A/N: I do not own any of the Glee characters, I only own my ideas, and characters that i've created. I hope you guys enjoy this chapter, and I hope you're enjoying this story. I'm not sure how to end it, I have a few ideas, but i'm not sure which one would be the cherry on top of this wonderful Fiction. I hope you enjoy this chapter. JusticeIsn'tEasy0083. D.
Chapter Twenty-Two: All Each Other Has
Artie,
We were never really close in highschool, but over the last few years, we've become closer, and it's because, in some ways, we've both been through things that have made us different from other people, and I think it's one of the reasons we get along so well. I've got Blaine typing this up for me, whilst I'm lying in bed, trying to keep my eyes open... it's not easy, forcing yourself to stay awake when all you really want to do is sleep. Don't take that too much to heart though, Blaine's been thinking about it alot lately and I know he's come to the realisation that he can't fight anymore... I mean, sure... it's not like we're giving up or anything, we wouldn't do that... it's just that... we're tired of fighting with each other... we don't want to spend the last few months I have left in a fight... we'd rather be enjoying each other's company... I know what it's like to be afraid to say what you're really feeling, or to let people in. I can't personally say that I know how you feel Artie, but to have something taken away from you like that... I've never understood the reason that bad things happen to good people, and I guess we'll never understand of find the answer to that...
We've always told Aliyah and Renee that they need to believe in the world, and that people are different, and not always going to be the same as them. I think you helped me to understand alot of things back in highschool Artie, you still help me to understand them now... I've been writing alot of these letters lately, and usually, I would do them alone, without Blaine's help, but I've become unable to spend long hours typing, and I don't want anyone to miss out... he says hi by the way... Blaine... if you're reading this letter Artie, then it means I'm not here anymore, and once again, the New Directions will realise that life is short... and that we shouldn't take anything for granted... especially when that thing involves the people that we love, or in your case, your legs... Mercedes and Tina were telling me about your new movie the other day... I think it's great that you and David are going to be working together, and I think it's even better that you're giving Blaine a part... he's never been big on the whole "acting" thing, but he's looking forward to this, and I know that you are too... I notice these things when I watch you guys, just being you...
I know I thanked you that day after you guys stood up to Karofsky, and I know that you got hurt, and for that I'm sorry. I felt like such a burden to you guys, and yet, when I transferred to Dalton, you guys never stopped being my friends and sticking up for me... if only you'd been there when I was attacked by Simon... I could have used Puck's badassness back then... it's nothing to alarm yourselves about now though... he's gone, and by the time he gets out of prison, I'll be long gone... not here for him to torment... but if he does come back...make sure the girls and Blaine are safe from him... don't let him hurt them... (Blaine is now complaining because he thinks I think that he can't defend himself and the girls, when the truth is, I really think he'll need help, and I know you, Noah and Finn will be the first people he'll call... just... remind him of that later...). Do you sometimes wonder why your life turned out the way it did? Like, if something had of happened differently, and then where our lives are now, wouldn't be the same place? I've done that before... I've been doing it alot lately actually... wondering if I had of done something different in my life, would I be slowly dying of cancer? Quinn told me to ask god for my answers, but I don't believe in god... sure, some people do, and that's cool, but I personally don't, and asking a "higher power", just don't seem... reliable or realistic to me...
I've left you a special present, because I know you'll take it, and use it, rather than it just sitting there, and never being used by Blaine... it's in the safe, in the study... in a box marked Artie Abrams... I only have one condition of you taking this gift... use it wisely... don't throw it around, like it doesn't mean anything... make history with it, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise... I've seen the world, and how harsh it can be... do this for me Artie... promise me...
'We all have a purpose, some of us may be writers, and some of us may be actors, musicians, singers... some are born for greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them... we chose our paths... we have our dreams... it's time to live them... follow them... thrive on them... it's time to stop being afraid... together, we can change the world... but only if the right voice speaks up...'
