TRIS POV
"Now everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy, Everybody in this bitch gettin tipsy," Everyone yells as the chorus of 'Tipsy by J-Kwon' blasts through the radio. The hotel room is packed with bodies dancing and drinking. The lights were turned off and replaced with some strobe lights someone brought over about an hour ago.
I'm currently on top of the coffee table dancing with Leslie. While I had to skip out on the drinking, there's no reason why I can't still have a good time. Tobias made me call Leslie to come hang out with me while he went to go film something for his channel with Zeke. He didn't want me to be alone. The casual hangout quickly escalated when we called over the rest of the Cali gang along with a bunch of Youtubers. At some point, a bunch of random people came in and joined the party. I'm pretty sure everyone on this floor is packed into my room right now.
The only ones not here are Dauntless. They are all off either filming videos or sight seeing. I didn't want to do either so I stayed back and did what I would normally do in California. It's exactly like the old days, complete with Caleb in the corner sipping his drink and not really talking to anyone.
I smile when I see Robert step in front of the coffee table. He puts down his drink and hold both his hands up to us. I grab one and Les grabs the other. We pull him up onto the table so he is in between us. He spins me around and the three of us start a grind line. Les and I both put the hand holding onto Robert's in the air as we swing our hips in sync. I lean my head back onto Robert's chest as the music infects my mind.
"I really miss you, Babe," Robert murmurs into my ear. I give him a closed mouth smile and let my eyes slide closed.
"I really miss all of this," I say softly. Robert buries his face in my hair as we continue to dance. Our hips swing to the beat of the song as the intoxicating melody pulls us in and traps us there.
I'm pulled out of the music induced drunken state by a familiar voice bellowing "TRIS!" from somewhere in the hotel room. I pull my eyes open and spot Tobias and Zeke over by the door. Tobias' eyebrows are drawn together and his arms are crossed in front of his chest.
"Be right back," I say before stepping off the table and weaving my way through the crowd, towards Tobias. His eyes bore into me when I get in front of him. He gestures to the hallway with his head and I nod. Zeke looks between us quickly before walking further into the hotel room.
I follow Tobias into the hallway and shut the door behind me. The music becomes muffled once the door is completely closed. I make a step towards him to wrap my arms round his waist but he steps back. I drop my arms to my side and raise my eyebrows slightly.
"Are you mad at me?" I ask cautiously. Tobias scoffs and shakes his head.
"Of course I'm mad at you!" he exclaims.
"And why would that be?" I ask, the confusion evident in my voice.
"Because I left for three hours expecting you to just rest and watch movies with Leslie and come back to find this! Can I not leave you alone for a minute?" he says.
"You're not in charge of making sure I behave. If you didn't already know, I'm a big girl," I say. My eyes narrow and my arms cross in front of me.
"Right now your acting more like a teenager than an adult," he snaps as he runs a hand through his hair.
"I'm 21 not 30!" I exclaim.
"You should still have more sense than to do something like this," he says.
"You honestly expected me to just sit around and do nothing? Do you even know me?" I say with a scoff.
"Well, I sure as hell didn't expect you to turn our hotel room into a club in a matter of minutes!" he says while throwing his arm towards the door.
"It's really not that surprising," I say.
"Yes, yes it is! You're pregnant, Tris! You can't do shit like this anymore," he says. HIs eyes quickly move from my face down to my stomach and back.
"I know I'm pregnant without you reminding me," I say with a growl.
"You make it sound like a bad thing," he says.
"Maybe it is! Maybe we were out of our mind thinking we could actually do this," I say quickly, without thinking. Hurt flashes in his eyes and makes me want to take it back. But I know it's too late.
"Let's stop talking before one of us says something we'll regret," he says while playing with the hem of my shirt. I don't say anything but continue to stare at him intensely. "Go inside and get everyone out. We'll talk about this tomorrow when we've both cooled down."
"Don't tell me what to do! I'm your girlfriend not you daughter. I can do whatever the hell I want and it's stupid of you to think otherwise," I snap at him.
"The only stupid think I thought was that you had matured enough to have a kid," he says with a snarl. My eyes widen and my eyebrows raise slightly.
