwarts came at him, living with his relatives, being treated as a house elf, the many nights that he ran from his uncle out of fear, than there it was, the first night that his uncle came into his "bedroom" there it was the same darkness, he could here the same voice that was talking to him now, that was talking to him than.

Harry opened his eyes, "This is my hideout, and you're the guardian, but it wasn't like this when I was younger. It was different."

"That's because Harry, as you grew this place also grew, as you became darker, this place also became darker."

Slowly an outline of a child began to appear, the form began to take shape quickly, it was a little boy, than right in front of Harry's eyes that little boy grew up into a man.

"Its you, but I don't understand how, is it, I didn't know you until Hogwarts; even than in the beginning I hated you, how."

"Why don't you start at the beginning, now that you know what place this is" the man said.

"it, it was the first time that my uncle came after me, he was so drunk that I could smell the bourbon, as his fists were coming down I closed my eyes and thought of a place, any place other than this one, one that I could go away to. Just then I remember the pain leaving, I couldn't feel the hits anymore, but I could still see him hitting me. Than a little boy came out from the corner and asked if I wanted to play. Than every time after that when my uncle would start would do the same thing, close my eyes and think of that room with the little boy and I would be there and the pain would stop."

"That's right Harry, than once you entered Hogwarts you didn't need me anymore, but I was still there, I was always in the back of your mind ready to take the pain away, if there was an occasion that you called on me again, I would be ready. Than as your years at Hogwarts went on, it grew darker in here, soon you could see nothing, but I stood and watched."

"But I still don't understand, how is it you?"

"When your mothers first head of the prophecy involving you, she knew that your life was not going to be a easy one, she preformed a very complicated charm on you as well as me, so that a shadow of me will be in your mind, and be able to protect you in times of great pain, which I did."

"But you where always a child, I don't understand?"

"I stayed in that form to help you; I doubted that at that time you would have responded to a grown man. But now that you understand where you are I wish to know if you understand why you are here."

"I…All I remember is running with Ron, than nothing, I saw black and you started talking. My body must really be in pain though if I am here, my pain tolerance has gone up quite a bit since childhood; I guess I should thank my uncle for that."

"Part of that is true, you were in a great pain, but now that has been taken care of, the reason you are here is because you will never be able to fight your enemy and win well this room is dark. This is your core, this is where your magic is stored, in order to defect the dark, there needs to be light, you need to have the power of the light."

"But I am the light, I don't understand, how is it that it's so dark in here, I….I don't understand…"

"The reason why it is so dark in here Harry is because you have dampened your feelings, the only thing that you see now is to fight, is to win, you have no dreams anymore, you have no aspirations, as much as this is cliché, you need to live in order to be free, you need to live to get your light back, to lighten your core, only than will you be ready to fight and win."

"How long do I have to do this, how long do I need. I need to fight him before more lives are lost."

"That's all dependent on you, although I feel that you think of this as a chore, it is not, it could take one night or one year, it's all depended on you. There are ways that you can help it along, you can perform light magic, make light potions, as well as face your demons within, but if you choose that route, I will be besides you to help you fight."

"I think I understand, but now…."

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG" Harry shouted as his hand went flying to his head and he squished his eyes together.

"Your time here is up, it is now time to return, you know how to get back here when you must. You will know when it's light again, you will feel it. Goodbye my……"

The darkness was fading quickly, the pain was consuming.


Harry thrashed around the bed, kicking the covers off, than a scream ripped though the wing,

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG," Harry shouted as his hand went flying to his head and he squished his eyes together. Just as quickly the pain had come, it went. Harry opened his eyes to brightness, he quickly closed them again.

"He's awake," he heard someone say.

"Go get the Headmaster and Madam Pomfrey," he heard another force command.

Harry shot up at hearing that voice and opened his eyes,

"Its you, but how,"

"Potter lay back down, you need to relax Madam Pomfrey should be here any second, just calm down."

"Ok, umm Ok," Harry said as he caught his breath and slowly laid back down onto this bed,

"But you where there right, it was you, wasn't it,"

"Yes Potter, in a form it was me, thanks to your mother, she thought I would be the best one, and the most likely one to live since the person needs to be alive for it to work. Now lie down and sleep."

"Yeah, sleep sounds nice, I promise I will lighten the room again Snape, I have to." Harry finished in just a whisper as he fell back into a dreamless sleep.

Madam Pomfrey rushed into the hospital just as Harry's eyes closed,

"What happened Professor?"

"He woke up screaming and grabbing his scar, that's when I sent Weasley to get you, and Granger to get the Headmaster."

"Very well, this is a good sign, it was amazing that we were able to get him, it was thanks to Merlin that Bane was close by and witnessed the attack and was able to bring Mr. Potter back to us. Now I only wish to know what that child though he was doing being outside the wards, alone."

"Only he can tell use Poppy, and it will have to wait till Mr. Potter wakes back up, I have many questions for him once he does. Severus, would you mind company in your vigil." The Headmaster asked as he made his way over to the others, with Hermione right behind him.

"I do not mind at all Albus, but Potter's friends will be here as well since if we kick them out now, they will only come back hidden under that damn invisibility cloak."

"Very well, I shall join than." The Headmaster said as he took a seat in one of the empty chairs and joined the group waiting for their hero to wake up.

"At least he is only sleeping this time," Ron said to his girlfriend, "we know that he will wake up from this."

"Very true Mr. Weasley, very true," the potions master said as his eyes focused back in on the boy that he thought of as a son.