So, I've created a DeviantART page so I can post illustrations of chapters, if you go back to Chapter One, you'll find a link to my illustration. It's not the best photo, but once I get my camera back I'll be able to take better pictures.


Also, I don't own the song in this chapter.


I don't know how long I've been like this. I can still hear everything around me, well, I doubt it's everything all the time, but I can hear moments of it. But for all I know, I am hearing everything, I just haven't been where I am for that long.

Sometimes I hear Scorpius crying. Sometimes I hear Roxy scold people for being too loud. Sometimes I hear Lily tell me what has been happening in the Wizarding World, my friends and the family I consider to be a part of. Sometimes I hear teachers trying to get my visitors to leave. They don't leave, at least, I don't think they do.

One thing for certain, Professor McGonagall tried to send me to St. Mungo's, but she and Madam Wainscot needed permission from my parents. Professor McGonagall was about to go and send an owl to them when all of my friends who were there started to shout at her. Not in an angry way, they all just wanted to be heard. Lily, Roxy, Scorpius and James begged her to send the owl to Harry and Ginny instead of my parents. After a long time, not that I know what time is like right now, she gave in and send for the Potters.

I wish I knew when that was. I really wanted to wake up. Where ever I am, it's strange. I can't see anything, I can't open my eyes, but I don't want to. It's not like when you wake up in the middle of the night and you try to get back to sleep, but you just want to open your eyes, because you can. I have no urge to open my eyes here, but I know that if I did, I wouldn't be able to see anything. Maybe when I feel the need to open my eyes here, I'll be opening them properly and finally be awake.

~O~O~

"Do you know when your Mum and Dad are arriving?" Scorpius asks.

"No," Lily answers with a sigh. A chair squeaks, as if she leans back in it.

"Are they going to take her to St. Mungo's?" Roxy asks.

"Don't know," James replied softly. "They won't tell us anything."

"I don't want her to leave," Roxy says, I'm sure her voice cracked. Is Roxy actually crying about whether I'll still be at Hogwarts in my unconscious state? I hear Frankie try to console her by making soft shush noises, she must be crying then.

It goes silent for a while, I think, then I feel someone hold my hand.

Wait. I feel someone hold my hand. I try and squeeze the person's hand, but from no one reacting, I don't think they felt it.

"Why are you all here?" I hear Harry ask. He and Ginny must have arrived, I didn't hear them. I try and squeeze again.

"We don't want to leave Lexy," Albus explains. Squeezing didn't work again.

"Are you here to take her away?" Roxy asks, she sniffs, not hiding the fact that she had been crying. I squeeze once again.

"Well," Ginny says, I can hear her smiling gently, she's going to tell them I have to leave for St. Mungo's.

"Scorpius," Lily says, slightly startled. "What is it?"

"She, she's," he replies.

"What is it?" James asks sharply.

"She's squeezing my hand!" He shouts, with happiness, not anger at James.

I then get the feeling in my eyes like when you wake up in the middle of the night. I want to open my eyes. I need to open my eyes.

"Madam Wainscot!" Roxy almost screams. "Madam Wainscot, Lexy's moving!"

"Please, Miss Weasley, don't shout so loud, I'm only next door," a woman says, Madam Wainscot.

"Her hair!" Harry says with shock.

My hair?

"It's been happening often," Madam Wainscot reassures him.

'Open your eyes, you fool!' the voice tells me. I agree with it and try to shout. I don't know what I'm trying to say, but I shout anyway.

"Did she just make a noise?" Roxy asks.

"She did!" Scorpius laughs.

My eyes feel sore now, I keep trying to open them, I know that, like squeezing Scorpius' hand, I will open my eyes as long as I keep trying.

~O~O~

Roxy's POV

Scorpius, Lily, Frankie, James, Albus and I all sit around Lexy's bed in the hospital wing. Every two days we all come to see her together. We come at other times too, but for some reason we think she'll wake up when we're all together. It's stupid, but it's nice for us to all be here.