Be the voice Artie... be the voice of change... From one former friend to another, thank you for all the good times...
Never forget about the good times...
Yours Sincerely
Kurt Elizabeth Hummel-Anderson
July 15th 2021
Hummel-Anderson House
Kurt had been alot better lately... Blaine had noticed that his husband was almost back to his normal self, yet without the witty banter, or the sarcastic replies... Wes and David have been staying with them, both going through nasty divorces, since they discovered that they're actually madly in love with each other, and are taking after Kurt and Blaine... neither of them saw it coming, and Nick and Jeff have even expressed their opinions on the subject of "Wevid" finally realising, ten years after highschool, that they're in love with each other... of course, this was a shock to both of their wives and children... Wes seems to be suffering the worst thought... Jo was threatening to take their child custody battle to the courts and see what they think of gay men raising children... of course, Kurt and Blaine, and Nick and Jeff would support them, as they both have children, and are both gay... but this just seems like a different battle, one that Wes might now win, considering that it took him ten years, and in that time, he's been married, and had children. Kurt laughed at the irony of the situation... it's like one of those stories you look back on and tell your grandkids... 'oh I was straight when you were born, but then I fell in love with my best friend who I've been in love with since highschool, but just didn't admit it... sorry'. Of course, Blaine was thrilled that Kurt seemed to find the humour in that... he hadn't been able to get his husband to laugh for two weeks almost... it was wearing thin...
Aliyah and Renee were thrilled to meet Wes and David's children. Wes' eldest daughter Gabriella, is ten, having been born back in senior year, and his youngest son Kurt... (it was surprising for both Kurt and Blaine when they got the invitation to the christening of Wes' son, and found out that they had named their baby Kurt...) was just on seven years old. David's son Blaine (yes, same reaction... also the question as to why their sons were named after the two of them, was never answered...) is four, and his daughter Kaitlin is two. Needless to say, Aliyah seemed to get on when with the girls and Renee and Kaitlin were quite happy to play with each other the last time they had met. Of course, now that the two men are involved in a custody battle, it's unknown what will come of things... Blaine could always help, he does have a partial degree in law, but with all the stuff they've got going on right now, he probably wouldn't be much help.
'Blaine, we should take the girls to the park later. I know Puck and Rach want to have a picnic, so maybe we can make it a family outing?' Kurt asked, slipping his arms around Blaine's waist as the shorter man prepared breakfast
'I think, that's the best idea anyone has come up with, since Wevid moved in, and demanded that we spend more time together...' Blaine replied, kissing Kurt, softly at first, but then building in passion
'Great, well we can continue this later, if you catch my drift... for the meantime, you finish cooking handsome, and I'm going to get the girls, and tell them what we're doing for lunch, before waking the newbie's with loud banging from pots and pans...' Kurt replied, winking and walking out of the kitchen
'That's my Kurt,' Blaine said to himself, smiling and turning back to the pancakes...
...
At nine, after Wes had spent fifteen minutes grumbling about being woken up by "two little girls", and a "man with pots and pans", breakfast was served. David had been helping Blaine with a new song, which he was going to sing to Kurt sometime soon, just as a little present, because he can do that for his husband whenever he wants... and although it was almost done, his friend believed that there could be more to add. Blaine was unsure whether or not this was David trying to bond, or something, but it was kind of creepy, and Blaine almost wished he'd stop, but knowing that he couldn't tell David that, he just let it happen... it was also odd, that Wes had been spending more time with Kurt, asking him questions, talking about clothes, it was almost as if he was studying what it was like to be... well, you know what I mean, but still... if he hadn't figured it out sooner, he should have it figured out by now, and that's the only thing holding him back... he's too worried about what other people might think of him, and not what he's actually meant to be saying half the time... it's like he's trying to be stereo-typical...
