Adam's POV
"DON'T YOU GET IT? I AM IN LOVE WITH SAULI. I WANT TO BE WITH HIM AND YOU CAN'T CONTROL MY LIFE!" I yelled, turning on my heels and walking back towards the open front door. I could see Sauli struggling in his mom's arms. It killed me to see him so upset. I tried to hold back the tears. But suddenly, the door was slammed shut and Sauli was nowhere in my view. This had to be just a dream. Sauli and I couldn't actually be being torn apart again.
I stood, staring at the door. My eyes were wide and my mouth was the slightest bit agape. Then I felt a tug on my shirt and I stumbled backwards, balancing myself so I wouldn't fall. I managed to pull myself out of the person's gasp and turned around, staring my dad in the face. "DO YOU KNOW THE PAIN YOU ARE PUTTING US THROUGH? YOU ARE TERRIBLE FOR DOING THIS TO US!" I yelled at my dad. He looked even angrier now than ever before. I had never seen him so enraged in his life.
"I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE PAIN RIGHT NOW. AS LONG AS YOU LIVE IN MY HOUSE, YOU LIVE BY MY RULES!" He shouted back. I couldn't hold it in anymore, so I let the tears fall from my eyes. My sight got blurry and I could feel my heart breaking as I thought about Sauli.
It was over. It was all over. I would never get to see Sauli again all because our parents hate each other. I would suffer forever because of this. There would be no more happy times where we would just cuddle and talk, no more times where I would hold him in my arms and kiss him lightly and tell him how much I loved him. It was all over.
Suddenly, an idea popped in to my head. Maybe it wasn't all over. Maybe there was a way I could work this out. Or maybe there was a way I could make my own rules.
"Fine…" I mumbled to my dad. "I guess I am moving out then. I will live by MY rules and my rules only. I guess this is goodbye," I said, turning and sprinting to my car before my dad could say anything to me. This was a brilliant idea! I would get to see Sauli with no objection by my parents!
But then another thing popped into my head.
Just because I was living by my rules didn't mean that Sauli could live by his rules. He was still in his last year of school. We would have to wait AT LEAST a month before Sauli could move out. And he probably wouldn't want to do it right away. He is a home kind of person; I know that for a fact.
I sighed, slowing down my pace as I got to my car. Love was so complicated. So was life. Why did society hate me so much? If Sauli and I loved each other, why couldn't we just be together and happy? Why did everything have to be so hard? Oh yeah, because God wanted to spice up life a little bit when he created it.
Well spiced up didn't make me entertained. Spiced up made me mad and annoyed. It made my heart shatter into a million pieces because I couldn't see the one person in the world that I loved the most. Yet I ask again, why did God want to spice things up?
I stuck my key in the ignition and started my car, driving to my house. First things first, I had to get all my crap together. Then I would call Tommy and ask him if I could stay there for a few days. Just until I found a place to stay for myself. I'm sure he would accept. He was my best friend and he had plenty of extra space in his apartment.
When I arrived at my house, I turned off the car, seeing my dad's already in the driveway. I took a deep breath before stepping out of the car and walking towards the front door. The door felt like miles away. I just wanted to get there so the weight would be lifted off my shoulders as soon as I told my family (everyone but my dad, because he already knew) what was happening. I'm sure my mom would be upset. She would beg me to stay, that's why I needed to get in and out and just be gone. It's not as if they would never see me again, anyways.
When I got to the door and opened it up, I saw my mother sitting on the couch next to my father, crying into her hands. When they heard me walk in, their heads popped up. My father glared at me and my mother gave me a sad look. "Adam…" She said as she stood up. I could hear the heartbreak in her voice. "Don't do this. He is just your boyfriend! People come and go, Adam…"
I felt the fire burn deeper in me. Okay, Sauli was not just another boyfriend! I loved him! I wanted to be with him forever and always. There was nothing they could say to change my decision.
"I am in LOVE with Sauli, Mom! There is nothing you can say to stop me!" I yelled. I heard her say my name as I ran off, jogging up the stairs and to my room. I grabbed three suitcases from under my bed and threw my clothes in, my accessories, makeup, and other items I would need. I took those three suitcases and walked downstairs, dragging them with me as I walked. As I passed the living room, I ignored the stares from my parents.
