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Pools of Silver
Chapter 28
Bloody hell we had all forgotten that this would be hard. It was going to be impossible for us to get little Sam to phase back as he was so young and couldn't understand us. Cubs phased for their first time when they were ready to. But he was born human meaning his wolf should probably not be here yet. The same with Gavin who was also too young to have any chance of understanding. This was the first time there was complete silence within the packs mind. Other than the cubs but there were just sweet pictures. Little Sam's tummy rumbled breaking us out of our shock.
"Bring him here and see if he will nurse off me" I said knowing I had enough milk as I only had River to feed. Collin picked him up and brought him to me and instantly he began to suckle. Gavin seemed to get the idea and crept towards me I nudged him forward with my snout and soon he too was suckling at my teats. I closed my eyes and rested I had a feeling that I was going to be a cub-sitter for a while and just grateful I had enough to feed the orphaned cubs.
Jared was freaking out the most as Kim had not wanted Jared to bring Gavin just yet but relented in the end with help from Jacob as well as Jared. Collin stood over me while I fed the cubs and normally I would feel uncomfortable with a dominant so close but I knew he felt the need to watch over little Sam. The others continued talking but my job was to look after these cubs and while they were talking I was washing them and making sure they were feeding properly. Jared was pacing back and forth not helping anyone. Nathan in the end growled at him which made me giggle he was a mere human yet he dared to growl at a horse size wolf.
Jacob and Paul were trying to get the older cubs to phase to human and thankfully the twins did as they were told and phased. Both naked as the day they were born. Nathan quickly took his shirt off and wrapped them both up. Paul phased and took them from him giving them his body heat. Chaske was still in wolf and was playing up but with a firm growl from his alpha he phased and Seth quickly phased and cuddled him. It was painful to phase for a while and couldn't imagine what it felt like to them. Hopefully they would stay human now until a bit older. My tiny cubs were now fed and on top of each other sleeping. They were just dreaming little cute rainbow colours as well as Embry's 3 little ones. I loved when they slept it was nice just to watch the colours and imagined that this was what it was like if I took the drug speed like they did in the seventies.
There was no way of getting the cubs to change now as they were full of warm milk and they would sleep for hours. It was decided that Jacob would go and explained what was happening with the cubs to their mothers. Paul came and kissed me and said he would return once he had the twins settled at my mum's. Nathan went with Paul and Jacob while Jared and the others stayed with me and Embry. Quil volunteered to go patrol as his cubs were sleeping and protected by the pack here. I had a feeling that Collin would not want to leave and neither would Jared. River and little Sam were cuddled together and their fur was so different that they looked beautiful laying together their tangled limps getting lost within each others.
A few hours later Jacob returned and said that Jared was in so much shit when he got home he was glad he wasn't him. But seriously as long as Jared promised to come home with the cub in the morning after his first feed she would consider forgiving Jared and Jacob. Emily did not take the news well at all and Jacob said that she was a mess. She couldn't lose both Sams. Jacob showed us her breaking down and Nathan having to give her some sleeping tablets he found in the cupboard. Nathan would bring her out tomorrow to see that her son was alive and well. He was just a wolf.
That night the cubs slept in the den with me and Jared stayed while Collin went and patrolled. Paul came back and said that mum had the kids and they didn't seem traumatized by the day's events. Normally we would have talked for hours but Paul decided that he would go home and get some sleep and do the patrol for Jared who would not leave his son even though I had him in the den with me. He did not say a lot and soon I drifted off to sleep knowing that all three cubs were fed and happy.
First thing in the morning Jared picked up Gavin and took him home to see his mother. I knew he would be back for another feed in a few hours time. Nathan turned up with Emily who sat on the grass and cried holding her baby while he licked her face. That was until Collin came with Edward to meet the new cubs. Sam jumped off Emily's knee and went to his Uncle Collin nipping at his feet. Laughing Collin moved away and phased. Emily asked if Collin had imprinted and Edward assured her that he had not that he was just a favourite uncle to little Sam. Sighing Emily nodded and came and played with River who was watching from the side lines. Nathan had gone and sat with Embry who was watching his cubs play in the long grass. We started talking about the cubs and Edward was translating for us to Emily and Nathan.
