Mina is in time out, so it's just me. Well this chapter was inspiration from Mina driving me insane. Also from the song from Jekyll and Hyde called The World Has Gone Insane. I do not own the song, or Vladimir Tod. I wish I did, but I don't. So… here you all go!
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28 The World Has Gone Insane
I felt cruel for being so harsh to Vlad. I felt that for once in my life I lived up to sharing the name Elizabeth with the blood countess Bathory. Though I was far from killing Vlad and bathing in his blood I was well aware of the fact that I was killing him.
I didn't talk to him at all. When our eyes met I overlooked him and went back to something else. When he spoke to me I acted like a deaf person and I didn't answer. When he tried to stop me physically I went around like it was an invisible wall or rope and not my crush.
It was now near March. I haven't had contact with Vlad for almost three months. He would still offer me short lived smiles. I can almost see his life draining out of him every time I enforced my harsh behavior. Once I cried before him though. He had come when I was home alone, he begged me to open up to him once more. He hadn't a clue as to what he did to me. I started to cry. His words were filling with true hurt and I couldn't help but feel terrible. I loved him, and I was hurting him. But not as much as he's hurt me, never as much.
"So does this mean it's hurting you just as much as me?" He had asked me at the sight of my tears. I twisted my head away. "I miss you Mina. I want you to be my friend again. I miss your voice, your smile, your laugh. I'm not even sure if I remember them correctly anymore."
I winced at the stinging memory.
"Can't you talk to her or something?"
"Man, I've tried! She won't budge."
"You don't have a clue?"
"I know it happened at the Snow Ball. And it obviously has to do with something you did. And it involves one other person. Who were you with during the dance?"
"Well other than her I talked to Meredith."
"Maybe she's jealous." I heard Vlad laughing.
"Mina? Jealous? Henry that's ridiculous and you know it. Why would she have reason to be jealous?" There was silence for a long moment. I honestly thought Henry would leave it at that. Though it seemed he was just thinking his words out.
"No reason. It's just all I can come up with. I don't know Vlad. Maybe you should just wait and let her forgive you. She has to at some point. If you think this is driving you nuts you haven't seen how much it bothers her. She's hurting herself more than she is attempting to hurt you."
"What'd make you think that?"
"Because I know Mina cares for you Vlad. I have a hunch that whatever it is that she is punishing herself more than anyone. And I have a feeling she is with you all the time not just because she's your friend or because of me. But I know what you always say when I bring that up. So… whatever. But don't forget my theory, Vlad. And by how she's acting lately I think it might just be getting worse."
"Stop it Henry!" My cousin was silent. "I can't tell her, now more than ever. With those two crazy guys running around I don't want them to hurt her! And you know better than me what she would do if I told her, she'd offer herself up on a silver platter. And I can't fight that, not now. So drop it Henry, drop it right now."
I let a wet tear escape at the memory. They were down stairs in the game room and I heard them and listened. Too bad I heard what I didn't want to hear. He was never going to tell me, it seemed.
This boy has turned my whole world upside down. He made me think of things I've never thought before. I feel things around him that I don't feel with anyone else. Henry is right; I'm hurting myself more than him. I see him hurt and that hurts me when it already hurt in the first place.
Something inside is a breath-taking pain. I feel his pain deep in my gut every time I see his sorrow. I am totally certain that it is his pain, because he is the same as me. It devours and consumes me, and drives me insane! Yet he still hasn't got a clue as to what he did. I think I should tell him, but if I do he will find out that I like him. Well, I don't like him, I love him. It seems only far to harm my self esteem to stop from destroying Vlad. I love him, that's the least I can do, right? Offer up my soul to him to save him from myself?
I'm drowning in an endless flood of blood. Only I didn't know it yet.
Ooo don't you love that last sentence? I adore it!
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