"Yeah, right there, oh that's good." Olivia was sat at her desk her head resting on her folded arms. It had been a quiet day at SVU but Olivia had been cleaning out her desk and her shoulders had been paying for it. Elliot had made her take five minutes so he could give her shoulders a rub.

"That's perfect." She smiled as his hands worked their magic.

"So how often does he give you a rub down?" Munch asked he was sitting with his feet up and had been reading a news paper.

"Whenever I want one." She replied without moving from her position.

When Elliot was done she turned to look at him a look in her eye that only Elliot could read.

"What do you want?" He asked a grin on his face.

"A pot of honey and chocolate sticks." She smiled.

"I'll go now, anything else while I'm fulfilling your strange cravings?" He asked.

"Yes a burger, cheeseburger with ketchup and some strawberry milk." She smiled.

"Ok." He smiled and kissed her before heading out the door to get her what she wanted.

Olivia sat back in her chair and stroked her bump, she didn't realise that half the precinct had stopped to watch her whisper the princess and the pea story to her belly.

"That's so adorable." Fin laughed to Munch.

"Yeah, apparently babies can hear from the womb so it makes sense to tell it stories about a princess who couldn't sleep because of a pea that was underneath twenty mattresses." Munch scoffed.

"Oh come on. Baby-Girl's a good Mom and she's just talking to her unborn child there's nothing weird about that Munch. You know with all your conspiracy theory shit I would have thought what was going over there would be one thing you couldn't make a conspiracy on." Fin huffed.

"Tutuola, I'm not making a conspiracy, what's going on over there is actually beautiful." Munch sighed.

"Munch, Fin you've got a case." Cragen said coming into the squad room.

"Alright what have we got?" Fin asked.

"Rape Homicide, there's the address." He said handing over a note.

"Alright see you in a bit." Fin sighed grabbing his coat.

Cragen watched as the two detectives left. He turned and saw Olivia stroking her stomach and talking. He felt the tears in his eyes and blinked them back. Olivia saw him looking and turned back to her stomach.

"Your Grandpa is over there and he probably thinks Mommy's gone silly." She laughed with a mock baby voice.

"I don't think you've gone crazy." Cragen smiled coming over to her. He sat on the edge of her desk.

"How are you?" He asked as she leaned back in her chair and smiled at him.

"Tired, I didn't realise how tiring being pregnant could be. I thought it was just going to be a breeze yet this pregnancy has been anything but." Olivia sighed.

"It will be all worth it when you meet the child." Cragen smiled.

"Yeah, it will be but I just don't ..." Her voice broke and she swirled her eyes to the side, she wasn't sure whether to talk about her feelings with Cragen.

"What is it Olivia?" He asked knowing that something was going through her mind.

"What if I'm a bad Mom? What if I can't love it or ..." Cragen broke her off.

"Stop it." He said firmly. "You are already a mother to five children who love and adore you. You may not have given birth to them but you love them and you care for them and give them stability, I don't think they would have gotten through these past few months hadn't it been for you. Look at Calvin, he loves you more than anything and you love him in a way that he has never been loved before Olivia, just like you will this baby. The child will know nothing but love from you and Elliot." He smiled as Olivia cried.

"I know I'm just ..."

"Being a Mom, you're scared and worried and it's because you're a Mom." He smiled.

"Thanks Pops." She said as he leant in and wrapped his arms around her shoulders.

"Don't mention it and I think Elliot has something to satisfy your cravings." He laughed pulling away.

"Oh yes!" She grinned as Elliot placed everything on her desk. "I've wanted honey covered chocolate sticks all day!" She laughed.

Cragen smiled and headed back to his office as Elliot sat at his desk. He watched as Olivia took the jar of honey and one of the chocolate sticks. She dunked the stick into the honey and bit it.

"Oh my God. That's so good." She moaned. He just smiled at her.

Xxx

"Mom!" Calvin smiled coming out of the school gates.

"Hi baby!" She beamed as she leant down to hug him. "Did you have a good day?" She asked as she took his backpack.

"Yup, the classroom is nearly finished and we all got to go and do handprints on the wall and we then spent the day talking about our weekend." Calvin said as he took her hand to walk to the car.

"Sounds like it was a lot of fun today then." She smiled.

