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Nyota arrived at the changing rooms, she had no idea if Spock was already there, she could feel him through their bond, but she didn't know how close he was. She got in and changed, shortly after she walked out to the pool, the area was empty, he wasn't there yet. Nyota jumped into the pool hoping that when she got back up she would see him. She didn't see him as she broke the surface of the water and pushed her wet hair back. Nyota started to swim laps, doing a slow crawl. Each time she got close to the end of the pool she did a kind of somersault and used the end of the pool to push away from the end of the pool with her feet giving her speed. She liked being under water, she liked how her hair tickled her back under water. Nyota had just turned at the end of the pool that was closest to the changing rooms when she heard someone enter the water. She thought it was Spock. Nyota didn't swim forward but slowly let herself drift to the surface, expecting Spock to emerge next to her, she broke the surface and took a breath. Instead of seeing Spock, she felt someone grab her ankle and then someone pulled her under. For a second she thought it was Spock, but there was something about the fingers that was wrapped around her ankle that didn't feel right. Then fear filled her, it was not Spock, Nyota started kicking whoever is was who had pulled her under. The person let go and Nyota swam to the surface. Then a person broke the surface next to her. Kirk! He was laughing. Nyota lost her temper, she was furious. What an asshole. Kirk swam closer. "Hey gorgeous." He said laughing. Nyota felt an anger that was not her own.

Spock had felt Nyota's fear. He had just finished changing and he ran to the door only to see Kirk emerge next to Nyota. He caught her eyes over Kirks shoulder. He wanted to jump into the water and strangle Kirk. How dared he scare Nyota. His Nyota, how dared cadet Kirk scare her? Spock heard Nyota's voice in his head. 'Go to the ladies changing room Spock. Now!' Spock didn't move, he couldn't. He was too angry. 'Get in there now. I'll be there in a minute.' Spock took a step forward. 'Ladies room Spock. NOW!' Where he found the will to do what she asked Spock did not know, but he found himself standing looking at the door leading out to the pool.

Nyota turned a little and swam away for Kirk. He followed her. "That wasn't funny Kirk." "Arhg come on Uhura that was funny, where is your sense of humor." Nyota turned and looked at Kirk. "For your information, I don't consider thinking that I'm being attacked and that I'll drown to be funny." She started to swim to the edge of the pool. Kirk followed her. "I wasn't trying to drown you Uhura. I was just having some fun." "Oh yeah?" Nyota said as she got out of the pool. "I suggest that you find someone else to have fun with because I'm not in the mood for any of you little funny games." Nyota started walking to the changing room, she heard Kirk getting out of the water and heard him follow her. Just as she reached the door to the changing room Kirk grabbed her arm and turned her around. Nyota slapped him across the mouth. "Don't you ever touch me again Kirk. If you do I'll report you skinny ass." Kirk let go of her arm and Nyota turned and walked into the changing room.

If Nyota hadn't been between him and the door leading out to Kirk, Spock knew that he would have slammed the door open and beaten cadet Kirk up. He knew that he would most likely have killed Kirk. But Nyota's eyes kept him in place. Spock was trembling with anger. He could see Nyota's lips moving but he couldn't hear her. Spock had never been this angry before. Not even back on Vulcan when the other boys had insulted his parents. Spock saw her move closer. He felt her try to gently push her way into his mind. Spock closed his eyes and tried to relax. 'I'm here Spock. He didn't hurt me. He just scared me. I'm alright.' Spock felt her hand on his chest. He opened his eyes and looked at her. She gently pushed him backwards. 'Go sit down.' Spock let her push him back to a bench. He sat down. She was about to walk away when he wrapped his arms around her.

Nyota took his head in her hands and turned it upwards so she could look into his eyes. She had a feeling he couldn't hear her so she spoke to him through their bond. 'Please let go of me.' She felt him tighten his grip on her. 'It'll only be for a little while. I have to lock the doors.' He didn't let go. Nyota ran her fingers through his hair. 'Spock, please let go. I will be right back. I just have to lock the doors.' Finally he let go of her. Nyota quickly walked to the door leading to the pool and locked it, then she walked to the other door and locked it too. Nyota felt his eyes on her.

