Betrayal and Turkey.
Chapter Twenty Eight.
By Hopping Hamster.
Thank you for all the comment's PM's and reviews, I know there are those who don't like what happened at the end of the last chapter and don't like the way the story is going, and sorry I have disappointed you there. There are those who feel I always write Chakotay to be a violent character, even towards Kathryn. I don't see him as violent here, I see a man with a lot of pain and anger and hurt and he made a mistake, a big one, one that isn't going to be easy to mend, but I think he knows that. Thank You, reviews and comment's always welcome. More very soon!
"No you get out of my house!" She yelled, her temper rising, brother or not she would not have him here, she would not stand for it.
Chakotay turned to face his little sister a mixture of emotions washed over him as he met her deep, determined eyes she looked so like their mother as she stared at him rage in her eyes. "Sekey!" he tried to plead with his little sister.
Sekey straightened up the prayer blanket over her sofa as she shouted "NO!" in determined rage at him.
She continued to move around her sitting room trying to ignore him by tidying up as he watched his little sister he saw the anger and discomfort in her face it hurt him to see. He felt awful for what he had done, no amount of pain or anger should have driven him to do what he had done to his beloved and yet he had. "Please!" he gasped feeling awful inside "Let me explain!"
Sekey only scowled at him before she turned away again and snapped "Carissa already told me what happened!" then as though fed up at being angry she sighed and slumped slightly before slowly turning to her beloved big brother and meeting his eyes in sadness and confusion and asked "What got in to you big brother?" as she turned to face him he saw sadness in her eyes.
"I didn't mean to" he insisted but as soon as he said it he hear how terribly feeble it sounded. The look in her eyes made him relive what he had done, he had struck a woman to the ground and not just any woman, Kathryn Janeway, he had struck Kathryn Janeway to the ground, and he hadn't even cared enough to say hi or ask her how it was she was able to stand tall again. Then her parting words or a fearful goodbye a year ago rung in his ears "I promise Chakotay, I can't be what you deserve now, not like this but I promise you, as soon as I can I will go alone to Trebus and I will stand tall before you. That you can be sure of." Slouching into Sekey's newly tidied sofa he buried his face in his hands. He wanted to break down for what he had done, he wanted to destroy himself. She had kept her promise, she had come to him and he had stuck her down like some animal.
Sekey suddenly felt sorry for her big brother though inside she was still shocked and raged by his actions. Too many times he had gotten into scrapes or on the wrong side of the crowed over the years, when was he ever going to learn to sort his life out. Voyager had been the best thing that had happened to him, so was Kathryn Janeway, now look at them. Sekey sank into the seat beside him and rested her hand on his knee saying softly "Oh Chakotay you've messed up this time and I can't fix it for you"
Chakotay raised his head tears of guilt and shame in his eyes. Sekey knew what was coming, he was going to ask her to help him make up with Kathryn, he was going to ask her to force Kathryn to see him, and the very least allow him into the room where she was, not this time, this time he had gone too far Sekey was sure of it. This time she wasn't on his side. "Please Sekey!" he began gently.
"No!" She yelled angry he would try after everything. She rose from her chair beside him and moved towards her front door, this time she would ask him to leave, this time he was wrong, big brother or not.
Chakotay stood to stand beside his sister as he said sadly "She's moving out" there were too many emotions going through his mind and too many things to be thinking about he decided to settle for just one of his problems, why could his life have been so perfect, well almost, this morning and be a total disaster this evening. Kathryn Janeway made an appearance once again he thought gruffly to himself.
Sekey turned to face him and demanded "Who is?" wondering if he were talking about Kathryn.
Running his hands through his hair Chakotay looked at his sister and said sadly "Carissa"
Sekey met her brother's eyes and told him "I know" when Chakotay looked surprised she admitted "I told her to"
"You did what?" Chakotay shrieked getting angry, he couldn't believe his sister would do that to be.
Sekey though she were younger and smaller was taking no messing, turning on her brother she yelled loudly at the top of her voice "So what are you going to hit me too?" these words took Chakotay aback as he realised what she had just said.
