So

I've neglected you all

I'm sorry

Life became shit

I went into a dark, dark place.

Lemme lighten it up with the next chapter

Lemme explain the situation

Amu sighed, as she lifted Ikuto up and placed him in her bed. "Fuck, should have not told him that...eh what can I do about it?" Grabbing some clothes from her dresser, she made her way into the bathroom and locked the door. Throwing her dry, new clothes, on top of the toilet, she stripped off the girl clothes, and everything else. Stepping into the shower, she blared the hot water, and let her forehead hit the cool tile as the hot water cascaded down her back. 'Damn, I thought he'd scream, or shout, or be speechless. I didn't think he'd fucking faint.'

She groaned, as she washed her hair and let her mind wander. Shaking her head, she finished up in the shower, and grabbed a towel. After drying off, and towel drying her hair, she pulled on her black binder, a black Avenged Sevenfold shirt, and black jeans. Leaving the bathroom, towel around her neck, she passed by the still unconscious Ikuto, and went down the stairs. Making her way into the basement, everyone who had remained looked at her. "Alright, everyone into the guestrooms. We should all know where they are. Anyone who is staying in my room, ya'll wait down here. Rain, you and Utau are going to be staying in one of the other rooms. Not mine. Sorry. Now. Get to your rooms, I'm in no mood." She turned on her heel once more and walked up the stairs towards her room. Slamming her bedroom door shut, her back pressed against the door, she slid down and sighed. When did her life become a big lie?

Thinking back to last year, she signed and shook her head at her stupidity. She hadn't been lying when she told Tadase the truth. However, she still... It still killed her about how Will hurt her in such a careless manor, however he wasn't truly the root of her problems... At least, she was realizing that now. It probably did begin when she was a kid, and her father passed away. Her mother was hurt by the thought, and slightly angry that they didn't have a son before he was gone. With her mother distraught over not having an actual son to one day run the company, unlike her close friend's who had 5 sons and a daughter, she only had Amu. From the day Amu learned that her mother really wanted a son as well, she vowed to be as boyish as she could be. She wore guy clothes, hung around them, and even got mistaken for a boy a few times in her youth.

Then William came along, and made her see she wasn't so bad as a girl, maybe there was hope. However, after he degraded her right in front of someone she used to consider a friend, she was done with trying to be a girl. So that's when her long pink hair was chopped off. When she started to wear a binder under her clothes, and started being called 'Am'.

Sighing to herself once more, she pulled herself up to her feet and loomed over the sleeping Ikuto. Touching his cheek slightly, she smiled softly to herself. She hoped he'd listen to her and understand what she was doing... and why she had to keep up this facade, if you will. His eyelids started to flutter, as he regained consciousness, confusion in his midnight blue eyes. Groaning, he held his head as he sat up, "The fuck happened?" "You fainted on my bed, idiot." His eyes met Amu's, and groaned, "Ugh. I had a nightmare. That you're a girl. Bwahaha, that's funny, right?" He started laughing, but it died down quickly when he realized his friend wasn't laughing.

"Am, you're a guy, right? Am?"

Amu looked away, biting her lip as she did, "I can explain."

"You can EXPLAIN!"

His face flushed red with anger, as he glared at Amu, struggling to get to his feet. "You wanna explain to me why the person I've considered my best friend for the last few months isn't a guy?! Why that same person made me think I was gay! Why the HELL DID I FALL IN LOVE WITH A GOD DAMN FUCKING CROSS DRESSER! HOLY HELL ARE YOU JUST A TRANNY?! AN FTM?! WHAT THE HELL OR FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU! YOU FREAK!"

Amu's eyes snapped to his, a passionate fire burning in her eyes as she poked his chest, determination in her heart. "HOW FUCKING DARE YOU! YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO CALL ME ANY OF THOSE THINGS! YOU WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH?! MY MUM WANTS NO... NEEDS! SHE FUCKING NEEDS A SON TO RUN THE COMPANY! When my father died my mum was devastated! The people at the god damn company think a GUY should run the fucking company! So at that young age, I BECAME THE SON SHE NEEDED! Sure my hair was long, but I was the most boyish girl there was! Then...Then I met William, and everything got better. I didn't hate being a girl as much.. I kinda liked it... Then when he cheated on me.. With FUCKING SONNY, that's when I snapped. After being berated at him by being SUCH a guy. I became one. WHOOPDIE FUCKING DOO! I WAS gonna just wait till summer. But why not just tell you now? I THOUGHT you would understand! But no.. No you're like everyone else who is so.. negative."

She felt her chest tighten, as she sank to the floor and held her head. "Why'd I even think an outsider would understand? Would understand my fucked up situation, and come to terms with it? Why...Just why would I think that?" She chuckled dryly, as tears threatened to fall from her eyes. Ikuto stood there, shell shocked at the information he was trying to process. Fuck... He didn't realize the actually gravity of the situation...well fuck.

He knelt down next to her and pulled her close, "I'm sorry. Fuck, I'm sorry. I didn't realize.. God, I'm just so sorry. I really and truly sorry..." She sniffled against him as he held her tight, "I...God, I'm just a really fucked up thing huh?"

He pulled away from her, and just stared at her tired, almost broken face. Tears leaked from the corners of her honey golden eyes, and trailed down her porcelain cheeks. Cupping her face in his hand, he whispered softly, "You're not fucked up. This world is.. I'm sorry about everything. I really am. And i'm sorry about what I'm about to do." "What are you about to.."

Her sentence was cut off, as his lips met her soft ones. Her eyes widened at the contact, but slowly slid shut as he held her tighter to him, afraid to let the girl in his arms go. Pulling away gently, Amu rested her head on his chest, eyes sliding closed once more. Ikuto held her tight, his back against the bed as the two of them drifted off into sleep, both holding the ones that mean the most to them in the world.

Damn ahhah. I'm hoping you people like it

I know it's been forever but hey, I had a life... and now I don't cause school is soon

So I hope you all enjoy it!

And since I can now add pictures to my stories and stuff

Any of my readers an artist or something, and wanna ya know...draw me fan art cause that would be awesome?

Love always

Manda