Mom turns and looks at me and I have to bite down on the inside of my cheek to keep the bile down.

"I know you're dealing with a lot Edward, but all your brother wanted was you here with him when he died." She whispers and I can't fight it any more.

I stumble over to a fake plant next to the elevator and grip tightly to the plastic pot as I hurl into the dirt.

I can hear my mom sobbing behind me as I retch and gag.

And oh my God…

What the fuck have I done?

Um...two more today.