Breakfast was eaten in relative silence, when had become the thing in the Hummel-Anderson house since Wes and David had moved in. It's not that they didn't have anything to talk about... there was Kurt's new line, Blaine's new single... Wes' business, David's plans to work with Artie on a new movie... there were heaps of things... but for some reason, they were all silent. Aliyah found it odd that her parents and Uncles weren't talking to each other, and had come to the conclusion that they were in the middle of a big fight... she doesn't like it when her parents fight, let alone her uncles... Kurt's cell rang loudly through the silence, the countertenor excusing himself from the table to answer it in the study. He's been talking to Mercedes about funeral arrangements... Blaine doesn't know, but he's pretty sure Wes does, because the former head of council walked in on one of their many conversations about the topic, and intercepted one of Kurt's emails about it... he was threatened to secrecy by gavel, and promised that if Kurt is the one to tell Blaine, then he can't say anything about it, but if Blaine doesn't know before the end of the month, then Wes will tell Blaine himself. It's not like he wants to, and if he can help it, he's not going to, but that means that Kurt and Mercedes will be in the position of telling Blaine, and he doesn't like secrets... no one does.
Flashback: Senior Year, Dalton
The Niff War: Two Weeks before Nationals
There had been rumours going around about what happened surrounding Nick and Jeff and their sudden "War" between each other. Kurt and Blaine, as usual, had been put in the middle, and it was creating a strain on their relationship, as well as the relationship of Nick and Jeff. All of the Warblers were on edge... they have been for the last month and a half since this whole "Niff War" (Wes' idea) had started. They were due to perform against ND at Nationals in two weeks, and their friends were still fighting, and not talking to each other. In fact, the only good thing to come out of Nick and Jeff fighting, was Kurt's friendship with Nick, and also the realisation that secrets, only keep people apart... he and Blaine don't have any secrets, they're very open...or at least Kurt thought, until he was sitting at the Warbler table with Nick, when Blaine entered the cafeteria, smiling at him, before moving to sit on the other side of the table with Jeff... odd, Blaine always sits beside me, and Jeff sits beside him... must be something else going on... Kurt thought, as Nick glared at Blaine, before practically stabbing at his salad.
There was an awkward silence as Wes started talking about their final set list for Nationals, and mentioned that Nick and Jeff would have to put aside whatever they're fighting about, and sing their hearts out, otherwise Wes will hunt them down with Mr. Bangy, and knock them so far out of this world, they'll wake up on mars... sure, that might have been a little dramatic for Kurt's liking, but when you've been in the middle of the Niff war, and lived to tell the tale, you find you stop caring about everything else, and start focussing on your own relationship, which Kurt would be able to do if... Jeff wasn't all over Blaine like a leech... what are they playing at? Why is Blaine not doing anything? Kurt thought, standing and walking off without waiting for Nick, who looked between the two boys, and Kurt quickly. Blaine had noticed what Jeff was doing, they'd been talking about it all morning, but he'd been keeping a secret from Kurt. Jeff was going to use Blaine, to make Nick jealous... of course, it was a stupid plan, which would probably end with depressed Kurt and Blaine, and angry Nick, and Blaine knew keeping secrets from his boyfriend, would be more trouble than anything...
...
Kurt's dorm room was probably a stupid place to go, considering that he shares it with Blaine, and the first thing his boyfriend will ask is if he's alright... Finn had offered for Kurt to stay in Lima with him and the ND guys, they were doing their typical "pizza and play station" games night. Given the current situation, Kurt was considering it strongly. It might do him some good to get away from all the Dalton drama for the weekend, and come back with a new perspective to this whole... thing...
To: Finn Hudson-Hummel
Is it still cool if I join you guys tonight? I need to get away from Dalton for a while... there are too many secrets...
From: Kurt Hummel
Kurt knew Finn would be in glee, but because he's easily distracted, he'd reply soon. Whilst he waited, Kurt moved around his shared room, packing together things for the weekend. Maybe he could catch up with the girls sometime as well... he could use a Mercedes-Tina-Rachel-Quinn talk or gossip session at Rachel's house. Blaine wouldn't be back for a while, if his incessant flirting with Jeff has anything to do with it... I should ask him about that, but if he's keeping secrets from me, then I guess I can keep secrets from him... Kurt thought, as his phone chimed with another text.