"So much for not saying something we'll regret," I say softly.
"Oh, I won't regret saying the truth," he says, fire burning in his eyes.
"Is that what were doing?" I say sharply. "Then I might as well come out and say that you ruined my life."
"How on earth did I ruin your life?" he says with a bitter life.
"I liked how I was before. I liked partying and drinking and all my friends from before. I liked being able to do whatever I want and moving wherever I want. I liked not having strings tie me down in one place. And I had all that before you came along and stole it from me," I say spitefully.
"Is that all I am to you? A string tying you to Chicago?" he says. I just stare at him, a stone hard look on my face. "If that's what you want then why don't you just go and take it all back?" he says with anger lacing his voice.
"It's too late! There's no way I can go back now! Everything from before is destroyed," I exclaim. An angry tear escapes my eye but I quickly wipe it away.
"I'm going to find somewhere else to stay for tonight," he says in a normal tone.
"I don't care what you do as long as you're far away from me," I say softly. Tobias barely bobs his head before turning and moving down the hallway. He stops a few feet away and turns to look back at me.
"If you were wondering, this is me cutting the string. You're free to go," he says softly before turning around and quickly disappearing down the hallway.
I want to go after him. I want to stop him and tell him I was lying. I want to beg him to not leave me. But something keeps me rooted to the ground. Something in my heart makes me turn towards the door and numbly walk back into the party. I don't let myself cry as I weave back towards the center of the room. I don't let myself feel the pain as I get back up on the table with Robert and Leslie. I don't even hear Robert asking if I'm okay as I let the music worm it's way into me again. I just swing my hips and sway to the music, pretending that everything is whole and normal.
"It's going to be okay, Baby doll. Whatever is wrong is going to be okay," Robert whispers into my hair as he snakes his hands around my waist. I slowly nod and move in time with him. I let myself forget everything and just get lost in the music with Robert.
By eleven, everyone but the Cali crew has cleared out. There's garbage everywhere and some of the furniture is askew but I can't find it in myself to care. I'm lying in the large bed in a ball with Leslie and Robert's arms around me. Brenna is lying at the foot of my bed drawing patterns on my calf with her fingers. Xander and Corey are both on the couch next to the bed staring intensely at me. I haven't told them what happened but they all knew something was wrong the second I stepped back into the room.
"Bea bea bear, what's wrong?" Robert asks delicately while stroking my hair.
"He let me go," I say softly.
"What do you mean?" Leslie asks with question in her eyes.
"I told him he was the string tying me down. He cut the string," I say louder thing time.
"That bastard!" Xander exclaims while sitting up straighter. I shake my head and frown.
"No, Xander, It's my fault. I said some horrible things," I say, my voice cracking slightly.
"What'd you say?" Robert asks.
"I told him he ruined my life and that everything was a mistake," I say, barely above a whisper.
"Oh, Tris," Leslie says while holding onto me tighter. We all sit in silence for another minute before anyone speaks.
"Did you mean it?" Robert asks suddenly. I lift my head and look into his eyes. We stay staring at each other for a couple seconds before I respond.
"I don't know," I say before burying my face into the pillow. I close my eyes and start to be pulled into sleep slowly. "Stay with me," I mumble before I fall completely into sleep.
**Time Skip**
I wake up the next morning to Robert shaking me gently. I peel my eyes open to see him propped on his elbow and string at me. I look around to see everyone asleep in the same spot they were in when I fell asleep.
"Tris, it's the first day of Vidcon," Robert says. I groan and bury my face back into my pillow while shaking my head.
"I can't do it. I can't sit next to him at the signing and pretend I didn't say any of that," I say, slightly muffled by the pillow.
"You don't have to do anything you don't want to do," Robert says while rubbing my scalp.
"I don't want to let anyone down," I say softly while I look up at him.
"Don't worry about it. Just call Christina and tell her your not coming. I'll deal with the rest, okay?" Robert says. I nod and he hands me my phone before standing up and walking into the hallway with his phone. I quickly dial Christina's number and wait for her to pick up.
"Hello?" she says.
"Hey, Christina," I say softly.
"Tris? Are you okay?" Christina asks quickly.