I came back inside after putting those suitcases in the car and went back up to my room. I grabbed some other small things that I would need. I made a few more trips from my room to my car and back again before all that was left in my room was a mattress, a dresser, and a T.V.
I sighed, taking my last look at my room. It was sad that I was leaving, but it was for my own good. I would have to leave eventually anyways, when I wanted a family and a career. I couldn't live with my parents forever.
I closed the door to my room and walked down the stairs slowly. My mom was sitting at the kitchen table and my dad was on the phone, pacing around the table. I was guessing that he was on the phone with Neil, considering Neil was at college and he was missing a lot. When my dad saw me, he mumbles a quick "goodbye" into the phone and hung it up. He stood tall and looked at me. My mom also stood from her chair and took a deep breath.
"I'm leaving. I will see you again though, I promise. Maybe if you would let me love whom I wanted, I wouldn't have to do this. But now there is nothing you can say or do to stop me. I love you guys," I said. My mom walked over to me and wrapped her arms around me, sobbing into my chest. When she let go, my dad held out his hand. I guess this was all I was going to get from him. A handshake, because he really wasn't fond of my decision.
I shook his hand and smiled weakly and lightly at them before taking my house key out of my pocket and tossing it on the table. Then I sighed, turning around and walking out the door, closing it behind me. I let a single tear fall from my eye as I looked back at the house. Then I was in my car, driving to Tommy's house.
I picked up my phone, finding Tommy's name in my phone and clicking his number. I placed the phone to my ear as I pressed my foot harder on the gas pedal, accelerating by a little bit. I listened to the dial tone until I heard Tommy on the other end of the phone.
"Hello?" he said, answering his phone.
"Tommy, can I stay at your house for a few days? I'll explain when I get there. If it's okay with you, of course..." I mumbled. I heard Tommy laugh and I smiled a little.
"Of course you can Adam! You can stay in the guest room!" He said cheerfully, sounding excited. I laughed at his joyful tone.
"Thank you so much, Tommy. If you ever need anything, I-" I started to say, but Tommy cut me off.
"You don't need to do anything, Adam. I'll see you in a few!" He said, and then hung up the phone. Gosh, I was so happy to have a friend like Tommy.
When I arrived at Tommy's house about ten minutes later, I stood at the door with most of my stuff. I knocked and Tommy opened the door, smiling big and wrapping me in a hug. I smiled at him when he pulled away, and he helped me carry my stuff inside. "So Adam, tell me why you're here!" He said, a slight smile on his face. I sighed, losing the color in my eyes. So I started at the beginning.
Once I had finished telling him the whole story, his smile faded from his face. "I think your relationship with Sauli is too stressful…," he said, looking down. I gave him a confused look.
"What do you mean?" I asked him. He looked back up again and placed his hand lightly on my chest.
"I know someone MUCH better for you, Adam…," he said, pushing his hips against mine and forcing me against the wall. I gasped, putting my hands on his chest and pushing him off. He made a quick whining noise and stumbled backwards, looking at me, confused.
"WHAT THE HELL, TOMMY?" I yelled, throwing my arms behind me in an exasperated expression. I tried to catch my breath. Did Tommy really just hit on me? He knew I loved Sauli!
"ADAM, SAULI IS WAY TOO YOUNG FOR YOU!" He yelled back. I gasped. Maybe Tommy really did want me. He would come up with any excuse he could get, wouldn't he? That was about the stupidest one anyone has ever said to get me and Sauli to break up. But our love was too strong to break.
"AGE IS JUST A NUMBER! Plus, I love him, Tommy. Maybe it was a bad idea coming here…" I said. Tommy frowned and looked up at me.
"No, Adam, don't leave! I'm sorry… It won't happen again, I promise…," he said. I sighed, nodding. I honestly didn't want to deal with any other crap anymore. There was too much stress on my shoulders right now. All I wanted to do was see my baby.
I grabbed my stuff, dragging it into the guest room. Right before I closed the door, I heard Tommy tell me a quick "goodnight". I closed the door, not bothering to respond. If I said anything, I would break down into tears. But I had to let them out sometime, so when the door was fully closed, I slid down it and cried into my hands.
