Chapter 28:
So this is why Dougie was ignoring her? Because of some girl he'd met a few days ago? Who was she anyways? How had she come before Saniya in Dougie's life anyways? When had some other girl become more important than her? When? And why?
"Because you pushed him away" a soft voice in her head said.
Did she really? She didnt want to think about it so she increaded the volume on her radio and kept on driving, no clue where she was going.
"So we are now going to play BubbleWrap" said the RJ on the radio, and a few seconds later, music burst out of the speakers, and the song began...
"I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,
In case I fall and break apart,
I'm not God, I can't change the stars,
And I don't know if there's life on Mars,
But I know you're hurt,
People that you love and those who care for you,
I want nothing to do with the things you're going through..."
Saniya looked up at the skies and sighed, was this God's way of telling her, she was doomed? Well, whatever it was fate had chosen a song that told her exactly how she felt and just made her feel worst.
"This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised.
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye..."
Had she any right to cry? Or question Dougie on his actions? She had been the one to push him away, she had told him there was no future for what he had wanted. And now he'd chosen someone else, so did she have any right to feel bad? And why was she feeling bad?
"I'm a little dazed and confused,
Life's a bitch and so are you.
All my days have turned into nights,
'Cause living without, without, without you in my life.
And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,
And lose all your friends,
Did I mean nothing at all?
Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?.."
Why was she angry at Dougie when this is all she had wanted? For him to move on? But had he moved on so easily ? Had she meant nothing to him? It barely took him a week to be with someone new, was she just a game? A game he gave up on? Were there no real emotions involved? Was it really just a crush?
"Yeah!
Turn on the radio honey,
'Cause every single sad song you'll be able to relate!
This one I dedicate.
Whoa oh!
Don't get all emotional baby,
You can never talk to me, you're unable to communicate!..."
But nonetheless, she was angry. She felt betrayed by him. She never wanted to talk to him again. He had lied to her. Hurt her. Ignored her for some chick he'd just met.
"This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised..."
But then again, what right did she have to be hurt or angry at him? She'd literally pushed him away from her. She didnt want this. She never had wanted Dougie to be in love with her. So then why the fuck did she feel bad?
"This is the last time,
I give up this heart of mine,
I'm telling you that I'm
A broken man who's finally realised.
You're standing in moonlight,
But you're black on the inside,
Who do you think you are to cry?
This is goodbye..."
She had to let Dougie move on, thats what she'd wanted all along and she was finally getting it then why was she acting like a jealous girlfriend? Could it be? Did this mean..? Was she in love with her bestfriend?
Dougie sighed as he kept up the phone for the 100th time, should he call and check on her?
What if she'd been hurt? What if something was wrong? He should call her he decided as he picked up his phone and dialed her number.
Engaged. Her number had been going busy from the past half an hour he had been trying. Who the hell was she talking to? He really wished it wasnt that Ethan guy. He hated him. He was a jerk. He didnt get what Saniya liked in him anyways.
Saniya smiled talking to Tom always made her feel better. He was the only one she was close to except Dougie in the band. They'd kicked off instantly. Saniya and Tom. They had many things in common and whenever Saniya had an issue that was Dougie-related she turned to Tom, just like she had now.
"So Dougie didnt answer your calls?" Tom inquired.
"Yes, not a aingle one of them
"And then Ramsha tells you it was on silent."
"Yee.." Saniya paused, Ramsha? How did Tom know her name? She hadnt told him her name yet.
"Saniya?" Tom questioned
"Tom?" Saniya said suspiciously.
"Yes?"
"How do you know her name was Ramsha?"
"Errr..."
"The truth Tom"
She heard Tom sighed, as he told her how he knew Ramsha and how he knew she was dating Dougie.
"DATING?" Saniya bellowed.
"Both of them are dating" Tom said in affirmative.
"He called her his girlfriend?" Saniya was stunned. Why hadnt Dougie told her about this girl if they'd been out from so long?
"Tom, I need to talk to Dougie. Talk to you later"
"Okay, bye."
She hung up. Dougie and her needed to talk.
Dougie was going to head to the kitchen when he heard the doorbell ring, he went over and opened the door, surprised to see Saniya standing there.
"Saniya, I've been calling you but.."
"We need to talk" was all she said as she entered.
Five minutes they both were sitting on his sofa,
"So what do you want to talk about?"
"Since when have you and Ramsha been dating?"
Dougie gulped, shit. Okay, he needed to calm down. Ramsha and him had been over the story many times. He knew what to say.
"Well, I had known her since a month, like friends, casual friends. And then the day you told me you didnt want a relationship. I bumped into her and we had coffee, and got talking and I realized that I actually wasnt that into you. I mean I was but not in that way, I mean when I was looking and talking to Ramsha, it...we just sort of clicked. And then I asked her out, we went out on a couple of dates and then we're in a relatinship sort of thing."
All he saw Saniya do was nod slowly as she got up.
"Thats all I wanted to clear" she sad before walking out the door.
Dougie sighed, this was all messed up. Saniya hadnt come to him to accept her feelings, she'd just come to know the story. What was happening?