Lexy's been unconscious for two weeks, it's breaking Scorpius' heart, which breaks Lily's heart and mine. I look up at her, Scorpius is sitting near her head, holding her hand, like always. When I come and see her alone, I sit there, holding her hand. Frankie sits at the other side of her head, I sit next to him, holding his hand. On my other side is Lily, next to her and at Lexy's feet is James. Albus sits next to Scorpius.

Lexy's appearance keeps changing, last time I saw her she had long hair falling to the middle of her back, it was light brown then. Today it's just below her shoulders and is pale pink. We've learned to ignore it, that makes me sad, how can we just ignore the fact that something is happening inside her head causing her to change and we just ignore it because, well, what else can we do?

"Do you know when your Mum and Dad are arriving?" Scorpius asks either James, Al or Lily. I can't tell because Scorpius doesn't remove his gaze from Lexy. I notice that Scorpius has got a little thinner over the last two weeks. We all have.

"No," Lily answers with a sigh, she leans back on her chair.

"Are they going to take her to St. Mungo's?" I ask, not knowing who will answer.

"Don't know," James replied softly. "They won't tell us anything."

"I don't want her to leave," I say, my voice cracks in the middle and I start to cry. Frankie switches holding hands with me and wraps his free arm around my shoulder and whispers softly to me to help.

No one talks for ten minutes. We sit in silence, watching Lexy. I can see her eyes move underneath her lids, but that often happens too, it means nothing.

Not long after, Uncle Harry and Aunt Ginny walk through the wooden double doors. They give us a confused look but continue walking towards Lexy's bed, furthest away from the doors and closest to Madam Wainscot's private room.

"Why are you all here?" Uncle Harry asks when they reach the bed, they stand at the bottom of it with the look adults have when they are trying to comfort you even though you don't need comforting.

"We don't want to leave Lexy," Albus explains without looking up at his father.

"Are you here to take her away?" Roxy sniff, I shouldn't have sniffed, they'll realise I've been crying.

"Well," Ginny starts.

"Scorpius," Lily says, slightly startled. "What is it?"

"She, she's," he replies. We all look to Scorpius eagerly, he's paled rapidly, I didn't know that was possible.

"What is it?" James asks sharply, a strange look on his face.

"She's squeezing my hand!" He shouts, a large grin on his face.

"Madam Wainscot!" I scream at the single door. "Madam Wainscot, Lexy's moving!"

"Please, Miss Weasley, don't shout so loud, I'm only next door," she says in an annoyed but patient tone as she enters the room.

"Her hair!" Harry says with shock. We look to Lexy to see her hair grow a few inches and turn a dark turquoise, we clearly aren't as shocked as Uncle Harry and Aunt Ginny.

"It's been happening often," Madam Wainscot reassures him as she pulls on a healer apron. My heart quickens slightly, what does she need her apron for? But before I can ask, Lexy murmurs something.

"Did she just make a noise?" I ask quickly.

"She did!" Scorpius laughs, he squeezes her hand.

Her hair flashes different colours, red, to black, to orange, to silver, to green, to white, to purple, then finally a beep blue. We're all more alert, I squeeze Frankie's hand and reach over for Lily's and squeeze it.

After a few minutes, Lexy's eyes flutter. Scorpius takes in a sharp breath, he doesn't breathe out. When her eyes fully open, we see they have turned bright yellow. It's slightly creepy, but we look past it. She sits up sharply, well, as sharply as she can for being asleep for two weeks.

~O~O~

Lexy's POV

Everyone stares at me. They sit around my bed, Scorpius is holding my hand and I see Roxy holding hands with Frankie and Lily. My back hurts and I feel hollow. I look down at my arms, they're very thin and pale, my hair is blue. I don't bother to change it to a natural colour.

"What?" I ask, everyone continues to stare. I don't know if they heard me so I clear my throat. "Why are you looking at me?"

