Note: Uh - this is just something that popped into my head one night. This is the end result. Also, no names are mentioned in this theme. So - as much as it might be obvious after you read it - the two people Harry is talking about are Ginny - I hate her so much - and Draco.
Beta: I'm not too sure right now.
Disclaimer: I own nothing.
Torn:
Have you ever had to justify the difference between what you want and what you need? It's not an easy thing to do, especially in the romantic sense.
What if you felt strongly for someone that you knew what terrible for you - completely wrong? What if - at the same time - you were with someone that you knew you need to- should - be with? What would you do? Would you follow your heart of your head?
What if your heart told you to go with the vile cretin that constantly treated you like vermin? Now, throw in the fact that you and this cruel person have been rivals since childhood - how you do manage to fall in love with someone like that? There's a fine line between love and hate, I suppose.
Now, what if your head told you to be with the person that was best for you - the one that keeps you emotionally stable? Even if it's your best friends' little sister.
But, what if you don't want to be emotionally stable? What if you enjoyed the thrill of depression - the euphoric feeling of constantly gambling with your life; never knowing when you might take everything a step too far.
Perhaps while you're sinking a sharp blade into your wrist and you just...slip; slicing into the delicately thin, blue vein. Or perhaps while you're shooting up you inject too much - or even an air bubble. The thought of such events sends shivers throughout my body - the thought of spiraling down to such steps makes me want to listen to my heart.
What should I do? Risk everything in one selfish move? Or allow myself to live a life of denial and misery because I wanted to do the 'right thing'?
Okay, so, not really much to say other than the fact that I've still got a beta call out - kind of. I had one person respond and I told to them once and haven't heard from them since. So, I suppose that the shout out for a new beta is still there. If you're interested just let me know. n.n
Oh, I forgot, I think I've decided that for the rest of my themes I'm going to continue to write them as I have the last few. But, any main stories that I do will be written normally - he said, she said. Uh - I think I might be up to taking suggestions again. So, if you want me to do a theme for you, just let me know. Also, if you want me to write a theme for you and you don't want it written in this format, just let me know and I'll write it normally.
Until next time
- Wykked As Syn
