I walked through the halls that leaded to the throne room as I am dress in white and beauty, and the smell of roses fills the room as I entered making my body relax.

I saw Aro, Caius, and Marcus standing in front of their throne along with the wives standing beside their husbands.

"Elizabeth Marie Dondai, you swear with you blood and soul that you will stand loyal to the Volturi no matter the costs are?" Caius said.

"I swear with all my blood and soul that it is my duty to protect, obey, respect the law of the Volturi. It is my duty to see my masters' goals be complete with satisfaction. Therefore it is my duty to obey my masters and comrades in a mission with respect and grace." I stared at the marble pillar that were behind them so I wouldn't lose focus.

"Do you swear with you blood and soul that you will destroy to protect the secret of our existence." Marcus said with a low husk voice.

"Yes, as cording by the law I am allowed to kill or destroy anyone that stands a threat to the vampire world." I answered quickly, sounding a little like robot.

Aro nods pleased by me. "Do you swear to hold, to protect, to stand, to fight along with us to become one of us?" Aro said.

"Yes, it would be a horror to stand by the masters." I said.

Aro smiles warmly at me, like a father smiling at its newborn child.

"Welcome, my child."

Soon Demetri puts a pure black cloak over my shoulders, covering the white dress that covers my body.

"Welcome to the Volturi." he then kisses my forehead, then Sulpicia kisses both sides of my cheeks. Marcus kisses my forehead. Caius kisses my forehead quickly, making his wife kiss both sides of my cheeks then gave me a quick kiss on the lips which that sealed the deal, I am finally a member of the Volturi now.

It's been days now, and we have not made a plan yet. But I guess that Aro is excepting some sort of plan from me actually. So that's probably why Aro hasn't had any real meetings with me about the concept of Soria or Lucain.

Another restless night, and again I finally got out of bed after so much tossing and turning that I couldn't stay it anymore. When I walked through the hall door after door I actually found myself in the garden where Steven gave me the necklace that it's rose was imprison in pure crystal.

I grasp the necklace close to my heart remembering the good days when I was so young and innocent.

Soon walking around the beautiful colorful flowers that were glowing with beauty as the moonlight rays hit them, I realized Spike was here with me. But he had not noticed my presents instead he was staring at the moon curiously and wander. This makes me want to know what he's thinking right now at this very second. I always thought that Spike was very easy to read through the years of childhood, but now, here he was unreadable. Like a stone or somewhat.

I sat beside him,then noticing he had a piece of long thin rope twisting in his fingers as he stares at the bright moon with the same expression.

"It makes you think," Spike spoke up suddenly, eyes still on the moon. "That there is such a place without all of this,"

I stared at him in shock.

"Really? How so?" I asked unsure.

He then looks at me for the first time in a while. "Like it seems that there's a place where there's no vampires, no werewolves, no hunters, no nothing. Just us- all human and peaceful."

We look at each other eyes seeing our wonderment burn in the reflection of our eyes. Which surprised me, because I had never known that Spike wander the same thing as...Alexander.

"Even through that if there is truely a place like that, we'll all be dead by then." he mutters.

"That's not true, you could try to find it." I protested.

He sighs with hesitation. "Yeah, but even if that was true, I won't be able to leave this place... ever..." he whispers.

"Why?" I asked.

At first he didn't respond like he was choosing to tell me or not. "The only reason I stay is because of her." he whispered low, so low I bare make out the words.

"Who?" I asked curiously.

He bite him lip hard before answering, "Sabrina,"

"Sabrina? Who is that?" I asked. Totally taken back by him, I didn't know he had a girlfriend besides the fact he never mention of her before.

"She's a girl I met a while ago before my father started hunting you down." he muttered.

I blinked twice to see if this was actually Spike, however it was, serious and calm not his style.

He frowns badly. "Elizabeth, they hurted her. My parents tried to kill Sabrina before they found you. They made her suffer through horrible things... things that made her go mad and crazy." he was hoarse now.

I stared at him in shock. I can't believe this! Aunt Bell and Viktor tried to kill Spike's love, shouldn't they be happy that their son found love- not punish him for it!

"Why would they do that?" I questioned suddenly.

He turns to watch the moon again. "Because she's human and their refuse to let me love someone like Sabrina..." he trails off staring silently, probably thinking about her and those awful memories that his parents caused. "Can you imagine the person you love screaming for mercy or calling for your help to save them?"

My throat tighten at the thought of remembering that his father tried to kill Rosy, the look in her eyes- her screams- her blood- her fear. That's why I will never explain my nightmares to nobody about my little sister's near death experience and the Quil games. I'll never get the chase to explain my horrible past of the people I watch and had to kill to survive the games. That's why I never want children or get married, because they'll never understand why I scream at night, why I have so many restless slumbers, why I beg to make them stop, why I could never get over the horrible memory of Angel's death. Never... and that is why people lost their lives because of me... because of me...

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