"Um," Lily says. "You're eyes are kinda creepy." I gave her a weird look and look to Scorpius, he has the same look as everyone else. I change them to blue, everyone relaxes slightly.

"Better?" I ask.

"Much," Scorpius smiles. He leans forward and hugs me tightly, I wrap my thin arms around his neck. He's thinner than before.

'How long was I out for?'

When Scorpius lets go, Roxy hugs me. I hug her and notice she's thinner too.

"Wh- what happened?" I ask. "How long have I been out? When can I leave here?" I speak quicker than I mean to, I look to everyone, no one answers.

"Two weeks," James says finally. I stare at him.

"I've been out for two weeks?"

"Yes," Scorpius says timidly. "You, you ran away after our date, and fell down the stairs, some," he stutters. "Something happened when you stopped falling. You don't remember?"

I do remember. I remember the wisp. I remember my father. I remember the person screaming as I screamed. I lie and say I only remember some parts. I don't want to admit to him that I remember everything, including him crying at my bedside.

"You hit your head, you might have suffered from memory loss," Madam Wainscot explains. I nod to her. "And you will leave when I decide you are fit enough to leave. You broke a few bones but I fixed them while you were unconscious. Now, I would like you to get some rest."

"I've been asleep for two weeks," I argue. "I think I'm well rested."

"Rest, Miss Munro. Now."

~O~O~

"What have I missed?" I ask Lily and Roxy. They sit at either side of my bed, it's been three days since I woke up.

"A Quidditch match," Lily tells me. I feel bad because we had planned to train the day after my date. "Ravenclaw against Hufflepuff. Hufflepuff won."

"Not that you even care," Roxy laughs. "I can't wait until you're out. You have no idea how many detentions I've gotten because I sleep in," she laughs.

"Nice to see I'm missed," I laugh.

"We brought you a present," Lily smiles.

"You did?" I ask.

"Well, two presents," Roxy says, she reaches into her bag and pulls out a mustard coloured ball of fur.

"Gatsby!" I squeal as I pick him up from Roxy's cupped hands. He hums and drops onto my lap and snuggles into my thin stomach. I haven't filled it out to what it was like yet, nor have I added colour to my pale skin. Madam Wainscot gave me a mirror the day after I woke up, I was happy to see my hair wasn't greasy, she said that she would regularly wash it. The scars on my face were gone.

"Don't worry, I've been feeding him, and when I forget he steals Jamie's food, then Jamie gets mad and annoys me until I notice," Roxy laughs. Lily reaches under my bed and pulls out my guitar.

"And here's surprise number two," she smiles holding it up. She hands it to me, I move Gatsby to my shoulder and hold my guitar correctly. I give it a strum and Madam Wainscot appears as if she apparated.

"No music," she orders. We all give a jump at her appearance.

"Why?" I complain.

"No one else is here!" Roxy argues.

"Please," Lily pleads.

"Fine," Madam Wainscot sighs and walks away, muttering something under her breath.

When she leaves I smile and start to strum the guitar and start singing.

(Keep Your Head Up (acoustic) – Girls Can't Catch)

L: "I've been waiting for so long you don't even know how long I have been waiting for this day, hey

I've been thinking about all the reasons I have to get even and to cause you pain, oh."

L&LP: "And I bet they all would say the girl is justified," Lily joins in with her shoulder popping to the beat.

L: "Oh,"

L&LP: "But all I'm gonna do is turn and walk away tonight, tonight night night." Then Roxy joins in.

L&LP&R: "Though I don't want to, and I don't need to

Been taking the fight unlady like I'm not gonna stop

oh I don't want to, and I don't need to

But no matter how hard it gets my mama always says to keep your head up," The three of us pop our chins up every time we sing the word 'up'.

"Your head up, your head up, your head up up

No matter what

Your head up, your head up, your head up up up up up,"

LP: "I've got all kind of fantasies even romanticise of what to do when the time was right," Lily sings with her hand on her chest, indicating herself.