Horror struck by the implications from his young sisters words he stared at her and gasped "Sekey!"
"No Chakotay GET OUT!" she rounded on him her own anger getting the better of her.
Chakotay watched as his sister marched towards her front door and opened it expecting him to walk through "Please!" Chakotay sighed sadly looking deeply into his sisters eyes "I want to talk to her" Sekey could see the guilt and sorrow in his eyes but this wasn't her call to make, this wasn't her choice and right now Kathryn needed rest, she certainly didn't need to see him. Sekey shook her head firmly at him "please" he whispered "I need to see her"
Sekey stared her brother in the eye before saying softly "no" when Chakotay didn't move he only advanced on her further she screamed "No way!" and wanted to push him out her house. She was so angry with him and so ashamed her brother could do such a thing to any woman, but to Kathryn it didn't make sense. She didn't know what went on between the two of them but this was too far whatever it was and she would not stand for it in her house or anywhere near her house, brother or not.
Chakotay was exasperated and even more guilt ridden by the way Carissa and Sekey had reacted to him "Sekey you don't understand" he tried to insist.
"I understand perfectly" Sekey cut across him "she hurt you" she said the last sentence softly as she added gently "you came here, got on with your life" Chakotay watched his sister as she brushed the thick black hair from her eyes and folded her arms telling him "she showed up out of the blue and unannounced so you hit her" Chakotay was hit hard by her words, said that way it added even more to the gravity of what he had done but Sekey wasn't finished "hard across the face" she added deeply.
"Sekey!" he yelled in fury. He knew it was true but he didn't need her to say it so coldly.
Spinning on her brother she thumped his chest and yelled back at him "No Chakotay you listen up!" he looked down at the shorter woman who looked just like their mother when she got angry. Waiting for her to say something more they both locked eyes, both with heavy breathing and she rubbed her forehead before putting her hands on her hips and growling gently up at him "I had to use a dermal regenerator to fix her up"
Anger flashed away from Chakotay's eye's replaced by concern and guilt as he whispered deeply "Is she ok?" Sekey turned from her brother, only now had he bother to ask how she was. It shamed her and sickened her and if she was honest frightened her a little to see what he brother was capable of.
Spitting over her shoulder she told him sarcastically "She is asleep since you ask" Chakotay didn't miss the hint of anger in his sister's voice.
Realising even his beloved sister who would always stand by him was angry and ashamed by his actions. She had always been there over the years to pick up the pieces of the mess he had made. Suddenly it hit him hard in the gut as the image of his beloved sprawled on the floor at his feet, shock and horror in her eyes, blood from her lip and a sharp red hand print slapped across her beautiful pale face, his hand print filled his mind and he felt sick for the image. Tear's filled his eyes as he ran his hand through his hair and gasped "Oh Sekey what have I done?"
Sekey looked upon her brother, his pain and shame there but she wouldn't offer any sympathetic relief for that guilt and shame. She couldn't bring herself to meet his eyes for at that moment she was ashamed to call him her brother as she said softly a hint of pain in her own voice "hit Kathryn Janeway in the face"
Chakotay rounded on her and moved closer to her so he could hiss in anger "Thank a lot" Sekey slowly turned to meet her brother's eyes and as he met his he realised the threatening way he was facing her. Softening a little he backed away and snapped gruffly "will she stay here?"
Sekey narrowed her eyes at him before she told him "I don't know" when he looked confused at her she snapped angrily "she wasn't in any shape to argue when Carissa brought here"
Chakotay shook his head and turned from his sister and growled almost to himself "how is it that she is walking again?" Sekey watched her big brother as he ran his hand roughly through his tangled hair. She didn't know this man, this man was so unlike the brother she had come to love and admire over the years. What had the Delta Quadrant done to this man? What had his years of separation from Kathryn done to this man? What happened between them that drove two people so very much in love so far apart. Had he struck her before? The thought of it made her sick. He came home a year ago a dishevelled wreck talking of how injured and broken Kathryn was, had he struck her down when she was so unable to stand herself?
Taking a deep breath Sekey told her brother gruffly "according to B'Elanna she has been undergoing some intensive surgeries over the last few months" Now it was Chakotay's turn to be not only shocked but angry.
