Chapter 28
I woke up the next day completely ready for whatever came my way. I was going to talk to Puck about me giving instead of just him. He deserved someone who could give him respect and dedication like I did. Hey, always expect the best out of people. That is something my dad has taught me through the years. There is good in everyone. Now that I see that in Puck I am never going back. Jesse was still in the very back of my mind but even those feelings that I had had for 2 years were going away and replaced with Puck. He was everything. Sure we had only been dating for a little over two weeks but I might as well have been with him for years. I was head over heels to say the least. Who knew Puck and I would find love, and true love at that? My heart still couldn't process the shear amazement of it all.
I got to school looking around for Puck in the parking lot where we usually met up when we didn't drive in together. Unfortunately I couldn't see him or his truck anywhere. Maybe something terrible did happen. What if his mom is in trouble? Or his sister got hurt? That would be horrible. I pulled out my phone and sent him a text.
"U ok?" not but two minutes later I got the reply.
"All good. Slept in 2day, see u in Spanish."
I put my phone in my back pocket and made my way to English Lit. People passed me waving here and there but my mind was on Puck. He must have got into trouble if he was running late. Ever since we started going out he always came on time. Odd. Class went by semi-smoothly but I couldn't concentrate that well anyway. I had already finished finals so it was just the rundown over the past year. Gotta love the last day of school. When class got out I went to put my books in my locker thinking about all the stuff Puck and I would do over the summer. I sighed leaning against it happily with my Spanish book in hand. Mercedes from the glee club passed by and rubbed my shoulder.
"Sorry things didn't work out with you two." She said giving me a sad smile. I gave her a confused look.
"What?" I asked but she had already moved on.
"Weird." I thought to myself before heading down the next hall to Mr. Shue's class. I tried to just brush it off until Jared and Josh offered their 'condolences' and now I was getting very worried. Was there something going on that I didn't know here? I paused in the hallway to think. This is seriously concerning me. Puck and I didn't break up. As a matter of fact we were far from it. Why were people saying all of that stuff? I moved around the corner to class knowing I was about fifteen minutes early but didn't really care. Perhaps Puck was there so we could talk.
"What in the world could they be talkiā¦" I trailed off now seeing exactly what they meant. Low and behold Puck was standing down one of the darker halls on the way to Spanish class making out with Santana. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, breathing was hard enough. Sitting there watching my boyfriend, the guy I loved more than anyone, my other half, with Santana sent my heart shattering into a billion pieces. The pain I suddenly felt was almost unbearable. The utter shock of it all was almost enough to stop my heart in its tracks. As I sat watching still unable to move I felt a single tear fall down my face. My stomach churned and twisted and I grimaced at the aching. I had to move, I had to leave and get away. I turned around and ran as fast as my legs would allow me. I ran down the halls and out the front door not exactly knowing what to do with myself. Apparently Puck had seen me because I heard his voice yelling my name.
"Savannah!" He shouted running after me. My heart seized at his voice sending a new burst of pain. I kept running not wanting to see him ever again in fear of actually dying completely. I felt his hand grab my arm and pull me to a stop and make me face him.
"Savannah, what has gotten into yo-" Puck stopped mid sentence seeing the water works in my eyes and on my face. I looked up at him and pure shock was all over his face.
"Savannah, it's not what you think-" I cut him off this time yanking my arm away from him.
"Don't even try that with me Puck. I should have known better than to go with a Lima Loser like you." I spat out acidly even though each syllable hurt to no end.
"Just listen." Puck pleaded holding up his hands starting to panic. He was a better actor than I had given him credit for.
"No you listen. When you are and I were stuck together for those three grueling weeks I hated you thinking you were arrogant, selfish, mean, and all around a jerk. Then I ended up meeting someone I didn't expect and we got together well. He seemed almost too good to be true but little old me didn't see his true colors. So I followed what my heart wanted anyway, thinking 'maybe, just maybe he isn't what they all say he is'. It turns out I was right all along and let me tell you, I will be paying for it everyday for who knows how long. You know though, the stupidest person throughout this whole thing was me, for thinking you could ever change." Tears were flowing faster than they ever had down my face and just to top the moment off it started to rain.
"Please don't do this Savannah, I can explain. Please." Puck's voice cracked as he spoke and it only fueled my anger. I glared at him even more than before. All of this made sense to me now. There was only one answer to what happened last night and this morning.
"Answer me one thing. Did you sleep with her last night Puck?" I asked crossing my arms. His eyes locked onto mine and they looked lifeless with tears standing in them.
"Yes," he confessed hanging his head in shame. Another stab hit my heart harder than all the others. I wasn't sure if I could stand much longer.
"We are done Puck. I never want to see your face again. There is no working this out, and never will there be. I hope you have a good life. Because God knows mine isn't looking so good right now." I retorted looking up into the dark clouds allowing the rain to pour down on my face.
"I thought we were in love." Puck said pain stricken. My eyes glanced at him with distain again.
"I don't know how I ever could have loved you. Goodbye Puck." I hissed out and ran to my motorcycle knowing full well I couldn't show my face in the school again. There was only one thing to do. Get away and get away fast.
Puck's P.O.V.
She was gone. Just like a like she completely left me here standing in the rain. "We are done Puck." Were her words and I couldn't help but hear them replay in my mind time after time and each one hurting more than the last. I couldn't walk, I couldn't even think about anything other than her cutting words. I wanted to run to her and apologize a trazillion times over and over again but deep down I knew I hurt her more than a simple apology could fix. What did I do? Why did I always have to be a screw up? Savannah was the best thing in my life and now I sit here in the pouring rain watching her drive off out of my life. Her motorcycle revved up to a start and quicker than I had ever seen her drive before she whipped out of the parking lot in the direction of her place. As soon as the sound of her bike was out of hearing the realization of what just happened hit me like a ton of bricks. I dropped to my knees feeling as weak as a little girl. She was gone and was never coming back. I felt tears, something very rare for me to have, come to my eyes and run down my face blending with the wetness of the rain that was soaking me already. How could I let this happen? It was all my fault and this time there was no changing the outcome. No amount of sweet talking, apologizing, smoldering or anything would fix the heart I just broke and the relationship I just ruined.
Savannah's P.O.V.
My mom was very understanding when I gave her the news of what just happened. I knew she wanted things to go well between Puck and I but hey, not everyone gets what they want.
"Mom I want to spend the summer with Nana and Grampy. I know I usually work with you at the diner and help dad at the shop but please, I just need to get away." I pleaded feeling the tears still fresh in my eyes. My mom hugged me tightly and I could still smell the scent of burgers from her work in her shirt.
"Of course sweetie. You know your Grandparents are always saying they want you to come and stay with them. I am sure they will love to have you. But the whole summer? I don't know." She questioned rubbing her face like she always did when she was nervous.
"Don't worry mom. I'll stay with them. If you want you can drive me, I don't need my bike, I don't need a car. Like I said I just want to leave." I answered doing my best to stay calm.
"Alright honey, I'll call mom, you can go pack. We'll work something out." She said giving me one last hug before heading to the phone and I headed upstairs. Packing was easy, all I needed was enough clothes to last me a couple months, and some toiletries. I didn't even really think about what I was doing either, I just did it blindly. I gave the framed picture of Puck and I beside my bed one last look.
"Even if it wasn't real for him, it was real for me." I sighed and headed downstairs with my bags determined to leave all that had happened over the past couple months behind.