Emily resigned to the fact that her son would remain a cub until which time he was either ready to phase like the others or he would phase when he understood how to think of his human self. I promised that if it was after River phased I would still nurse him until the time he did phase. She asked to come every day and of course no one would deny her the right to her son. She would come to us rather than someone having to bring him home. As it would be less time for her to spend with him as it was a few hours still between feds. Jared came back with a hungry Gavin and said that Kim would do the same tomorrow but she wanted him at home with her for today so she could see him privately. I told Jared the same as I had told Emily about keeping them fed till they had phased back to human.
Paul came and brought the kids with him who instantly phased and rushed to play with the cubs. Gavin had only had a few sucks before he was more interested in playing. And so the weeks went by and I was kept busy sometimes I regretted having two extra cubs to feed but they were my nephews and I loved them. Nathan came with Emily everyday but I had this vibe that something was going on with him but couldn't put my finger on it. It was one rainy day when we were stuck inside the den and other than the pack themselves we had no visitors. Nathan turned up and sat outside and talked to us both saying that he had a weird feeling in his gut that something was going to happen. This put me and Embry on edge and Collin who was out patrolling seemed to pick up his pace checking the line. However nothing seem to come of it and all was normal.
Gavin phased and was when Kim was visiting. With a quick thanks she took her son home. I grieved for the loss of him. He had become a part of me just like my own children. It brought hope to Emily that little Sam was next. However it was Embry's three that phased first. Like in the book each cub is different and my son did not seem to be in a hurry. So here we were just the three of us Nathan didn't visit so much now and with Embry gone home I was lonely. Who was ever patrolling was my life line to the outside world. The twins had caught a cold and were staying home with Paul.
God my mate I missed so much I wanted to get laid so bad. I was getting frustrated and needed a change. I did what anyone would do. Or so I kept telling myself. I threw a massive tantrum. I had had enough. I growled at the cubs and stormed out of the den and just walked away. They would be fine I could see them in my mind and they were sleeping. I found a herd of elk and caught one and started eating. It was then that I smelled a vampire I gave a howl and headed to the den only to find it empty. They had stolen the cubs while they were sleeping. I went into wolf mode and started tracking my cubs. The pack phased in and saw what had happened it was Paul who I could not even think of trying to listen too. I blocked them out and followed the scent.
I was at the Canadian border and knew that I had lost the scent. I crumpled to the ground and howled for the loss of my cubs. Paul had stayed silent and I had no idea where he was. The rest of the pack had split up trying to pick up the scent again. I would never forgive myself for what I had done it was wrong and selfish of me. I had missed my mate and put my thoughts to him rather than keeping my cubs safe. Seth came and curled up beside me and let me cry into his fur no one was blaming me but myself and probably Paul. After resting I got up and continued following a non existant scent. Seth kept close but he had no scent either. Jacob tried to make us return home but it was my cub and I needed to find him as well as Sam. How was I going to tell Emily I did not keep my promise. Jacob sent Quil home to protect the tribe and told him to get Jared to patrol as well. For all we knew this was a plan to attack an unprotected tribe.
3 days and we had not found anything I had not slept and only rested briefly. I still had not had any thoughts from Paul and knew that this could break us. Seth returned home to cover with Jared while Quil came to join the hunt. I was beginning to lose hope when the scent of River hit Paul's nose. We all turned into his direction and started following him. I didn't care that I had no food in my stomach I was running on adrenaline now. I could smell River and little Sam with my own nose. I was closer than any of the others. Suddenly I started falling I landed with a thud at the bottom of a deep pit. My leg was broken for sure and I tried climbing out but there was no way I could. I could smell vampire and looked up and saw red eyes staring down at me. One was holding my son in his arms waving him over the hole. Suddenly he let him go and I watch with horror as my son fall to what would be certain death.