LP&R: "right,"

LP: "You would beg me mercy, tell me you weren't worthy

And boy I'd even made you cry, woah oh," she sticks her hand out with attitude, I smile at her as she gets into the song.

LP&R: "It would be so easy now, to make you feel so bad,"

LP: "so bad,"

LP&R: "But all I'm gonna do is bite my lip and leave it at that,"

LP&L&R: "at that, that, that.

"Though I don't want to, and I don't need to

Been taking the fight unlady like I'm not gonna stop

oh I don't want to, and I don't need to

But no matter how hard it gets my mama always says to keep your head up

Your head up, your head up, your head up up," Lily and Roxy start to point to the ceiling.

"No matter what

Your head up, your head up, your head up up up up up.

"Ooh

I really don't have the time," we sing, Roxy is much louder as Lily and I harmonize.

"Cause you're really no friend of mine

I really should make you pay,"

L: "Mmh,"

L&R&LP: "Though I don't want to, and I don't need to

Been taking the fight unlady like," Roxy closes her eyes as she sings her solo.

LP&L: "I'm not gonna stop

oh I don't want to,

R: "no, I don't want to,"

LP&L: "and I don't need to,"

R: "and I don't need to, hey,"

LP&L: "But no matter how hard it gets my mama always says to,

Though I don't want to,"

R: "I don't want to,"

LP&L: "and I don't need to,"

R: "I don't need to, yeah,"

LP&L: "Been taking the fight unlady like I'm not gonna stop

oh I don't want to, and I don't need to,"

R: "I don't need to,"

LP&L: "But no matter how hard it gets my mama always,"

R: "Always said, always said,"

LP&L: "says to keep your head up

Your head up, your head up,"

R: "You're head up, ooh,"

LP&L: "your head up up

No matter what,"

R: "Oh, oh,"

LP&L: "Your head up,"

R: "Oh,"

LP&L: "your head up,"

R: "Oh,"

LP&L: "your head up up up up up,"

LP&L&R: "Up,"

We all smile and start to laugh, Gatsby falls off of my shoulder which causes us to laugh more. A slow clap comes from the double doored entrance of the Hospital Wing. We stop laughing and turn to the person clapping, our smiles still plastered on our faces.

"Well done ladies," Caspian says, he leans against the frame of the open door, looking purposely casual. My smile fades, as does Roxy's, Lily's face is turned away from me, but if I had to guess, I would guess she was no longer smiling either.

"Um, t-thank you," I stutter as I pick Gatsby up and slide him back on my shoulder. Silence falls until I kick Lily's back and she splutters a thank you too.

"What do you want, Macmillan?" Roxy scowls at him.

"I came to see my dear friend, Alex," he smiled, standing up properly, moving his brown curls out of his eyes with his hand. He started to make his way towards my bed.

"We, we'll leave you two to it then," Lily said cautiously as she stood up. "Will we take the guitar, Lex?"

"No," I said slowly. "I don't have my wand on me, I might need a weapon to use against him when he gets too annoying."

Lily suppressed a laugh and gave Roxy a look then grabbed her arm to drag her out of the Wing. Roxy gave Caspian a glare as they walked away. Either Caspian didn't see it, or chose to ignore it.

He sat in Roxy's chair and smiled at me, a charming smile that would send shivers down to many girls' knees. Not mine. I move the guitar away from my body and place in it Lily's vacant chair.

"I have to be honest," he said after a moment of looking at me. "You look awful, Alex."

"Wow," I almost laughed. "I forgot what a charmer you are!"

"I'm going through a faze of complete honesty," he said matter-of-factly. "I feel it's for the best."

"Do you now?" I ask. "Because, I have to disagree, I don't need you to tell me how bad I look all the time."

"Not all of the time, only just now do you look good," he pleaded.

"Is that supposed to make me feel better?" I snap.

I wasn't sure if I was actually getting annoyed at him or if I was just pretending to be annoyed. Sure, having my friends come and visit me every day was fun, but it can get slightly boring. We would talk and joke about, and the singing today was fun, but not much happens in between visits that they can tell me. Caspian was different though, he was a new face and a new conversation.

