Hope you all had a splendid Christmas. :) Yesss, I have decided I will make this into some sort of Trilogy! And in between the time I end this and start the next part of Logan and Christina's journey, I will be updating It Girl / (maybe) Complicated as much as I can. It'll give me time to outline a few things to get a solid foundation for the next part of their journey. Yipeeeee. Thank you so much for the reviews!

Excerpt: Meet Me Halfway - Black Eyed Peas.

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Disclaimer: I dont own BTR or any songs!


"She's gone." Mama says as she pulls two waterbottles out of the fridge for Christina and Felicia.

"What do you mean Amanda's gone?" Felicia asked.

"Like you know? Out and about."

"You know who she's with?" Christina asked as she twisted the cap loose on her waterbottle.

"She said Kalyn. You know she's been out a lot lately. But she's always coming home so happy. So I guess she's enjoying whatever's out there."

"Ohh, thats weird. But good, I guess.." Felicia chuckled a bit.

"You guys should try. You know? Enjoying what's out there instead of sulking in your misery at home."

"Ma, not now." Christina looks at her seriously. She really doesnt need any lecturing. She's had enough. The only thing that Mama knows is that Felicia and Rodney are arguing and Christina and Logan want nothing to do with each other. The sisters explained as much as they could. And now they just don't wanna bring it up at all.

"Okay, okay. I'm just saying." Mama can tell Christina just hasn't been having any good days lately, so she won't pester her about what's been going on between her and Logan. "What about you Felicia, what's been going on?"

"Wellll, Me and Rodney have decided that we are going to get divorced." Christina's eyes widen and her jaw drops a bit.

"What? That's it? You're just gonna divorce. Just like that?" Felicia puts her hand up a bit to keep Christina from going on.

"Look, it's hard to explain alright. I love him, I really do. I'm just so tired of the constant arguing. It isn't a happy place anymore and I can't keep myself in that situation. No matter how hard we try, we just can't get along anymore." Mama nodds. She understands exactly what Felicia's going through. Christina doesn't. So she decides she'll stop talking because she hasn't reached that point in her life. She can't really say she understands what's happening.

"I understand. Just make sure it's what you BOTH think is best. That it's mutual. If you guys really think living your own lives will be better for Nico. Not saying it will be the best all the time, but would you rather separate and keep the peace? Or live in a dysfunctional household for Nico to grow up in? Now you have to start thinking about your child more than yourself. Or your relationship with Rodney." Felicia nodds.

"Yeah, I know. It was mutual. It'll be okay." Christina smiles a bit at how strong her sister is keeping up. She wishes she could be the same way.

"Well. This is awkward." Mama chuckles. The two sisters are confused, so they just look at her.

"What?" Christina asks.

"You know your Auntie May's birthday is tomorrow." The girls nodded. "Well, I told her she could have a little celebration here to celebrate her 40th. So some of the family is gonna be here tomorrow hanging out."

"Okay, meaning...?"

"Meaning I invited Rodney and the four boys to come." Ohhh great, Christina thinks. Just great. Splendid. Dandy. For Felicia, it's not even a big deal. Her and Rodney have talked things out and have tried keeping things civil. They still are married. And they still live under the same roof. So she's aware of their situation and everything. Christina.. She's not even sure how it'll go, but she'll deal. She'll do her thing and focus on herself. And family. But she is worried to see those two faces.

Well, see. This is how it goes.

Christina really fucking despises Logan and can't get over everything that just happened. Logan, on the other hand, despises her to SOME extent. Just cause of the hurtful things she said and all the unncessary drama that lead to how they are now. He wants to talk to her, but knowing that she wants nothing to do with him and remembering all the shit that happened makes him angry. So that makes him want to leave her alone. Christina would rather talk to Kendall and at least try to be friends again, but Kendall isn't over the fact that she really called them quits. He can't get over it. He still really likes her and is still really upset. And I mean, REALLY upset. To the point where he can't even look at her. Or else he'll feel his blood boil again.

Complicated, much? Since no one knew about their relationship, how awks would it be to see Kendall avoiding Christina? Very.

"Oh. Sounds like a day full of fun festivities." Christina says with a sarcastic smile.

"See, that's what I'm worried about. Will you be okay?" Mama asks.

"Yes, Ma. I'll be fine. I'll live. Dont worry." Mama stares at her for a bit before nodding in acceptance of her answer.

Meanwhile, it's been quiet at the BTR estate. Carlos is always out with Amanda, but since no one knows about their relationship, he's just declared MIA all the time. No one really bothers to ask why. He gets home in a good mood all the time. So they just let it be. Logan's either always locked in his room or visiting Samantha to see how her and the baby are doing. Kendall keeps busy. He either writes. Sings. Does covers. Or plays video games. Just to keep his mind off of Christina. Cause if he remembers, he'll raise his blood pressure. It's a cycle. Right now, him and James are playing rounds of Demolition on Black Ops II.

