KAITO POV
It had been a few weeks since I last saw Luka, not just her, but also my foster family. I already tried going to their house but they were always not there. I also tried to call them like a hundred times already but they never answered. One time, mommy Lacie just left me a text message, saying that they were really busy with some stuff that I wasn't supposed to know. There was something even weirder. Mom went back here and I was quite sure that they were aware of it but they never planned any gatherings or something. No, I couldn't sense any feud between them but they, including my real mom, were hiding something from me.
I pressed my back against the couch's backrest and threw my head back, having a spiraling depression because of not seeing Luka. I just couldn't eat, I just couldn't sleep. Mom already took me to different places that she thought I would surely love but it was no use. It was strange and I swear I've never felt like this before in my life. Did love really hit me that hard? What's the matter with me? I don't care, I love what I'm feeling and I know that this isn't wrong.
"Kaito," mom called out, tucking her silky teal hair behind her ear. "Why aren't you preparing yet? Rin and Len are waiting."
I pouted, lazily getting up while rubbing the back of my neck. "Can't we see the Megurines yet?" I asked. "I want to see Luka."
I could see her freeze as if she didn't really want to talk about them. She bit her bottom lip and looked to the right, then to me again as if she was thinking of what to say. "We can't." she said. "Uhm, they went to uhh...somewhere. I'm not sure where but they aren't home right now."
I looked at her suspiciously then she hurriedly looked away. Seriously, mom? You are actually hiding something from me? "Mom," I groaned, making her look back, seeming nervous.
"I'm here. Why do you still need them? Why do you still need Luka?" I could feel that she wasn't really jealous of the attention I was giving them. Mom is the kind of person who you can easily read by the way she talks and I know her too well. Those words were empty. There was another reason. "Instead of always looking for them, why don't you go find a job or something? We are lucky because many people still go to my concerts but my voice won't stay like this forever. You should really start earning money, not for me, but at least for yourself." she added.
With boredom all over my face, I lightly tugged mom's sleeve, making her sweat drop. "I'll find a job soon. Don't change the topic, just tell me where they are." I demanded.
She suddenly flinched and glared pointedly at me, making me somewhat scared. I've already seen her glare before but not to me. "It's not that I don't want you to see them but I don't want you to see Luka. Goodness, Kaito! Do you really think that I haven't been noticing? The way you talk about her, the way you long for her, it's just not a brotherly love anymore!" she finally spat out and I felt a throbbing inside my chest.
"Mom, not you too." I mumbled under my breath.
"Kaito, you can fall in love with any girl and I can assure you that I'll always give you my full support but please, not Luka." she breathed out, cupping my cheek. "Not your sister..."
Then I hissed, removing her hand from my face. "No!" I yelled. "I'm your son and she's Kenji and Lacie's daughter. I'm a Shion and she's a Megurine. We are not related to each other so I don't see any reasons why we can't be together."
She gasped, surprised–hurt. All my life, I did nothing but do the things that she told me to do. She never told me anything that I didn't do. She was used to me following her orders so I understood her reaction. "Y...you're not listening to me?" she asked weakly.
I looked at her straightly in the eyes. "Mom, I'm so sorry." I muttered. "I've been too much on my own. I love her, I need her."
I was expecting for her say no or maybe yell at me but in my surprise, she pulled me to a tight embrace. "Alright, alright." she said. "I never want to break the promise that I made with Kenji but...I can no longer lie to my precious son."
My eyes opened wide then I looked down at her. "Mom?" I whispered.
"I know the feeling of being left alone by the only person that you love." she paused, pulling away, revealing her slightly crying face. She must have remembered dad again. "You have to go after her before she leaves on Saturday."
I swallowed, trying to absorb what she just said. "Leave?"
"Kenji is sending her and Lily to America."
LUKA POV
I told my parents that it was all just a misunderstanding and surprisingly, they believed me easily. I thought they didn't trust me anymore but they actually listened. I would never waste the second chance that they have given me. The truth didn't stop them from sending us to the U.S. though. It's alright, it's for the best. There, I'd be able to start a new life. There, I wouldn't be able to hurt my family. I was finally free...but why? I'm supposed to be happy but why am I feeling this way?