Turning on Sekey he grabbed her solder and yelled in her face "you've talked to B'Elanna?" Sekey yanked herself free from his grip and pushed him away. She hated her brother so much right now, she didn't know who he was and she wasn't sure she wanted to know.
"Of course I've talked to B'Elanna!" she yelled back at him "what would have me do?" her breathing was heavy and her anger flared as she looked at her brother in the eye and waited for a reply when he offered none she snapped at him "I can't heal her Chakotay!" Chakotay was about to reply to her when "I am not some fancy Starfleet medic"
"I only hit her Sekey" Chakotay sighed feeling so much guilt he felt it would destroy him.
"ONLY HIT HER!" Sekey was fuming now Rage was in her at his words. She reached up and slapped her big brother across the face. She wasn't a violent woman by nature but she couldn't believe he had just said that, she needed him to see what he had just said, she needed him to realise the way he sounded. As she lowered her hand she met his eyes and whispered softly "have you heard yourself?"
Chakotay bit on is jawline and tensed the muscles in his face "That didn't come out the way it should have" he hissed feeling the sting of his sister's slap on his face. Realisation at how much harder he had hit Kathryn.
When Sekey saw that her actions and words might have gotten through to him about the severity of his actions she placed her hand on his shoulder and whispered lovingly from behind "she's going to be fine Chakotay" Slowly Chakotay turned to face his sister , his eyes full of pain and filling with tears "Physically" Sekey added softly "I have no idea what you hitting her will do to her emotionally" Chakotay just closed his eyes but the image of her on the floor once again filled her mind.
Softly he hung his head and let the tears fall as he asked so quietly "can I see her?" Sekey looked at him and thought he was going to break down.
"Like I said, she's asleep" Sekey said softly as she shook her head and him and replied "and I can't make that choice for her"
Chakotay looked at his sister and asked softly "So you won't stop her from seeing me?"
Sekey regarded his words for a long moment and then nodded saying "If that's what she want's" A hit of a smile broke on is lips, hope, hope that maybe things might work out between them. "Only if she want's though brother" Sekey told him firmly to which he nodded. "But is that what you want?" she asked him seriously.
Chakotay was shocked and surprised at the question "or course" he insisted back at his sister who only shook her head at him.
"Chakotay" she said lovingly "brother" then she glanced towards the door behind which he assumed Kathryn was sleeping in the small wooden house his sister and Cocuhum her husband hand made a home "think about what you have done"
"I realise what I have done" he spat he too glancing at the door she had looked at and then the image of his own mother hiding behind such a door many years before filled his mind and he found himself sink to his knees in anguish as he cried out in pain "Oh spirit's I am no better than the Cardassians"
"Chakotay go home" Sekey whispered sadly placing her hand on her brothers shoulder "rest up, get something to eat" Chakotay lifted his head to look at her and she smiled softly at her big brother, he would always be his big brother no matter what he had done. "I will come and see you in the morning I promise"
"But Kathryn…." Chakotay began but was cut off by his sister.
"Is fast asleep" Sekey reminded him gently "she's had a long journey and her body has been under a lot of pressure" Chakotay hung his head in more shame as his sister knelt beside him and reminded him "and not just because you hit her"
"Stop saying that." She shouted turning his tear stained face to her.
"What because then it's easier for you?" she spat back holding her ground where they knelt on the floor.
"Sekey" he found himself crying like a baby before his sister, what he had become frightened him as much as it did her.
"B'Elanna said she hasn't yet fully recovered from her surgeries, we think her nausea and sickness is somehow directly related to some internal problems she has had since the accident" Sekey told him unsure what else to do or say to console the wreck her brother had become.
"I need to talk to her" he begged looking up, not even attempting to hide his tears or his guilt "I need to tell her how sorry I am" he insisted hoping his sister would understand "I was angry that's all, I didn't mean to hit her"
"Go home Chakotay" Sekey repeated firmly "She'll be safe here tonight" she reassured him to which he nodded "then it's up to her what she wants to do in the morning."
