Chapter 27 :
Letting go :
A week after getting shot Jane was finally released from the hospital. As Maura still had a couple of free months before starting her residency she was able to stay home with her. At first Jane really enjoyed being taken care of by her mom and Maura. She enjoyed not having to get out of bed to take her meals, not having to do the laundry or the cleaning, but most importunately she enjoyed spending quiet time with her wonderful girlfriend. Unfortunately after a week of being treating as an invalid Jane started to be impatient and as she felt stronger tried to make Maura see she didn't need her to take of her anymore, but Maura was stubborn and refused to let her lift a finger.
That morning Jane woke up to find Maura literally sitting on top of her looking down at her.
"Good morning my hero." Maura smiled bending over to kiss her recovering girlfriend.
" Good morning Doctor." Jane replied sliding her fingers under Maura's top reaching for her breast.
"No, no, not yet." Maura objected pulling Jane's from her top.
"Come on Maura, you can not tease me like this and expect me not to make a move." Jane frowned sitting up in her bed.
"I know, but you're still recovering and do not wish to see you hurt."
"It's been two weeks since I got shot and 3 weeks since we had sex, I can't take it anymore especially when you're literally sitting on top of me flashing me with those gorgeous breasts of yours." Jane said as she strongly grabbed Maura's waist showing her she was still strong and capable of taking charge.
"I never said I wanted to keep you waiting longer, I just said I didn't want to see you hurt, now would you please relax and let me take care of you." Maura said pushing her backward on her pillow.
As Jane's head hit her pillow she immediately felt Maura's lips on her neck pressing against her skin and her hands sliding under her tongue. At first Jane didn't object and closed her eyes letting Maura wonder her tongue on her chest while wandering her finger tips on her firm stomach. As Maura was dangerously dragging her tongue on her bare belly all the way towards her fold Jane understood what Maura had in mind.
Maura and Jane had been together for 8 months now and had being having sex for 2 months but Maura had never gone down on her. At first Maura was shy and could barely touch her, so Jane took it upon her to gently teach her how to relax and enjoy her touch. As the weeks passed Maura became more and more confortable with her own body and started to open herself more and finally made love to Jane. Jane remembered the first time she felt Maura's fingers inside of her : feeling her girlfriend filling her up was the more incredible feeling she ever had the chance to experience. Of all the women she had been with Maura was the first who really knew how to touch her, where to touch her and what words to whisper in her ears to turn her on. But even if they had made tremendous progress and were enjoying each other's body a lot Maura had never tasted Jane. They talked about it and even if she really wanted to pleasure Jane that way Maura was scared of not being able to satisfy Jane that way so they decided to wait until she felt more comfortable with her own skills. Apparently today was the day Maura finally started to trust herself to finally take that step. Even if Jane had dreamed about this moment for months she felt extremely uncomfortable and even if she had been able to avoid the subject up until now she suddenly felt it was time for her to reveal the truth to Maura.
"Maura sweet heart what are you doing?" Jane mumbled petrified at the the view of her girlfriend's head between her legs.
"What does it look like I'm doing?"Maura asked continuing kissing Jane's belly.
"Babe, please stop we need to talk about something."Jane objected lowering her top covering her belly.
"I know what you're going to say and don't worry I'm ready. I know you've been expecting this for a long time and I'm grateful for your patience, but now it's time."
"I...Don't know how to say this."Jane said sitting in bed lifting her legs against her chest.
"Are you scared that I might not satisfy you." Maura asked rising her eyebrows.
"No no, of course not. I know it's gonna be great, it's just that I have never done this before." Jane shamefully admitted awaiting Maura's reaction.
"I don't understand. "
" I never allowed a woman to go down on me before. Yes I slept with a lot of girls and I allowed them to do all sorts of things to me but not this."
"Oh I see, may I ask why?"Maura asked parting Jane's legs moving closer to her.
"I just...I just always thought it was something intimate you know like saying I love you and I didn't want to share it with just any girl. I'm sorry I never told you."
"Don't apologize. I think it's very romantic of you that you didn't want to give yourself to any woman. Actually I found myself extremely turned on by the thought of being the first to explore your folds with my tongue."
"Now you know how I felt knowing I was your first." Jane joked.
"Yes I do, now please relax and let me make you come in my mouth harder than you ever did." Maura whispered in Jane's ear before pushing her backward on her pillow.
For the past 8 months Maura always thought that Jane had experienced everything in bed and never thought she could find something new to pleasure her. One of the reason she wasn't ready yet was because she always thought that she couldn't possibly match against all the women Jane had slept with who had much more experience than her. Luckily for her there was something that Jane never tried before and the idea of Jane keeping herself from experiencing such a pleasure just because of her moral values aroused her even more. Maura always thought that before she met her Jane had slept with half the lesbians in town and beyond and that she tried everything that was offered to her and that she did all that without having the smallest feeling for those women. Up until now she thought they were completely opposite in their moral value, but she now knew that Jane was actually as romantic as her and that there was one thing she wasn't willing do give any woman until she met her and knowing she was going to be the first to explore her folds filled her with a pride and excitement.
So that morning Jane allowed a woman to explore her for the first time. Now she could actually feel the same way Maura felt the first time they had sex : she felt excited but nervous and vulnerable. Luckily Jane trusted and loved Maura and she knew that she made the right decision waiting for her. Over the past years Jane had slept with as many women as she could and tried every possible thing that was offered her but had never loved of trusted anyone with that particular sexual act. As she was felt Maura's tongue slowly kissing her inner thighs all the way to her already swollen clit Jane realized that Maura was the woman she had long hoped for. For the past 2 weeks Maura had taken care of her, cooked for her, help her get dressed, shower and even cut her meat. Jane had never allowed any one to see her weak and never reached out to anyone for help. With Maura it was different though, she wasn't scared of showing her weaknesses and ask her for help when she needed. Jane always thought that not showing her weaknesses made her strong in the eyes of other people but being with Maura she realized that what made her stronger was being able to reach out and to trust Maura. Being with Maura who now knew all her secrets and flaws Jane felt strong than she ever did, knowing that Maura loved her despite her flaws and her past and most importantly despite the mistakes she had made since they were together. So that morning Jane finally allowed someone in, literally without rising any objection or desire to control the situation. That morning as Jane allowed Maura to thrust her tongue inside and out of her, she finally felt in perfect harmony with Maura . And as she felt the most intense orgasm striking entire body all the way down to Maura's mouth, Jane finally felt liberated of her past and her mistakes and felt finally able to look towards the future, a future that she could not picture without Maura.
So guys, I hope you're not desapointed. I thought it was a more original and romantic way of describing this moment rather than just giving graphic details.
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