That's right. It's because I'll never see Kaito again. Maybe not never but who knows? Maybe when I come back, he would already be married or maybe even have kids. He wouldn't be in love with me anymore. My heart spiraled into a very deep abyss. I felt the warmth and confidence within me, shattering and quickly, the feeling of security within me diminished - wherein shame and confusion filled in their absence. I was feeling lost in a mirror labyrinth as I felt my breath ripping from my lungs and the air was thick as I gasped.
I felt crowed in my skin and sweat followed by cold chills plagued me. My eyes stung with anguish as tears streamed my cheeks it tickled and itched as they dried. My stomach felt as though it was tied in knots and pangs of shuddering wracked my body. A pressure built in my chest and my heart felt as though it would burst with emotion. I wept so much my head began to hurt, until fatigue finally came and take pity upon my wretched soul. I was shaken down to the bone by pain that was running through me.
"Promise, even if everyone condemns you, even if it's gonna be mom or dad, I'll always be by your side just like how you're always going to be by mine."
He should hate me, I deserve to be hated by him. I'm a liar, I can't keep my promise. I don't deserve his love. I can't even fight for him. Am I really free? O...of course I am. For the sake of my parents, it's only right.
"...even if it's gonna be mom or dad..."
Kaito, I love you. I'm so sorry.
"You," someone roared as I turned to my door to see who it was. "You little whore!" she yelled, jumping on me.
I looked at her in awestruck then I felt her hands around my neck as her tears started to drip from her eyes to my face. "Lily...I can't breathe." I choked.
She loosen her strangle then slapped me. "Because of you, I'll be away from Luke! Because of you, I'm not gonna see him for a long time!" she screamed.
"I'm...I'm so sorry." I whimpered, trembling on my bed. I didn't want to hurt her. The last thing that I wanted was a fight.
She started to pull my hair and I squealed from pain. I tried to push her away but she was too strong, she was letting out her grudge on me. "I hate you, Luka! I hate you!" she screamed more then she gave me one last hard slap.
"I'm so sorry." were still the words that escaped my mouth. I couldn't bring myself to hate her. I knew it was going to hurt her so she was no one to blame. "I'm...so sorry." I panted.
She got off me and sobbed more. "I hate you, Luka!" she screamed one last time and left.
I could still feel the sensation of being strangled and slapped. I wish I could tell dad to make Lily stay. It's my fault anyway. I'm the only one who deserves to get hurt. I'm the only one who deserves to suffer. I licked my lips and...there was blood. It was probably caused by Lily's slap.
Kaito surely wouldn't want to see this. He would probably be worried.
"What happened?"
His worried voice suddenly popped inside my head. I remember that day when we were still kids. Lily made me cry and he stood up for me just like a hero. Of course, I don't want him to get mad at Lily again but it's just nice to remember those days when he was there to protect me.
"Where's Luka? I'm Luke, her brother who gave her that watch."
And that day when I got framed up for stealing the watch that he gave me. I wasn't even expecting him to come. He was away, probably doing something else and yet, he came for me. Come to think of it, not being able to be protected by him, not being able to have him by my side would be so lonely.
"If you weren't my sister, would you fall for me?"
I could still remember the burst of giddiness that he gave me when he asked me that. Who would've thought that I was the one whom he was in love with...and I was actually loving him back?
"At least let me do this. Please let me make you feel special to me. Please let me try to make you fall in love with me. I'll continue being your big brother until then but please stop avoiding me."
Of all people, why did he fall in love with me? Why did he want to make a person, who's as worthless as I am, feel special? I'll never get tired of telling myself that I don't...I DON'T deserve him.
"Listen to me. No matter what happens, no matter how much time passes, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness or in health, we'll always be together."
Somehow, it would be nice if I could let him keep that promise. It would be nice if we could be together forever. I love the thought of only belonging to him, the thought of being in his arms for eternity. It would be nice to always drown in his loving embraces, to always feel his warmth. Even if it's wrong, someday, I sure want to feel his warm lips brushing against mine again.
If I could have a second chance to live life, I don't want to be his sister anymore.
Kaito, I love you.
kk so i definitely regret making miku kaito's mother OAO i just realized that she's too young so i guess i should've just made meiko as kaito's mother instead and miku as luka's best friend OAO" epic fail but yeah XD
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-Kegi Springfield
-Day Dreaming Jigglypuff
