Hey guys.. One day till Friday!! Yay! And then Saturday!!! Today was ok! I didn't have to go to work and I've been out almost all day! But now that I'm back I can't stay away from writing this story so here is another update!
Chapter 28
I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to go to that tour. But this tour would be my closure. And then I can be who I want to be. Who I wanted to be from the beginning. Don't misunderstand me. I love singing. It is my passion. But this last year my passion is none other than Spencer and a little blond called Christine. They are my passion. If I want a future with them, singing is not the option. I don't want to become my father. I could never be my father to Christine.
Although I don't like being away for four months, I guess it's something like isolation. I saw Spencer's face when I told her. She thought that I was leaving her. That we actually breaking up. But I couldn't. This woman became everything to me. I want to leave so I can back to her like a fiancée, a wife, a mother. And this tour will do us both good.
Three weeks passed so fast and it was time for me to leave. I hope that four months will pass as fast. Spencer told me if I wanted for them to come and say goodbye at the airport. At first I thought about it. I didn't want to have to say goodbye to them. It would be the first time since we got together that I would be absent for so long. But when I thought it again I said yes because I wanted to see their faces before I go. I wanted to remember them while I was up there singing. They would meet me at the airport. I couldn't go there and take them from Spence's house because Ian wanted to go with a limo and everything. Big star blah blah blah.
"Ian.. I can't understand why we couldn't go to Spener's house and take them with us"
"Ashley, when will you understand? It is bad enough that you quit. At least your last minutes as a star behave like a star. It won't hurt"
"Whatever. But I'm saying.. I'll meet them there and I will be with them till I have to go on board"
"Ashley.."
"This is final."
"They will be paparazzis"
"Don't care. Unless is another psycho out there looking for my girlfriend"
"Ashley Davies, I will miss you"
"Quite the opposite for me Ian. Sorry."
I keep checking my watch. I told Spencer that my flight was at 10.30am. I had to be there two hours earlier for the check in and have my last minutes with my girls..
When I got out from the limo paparazzis were everywhere. They asked questions about my health, about the psycho, Spencer and I, my tour. Everything they thought they should ask. My answers were laconic and I didn't want to give them anything to relay on. All I wanted was to get inside and find Spencer..
Do you ever feel that you know where someone is? Without looking you feel that heart beat stronger than any other? I didn't see her. I just felt her. And when I found her our eyes met..
"Spence? Did you wait for long?"
"No. We were on time"
"Momma.."
"Princess.. where is momma's kiss?"
"Aww mommy.. You awe silly like mommy"
"Only with you and your mommy" I said to my little blond looking at Spencer..
"Did you have problem outside? I saw some paparazzis when we arrived. I tried for them not to see me."
"Glad they didn't."
"Ashley? We have to go to the check in. You will have time to talk to Spencer"Ian said coming behind us..
"Grrr… I swear.. Sometimes I have this feeling that I'm killing him"
"It's ok. Go and we will be here waiting."
"Sorry Spence.."
"Go.."
Of course Spencer and Christine couldn't come with me till I passed the check in. But I wanted to have them as long as I could. So.. when I booked my ticket, I booked another two for Spencer and Christine so I can have them till it was time for me to leave. I wish they could come with me but it wasn't possible.
"Ok. We can go now"
"What about Ian?"
"He is a big boy. He can find his way to the right gate."
When we arrived in front of the Duty Free Spencer was ready to say goodbye but I stopped her before she said anything..
"What?"
"You are coming with me."
"Ash.. we can't get in" I showed her the tickets and I saw her eyes. "Ash.. we can't leave. You know that"
"I know. I just wanted to be with you guys till it was time for me to leave. And the only way was to buy you tickets so you could come with me to the gate"
She didn't say anything. I saw her eyes and they were shining..
"Would you give me the honor to accompany me?"
"Momma.. you awe the best"
"No.. You are the best princess.. Spence.. are you coming?" I gave her my hand so we could walk together. My girls and I.
