I thought I might post an update to let you know I'm putting Demons Within Us on hiatus for an extended amount of time. For how long I can't say.

Many things have kept me from updating, but the most serious happened on Friday when I gave birth prematurely to my son, Alex. He was born 2lb, 7 oz and is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. However, because he was born at 27 weeks gestation he will have to be in ICU until January, his expected due date. Since Friday my husband and I have gone on the worst roller coaster ride and there is no end of it in sight. So far, Alex is stable, breathes mostly on his own, (but also with the help of a respirator) and seems to be fighting very well to stay ahead. They say his odds are good, but there is no guarantee, and that frightens me the most. I wish the odds were 100, but even a fraction of it not being good makes it so hard to breathe where it feels every moment a portion of my life is being sucked away. In such a brief amount of time my son has become my entire world, my entire heart and soul. So many things are good, but when the bad happens it feels like my whole being is being ripped from my body.

So I ask you forgive me in not writing for awhile, but I also ask please to pray for my son, and all the babies that are in the NICU. I'm at least lucky to live nearby where I can see him everyday, but some mothers live hours if not days from their babies. So I ask you to send love to them, and to my son. Help them to heal to become healthy and wonderful babies.

And I also want to thank so many out there who give blood. Someone out there saved my son's life, and I hope if there is a heaven I can have the chance to know who did, because not enough gratitude would come close to how I feel. I also give thanks to those wonderful doctors and nurses and interns that never leave my son's side. And who do all they can to keep him with me. There is a God because of that, and because of all the wonderful people who have been there every step of the way. Love still happens, and I don't think I have ever felt it so strong or so amazingly pure as I have since I laid eyes on my son.

Thank you so much for reading and being there with me.

WDW