Ok guys, this is the longest chapter so hopefully it turned out ok. I just couldn't stop writing! Enjoy!!
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BPOV
The thought of going back to my apartment was bringing up the nightmarish feelings I thought I was finally getting over. I had slept all night but as soon as my deep slumber lifted, I was thinking about why I left in the first place. I slowly opened my eyes to find Edward lovingly looking at my face. A smile quickly landed on my face and all of the insecurities and fear inside my body drifted away. We had talked most of the night about when we would leave and what would need to be done when we got back to my apartment. I was not sure at this point where my home was but I knew that wherever I ended up, I wanted it to be with Edward. He had told me that we could stay in Forks as long as I needed to be there, forever if need be. I laughed when he said that, thinking to myself, why would anyone be willing to move to Forks, especially for someone like me. Edward would not fit in. He was too beautiful and if people saw us together, they would probably laugh wondering why such a god would be with such a plain silly girl like me.
"What are you thinking about Bella? It is extremely frustrating not being able to read you." His smile radiated off his face and warmed everything inside of me. His eyes were still a warm honey color and my hands found themselves distracted as they ran up the ice-cold skin on his forearm. I had blanked on what he had just asked me.
"Bella?" His voice snapped me out of my daydream and I quickly remembered I was a participant in a conversation. Now if I could only remember the topic.
"What is going on in that head of yours? It is driving me crazy not knowing. You have to tell me Bella." I almost enjoyed the pitiful pleading he was giving me at that moment. I had the control. I had the control of a vampire! A small giggle escaped my lips as I continued to drape my fingers up and down his forearm.
"So now you are laughing?" He turned his lips into a pout and I wanted nothing more than to press my body to his and caress his lips with my own. I sighed, knowing that being careful in this relationship was an understatement.
"I was just thinking about going home and what James will think when he sees you. It is going to be the hardest thing to do, but I think having you by my side the whole time will give a teeny tiny bit of comfort." I laughed louder this time. The thought of having my own personal vampire to protect me was a great feeling. Every moment I laid here with Edward, I could feel my strength building and I was more prepared to go home and face this anger head on. I glanced at Edward and his face was not as joyful as I thought it would be.
"Did I say something wrong, Edward? I am sorry. I am just looking forward to bringing you home with me. I didn't mean to…"
"No, Bella. You have all of this faith in me but I think you forget that I am a vampire. I am created to kill humans and just because I have found the strength to resist you, does not mean that I will have the willpower to resist others, especially someone who has…" I could see the anguish in his eyes as he thought about what James had done to me. It made me shudder to think of what Edward could actually do to him if they met face to face.
"I may not be as strong as you think. If I were to meet this James, I do not know what I would do to him." His fists balled up tightly. A human's fist would have probably broken with the amount of strength he was using.
"Edward…" I did not want to offer but I knew this would be something for both of us to consider. "Maybe you shouldn't go with me. I mean, I don't want to put you in an uncomfortable situation and, ya know, tempt you. Maybe it would be better if I just went alone."
"NO!" Edward was on top of me before I knew what happened. He was staring deeply in to my eyes with anger and frustration. His face no longer had that soft, loving look on it that I had come to love. At that moment, I was frightened of Edward Cullen. Not for what he would do to me, but what I knew he was capable of doing to others. He had his hands forcefully placed on my shoulders and I was pinned to the bed. There was no use in struggling for I would only cause myself pain and most likely unwelcome bruising. Edward leaned closer to my face and I could see his fierce teeth glimmer as his face made its way towards my neck. My heart was racing and my body started to panic. This was new and strange.
"Edward…" was all I could say. His face turned towards mine and we were so close, his breath was forcefully shooting down my throat. I wanted him to know how I was feeling, scared, maybe hurt but at the same time, he was so close and forceful I was starting to welcome it. He had never been like this before. I couldn't figure out where my feelings were going. Maybe I wasn't scared. Maybe this wasn't something I wanted to stop. I was drawn to the pressure he was placing on my body and the closer he got, the closer I wanted him to be. The harder I wanted him to hold me, touch me, and connect with me. This was no longer a moment of fear, but of passion. I could feel my body twist in places I had not felt before. There was a desire for Edward to love me in a way I had never experienced before, with someone I loved.