To: Kurt Hummel
Yeah bro, it's cool. I'll tell Puck and the other guys you're going to be here. Can you grab some popcorn on the way home though... we're all out? Bring Blaine if you want... see you soon bro...
From: Finn Hudson-Hummel
Kurt scoffed at the last part of the message, before tossing his phone into his bag, and resuming with his packing. He was hoping to be gone by the time Blaine got back to the room, as to avoid a fight... they don't need any more fights between them, they've had enough to last them long enough... of course, when you have a boyfriend named Blaine Anderson, that never seems to happen...
'Where are you going?' Blaine asked from the door, crossing his arms
'Home for the weekend... Finn and the ND guys are having their COD game night and they asked if I wanted to join... I said yes...' Kurt replied, not looking at Blaine as he folded clothes into his suitcase
'Oh... well, have a good time then,' Blaine said, walking over to kiss Kurt's cheek, before heading into the bathroom
'Yeah, I will,' Kurt replied to the now closed bathroom door.
...
When Blaine left the bathroom, Kurt was gone. It's not like he wasn't expecting it, it's just that, he thought Kurt would have asked him to join them... they always seem to go to the ND things together, so that if Kurt gets bored, he has someone to talk to. Blaine was broken out of his thoughts by Nick knocking on the dorm door, not smiling as he stepped into the room. Blaine hadn't spoken much to Nick since the beginning of the Niff war, he and Kurt had practically been forced to choose sides, and Blaine chose wrong. It was tearing his relationship with Kurt apart, and all he really wanted to do, was punch Nick and Jeff to knock some sense into them. This whole "war" thing is stupid, and it's affecting more than just them. Wes and David are about to call an intervention, and the rest of the Warblers have threatened numerous times, that they're going to quit, if the two don't stop... it's been going on for a month and a half, and Blaine's sick of it... he wants to stop lying to Kurt, and hiding things from him, and he doesn't want to be in the middle anymore...
'I'm not here for pleasantries, I just came to tell you that Wes wants to know if you would prefer to sing solo or duet,' Nick said, sitting on the end of Blaine's bed
'Duet... do you know what's wrong with Kurt?'
'Why don't you ask Jeff, I'm sure he would be able to tell you...?' Nick replied
'I am so sick of this shit Nick. You and Jeff need to get the fuck over all this crap you're going through. Kurt and I have barely spoken since this started... our relationship is falling apart, because you and Jeff are keeping stupid secrets from each other. You love one another, it's about time you manned up and fucking admitted it. I'm not doing this shit anymore... I have to go see my boyfriend and tell him the truth... I hate secrets...' Blaine said, grabbing his coat, wallet and keys off his nightstand and storming out of the room, slamming the door closed on a stunned Nick...
End Flashback
Kurt, Blaine, Wes, David and the girls met Rachel and Puck at the small park near the Puckerman house. Blaine had been kicked out of the kitchen, so Kurt could cook, which he was rather surprised about. Kurt hasn't had the strength to cook for two months, so Blaine was shocked when his husband was practically back to his old self. Wes and David greeted Rachel and Puck, taking Aliyah and Renee over to the small playground, where Bailey, the Puckerman's eldest child, was already playing, laughing happily when Aliyah and Renee joined him. Rachel was surprised by the amount of food Kurt had made, and commented about it being "enough to feed the United States over... twice". Kurt just shrugged, and smiled, kneeling down to set out all the bowls and plates, whilst Blaine just watched with Noah, the two not needing words to know what the other was thinking. Wes and David arrived back at the picnic table just as the other four adults were pouring drinks and serving food.