We were on the gate and waiting till it was time to call my flight..
"I will miss you. We will miss you"
"I'll miss you too. Promise me you will be ok? Know that mind will be with you guys every time"
"Call us whenever you can."
"I'll video phone you. I want to be able to see my baby girl. What do you say little one?"
"Momma? What is video phone?"
"When I'll call you you will see me. It will be like I am next to you"
"Awww.. good."
"Spence?"
"Hmmm..?"
"This.. is not a break. This is a closure I have to make. So I can come back to you and be devoted to you and Christine. Could we please forget what happened the last month? Like it never happened?"
"I know what you are saying.. I want you back to us but I don't want for you to feel obligated and stop doing what you love."
"I will continue what I love but I will be there for you. Not paparazzis, not crazy psychos. Just you, me and our daughter. And hopefully another daughter or son?"
"Come back and we discuss it. Ok?"
"So.. do we forget what happened? Please?"
"Ash, I forgot everything the moment I saw you with Christine the next day."
"So we are ok?"
"Yes, we are ok"
"So I can call you my baby again?"
"You can call me whatever"
"I can't.. We have a child with us"
"Momma.. I'm you baby giwl"
"You are princess. But mommy is my baby.. baby.. woman?"
"You awe silly momma"
"Yes, you are baby" Spencer said smiling at me..
"I missed this. I missed you calling me baby."
"Baby. Baby. Baby.."
"Now who is the silly one?".
"You again.."
"Ha ha ha. Make fun of the rock star"
Flight OS315 to San Francisco. You may go on board
"This is me."
"Ash, please be careful. You are still recovering. Don't do flip flops on stage. Don't run, don't.."
"Spence.. I'm ok. I will be careful if you promise me you will do the same. Ok? And princess? Take good care of mommy. Ok? Be nice, and not naughty."
"Momma, I'm a big giwl"
"Yes you are baby.. You are.." I picked her up to hold her in my arms.. I would see her in four months..
I looked Spencer straight in her eyes. There was silence..
"Spence?"
"Mmm..?"
"Think of me. Ok? I will call you the moment the plane lands. I will call you every day."
"Whenever you have time call me. I will be waiting.."
"Bye baby"
"Bye baby. Watch the groupies. Don't let anyone woo you"
"Like I would let anyone woo me aside from you. So.. bye my beautiful girls.. See you in four months.."
"Bye momma.."
I took one last look before I get in. But I couldn't leave if I didn't kiss her.. I throw my bag down and run to her side and placed my hands to her face kissing her. It felt so good to feel her again. I missed everything.. And those kisses.. I felt her moan under my touches and I heard the last call for my flight..
"Sorry.. I couldn't leave without kissing you.."
"I'm not complaining.. But now I crave you and you are leaving me.."
"I'll call you.. bye baby" I kissed her one more time and got my bag and head to the gate..
Of course I had A class tickets. What a rock star I am? Before the captain tell us to close our phones I took my i-phone out and texted to Spencer..
I miss you already.. Ash xx
I missed you the moment your lips left mine.. Spence xx
I am ridiculous in love with you.. Ash xx
And I am ridiculous in love with you.. Spence xx
You still there? Ash xx
I wait till I see your plane take off. Spence xx
Before I answer her again I heard the captain telling us to turn off all digital devises. I wrote one last text to Spencer..
Have to close my phone. Love you.. Ash xx
Love you too. Call me.. Spencer xx
The plane took off and my emotions were mixed. I was sad because I was leaving behind my girlfriend and daughter and I was incredibly happy because I have her back. We were Spashley again. And we will be much better when I will be back.. For now.. San Francisco here I come..
TBC
Sorry it's not too long but I have a headache.. Probably I shouldn't get out three times today. And I have to go to work tomorrow!! :(
Thank you all so so much for reading and reviewing.. You know that reviews are always welcome..
Till the next chapter (that means tomorrow)
xx
