Thank you to Kara & Sherry. I don't own Twilight. The subject matter of 9-11 is what gives it a M rating, so if you're triggered by that then please do not read.
POV- Bella
I awoke with a new sense of purpose this morning. I really need to take better care of myself and this baby too. I very well can't do that lying here in bed all day, no matter how much I want to so I get up and start my day.
After I took my shower and ate my breakfast, I decided to call Rose to see if she would know of any Ob/Gyn's she could refer me to.
No matter what I have to think of this baby as a blessing. After-all, it's all I have left of Jake and I'll have this connection to him forever, for that I'm so grateful.
Picking up my phone I walk over to the couch, sit down and dial her number.
"Hello."
"Hey Rose, how are you this morning?"
"Hey Bella, I'm good. How are you? How'd you sleep last night?"
People are always asking me that. "I'm okay. It's some better, but it's not ever going to be the same, ya know?"
"Bella, no one expects you to be perfect after just over a week, but I think you're doing so well sweetie. You're hanging in there."
"Yeah, well, I miss him Rose." I'm getting choked up and starting to cry.
Rose sighs. "Awww… Sweetie, I know you do and that's perfectly normal. Just take it one day at a time. If that gets to be too much then just take it one minute at a time. The important thing to remember is to just- take care of you."
I grab a tissue and wipe the tears out of my eyes. "I'm trying."
"I know. Listen, the best advice I can give is just - breathe."
I take a big breath in through my nose and exhale out slowly through my mouth.
Rose has been such a good friend to me.
"Better?" She questions and I can tell she's genuinely concerned.
I nod. "Better, thanks."
"You're welcome sweetie."
"Oh, Rose before I forget. Do you happen to know of any Ob/Gyn's you can recommend?"
"Ahh, my friend was talking about someone being pregnant and mentioned a doctor. I can check with them and get you the information."
"That would be great Rose."
"No problem. So what do you have planned for today?" I love how we can talk about anything and nothing.
"Well, I was going to look into doing some volunteering. I thought I might either contact the hospital or possibly the fire station, maybe the rescue squad?" I grab a throw pillow a hug it to me.
"Wow - are you sure you could handle being at the hospital?"
"I want to do this- I never thought-"
"Bella, I'm not telling you not to do it. I'm just saying it might be too much for you right now."
Throwing the pillow back onto the couch so I can rub the back of my neck. "Yeah, you're probably right."
A/N- I'm sorry about the delay in posting. My RL has been very busy & my health not too good. Kara & Sherry have been angels to put up with me through it all. I thank them from the bottom of my heart.