"James, cover me." Kendall says as he directs his player towards the objective. As soon as he's about to score more points, he's shot. "Uhm, wow. Great job covering me."

"Shutup, I tried."

"Sooo can you try harder orrr..." Kendall says sarcastically.

"I am. Can you cover me now?" Kendall tries to follow James on the screen, but he loses him as he shoots at another player. Causing James to die. "Oh look at that."

"Okay so we're even!" Kendall shrieks. They continue to play until the screen announces that their team has lost.

"I quit. Zombies?"

"Sure." While James is switching game modes, Kendall feels his phone vibrate. It's Christina. His heart drops. But he's kind of upset she's hitting him up.

Hey, are you coming to my Aunt's party tmo?

He really doesn't wanna talk to her. But he's not one to just ignore texts like that. Esp. simple ones. He rolls his eyes and texts back with a simple "Mhm" but in his head he's really like: Yeah, so? Im honestly not looking forward to seeing you or anything. I'm going for your family. & I'm fine acting like complete strangers because I want to show you how good I'm doing without you.. But who is he kidding? Thats his anger talking. Deep down inside he's actually really coming just to see the girl. And he's not even happy they're in this predicament. He's not happy she's not his and it bugs him. So. damn. much.

Kendall picks up his controller and sighs. James senses that he's upset.

"You alright, bro?"

"Yeeeeeeeeup." He says it exactly in that way. So James knows he's really upset and bothered by something. He's not gonna ask what is though. Kendall isn''t one to open up much. He doesnt feel like putting in that effort to be Dr. Phil right now. Whatever it is, Kendall will be fine.


Christina's POV

It's a nice day outside. I throw on a black floral patterned dress and white wedges. It has a sweetheart line and a brown belt around the waist. The skirt part of the dress is somewhat tutu-ish. But I love this dress, and I haven't been able to really wear it out like this. I'm looking at myself in the mirror and I fix my slightly wavy hair.

I look pretty damn cute. & I smile at myself.

After all this drama, it'd be nice to see either Logan or Kendall buckle at the knees. Such a bitch move, but hey. I think I deserve that much of their attention.

I head downstairs to where my mom, Amanda, Felicia and my Auntie are setting up. My mom and aunt are currently setting up outside while Felicia and Amanda are hanging decorations outside. I join my sisters outside, wondering where Nico was.

"Where's Nico?" I ask as I take some of the decorations sitting on the table.

"Asleep in Mama's room." I nodd and help put up the decorations I was holding in my hand. As we get through setting up the rest of the backyard, we start hearing people walk in. We go inside to see what seems like a stampede of my family members coming into the house. They're starting to gather some food before heading outside to hang out and enjoy the nice day.

"Hey, I think Nico's awake." Mama says as she's rushing past us to greet some of the family.

"Shit." Felicia mumbles. "I'll be back." She runs upstairs to grab her son. Me and Amanda have our backs against the counters as we're watching family get food and greet them as they come.

"My beautiful babies." My Uncle Miguel says as he comes towards us for hugs and kisses. "Are you guys gonna eat?"

"We already did!" Amanda says and he nodds.

"Hey Christina, is Logan coming?! That's my beer buddy right there!" He laughs and I put on a fake smile and chuckle a bit.

"Uhm, yeah. He should be here soon." I hold onto my arm. Kind of uncomfortable.

"Good! I'm looking forward to seeing him!" He raises his plate up and walks outside. I sigh and frown at Amanda.

"Oh come on, cheer up."

"I'm fine."

"Everything will be okay."

"Yeah, I hope so." As soon as she says that, I hear Mama happily greeting the guys. I watch them walk in, Rodney first, James last. My heart drops. Kendall's holding some things in a box to grill some burgers and hotdogs outside. He doesn't look at me and goes straight outside. Logan looks at me and gives me somewhat of a smile before heading out.

I really thought I would be okay. But right now, I kind of just want to lock myself in the room. Cry. Be away from where they're at.

I feel Amanda squeeze my arm and she looks at me.

"Hey. What did I tell you? Everything's gonna be alright, okay? Now come on." She says softly as she holds my hand to walk guys are situated in chairs, while Kendall's firing up the grill to get started. The attention goes on us.

"Suuup guys!" Carlos yells. At least he's still the same old, welcoming Carlos. Him and James wave while the others are being totally awkward.

"Tiiiime to start playing music." Amanda sits next to Carlos and starts hooking up her iPod to the speakers. I feel so fucking awkward right now, I don't even know what to do. I stand by Amanda and Carlos, who are joking around and being a bit flirt. Weird as fuck, lol. But whatever. Felicia comes down the stairs with a wide awake Nico.