"Not really," I say while playing with my hair slightly.
'What happened? Does it have something to do with Four? He came to Zeke and Shauna's room to stay last night but didn't say why," Christina says.
"I don't really want to talk about it. I just wanted to tell you I'm not going to be able to make it to the signing today," I say. Everything is completely silent on the other side as I say this. Robert comes back into the room and nods at me. "I have to go," I say quickly before I hand up. Robert comes over and gets back onto the bed with me.
"So I called the people in charge and they're allowing you to do a solo signing instead of doing it with the group. It starts in an hour," Robert says. I nod and move into a sitting position.
"Will you do the signing with me?" I ask.
"Of course!" Robert says. "I already tweeted about the surprise signing on both of our twitters so everyone already knows. Let's get everyone up and ready to go." I nod and start waking up the others.
Once we're all up, someone turns on music and we all move around the room getting ready. My moms had brought clothes over for them sometime this morning because Robert called and asked. Everything about this is familiar and comforting. The moving around each other easily, the joking, the laughing. It makes everything feel normal. We used to have sleepovers all the time. It's just anther thing I miss from my old life.
In no time we're all ready and making our way towards the signing. Robert is holding my hand and squeezing it periodically. We turn a corner and see a huge crowd of people. I smile and walk to the little stage at the front of the line. Robert comes up with me while the others go sit on a bench near by. I smile at the first people who come up and start to sign pictures and talk to my fans.
The line is completely gone in about 3 hours and I hop off the stage with Robert. I walk over to the others who are laughing about something. They look towards us as we come over.
"There's a lunch in the dining room of one of the hotels for all the Youtubers. How about we head over there?" Robert says as they all stand up. We all agree and head over to the where the lunch is being held. When we get there, we all grab our food and sit at a table with some Youtubers from the area along with some British Youtubers. Everyone is laughing and having a good time. I'm trying to pretend everything is okay and it seems to be working considering no one has questioned me.
FOUR POV
"Where's Tris?" The person in front of me asks as I sign a picture from them.
"She's sick," I say tightly as I hand them the picture. This is the thousandth time I got that question during this signing and it's starting to get on my nerves.
"Well, I hope she feels better," The person says before walking away. I look towards the line to notice that was the last person. The signing only lasted about two hours. That's a lot shorter than usual. It might be because of Tris' surprise signing on the other side of Vidcon. Most people chose to meet her over all of us. I don't notice everyone else got up until Zeke taps me on the shoulder.
"Four, let's go. We're going to get lunch," he says while pulling me to my feet. I nod and follow the others. I was going to talk to Tris this morning and apologize for what I said, hoping to work everything out. But when I met up with the rest of Dauntless, Christina told us that she's not coming to the signing and wouldn't say why. Of course, I knew why.
We all walk into the dining room and grab food. I put stuff on my plate, not even realizing what I'm grabbing. I numbly follow Zeke to a table and sit next to him. I start eating my food without my eyes leaving my plate. I only look up when I hear that intoxicating laugh coming from the other side of the room.
My eyes land on her shiny blonde hair. She is angled so she can't see me but I can see one of her sides. She has her head resting on Robert's shoulder and is laughing vibrantly. She reaches out and slaps Xander's arm lightly, who is sitting across from her.
It hurts to see her happy and laughing without me. I hate that it hurts. She deserves to be happy, even if it kills me to be away from her. If this is what makes her happy, who am I to stand in her way. If this is what she wants, then I need to let her have it. I can't hold her down any more than I already have. As I watch her converse with her friends, I make the decision. I need to let Tris Prior go
Maybe it was too early and we rushed into things. Maybe we really aren't ready to be parents and were just being delusional. Maybe we truly were not meant to be. I know I love her to the moon and back but maybe that's just not enough.
I have to do whatever I can to make this girl happy, even if it means disappearing from her life. I will do whatever it takes, no matter how much it hurts me in return. I can't ruin her life again.
Here is the next chapter. Sorry it's been so long. I just could not figure out anything to write that wouldn't make this a boring and useless chapter. I feel kind of bad for not only making you wait two months but then giving you this sad chapter, but at the same time not really. : )
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