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Authors Note: This chapter is not as fluffy as the last chapter, but still has a bit of sweetness in it =P

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**Lemon Warning**

Left alone with empty hands
Losing you is more than I can stand, I can't mend
Close my eyes, and made a wish
To lose myself so I'll forget about you it's no use

Swore to never ever leave you
To never let you out of my hands
Nothing here could ever change this
A promise till the living end
I swore I'd never stray from you

Stray – The Exies

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The next morning I woke up revitalized and deciding how to makes steps in my plans to move on from my family dramas to begin a life of my own. I had never been good at looking into the future, since up until recently I never thought that I had one. But now I was filled with hope and I couldn't wait to get started.

My talk with Esme and Carlisle had been fairly uneventful. I mostly just skimmed over the most important parts of the trip and told them what I thought that needed or deserved to know. I told them that I had realized that I wanted a family; similar to the new family that my biological father now had. I told them that I hoped that they would be my new family and that I would like to start afresh if possible.

I skimmed over the long talk that I had had with him and the events that he had filled me in on, they really didn't need to know all the gory details. We talked about Tony's wife and children and how Tony had asked that I stay in touch and that I agreed.

I made sure to assure Esme in particular that there was no reason for me to leave and for my life to change here. I told her that being in Forks was the happiest I had been in a long while and that I wanted to make it work here.

After revealing all this new information I skipped the part about my mother's rings and the metal box that Tony had given me. I most definitely didn't tell them about the dreams I had been having about my mother's death and I lied my ass off when I told the Cullen's that Bella and I had slept in separate bed's, I didn't think that they needed to know about our sleeping habits.

The days since our return had been somewhat dull and boring. I guess I was just used to my life being one rollercoaster ride after the next it felt strange and different for my life to be so flat. Bella and I had returned to school on the Monday and our friends were happy at how close Bella and I had become during our absence.

Of course our friends were interested in what we had been doing over the last week, but they seemed to sense our hesitation and didn't push too much. Alice was her usual happy and bubbly self; I gained a whole new respect for Jasper as he was the one that had to put up with her exuberance continuously. Poor guy.

Rosalie and Emmett had apparently developed a whole new side of their sexual relationship and most of the time didn't make it to their classes, instead opting for a quick tryst in the nearest empty closet. Not that they would mind making a public spectacle of their love, apparently they had even spent several hours in detention due to their open PDA's. Horny bastards.

Everything was back to normal in my life. Bella and I split dinners between our houses, and I spent every night with my arms wrapped tightly around her, and waking up each morning at the butt crack of dawn so that Charlie wouldn't shoot me.

I enjoyed spending each night with Bella, holding her in my arms and kissing her before we fell asleep. Since that day in the meadow we hadn't tried to be that intimate again, settling for passionate kisses that always seemed to end with one of us yawning involuntarily. I didn't want to push our physical relationship too far, since I could never be too emotionally involved, but still I wanted more happy memories and I could see that my hesitancy with our physical relationship was frustrating Bella.

I loved the way that she would huff in annoyance just when we were getting really passionate with our kisses, and how her nose would screw up when my hands glided above her, not coming in contact with her soft skin.

This week had been a long one and I was looking forward to spending more time with Bella today. Esme had offered to teach me to cook more, but I turned her down, I wanted to spend this glorious Saturday with Bella.

It was around 10am when I got to her house. I assumed she would be home, since her rusty red truck minus Charlie's cruiser was parked in the driveway, but after knocking for over 15 minutes Bella was nowhere to be found. I pulled out my cell and typed a quick message:

Bell,
Where are you?
I thought that we
were hanging
out today.
Edward

But there was no response. After waiting for another 15 minutes I gave up and reluctantly headed home. I told Esme that I didn't feel like cooking and spent the remainder of the day sulking in my room. I tried texting her a few more times, but I never got a response.

Where the hell was Bella? And why didn't she respond to my texts?

I tried calling her cell but it just went straight to voicemail, adding to my frustration and making me want to throw my phone at the wall. I didn't go to Bella's house that night. I thought that if she wanted me to come over she would call, but she never did.

I didn't hear from her all day Sunday, and entertained myself with the garbage that was on TV and finishing off the school work that I hadn't finished during the week. I didn't go over to her house that night either, which was hurting me probably more that it was hurting her. But I knew that if I went over to her house and found that she was not there I wouldn't be able to stop my feelings of anger from taking over my thoughts and feelings.

Monday morning I drove straight to school, not even waiting for Bella in front of the school as I usually would. My morning classes droned on and I just wanted them to be over so I could find Bella and discover what the hell was going on.