"It was I told them about the wedding that you and dad were having and everyone wanted to know why people got married and then Mrs Donovan explained to the whole class that I wasn't your child so you hadn't sinned by having babies before getting married. I told her you were having a baby and it would still be in your belly when you got married so it wasn't a sin, she said daddy had already sinned by getting a divorce." Calvin explained as he skipped alongside her. "Does that mean you and Daddy will go to hell? Because they said sinners go to hell." Calvin stopped to look at Olivia.

She swallowed hard, she had no idea where to begin answering this question.

"No baby, see when you're a grown up you'll understand a bit better but Mommy and Daddy won't go to hell, see they, I mean Catholics believe that sinners go to hell but everybody sins but Catholics also believe that you should ask God for forgiveness and Mommy and Daddy ask God for forgiveness when we go to Church on Sunday. You know that Jesus died on the cross don't you?" Olivia was feeling lost, she had never really been religious but she had chosen to sent her son to a catholic school for a reason and going to Church every Sunday with the kids and Elliot she had started to buy into the whole thing and hoped her explanation would be adequate.

"Yes I know that Jesus died on the cross, he did that to save us didn't me Mommy?" Calvin asked.

"Yes exactly he died to save us of our Sins, so I think if we pray for forgiveness then we will be saved and go to Heaven." Olivia smiled.

"Ok so if I ever sin I should just ask for forgiveness?" Calvin asked.

"Yes baby, but I hope you never sin like Mommy and Daddy sinned." She smiled she didn't want to explain that she just didn't want him becoming a teenage parent and that when he was older it wouldn't bother her if he got a woman pregnant before marriage.

"Ok Mom." Calvin smiled.

"Right you're going home and Maureen is going to look after you for a while because Mommy and Daddy has work to do at the precinct tonight alright?" Olivia asked.

"Yup!" Calvin grinned.

Xxx

"What on earth made me choose to send my son to a Catholic school?" Olivia asked as she dumped her purse on her desk.

"Because apparently there's a better education to be had at a Catholic school?" Munch suggested watching her take off her jacket and sit down.

"Why? What happened baby girl?" He knew there was a reason for her asking such a question.

"Calvin asked some difficult questions on the way home." She sighed picking up the form on her desk.

"Like what? I mean what does a nine year old ask?" Munch asked intrigue written all over his face.

"He told me that the school had told him Elliot and I were sinners because we were having a baby before I was married, Calvin told them the baby would still be inside my belly when I got married. Luckily, he didn't ask me any questions about that but then ..." Olivia sighed. "Then he asked if me and Elliot were going to hell because we were sinners."

Munch and Fin both burst with laughter.

"Guys it's not funny!" Olivia moaned.

"Oh come on I have got to hear what you answered." Fin smiled turning to her.

"I told him that Jesus died on the cross to save us and me and Elliot asked for forgiveness so we could go to Heaven." Olivia explained.

"I didn't think you bought into religion baby girl." Fin smirked.

"I don't or at least I didn't but Elliot likes Church and we go as a family every Sunday. I mean I sit there and listen and I sort of understand it, I just hope I don't get any more questions like that from Calvin." It had been a very complex answer for someone his age, she just hoped he had understood what she was trying to say.

"Olivia, you're about to have another kid and you have all these difficult questions to come again as well as some Dickie, Calvin and Lizzie may have later on when they start learning more grown up things. You're going to have to learn to take it on the chin." Munch smiled.

"I know that, I don't have to like it though!" She giggled.

"No you don't it's why I couldn't be a parent." Munch smiled.

"Olivia! A word!" Cragen called from the door to his office.

Olivia moaned and made her way over to him, she didn't wait for him to tell her to sit down, she just did as her back was hurting.

"How are you feeling?" He asked gently.

"I'm alright I guess." She shrugged. "Why?" She asked suspiciously.

"Well ..." Cragen rolled his eyes uncomfortably.

"Cap?" She asked knowing something was going on.

"1pp informed me that as this is your first biological child, they acknowledge that you're already a parent but because this is the first one you're giving birth too they said that you have to take a psych eval before and after the birth." He explained.

"I have to what?" She asked in shock.

"You have to have a sit down with Huang today and then after you come back to work from Maternity you'll have to sit with him again." Cragen said.

