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MY DESTINY
Bella's mother Renee had squealed like crazy giggling little girl when her daughter answered the call. Charlie had told her to be with Bella for a few days, luckily she was staying in Port Angeles .her recent freelancing photography assignment work, had brought her there. "You are staying with me for a few days, your dad called me yesterday. He will come home after a week. I am going to pick you and Jacob up"
It had been two days after that call ,they were now staying in a small house near a beach. it was a nice location with shops nearby the house and lovely scenery with a picturesque view of the nearby beach, whenever Bella pulled aside the curtains .
"so.." her mom started ."In your emails, just a few months ago you told me his family liked you and you liked him. As I used to read your mails, I thought you were going to marry him in the manner you had raved about Edward. The last time you talked me about him on the phone was about your breakup with him. What happened?"
"He cheated on me with Lauren. I was quite serious of thinking of going further… " Bella said and stopped herself from telling her mother about Jessica's pregnancy .she did not want to cry for a guy like Edward, he didn't deserve any more of her tears! And then told her mother the things leading to this day about Jacob leaving the conspiracy theory in her tale aside.
"How does Mr. mud pies in there ,who now looks like he stepped out from an underwear ad play in all this? he was the one who broke your heart for the first time... are you sure it's love not anything else? Have both of you really patched up for good leaving the bitter past behind"
It looks like lots of phone calls had passed between Renee and Charlie occurred when she came visiting her dad that gave her ammunition about her and Jacob's friendship.
Bella scoffed "Mr. Mud pies? Why does everyone remember that?"
"cuz we have pictures .how did you fall for him hard ,honey ?" Renee asked her now going into her friendly mode once again .
"He was a family friend and we practically knew each other's feelings as we grew up together as close friends. I needed some help with truck's engine; he had helped me when I was stuck while coming back from ... Jacob came there as my mechanic ... " she filled in about the incident when she felt attracted towards him for the first time as something more than her friend .
Renee listened all that quietly without interrupting in between her daughter ,she could see how happy her daughter looked as she talked about the blossoming of her first love " he took me out for buying the parts as he was going to rebuilt engine of my truck like he was doing his first car Rabbit. I started to fall in love as time went by talking in the garage with his friends as he built..." Bella ended her tale after sometime .
"your dad says you were like magnets before while you helped him to recuperate with his legs ,And …"Renee sounded like a teenager waiting for more juicy details that she couldn't wriggle out from Charlie in their talks on the phone.
After her talk with her mom, she helped Jacob with his exercise. He was improving rapidly, he could walk with crutches without her support.
As she prepared the lunch she felt that their love was true love, with frightening kind of devotion which made your soul and heart beat for each other.
After bella helped her mother in cleaning the dishes, she was relaxing on her bed after she had a lunch of German smoked cheese sausages and chicken burgers,washed down with beer .
Inspite of trying to not to think about Jacob, she found herself thinking again what had happened in the morning ,she was worried when Quil informed her that he wants Jacob with him in the garage .
After talking with her mom Bella got what was going wrong with her;her mom was right she was too scared to take a chance to be the woman she desperately wanted to be earlier before her heart had been broken into pieces.
The happiness and love that was supposed to be in her hands was snatched away before she could revel in it .
She knew exactly Jacob was what she needed to cure everything that had been ailing her for damn too long time .
She closed her eyelids and let herself go with the time she and Jacob got together again in the mansion and her time with Edward. How her mood entwined with him when he was asking forgiveness and how good it felt when they finally connected intimately after so many years.
A full body shudder shot through her and broke into a sweat as her heart was beating wildly in her chest as she remembered the time when she cut his hair for the first time in her life.
she decided it was time to let her fear go and allow love to come through her life once had never tried to com to close to her after that first encounter in the mansion .he always respected her stand, she could still see the love and adoration in his eyes for her .It had not dimmed after the effect of lowell's harmful meds wearing off.
It was not only nostalgia ,she had no doubt about that . his love for her didn't thin out as time passed as it happened in the case of her and Edward.
Even if he forgets her ,she won't grudge him for that. She couldn't afford to miss any time with him, already too much time has passed between them .
In the evening, Bella decided to go for a walk to the beach that was near their house. When she asked him to go out with her , Jacob was willing to be with her.
He never left any chance go by that allowed him to be near her . she was thinking how to tell him as they walked hand in hand watching the waves come and go with the sun colouring the sky with its reddish and purplish hues .The wind was making the waves rise and cause a spray to fall on their face. Jacob laughed when she jumped in fright for the first time when the spray hit her ,she was thinking of how to tell her feelings to Jacob without her frazzled nerves.
she looked at his laughing face, the world seemed to slow down around Bella as their eyes locked."hey bells" she was still staring him openly and was now coming out from the trance .
Bella saw his carefree happiness and relaxed demenaur for the first time after so many years.
The world had not come back to normal for her yet ,as they were lost gazing in each others eyes with love for each other .Sounds returned for them , when a child threw ball at Jacob's head breaking the moment. Things began to go back to normal after a few minutes as she replied "yeah …I am good "
Jacob finally let a sigh as he saw her giving the ball back to the little boy . After the little one had gone , seeing the tense mood Bella was in, he joked "you were staring at me and had totally zoned out "
"why not …you were sorta beautiful and Jacob ..I want to say something to you " she deadpanned that caught him off got cautious ,something told him from inside that she wanted to tell him something that Bella was going to tell to him that was going to change their lives forever. he prayed it happened for good ,"lets go back.I am so sorry but I think I need to catch a snack for my stomach ".
he could see her face fall a little , but he didn't want to break up with her in public.
If she had decided it ,he would beg her not to do that without causing a scene in front of so many people who were strolling around them .
After they reached home, Jacob and Renee made together large volumes of broccoli smoothie and lots of nacho popcorn. Bella saw he was relaxed as he talked with her mother and with her as he cooked. This made her feel relaxed, she was not taking the wrong step.
JPOV
after we had our fill of the evening snacks ,Bella and I went to the backyard of the house. Stars had peeked out in the black velvet sky ,it was a beautiful night.
Bella let her fingers skate over my face as she sat near me. It was a pure torture! Not knowing what was to happen next, I closed my eyes relishing the pleasant tingling feeling as her hands went near my hair and softly brushing her nails on my scalp." Jacob, I love you .I want to be with you ."she said in a whisper. I opened my eyes not believing what I had heard.