At lunch she was waiting for my in front of the entrance to the cafeteria, with a large smile on her face. She looked happy, almost bouncing for joy and when she saw me she quickly ran to me and embraced me in her arms. I couldn't help but wrap my arms around her and bury my face in her hair. I was angry with her, but no matter how annoyed with her I was, I still missed her. Stupid teenage emotions.

"Hey," she whispered softly in my ear.

"Where have you been all weekend?" I asked her curiously, my feelings of anger and annoyance creeping into my voice. She stood there shocked in front of me for a few seconds, a flash of worry crossing her face at the tone of my voice.

"Charlie and I went down to La Push to visit Jacob and his dad. Charlie decided to take another day off work and stay with them tonight too." She told me happily, but still looking at me worriedly.

"And you didn't think that I deserved to know that before I spent the day trying to contact you with no response." I asked angrily.

"My phone has been playing up for a few days, you know that. Besides we barely got any reception down there anyway." She told me, crossing her arms in front of her chest stubbornly.

"And they don't have phone lines down there?" I asked incredulously.

"Look I am sorry that I worried you. Next time I will tell you first. Happy?" she asked, still being quite stubborn. I glared at her as she turned around and headed into the cafeteria, not waiting for me to follow her.

After waiting for a few moments, collecting myself, I followed her into the lunchroom sitting down at our normal table with Alice and Jasper -Rose and Emmett were off fucking in the janitor's closet. I spent the remainder of the lunch hour keeping to myself and not really talking to anyone. I saw Bella glance over and me every now and then, but when I caught her eye she would just glare at me and return to the conversation.

When the bell rang for class I felt Jasper grasp my shoulder comfortingly before following Alice to their class. Bella walked beside me to Biology, but we didn't speak or touch. We didn't talk during Biology either. I spent the lesson running over everything in my mind. I was still so angry with her for not finding a way of telling me that she would not be home all weekend.

Half way through the lesson the teacher had to step out of the classroom to fetch something, leaving the class without supervision. I glanced over at Bella, wanting to talk to her, but then I noticed something dark on her hand.

"What is that on your hand, Bell?" I asked, pulling her hand to me and lifting up the sleeve of her shirt to inspect her hand.

There on her hand and wrist was what looked like black tribal markings that twisted their way from the veins on top of her hand, around her skin to her wrist. And there on her wrist underneath the tribal patterns was a small J, you wouldn't even notice it if you weren't looking closely.

"Henna, Jake gave it to me. It will wash off in a few days." Bella said blushing as I ran over the markings with my fingers.

"You let someone mark you?" I asked, now furious that another man had marked her beautiful skin.

"It's not real Edward. It will fade." She told me, pulling her wrist out of my grip.

"Why would you let him do that to you, even if it is fake?" My voice was rising and we were beginning to gain attention from some of the other students in the class, I just ignored them while a faint blush covered Bella's cheeks. She never liked attention.

"Look…" I could see that she was probably about to yell at me but we were interrupted by Mr. Banner reentering the classroom dragging along an overhead projector.

"We will talk about this after school," she hissed at me.

"We sure as hell will," I replied tersely, now staring angrily at the screen in front of us.

We spent the rest of the class in an angry silence, not even looking at each other. How could she be so stupid? How could she let another man mark her? How the hell could she think that I would be ok with her spending the weekend with this other guy? And who the fuck was this Jacob character anyway?

After school I followed Bella's truck back to her house, my feelings of anger and jealousy we completely overcoming my actions and all I could think about was this Jacob person and Bella's feelings for him.

I wondered if she looked at him the way that she looked at me. And more importantly what his feelings for her were like. She was sleeping with me, not him. I wanted to meet this person so I could tell him face to face, to fuck off. That she was my girl and that I wouldn't have him marking her, because that shit pissed me off.

And why the hell does she need to be friends with him anyway. Was I not enough for her?

I knew that this day had been coming. That one day she would realize that I wasn't good enough for her and that she wanted someone more normal, without so much emotional baggage. I had thought that when the time came that I would be the one to walk away, I had never thought that she would be the one to be the one who ends our relationship.

We finally arrived at Bella's house and she stormed out of her car and into her house, leaving the door wide open for me. I practically ran into the house after her, my anger getting the best of me as I slammed her front door behind me. It was a good thing that her father was still gone or he would kick my ass for trying to destroy his front door.

I quickly scanned the foyer for Bella, but apparently she wasn't there. I tried to figure out where she was but eventually I found her, slamming pans and dishes around in the kitchen. I entered the room slowly and dropped my bag to the floor behind me.

"What the hell is your problem Edward?" She asked angrily as she turned quickly towards me, her hands on her hips.

"Well let's see. My girlfriend spent the weekend with another guy who fucking marked her skin, and she didn't tell me!" I yelled in reply.

"Why is it that all a guy has to do is just look at me and you're instantly jealous? Do you seriously trust me so little that no other guys can be around me?"