"But why?" Olivia asked, she hated being forced to take Psych evaluations; she had always gone to see Huang or a privet out of state doctor when she had a problem.

"I don't know why Olivia its 1PP's decision so go and sit down with Huang now." He said pointing at the door.

"But I don't need to see a shrink Cap ..."

"Don't argue about this unless you want your maternity to start right now." Cragen said his voice sounding a little harsher than he had wanted.

"Fine." Olivia spat walking out of the office.

She walked straight to Huang's office without looking at anyone and they could see that she was pissed about something. She knocked on the door and when Huang asked her in she sat down on the couch. She rolled her legs up to the side of her and leaned her weight onto the elbow she placed on the arm rest. Huang sat in his armchair opposite and watched as she made herself comfortable using cushions under her stomach to help.

"Comfy?" He asked when she had finally stood still.

"Yes well I'm carrying all the extra weight from the baby, water and all the crap I've been eating whilst pregnant, it's difficult to get comfy." She said in a slight hiss that she didn't mean towards Huang.

"So Cragen explain that 1PP chose to have you evaluated?" He asked.

"Yes and I don't see why I'm pregnant not ill." She sighed.

"Well I know why as I told Cragen and 1PP ..."

"Wait this was your idea?" She asked in surprise.

"Not exactly they asked me what I thought about pregnant cops, I talked to them and used you as an example and then they said that I need to sit down with you." He explained shrugging her shoulders.

"What exactly did you tell them Huang?" She asked viciously.

"That pregnant cops probably find the job a little bit harder to cope with, I explained that with you doing sex crimes it must be tough when you see little children victims come into the precinct. I told them it would make you frightened and worried but it would also make you determined to not let something like that happen to your own kid and I said the strain of pregnancy on any woman is tough you can't imagine what it's like for a woman who see's dead bodies and child sex abuse victims." He smiled softly.

"You had no right to do that Huang, they probably think I can't do my job." She bit on her bottom lip to stop herself from saying anything that she would later regret.

"No Olivia, they just want to make sure that the hormones and the added stress of pregnancy isn't affecting your ability to do your job that's all." He smiled.

"There's nothing wrong with me George. I've been benched for nearly two weeks, I'm bored out of my brain and craving some really weird stuff but I'm still as rational as I was before, I take my kids to school come to work do my job and go home to be with my kids at the end of it." Olivia smiled.

"I know, but 1PP just wanted to be sure that's all. They acknowledge how tough the past four months have been for you, from getting Calvin back and getting pregnant then getting engaged and now getting married and that's on top of being shot and your son almost being blown up as well as being stalked. Can you see why they may be worried?" He asked.

"I get it but there's no need. My life is perfect and I wouldn't ask for it any other way." Olivia smiled.

"Good. So how have you been coping with the current case? I know you've been chipping in with ideas even if you can't go out and question suspects." Huang smiled.

"I can't believe that its real if I'm honest, because normally I would talk to the people involved and see the victim either talk to them or their body in the morgue it almost feels unreal, like its not really something that's happened but almost like a game of cludo I get the clues from everyone here and have to solve it." Olivia sighed.

"That's normal, it's like when you hear something horrifying on the news, you hear the story feel for the people involve but it isn't affecting your life personally." Huang added.

"Exactly, it's crappy but it's kind of nice to not have to worry about the people involved and just concentrate on getting justice for the girl, for once I see it's her that I need justice for more than those living."

"Well that's normal, you have no relationship with the living involved in this case so your head has been warped into getting the justice for the girl. That's good Olivia, so how have things been at home with Elliot and the kids?"

"It's actually really strange, me and Elliot used to go home have tea put the kids to bed cuddle up on the couch and talk about a case, or a victim or a perp now its bliss. We get home have tea put the kids to bed cuddle up on the couch and talk wedding and baby." Olivia smiled.

"Why don't you talk about cases anymore?" Huang asked which made Olivia uncomfortable.

Why did he want to know that? It couldn't possibly matter. She was worrying that she would get sent home from the information that she gave Huang and she could see him watching her as she rubbed her fingers against each other.

"Who really wants to be cuddled up with their loved one talking about rape victims and child abuse? It wasn't exactly the topic that wanted to make us rip each other's clothes off. Now we talk about the baby and the wedding and it does often lead to sex. It's great and I'm not complaining." Olivia said with a small smile dancing on her lips.