Spock watched her as she moved from one door to the other to lock them. He was fighting to remain seated. She came back to him. Spock spread his legs and pulled her close to him. He wrapped his arms tightly around her. Spock rested his head against her. He was trying to control his breathing, to get control over himself. Spock felt his pulse and breathing slowly get back to the normal. She was stroking him, slow and soft.

Nyota tried to calm him down. She could feel that her closeness helped him. She stroked him on his head and shoulders. ' I'm here Spock, relax, I'm here.' Nyota told him this over and over. She could feel him slowly starting to relax, she felt the anger slowly leave him. He still held on tight to her. 'Spock can I sit down?' Nyota asked him.

Spock heard her, he shifted a little and with a few fast moves he had her sitting sideways in his lap. He wrapped his arms around her again. He couldn't help growling a little as she rested her head on his shoulder and wrapped arms around him. She warm and soft.

Nyota could hear his heartbeat. She knew that he was relaxing and that the anger had left him. "Why did you get so angry?" She had a feeling that he could hear her now. "I do not like any man touching you, or scaring you." "So it's not just because that it is Kirk?" "No, I believe that I would react this way if any man touched you or scared you." Nyota stroked his face. "Why? Are you jealous?" Nyota could feel that he was unsure of how to tell her what was on his mind.

Spock tightened his grip on her. How could he explain this to her? Could she understand? "I am afraid that I will lose you." She lifted her head from his shoulder and pulled a little away from him. Spock felt her hand on his cheek and she turned his head, he could feel that she wanted to look into his eyes. "To someone like Kirk? Why?" She asked him. "Because he is human." "And why would I choose a human over you?" "I am half Vulcan half human, it would be logical for you to desire to be with a man who is 100% human."

A part of Nyota felt like shaking Spock. "Spock I chose you! And as far as I know you have chosen me too. We have bonded for crying out loud." Spock closed his eyes. "Nyota, there are those who are bonded who have chosen not to live together but have instead chosen to have other mates." "So the fact that we are bonded and the fact that I tell you over and over that I love you doesn't count?" Spock opened his eyes, Nyota could see that there was pain in his eyes. "I still fear losing you." "Spock when I'm not close to you, I feel like there is a part of me missing." She moved to hold on to his face. "In the pool when I realized that is was Kirk and not you who had grabbed me, I got angry with him because I don't want any other man than you to touch me." She bent her head and gave him a soft kiss. "I love YOU Spock, and I know that I would love you even if we weren't bonded."

Spock was not sure that he would be able to let go of this fear of losing her to a human. He leaned his head forward and rested his forehead against hers. He wanted to believe her, but why would she chose him? He was neither Vulcan nor was he human. From his studies of different species he knew that they preferred to spend their lives with one of their own kind. Therefor it would be logical for her to want to be with a human which Spock was not.

Nyota heard his every thought. "Spock I see you as a man. I fell in love with you because of who you are, not your genepool." Nyota kissed him again and wrapped her arms around his neck. "I love you Spock."

Spock broke the kiss and buried his head in her neck. "I love you Nyota. I love you, but it is difficult for me not fear losing you." Spock inhaled her scent. She was stroking him, softly. It made him feel loved. "Spock I'm afraid of losing you too, I'm afraid that one day you'll wake up and want more, want a Vulcan." Spock lifted his head and looked into her eyes. He wondered how it was possible for them to share a variation of the same fear.

Nyota understood him. She leaned her head against his forehead and whispered; "One soul two bodies." She had no idea where it came from. Nyota felt a reaction from Spock. She felt him tense up and pull his forehead from hers.

Spock frowned his eyebrows, she had just used a term that he knew from the old scripts he had read on Vulcan. The old scripts spoke of the true bond, the bond that was the reason why Vulcans bonded and mated. The true bond was the only thing a Vulcan would ever truly desire. Did Nyota know where the phrase she had just said came from?