"Not necessarily," Caspian shrugged. "But sticking to my theme of honestly, you really did sound amazing when you were singing."

"Thank you, but I wasn't alone singing," I reminded him.

"Yes, but, Roxanne and Lily weren't the stars of the song, you were," he says, pointing at me.

"No, no, no, no, no," I say shaking my head, causing Gatsby to fall and land on my lap. "We were singing for fun, not for there to be a star."

"Never the less, you were the star."

"Why are you here?"

"Because," he falls short. He sits back slowly, as if he needs to think about how to word his answer. "Because you've been gone for two weeks, and you never wrote me back at Christmas, I wanted to know if you were avoiding me."

I stare back at him. I wasn't expecting him to bring up his letter.

"I don't know what you want me to say."

"Why didn't you write?"

"I didn't want Scorpius to be jealous," I'm not sure if this is a lie or not. If I had wrote back, someone would have noticed, and they would have noticed that I had no one to write to that wasn't already there to speak to.

But if that isn't the reason and I just didn't want to write back, why don't I just tell him the truth?

'You don't want to hurt him.'

But why do I want to spare him from being hurt?

"I suppose," Caspian says, bringing me out of my thoughts. "I should have thought about Scorpius when I wrote. I forgot you'd be in his company."

"You're being very reasonable," I say with a confused tone.

"I don't want you to hate me anymore."

"I-I don't hate you, Caspian," I answer honestly.

"Really?" He looks at me slightly brighter.

"I mean, I don't like you either," I laugh, he laughs too. But not a forced laugh.

"Why are you so thin?" Caspian asks. "And so pale?"

"Um, being asleep for two weeks really takes the energy out of you?" I answer laughing, awkwardly this time.

"Alex, I'm being serious, I can see your ribs."

I look down, they aren't too obvious, but they've never been visible before. I fold my arms to cover my ribs and glare at him.

"I'm not well, I did fall down a load of stairs and, and," I can't say anymore because if I speak, I'll sob.

"Alex, woah," Caspian says as he sees tears fall, he jerks forward and comes closed to me. I move over on the bed so that he can sit down. When he does he moves his arm around me and I cry into his school robes.

I don't know how long I cry for, or what colour my hair is, or what Caspian says, but I do know that he hugs me tighter which really helps. When we part, I wipe my eyes and laugh foolishly, he laughs with me and moves back to his chair.

~O~O~

A week after my visit from Caspian, I'm well enough to go back to leave the Hospital Wing. My xylophone ribs have disappeared, my skin isn't "sick pale" as Albus had started to call it. Madam Wainscot suggested I kept my recovery a secret from my friends and show up at dinner to surprise them.

I dressed in a black skirt, black tights, black flat shoes, a black blouse and my Slytherin tie. My hazelnut coloured hair was up in a thick pony tail, with wide curls.

I spotted Scorpius, Roxy, Lily, James, Fred, Shelley, Lucy, Lorcan, Lysander, Albus and Frankie walking into the Great Hall, I paused, hidden from them on the marble staircase. When they closed the doors I raced towards them and pressed my ear against one of them.

It sounded pretty silent, but I still waited a few minutes. When I felt ready, I opened both of the double doors with a large tug. They swung open and I stood in the middle of them, when I walked inside, they closed behind me, causing a loud bang as they connected.

My friends all sat at the Gryffindor table and their natural curiosity made them all look towards the doors.

Scorpius stood up first, then Roxy, Lily, James and everyone else. Scorpius reached me first and hugged me, Roxy joined in and then we turned into a huge group hug.

Scorpius held onto my hand and led me to the Gryffindor table to sit at. When we walked, Caspian caught my eye. He pointed to his ribs then with the same hand gave me a thumbs up. I smiled to him then sat down.


So what did you think?

Did you like the song?

And Caspian's visit?

What did you like?

Dislike?

And what would you change?