"Of course not Bella. I just worry about you. I don't understand why you need to have other friends. Aren't our friends at school enough for you?"

"Jesus Edward. Can you even hear yourself, or is your ego in the way? I like Jacob; we used to make mud pies together when we were younger…"

"What the hell does that have to do with anything?"

"Well right now I would love one to smash into your face!"

"Well that's excellent Bella. Why don't you go make one with Jacob?!" I spat his name at her as if it was poison.

"Well since you are acting like a child I might do just that."

"Fine, go right ahead." I crossed my arms over my chest and looked away from her.

"Edward. I don't want to fight with you. It seems that that's all we ever do and I'm sick of it. Jacob is just a friend. Where is all this coming from? Just tell me what is wrong and I can fix it!"

I didn't respond since I didn't know what to say, so we just stood there for a few minutes face to face but not moving any closer. Our breathing was heavy and I could see the anger flashing in her eyes.

"Fine," she muttered angrily as she turned from me and began to walk out of the kitchen

"Bella wait!" I yelled, reaching out my hand to touch her, but came up short.

At the sound of my voice she turned and faced me once again. Her arms were crossed over her chest as she looked up and me anxiously, her eyebrows raised high, challenging me to say something.

"What is it Edward?" She sounded tired and defeated as she just stared at me.

I could see the bags under her eyes; apparently she hadn't been sleeping either. Maybe she had as hard a time of sleeping without me as I did. I breathed deeply, trying to gather the courage for what I was about to say.

"Bella you saw what the remainder of my family is like. A self absorbed man who looks remarkably like me, who just left me and my depressed mother without even saying goodbye -unconditional love my ass. You went to fucking San Francisco with me, you saw it for yourself! I just… I want to be good enough for you, but I know I'm not! Eventually you will leave me, and then what will I do?

"I really like you Bella, and that's a lot for me. I just… I don't know what to do. I am just so angry all the time, preparing for you to run away to be with someone else. But I don't want you to Bella and I am torn between what I should do and what I want to do. Just… please don't leave Bella. I don't want you to go. Please" I couldn't take it anymore, finally my emotions had once again broken through their carefully constructed barriers and tears filled my eyes and began falling down my cheeks.

My head fell down and I closed my eyes tightly, trying unsuccessfully to stop the tears. I felt Bella's warm form come up to me and embrace me tightly in her arms, trying to comfort me with a hug.

"I'm not going anywhere, Edward. I really, really like you too. And I won't leave you, I promise." She whispered in my ear as she began placing gentle kisses all over my face and neck.

"Really?" I asked feelings of hope and disbelief flooded my voice as she kissed the tears off my cheeks.

"Yes really. I'm staying right here… with you!" She said as she looked up into my eyes, smiling gently at me.

"Ok," I whispered before I leant down and pressed my lips to hers in a gentle kiss.

Like most of our other kisses it started off slowly with soft gentle kissing against each other's lips, but soon enough that changed. Our kisses became more heated and passionate as our mouths opened and our tongues twirled together.

I felt myself walking forward and pushing Bella into a wall behind her, pressing her deeply into the wall, the whole of my body pressed up against hers. She moaned into my mouth as I brought my hands up from her hips to grasp her breasts firmly in my hands.

She began kissing me furiously as my hands stayed in their current position on her soft breasts. Her hands clasped together behind my hair and she grasped tightly onto my hair, pulling it between her fingers as I pushed her further into the wall.

I felt one of her hands leave my hair and make its way down my back to grasp my ass and rest her hand in the back pocket of my jeans. I broke the kiss so she could breathe and began sucking and nipping on the skin on her neck, sucking on the soft skin beneath her ear, marking her like he did.

I wasn't angry with her anymore; I just wanted to show her that I was the only one that could make her feel like this. I felt myself harden against her leg and she moaned when I pressed it harder against her.

I growled against her neck and pushed my knee between her legs, giving her something to move against. I knew that she was aroused from out motions, she could feel me. I wished that she was wearing a shirt so that I could feel her arousal too.

I have never felt anything like this before, hell I had never done anything like this before. The feeling of her soft body pressed so tightly against me was wonderful and it made me harden further in my pants.

We couldn't keep going like this, we had to do something. I wanted to, more than anything else in the world right now, but I wanted her to be the one to instigate it or stop it. It was up to her where this went; it was always up to her.

I felt her small hands grasp my shoulders and push me back slightly, I groaned and pulled back from my spot on her neck. I gave her a curious look as I tried to regulate my breathing. If anyone walked into the house right now we would be a sight to behold. Her back was pressed to the wall and her hands were grasping my shoulders, one of my hands was cupping her full breast and the other was grasping her hip while my leg was pressed between her legs rubbing against her as my enclosed length was pressing into her soft stomach.