I vigorously placed my lips upon his and the electricity flew through my face. It traveled down towards my arms and through my insides. My body urged towards his and there was no room for a single ounce of air between us. Our legs began to intertwine and if our bodies were music, we would be playing the sweetest lullaby together. His hands were like silk against my body as they slowly caressed beneath my shirt. His release of my shoulders allowed my hands to effortlessly run up his strong, muscular back. With one arm, Edward reached behind his back, ripped his shirt off, and gracefully threw it on to the floor. Our rhythmic bodies never missed a beat and continued to dance together. I could feel the heat build between our bodies. Slowly, I moved my hands lower down his back, finding a perfect resting spot on a perfect creation of muscle below the small of Edward's back.
Suddenly, I was alone on the bed, staring at the ceiling above me. My hands were slammed to my body from the force I had been using against his body. I sat up, looking around the room searching for some sign of Edward when I realized, I was alone. Rejection came as I had thought. It was more painful than I had ever imagined and it happened so fast. My heart continued its quick pace but it brought along panic, rather than passion. Only 15 seconds had passed yet I felt as though I had been alone for hours. My eyes welled up with tears but I fought to control them as images of rejection swirled through my mind. What had I done!
"Bella, are you awake dear?" A sweet voice jolted me from the trap in my mind. My face twisted towards the door to find that Esme had brought up a tray of breakfast items for me and was walking gracefully to the bedside with them. I never even heard her knock. Edward must have heard her coming and rushed out before she came in. I looked at the tray and there was enough food to feed a family of eight plus their extended family members. The tears went from sadness to laughter as I realized how close we had come to having a very embarrassing moment to explain. Esme looked at my face concerned as tears rolled down my face and my giggles went to uncontrollable roars of laughter.
"Is everything alright? Did I mess something up with the food? Oh dear, I thought the eggs smelled funny but then again, everything smells very different to a vampire. Here, I will take it back and start over again." I reached out and grabbed Esme's arm before she could pick the tray up off the bed.
"It is wonderful Esme, I am just…so grateful to have someone like you in my life now and it was a bit of a shock to see all of this food just for me. Vampires must think that humans can eat enough to feed a small army, all by themselves." A smile filled Esme's face and it lit up her golden eyes.
"Thank you for going out of your way to make this for me." I smiled and got to my knees quickly and threw my arms around her neck. I knew that I could not hurt her with my forcefulness so I squeezed with all my strength to let her know how much she meant to me. As I released Esme placed her hand on my cheek and I could see that her eyes were glassy.
"You make him so happy Bella. I am grateful for you." With that, she quickly left the room. I reached for the muffin that was hidden in the corner of the tray, behind the mounds of pancakes, waffles, French toast, and cereal. I was momentarily distracted by the muffin when I felt a pair of cold lips caress the back of my neck. I jumped and turned to see a still shirtless Edward casually kneeling behind me.
"You could have at least given me some warning Edward!" I didn't realize I was shouting until Edwards eyes grew wide with shock. "Here I am thinking that I am about to…well, whatever…the point being that you could have said something so I knew that you didn't leave because of…well, me…I mean, you didn't leave because of me right? You left because Esme was coming…You did right? Edward, answer me!" I could feel my face boiling as I stared at his perfect body and tears started to return due to anger.
"Bella, I am sorry" he moved right in front of my body and placed his hand on my cheek and gently wiped away the tears that were falling. "If you would give me a chance to speak I would tell you that the only reason I left was because I heard my mother rushing up the stairs with the food. Thank goodness she forgot the orange juice and had to run back to the kitchen or we might have been caught in a very…embarrassing position." The corner of his mouth turned up and he gave a small wink. I was still hurt. I felt abandoned and self-conscious.
"Well, next time give me some sort of warning before a family member charges in to the room." I looked down and started to pick at the muffin that I had slightly crushed in my hand. His cold finger caressed my neck and slowly made its way to my chin. He pulled my face up to look at his. His eyes were warm and loving.
"Next time, we won't have to worry about anyone walking in on us." A small kiss followed and he lifted me into his arms. The thoughts swirled through my mind with anticipation and excitement.
"Next time?" I softly whispered, as my face grew red with shyness.
"Yes, next time" Edwards lips pressed against my neck once again, sending waves of electricity through my body, restarting the fire Esme had unknowingly put out. As my eyes started to close in enjoyment, Edward stopped and looked at me with a huge smile covering his face.
"Now, eat your muffin."
What did you think? I would love to hear some feedback from you guys. I can't thank you enough for staying devoted to this story! I have so much more to put in, trip home, maybe a wedding in there somewhere, little more fluff for those who need it :-), Another fight scene (maybe a death?) who knows! I just can't stop writing this story so I hope you guys still like it enough after it has 80 chapters, Hee Hee!