"Look who's up." Felicia says. As soon as I see Nico, I feel so much better. He starts reaching out for me and talking all that baby talk.

"Nicooooooo!" I call for him. He smiles at me and starts slowly stumbling over to me. As soon as he gets close enough, I scoop him up and throw him slightly into the air. When he comes back down into my arms, I hold onto him tightly and swing him around. He starts laughing loudly. When I stop, I press his forehead against my lips. From the corner of my eye, I see Logan staring at us. I'm sure I'd make a better mother of his child than Samantha. Let's be honest. Girl looks like she barely has a clue about what's going on in her body. *Insert 'Yes I'm a bitch and I know it' smiley here*

Nico will always be the one and only love of mine. I love this boy with all my heart.

By the way Logan is looking at us, I could tell he's trying to picture a future with me and a child. Somehow, I know that's what he wants. And he's telling himself that right now.

It's okay Logan, I feel the same exact way.

But I refuse to talk to him. I start thinking about him and Samantha.

You know you still care about it, if you keep talking about it.

"Hey Felicia, look." I say to get my mind off of Logan before it gets too deep. "Nico, kiss?" I pucker up my lips and he attempts to pucker his lips. But he edges his face towards mine and I feel his tiny lips on mine. Even though it felt more like a gently headbutt. But Felicia smiles.

"Aw, my babyyyy." She takes him from me again. Then she hands him to Rodney. Now I feel weird again. Nothing to distract me. I head over to the dessert table, not even noticing Logan already over there. Well shit, too late to walk back. I'd look dumb. I sigh and keep my eyes down to avoid contact. I grab a plate and try to reach for the spoon in the fruit bowl..

The same time he does.

I still keep my eyes down, but we both move our hands. With a quickness.

"Uh, well. That's awkward." He says lowly. He's irritating me. I look up at him, irritation written on my face.

"You could say it to my face, you know." He looks at me and chuckles a bit.

"Oookay, Christina. Sorry." He says sarcastically.

"Whatever."

"Look, I didn't come here to argue with you. You don't have to be such a bitch." He's making me so mad I could dump something on his head any minute now. But I continue to fill my plate with fruits. "I actually thought we could've worked things out today and I was pretty damn excited to." He says as I'm about to walk away. I pause before I look at him. His eyes are pleading. But I just cant.

Does he really expect us to fix everything so quickly esp. with all this shit he has going on with Samantha?

To be honest, I dont ever think we'll be the same as long as Samantha and her baby are in the picture.

HER baby. Not his. Not theirs. HER baby.

I show him a bit of sympathy with a small, toothless smile. But I walk away. I can hear him sigh behind me. He wasnt expecting that.

I bite into my fruit and hover around Felicia and Amanda. But that girl has been all up and around Carlos since we got here. So I'm just gonna let them be. I look at Kendall finishing up on the grill. He hasn't looked at me once. I guess he can feel me staring at him, cause he finally looks at me.

I want to say sorry. And I want to talk to him. You can tell how sorry I am by the look on my face.

But he kind of just glares. Like he's telling me it's all my fault we're like this through his facial expression. And that he wont fix it.

Then he returns his attention back to the grill.

Fuck. What if I really did mess up though? That's the thing about life.

If one door closes, another one opens. You dont know if you should just wait for the other door to open again because you're so used to the way things were or if you should go through the other door to explore what else life can give you.

Kind of makes me so sad.. how he can't even look at me without getting upset.

I really broke his heart.

And I know how that feels. It's not nice.

Was I wrong for not giving him a chance?

Too late now. He wont even talk to me.

I can't picture hurting Kendall. Anyone can hold a relationship down. And trust me, this boy is the closest thing to perfect. Which is kind of the problem, cause first of all.. how can I handle someone like that? Second, yes I've held a relationship down.. but I'm not so sure I'm the girl for Kendall. He's a great guy, but I'm not positive that I can be the one he wants. I'm not admitting I can't do it, I just don't wanna put him through it.

Our imperfections made me and Logan perfect. He wasn't afraid to hurt me and I wasnt either.

Everyone needs a 'lil spice in their life.

"You okay? You've been spacing out for awhile." Felicia says almost at a whisper. I nodd.

"Yeah, I'm alright." She gives me a reassuring squeeze on my arm. All of a sudden, Im startled by Amanda's ass being backed up against me. "You have about 5 seconds to take that ass somewhere else, Amanda." She is too much sometimes. I keep my hand on her back to try and push her away but she is feelin' herself a bit too much.

"COME ON, SIS." I look at Felicia and she backs up, shaking her head.