I pressed my forehead to hers and continued to breathe deeply, inhaling her floral scent which was arousing me further. I looked into her eyes as she stared up at me curiously. I leaned in and pressed another gentle kiss to her lips which quickly became heavier as our earlier motions resumed.

She moaned into my mouth as one of her hands slid its way into my chest, her fingernails now running over the muscles of my stomach and trailing further downwards. I hissed as the tips of her fingers brushed against the top of my pants.

"Bella," I growled as she slid her hands back and forth over the hem of my jeans.

She smirked against my lips at my reaction, and pressed her mouth closer to mine as her fingers trailed down the zipper of my jeans and brushed against my arousal. I moaned as her hand purposefully cupped my denim clad length, my neck straining backwards as she began rubbing against me.

"Bell, if you don't stop right now I may not be responsible for what I do to you," I growled at her as she pushed her hand further into me while sucking and biting on my neck.

"Oh really?" She moaned as her hands came down to unbutton my pants.

"Bella," I said as a warning as she tugged the zipper down, all she did was giggle in response.

I could feel how warm her hands were through the silky fabric of my boxers as she brushed her fingers gently against me once more. I growled again, and lunged at her kissing her mouth furiously. Our kiss was just teeth and tongue, it was rough and hard and I had never been more thankful for Charlie's absence.

Her hand grasped around me as I sucked her tongue with my lips. Her grasp tightened as I moved my lips from hers to her neck as she giggled once more at my reaction. I sucked roughly on her neck as she began moving her hand slowly up and down my length.

It had been awhile since I had touched myself and so her movements were so much more arousing than my own. I gasped for air against her neck as she continued her ministrations. My hands dragged down her chest, where they had previously been resting on her breasts, and continued their way down her body to rest between her legs.

It was her turn to moan now, as I rubbing my fingers over the top of her denim clad arousal, I could feel some of the moisture soaking through. I reach my fingers up and undid her pants, before dragging them down her legs so that only her thin panties were covering her sweet spot.

I bent my neck and took one of her cloth covered nipples into my mouth as I pressed my fingers into her warmth, sliding them around as part of her arousal dripped through the silk and onto my fingers.

"Oh god, Edward." She cried as I slid my fingers around her nub, her hand tightening around me further at my motions.

I continued my ministrations as she continued hers. I could feel my body tightening and I could feel liquid escape my still clothed length as I felt her leg brush up against it. I brought my fingers into her underwear, and began sliding my fingers back and forth over her lips. Her face was buried in my neck and I was still pressing kisses into the skin of her neck.

Her hand continued to stroke me and began swirling as they got to the tip. My fingers pressed firmly into her as she gasped against me neck. I felt her body tense in front of me as she pressed her face further into my neck, she was close and I wanted to help her so as fast as I could I inserted two of my fingers into her, causing her to gasp as her inner walls grasped my fingers tightly between their muscles. Her body shook and I felt her hand grasp me tighter, brining me to release too.

I moved my face from her neck and brought her lips to mine, kissing her passionately as we both rode out our orgasms, falling to the floor as our bodies shook. As we came down I pressed softer kisses over her neck and jaw, admiring my handiwork as I observed the bruise that was now forming on her neck.

"Mmm," she murmured as I kissed her lips softly.

Nothing could beat the feelings of happiness I felt as I looked into her eyes and saw nothing but admiration and something else that I couldn't place reflected back at me.

I slowly rose to my feet and pulled up my pants, not bothering to change from my semen covered boxers. I pulled her small frame into my arms and carried her bridal style to her room, placing her gently on the bed after removing her jeans and replacing them with a pair of yoga pants she had lying around.

I quickly rushed downstairs and grabbed a spare pair of track pants from my car; I had always kept a spare pair just in case after our last sexual encounter.

After changing from my boxers and jeans I pulled out my phone, quickly sending Esme a message telling her that I wouldn't be home and that I was studying, before placing the phone on Bella's bedside table and crawled into bed with her. I wrapped my arms tightly around her and wrapped my body around hers, falling asleep with my nose buried deeply in her hair, and breathing in her floral scent.

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Broken bones, broken in half
I've come too far to start again
But I'm trying, I am trying
I'm sick of this , I'm sick of hurt
Shame is such a dirty word
I'm trying, I'm still trying

Swore to never leave you
To never let you out of my hands
Nothing here could ever change this
A promise till the living end
I never meant to be a liar
The shame is cutting into my skin
I'd rather die on my feet
Than live here on my knees again
I swore I'd never stray from you

Authors Note: I hoped you guys liked the lemon in this chapter. I'm not very confident in my lemon writing skills so it would be nice if you tell me how you feel about it.

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