Blaine sat beside Kurt, watching with a smile as his husband and Rachel chatted easily about his new line, and her new offer for Broadway... Wes and David spent the entire lunch just talking to each other, only engaging in group conversation, when the others were talking about something one of them considered interesting... they've changed alot since highschool, both Blaine and Kurt have noticed. Wes is still the same gavel-wielding psycho, but they've finally realised who they are... that's something neither of them knew in highschool, well, except for Wes, who got his girlfriend pregnant, and now has a ten year old... Blaine was in a conversation with Puck about Finn's latest Buckeye's game and how they should "totally go and see that shit man". Kurt just chuckled, sipping the orange juice he'd brought, and helping Renee with her sandwich, whilst commenting on his step-brother's ability to actually lead his team to constant wins, and that it's surprising and shocking all at the same time. Does he miss Finn? Of course, they're brothers... does he want to be subjected to sitting through a football game for two hours? No, not really. He'd go for Blaine and Puck, because they're his friends and family, and he loves them... but if he had to chose between seeing Finn play, and just seeing Finn, he'd pick the second one... especially now...
'Do you miss singing Kurt?' Rachel asked when lunch was done and the two had decided to go for a walk alone
'All the time... I... sometimes, I close my eyes, and I'm back on that stage with you, singing my heart out... and then I wake up, and remember that I'm dying and... I'd give anything to do that one more time Rach,'
'Maybe you can Kurt. Maybe we all can... I know the people at Gershwin would love to see you again... you could bring Blaine...'
'I can't Rachel... I'm not strong enough-'
'That's bull Kurt, and we both know it. You're afraid that singing about something, means that you're going to lose everything you have now... look at that man... look at those girls... they love you... I love you... Noah loves you... we all love you Kurt... singing makes you happy... and I know... I know you want to, because I can see it in your eyes... don't lie to me Kurt Hummel-Anderson... don't lie to me...' Rachel said, pulling her best-friend into a hug
'Maybe I'm a dreamer... maybe I'm misunderstood... maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should...' Kurt said, taking Rachel's hand, as the two headed back towards the table...
...
Rachel kept winking at Kurt, wanting him to sing, but he wasn't sure if he should... he knows it could hurt him, and he doesn't want to see that look in Blaine's eyes again... the one where he knows that Blaine's sad... he hates that look, but maybe singing would make him happy... Kurt winked at Rachel, who pulled out a guitar from god only knows where, and handed it to Puck, who just smiled at Kurt...
(See AN for song. I do not own.)
Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Kurt smiled at Blaine, who was watching him in awe, and Wes and David, who had curled up to one another, whilst the girls sat with Rachel, who was already tearing up, smiling...
Maybe I'm crazy
(Maybe I'm crazy)
Maybe I'm the only one
(Maybe I'm the only one)
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough
Kurt was smiling, probably more than he has since his diagnosis. Blaine was on the verge of tears, taking Kurt's hand, and smiling, as Puck joined in where needed and played the guitar...
Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
Rachel winked at her best-friend, closing her eyes, and letting Kurt's voice wash over her... the same way it had all those years ago when she and Kurt were back in ND.
Maybe it's hopeless
(Maybe it's hopeless)
Maybe I should just give up
(Maybe I should just give up)
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?
Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
And maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
'Cause nothing stays the same
Maybe it's time to change
The song ended with Blaine pulling Kurt into a tight hug, Rachel smiling and crying, holding onto Puck's hand... Wes and David had their hands patriotically over their hearts, smiling at the memories going through their minds of all the times Kurt had sung in the Warblers...
'I love you Kurt, and that was fantastic. I knew you could sing that low, but I didn't know you could do it that well...'
'I'm full of surprises... I love you too...'
'Kurt...'
'Thanks Rachel... I love you as well,' Kurt said, pulling the woman into the group hug...
A/N: The first time Kurt has sung in almost five years... What did you guys think? Song was'Maybe' by the Sick Puppies off their Tripolar album.