"Ew, stop!" I push her off. She's still dancing but now she lands on Carlos' lap. Me and Felicia's eyes widen as she's literally giving him a lapdance. Is this bitch out of her mind?! But James is cheering them on, while Logan and Kendall are laughing. Alright, I guess its for the fun of it.

He's clearly enjoying himself. Which makes me and Felicia laugh.

This is so fucking weird. I can't even deal.

I wish I could be so carefree like Amanda. She's having the time of her life right now, and she's been through the most compared to me and Felicia. And look at her, dancing the afternoon away.

We're over here being depressed little shits. I hate myself for being caught in this mess. I can't even find a way out of it.

I guess I just need to put my foot down when enough is enough.

The party comes to an end quicker than I thought. We all help Mama clean the place up but not a word is said. I dont know about everyone else, but I'm tired and so over being around this awkward tension. Im dying to get off my feet, get in bed, cuddle with Mochi and watch some tv until I sleep.

No one to keep me company tonight. Sighhhh.

After everything's all cleaned up, we all go our separate ways. I didnt really expect a goodbye from Logan or Kendall. Whatevs. I get in the car and turn up the radio.

I can't go any further than this

I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you

Every single day yes, I'm really missin' missin' you

And all those things we use to use to use to do

Hey girl, what's up, it use to be just me and you

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you

Every single day, yes I'm really missin missin you

And all those things we use to use to use to do

Hey girl what's up, what's up, what's up, what's up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline

That's where I'm gonna wait, for you

I'll be lookin out, night n'day

Took my heart to the limit, and this is where I'll stay

I can't go any further than this

I want you so bad it's my only wish...

The song is singing through my speakers. Are you fucking kidding me? You know what's weird? Both guys come into mind.

Let me just shut the radio off and drive in peace.

I've never been so excited to get in bed. Sad life.

I get home, put my hair in a bun and get in my jays. I put the food Mama gave me in the fridge and call Mochi over to lay with me in bed. My baby comes running right over and jumps onto my lap.

I really want to talk to someone.

Logan wants to work things out but like I said. As long as she's in the picture, it really won't be the same.

Kendall doesn't want to work things out. But I do.

There's no harm in that. Here goes nothing.

Hey.

Uhm, fuck?! Now I totally hate myself for giving in and texting the dude. He's probably thinking about how pathetic I am - to reject him then run back to him. Wah. I'm scared. I throw my phone to the side right when it rings. It startles me. But I dont even wanna look.

Fuck it, pick up the phone Christina. YOU sent the text.

Sup

God, he's so blunt. I hate it. Jeez, forget you too Kendall Knight.

Nothing, just cuddling with Mochi. You?

Oh, cool. Nothing much. - K

Ohhhhkay. This is awkward.

Welll, for one thing. Why are you texting me Christina? - K

To be honest? Because I wanted to talk to you.

We've done enough talking. - K

Righhht, I dont need any more of your hostility, Kendall.

Stop. Don't text me and expect me to be all cute and shit with you. We're done, remember? You said you didn't want us. Annnd I'm over it. - K

So why cant you just talk to me?

Talking to you would only result in me falling for you all over again. - K

Jeez, Kendall. Can you at least try to be civil?

What else do you want from me, hm? You tell me to leave you alone. I did. You tell me you can't do this. So I try moving on. Now you want me to be civil? What about this situation makes you think its POSSIBLE to be civil? - K.

Kendall, please stop talking like that..

I'm actually on the verge of tears. He's being so mean.

I'm sorry for everything, can we go back to the way we were way before all this happened?

Is what I want to say. But I delete it.

Look. I still really like you, Christina. And for all those things to be possible, I NEED to get over you. To be honest, I don't think things will be the same. I was ready to love you better. I was ready to make sure you felt the things you wanted to feel. Be treated the way you deserved to be treated. But I get it, he's just the one for you. And sometimes I still don't understand how or why. Because I know you're at that point where you know there's never a right time to say goodbye, but you HAVE to go your separate ways. You just won't listen to yourself. Or your head. And I wanted to make you happy. Guess what? YOU'RE the one stopping yourself. Realize that. I dont need more bullshit from you, cause I tried. And I've decided that I should accept it and move on. There's no use in waiting for someone who doesn't even realize my own worth. So don't blame me for the way I've been acting towards you. It's all for the better, right? That way, you can try and work things out with someone who's about to have a family with someone else. Sounds very fucking ideal, Christina. But if that's what you want, so be it. I'm out. - K.

Sarcastic little shit. Now I'm crying. I caaan't read this text. Not because he's being mean. But because it's all true. He just doesn't understand how it is. And it frustrates me.

I'm not even gonna bother to answer. So. Over. This. Shit.

You ever wonder in these situations,

Where can love take us now?


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