Chapter 28

John sat on a bench in the park almost all night. He just looked at the statue of an angel. He left the note for Bo. He was headed out of town. Away… far away from Llanview... from her… from them but something… something stopped him. He couldn't put his finger on it... a feeling... like something was off. Not right. He shock his head as he got up from the bench. He stood but never moved from the spot. He saw her face in his mind. He closed his eyes. He could still hear her telling him she loved him. He could almost still feel her touch. How could she? He asked himself as last nights scene played in his head. Not really a scene but what he had witnessed.

John saw it all clear in his mind. Simon was undressing her. She was letting him. Her hands were thru his hair like they always ran thru his. He saw her eyes briefly. They didn't seem right. There was nothing right about any of this. Off… that was the word for all of it. He heard his phone ring in his pocket and he came out of his thoughts.

"Hello" John answered " Thank God John... I didn't even know if I'd reach you." Michael told him " Yeah… my assignment is over… What's up?" John asked not in the mood for small talk. " Not sure where you are but... but... it's Natalie."

"What about Natalie?" John asked, " how far from Llanview are you? How fast can you get to the hospital?" Michael asked, " I'm in Llanview. I'll be right there" John told him and rushed over there.

Hospital

John a rrived at the Hospital ten minutes later he rushed into the Er and saw Michael immediately. " Michael… where is she?? Is everything alright?" John asked and Michael took him to the side so they could talk in person.

"She's not seriously hurt or anything... She was brought in by ambulance this morning... I … I ran a few tests on her " Michael told his now extremely worried brother.

"What kind of Tests and where is she?" John asked freaking inside. He forgot all about what he thought he saw in her apartment last night. His only concern at the moment was if she was all right .

"She was unconscious when she was brought in… A black out of some sort... I ran blood tests...She left after I told her the results… well some of the results" Michael told him and John looked at him even more concern. He now knew something was definitely off... wrong.

"Michael… tell me wh--" John was saying as Michael cut his words off.

"Natalie was in that room to the left... I think I may have left her chart in there… I need to check on a few patients first and then I'll have a nurse retrieve it..." Michael told John and he winked at him. John got the hint. Knew exactly what Michael implied.

Michael moved out of sight and John entered the room she was last in. He found her chart and started to read it.

He read something and got a bit shocked and then he read another line. " That Son Of a Bitch!! " He yelled out loud. John hurried out into the hall to find Michael with a quick question.

"Mikey… quick… does it have any affects... can it cause any harm?" John asked him and he knew exactly what he was asking. " No john… there wasn't enough in her system to having any lasting affects on a fetus" Michael told John as he looked at his brother starting for the door. Michael called out to John before he was completely gone. " She didn't leave to long ago and Johnny.. I didn't have a chance to perform other tests nor" He said and he paused to see John face. His upset face." nor ... did I get a chance to tell her about the good news. Make sure she comes back in to be rechecked when you find her." Michael called out to his brother. John just nodded his head yes to Michael as he ran out the door.

Natalie had been looking for him for almost an hour now. Looking for that bastard Simon Ferrar. She was beyond mad… beyond pissed. Her head was still hurting and she felt as if she could barely walk. But she did. She walked up to the Roof at the Hotel... She wasn't sure why only that it was a special place for her and Simon knew that. If he wasn't already out of town maybe... maybe he would come here to feel close to her… maybe the bastard would feel bad about what he had done to her.. Done to her... she shook her head. She couldn't think about that now… Now the roof may be a long shot but she had no other ideas where to look for him.

Natalie slowly opened the door to the roof. She saw him the minute she opened it. He too saw her. He looked at her as he stood by the edge of the roof. He turned back towards the side of the roof. He looked at the cars.

"Look at me… you son of a bi tch!!!" She said as she approached him. " What the hell did you do to me last night??" She yelled at him as she pushed him back from the side of the building some. She looked him straight in the eye now but he was silent. Remorseful even.

"Tell Me!!!" She told him after a few minutes of him not talking... not saying a word… She got even madder... She brought her fist back and punched him in the gut.

"Stand up straight you Bastard... Look me in the eye and tell me what you did to me? And why you would do that to me?" She told him as she saw him stand up straight. She heard a slight whisper come from his lips.

"I.. I couldn't do it.. I didn't want it that way," He said and before she had a chance to say anything back John came barreling thru the Roof doors. He didn't stop to look at her. He had heard her confronting him outside the doors. He walked over to agent Ferrar and took him by the collar. He threw him to the sidewall on the roof and punched him in the gut a few times.

"I could kill you right now ... right now you piece of trash" He said and he threw him to the ground before he really did kill him.

"John... You know??" Natalie questioned and he looked at her for the first time since walking on the roof. " Yeah… I know..." John said abrupt " I ... When did you get back?" She asked more confused now. " That's not important… taking care of this piece of trash and finding out what he did to you is what's important" He told her and she shook her head. The anger that subsided for a minute upon seeing John was back.

Natalie walked over to Simon who had now picked himself up off the floor. " Be a Fucking man and look me in the eyes and tell me" She told him and he looked at her. John moved closer to them.

"I didn't 't do anything... like I said.. I didn't want it that way… I wanted you to think it was me… me you were making love to… about to make love to… not HIM!!" Simon said raising his voice some. John just tried to lunge for him again and Natalie got between them this time. She gave John a look telling him she needed to handle this. John stepped back a few feet. Not far.

Natalie looked at Simon and he started talking again... telling her. " I was going to do it… I admit that... I put the drug in your drink… took you home... was all set to make love to you when you kept calling me his name... you only wanted him… even after he saw us together and just left… like a coward… he just left and all you want is him. Never me… It has never been me you wanted." Simon told her... them. Natalie was fuming at his words and then she heard him say John saw them... and he left her with him… with Simon… couldn't he not see she wasn't right? Couldn't he have trusted her enough to confront them and see she was drugged?

Natalie turned to John. The pain of what Simon just told her evident on her face. In her eyes. " You were there? You saw him touching me? You just left?" She asked him but gave him no time to answer her questions. " Boy... " She said shaking her head " I just couldn't help myself ... could I… Another Fucking Federal Agent… I get involved with another one and get hurt again." She told them. Mainly John.

"Natalie… Please... I need to talk to you... explain.. I need to tell you something important" John tried pleading with her as he just saw her start to walk off the roof in disgust. She never turned to look at neither him nor Simon as she left.

"I hope the two of you kill each other" She said mad as she walked thru the door and down the stairs.

Natalie drove her car towards the mountain. Llantano Mountain. She stopped at a small clinic outside of Llanview before she started up the mountain. She had them do a Rape kit and she found that Simon in deed was telling the truth. That part of his story at least was the truth.

She finally reached her grandfathers cabin after a few hours. She started a fire in the fireplace and she sat on the couch just staring into it. She felt numb. Frozen just about. She couldn't focus on clear thoughts. Her head still hurt some. She popped a few Tylenols and she closed her eyes .

Natalie's thoughts were a bit tainted. She had things in her head that she had never seen before. A story or a bad dream playing out in her mind that she felt detached from. She saw it but couldn't feel it. She quickly opened her eyes as she did feel something after a few minutes.. as she remembered something.. something she didn't want to remember.. something so real.

To be continued...