"Ok so before when you used to talk about the cases did you have less sex?" Huang asked.

He was being a shrink, Olivia didn't know what to do as he was her friend too. It wasn't something she wanted to discuss with him but she knew her current work situation depended on it.

"No we didn't have less sex, we just had very different ways of getting there." Olivia sighed.

"I don't understand you're going to need to elaborate on that." He smiled softly knowing that it was eating at her.

"Now we talk about the wedding and it changes to the wedding night when we're in the hotel and we turn each other on and have sex, before we'd talk about child abuse and rape and then we'd have supper or go to bed and cuddle and one of us would just touch the other in a way that would lead to sex." Olivia explained.

"Well I'm glad to see that the cases you and Elliot face don't disturb your sex life, some would expect them to make you both not want sex." Huang smiled.

Olivia gave a breathy laugh, she had heard it from so many people that they were surprised that she and Elliot had a perfectly normal sex life considering the horrors they faced day in and day out. She slowly twirled a strand of her hair in her fingers as she waited for Huang to ask his next question. She knew that he was watching her and studying her reactions.

"What do you and Elliot do to unwind after a really difficult case?" He eventually asked.

"What do you mean?" Olivia asked him wondering where he was going with this line of questioning.

"After the bombing at Calvin's school for example, what did you do to unwind once you knew everyone was safe and sound?" He asked her.

"After the bombing and Calvin was discharged from hospital we went home and had pizza with the kids, Cragen, Munch, Fin and Alex and Casey were there to. So I guess we surrounded ourselves with friends and family. Calvin was upset I put him to bed and I held him as he fell asleep and I fell asleep beside him." Olivia explained.

"So you didn't sleep in the same bed as Elliot that night?" Huang asked.

"No I slept in Calvin's bed but that didn't happen on purpose I just drifted off when I was holding him." Olivia frowned as she knew Huang was reading too much into that.

"Ok what did you do the next day?" Huang asked.

"That was the day I got shot." Olivia said angrily.

"Yes but what were your plans for the day before you ended up getting shot?"

"We went to the park, the hope was that Calvin would relax around his family. We all played ball for a bit and then when we were heading for lunch I got shot. The plan was to go for lunch then go and visit his friend's parents." Olivia sighed.

"Ok so after you were shot what do you remember happening afterwards with your family, how did they cope?" Huang asked and he could tell Olivia was getting angry and frustrated at his questions.

"I don't know ... Uh ... we left the hospital the kids went upstairs to play and me and Elliot we watched TV and we saw it on the news and then Elliot got a call off the captain and next door came to watch the kids whilst we came down here, So I don't know what the kids did but they were alright and they are fine now too. We've all dealt with what happened together as a family, if they want to talk about what happened then we do, if they have questions we answer them to the best of our ability. I don't know where you're going Huang but my kids are fine as am I and Elliot. Now are you going to recommend to 1PP that I take maternity because if not I would like to get back to work?" Olivia was angry and pissed off with Huang and his questions.

"I'm not done Olivia and if you go now I have to tell Cragen to send you on maternity leave." Huang said calmly.

"What do you want to know then Huang?" She said viciously.

"How did you feel when you found out Vivian was responsible for everything?" He asked her.

Her heart sank. She knew now that she was going to be sent on maternity as knew that she couldn't lie to Huang that would just get her into more trouble.

"What is it Liv?" He asked seeing something flash behind her eyes.

"I just ... I don't think we need to talk about that, it doesn't affect my job." She said almost in a whisper.

"I know and what you say on the matter won't affect my decision. I'm asking because I think it's something that affects you in your personal life, as long as it doesn't affect your job you're in the clear." He said softly.

"Ok." She let out a deep breath she'd been holding since the question had been asked. "When I found out she was involved I realised she didn't love Calvin. How could someone want to blow up their own child. Then when I saw her, she looked ... she looked good you know? There was a moment when I thought that she wasn't involved and that she would want to take Calvin away from me again."

"What would that do to you Olivia? What would it do to you if Calvin was taken away again?" Huang asked.

"It would kill me." Olivia said blankly.

DUN DUN DUHHH